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A Stitch in Time
by Yahtzee & Rheanna
Fandom: Angel
Summary: A story of one hundred and four years, and five months.
Rating: R
Timeline: Third season, spoilers to "Double or Nothing"
Completed: 2003/01
Length: 94,200 words
Notes: Various pairings, including Angel/Cordelia, Angelus/Darla,
Spike/Dru; co-written with Yahtzee
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Prologue
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"Museum closes in ten minutes, folks. Please make your way to the
exit."
Vern's voice, raspy with age
and a thirty-a-day habit which his doctor said was going to kill him, cut
through the silence of the main display hall of the Museum of Victoriana.
The three visitors left in the room -- a middle-aged man who had an air of
academia about him, and two elderly Japanese tourists -- looked at Vern
with, respectively, annoyance and incomprehension.
For the benefit of the
tourists, Vern pointed at the clock hanging above the "Great
Exhibition of 1851" wall display, then at the way out. After a brief
discussion in Japanese, the couple shuffled toward the door. A second
later, the professor-type followed them, shutting his notebook with a firm
snap.
"Thank you," Vern
said pleasantly. "Come again."
Once the Great Exhibition
room was empty, he switched off the lights, and continued on his last
circuit of the museum for the day. Panels on the walls directed visitors
around the various exhibitions, but Vern didn't even have to glance at them
on his way past. The displays sometimes changed, but Vern's route never
did. Main concourse, exhibition rooms, cafeteria, gift shop, lights out,
lock up.
The last stop on Vern's tour
was the small display room, used for temporary exhibitions. The current
installation was dedicated to Victorian china dolls -- row upon row of
them, with hard, white faces and glassy eyes. Vern wouldn't have admitted
it, but the doll exhibition creeped him out. At least he wasn't alone --
visitor numbers had been especially low, and the small display room was
usually empty.
Tonight, it wasn't.
"Museum closes in five
minutes, miss," Vern said.
The girl didn't answer --
just kept staring at the dolls, enraptured -- so Vern came into the room.
Up close, she almost looked like a doll herself. Her hair was uniformly
dark and glossy, as if it had been woven instead of grown, and her skin was
chalk-pale. She looked as if she belonged here, in a room filled with
mannequins.
"Miss, it's time to
leave," Vern said, more firmly.
"Time," the girl
said, drawing out the word into a sigh. Her accent was -- English, maybe?
Vern thought so, but he wasn't sure. She didn't sound like any of the
British visitors who'd come to the museum recently.
"Time," the girl
said again. She reached out and lifted the nearest doll from its stand.
Holding it up, she said, "Time is naughty. It makes everything change.
But we don't change, do we?"
"Put the doll back,
please, miss," Vern said. "It's not permitted to touch items on
display."
The girl ignored him and
instead held the doll up higher, her fingers tugging the silk bow in its
curly hair before stroking the green velvet of the miniature ball gown it
wore. "Such a pretty dress," the girl said. She looked down
wistfully at her own dress -- a crimson-red slip of chiffon that showed a
little leg and a lot of back, the sort of things girls wore for special
occasions, not for visiting museums. But this dress looked as though it had
seen a few special occasions too many: The hem was torn in several places,
and Vern could see a few dark stains. "We used to have real dresses,
not scraps and handkerchiefs," the girl continued. "Real dresses.
Beautiful dresses. And there was music and dancing and everyone said I was
beautiful."
Vern fought down a sigh.
What was it about museums that attracted crazies? "Look, we're closing
now, and you can't stay here tonight, you understand? There's a shelter on
Stanford Avenue where they'll give you a bed and a hot meal." As he
said it, Vern noticed how pitifully thin the girl was. "You look like
you could use it."
The girl leaned toward the
doll, and whispered to it, "I had a clock, but it only ran forward. I
wanted to know if the clock ran backward, would time follow it?" She
lowered her voice. "It didn't."
"No kidding," Vern
said dryly.
"I pulled out all the
springs to see what made it go. And then there wasn't any tick-tock any
more. It went all quiet." The girl turned around, looking at Vern for
the first time. Her gaze, unlike the rest of her manner, was focused and
intense, almost hypnotic, and Vern was filled with the unnerving conviction
that if he looked too long into those dark eyes, he might never be able to
look away again. "People are like clocks, you know. Tick-tock,
tick-tock, and then nothing -- unless they start up again." She
smiled. "I started up again."
"Okay, that's it,"
Vern snapped. "It's time for you to go." Reaching out, he took
the doll away from the girl and put it back on to its stand.
"Time to go," the
girl repeated, her voice a lilting sing-song. "Time to go. It's time
to go, but I haven't found what I came for yet."
"You've seen the
dolls," Vern said.
"Not the dollies,"
she said scornfully. "I came for something much prettier."
Vern put his hand on the
girl's arm, intending to guide her to the door. She didn't move, and when
he tried to pull her away from the display of dolls, he felt her body
stiffen, muscles tightening. Her thin arm hardened to iron in his grasp.
She was stronger than she looked.
Attempting to sound
persuasive, he said, "Whatever you came see, it'll still be here
tomorrow."
The girl smiled, and
suddenly Vern wasn't standing beside her anymore. He was on the museum
floor, pinned down by a yellow-eyed, smiling monster.
"There isn't any tomorrow," Vern heard the girl whisper, as if
from a great distance. "There's only yesterday."
That was the last thing he
heard.
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Book One:
"The Tenth of Never"
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Chapter One
"So, the beach was
really beautiful," Cordelia said. "You should have seen it. At
night, of course, unless Coppertone now makes SPF 8000."
Angel knew she was trying
very hard to make a joke. He knew he ought to smile. He wanted to smile, to
ask her about her trip, to do his best to be happy for her and Groo.
But he didn't care about the
trip, and he knew she didn't either. It was just something to talk about,
so they didn't have to talk about what they were doing, which was boxing up
Connor's things.
"They had a limbo
contest," Cordelia said, stepping sideways. She had on her oldest
jeans and a soft-green T-shirt white-flecked with bleach; a simple clip
held back the bangs of her newly short, newly blonde hair. From that angle,
her body almost hid the little pile of baby blankets she'd folded.
"Groo just couldn't see the point of the limbo. Not that there really
is a point to the limbo. But yours truly took third place."
Connor's teddy bear. Its fur
was matted together with soot and grime from the fire. Angel stared down
into its glassy, doll-like eyes. "Only third place?"
"Hey, I'm proud to say
that my knees don't bend as wide as some people's."
If he shut his eyes -- even
for a moment -- he could feel Connor in his arms. His son's living warmth,
his weight, the faint pressure of each breath. The overwhelming desire to
protect him, take care of him --
Angel felt a moment of
disorientation, then shook his head and tried to concentrate on Cordy. She
was studying his face carefully, looking, he knew, for any sign of strain.
Quickly, he cast about for another topic. "What's that you're wearing
on your arm?"
"Oh, right. This."
Cordelia looked, if it were possible, even more awkward. She held out her
slim wrist; the strip around her arm shimmered in a dozen colors.
"Behold the hologram bracelet, available from only the beach's finest
souvenir shops."
She was grimacing slightly
as she looked at it. Angel shook his head. "Let me guess. They don't
have holograms in Pylea."
"Groo thought it was
pretty," Cordy said with a sigh. "Apparently, if you've never
seen a hologram before, it looks like a beautiful, wonderful, shiny miracle
bracelet instead of, well, beach crap. I guess Groo just needs to be in
L.A. a while longer before he figures out that haute couture generally
costs more than $3.99."
"It's like I always
say," Angel said. "You can't go wrong with jewelry."
He'd given Darla and Dru
jewelry whenever he could procure it -- through murder, through theft or,
on very rare occasions, through legitimate purchase. For one moment, he
could see them as vividly as though they were in the room: a crystal tiara
glittering in Drusilla's dark locks, a choker of black pearls sheathing
Darla's swan-white neck --
-- Darla, lying on the
pavement in the rain, begging Angel to take good care of their son --
"Angel?"
He snapped his head up.
Cordelia had a pained look on her face, but right now, Angel didn't want
her pity. He turned back to his work, stuffing Connor's mobile in a box
more roughly than he meant to. "So, what else did you guys do?"
"We -- well, we
--" Angel didn't have to look up to know that Cordelia was trying to
figure out whether or not to draw him out or keep trying to distract him.
She chose the latter. "We ate out a lot -- I figured it'd be a good
way to introduce Groo to Earth food. Turns out he loves Mexican. Should
give him and Fred a lot to talk about."
Angel was hungry. He hadn't
eaten in days, not since the last time he'd drunk his son's blood. He
hadn't wanted to. "Glad Groo enjoys that." Connor's little shoes
would fit in this box too. Everything his son had owned would just about
fit in two boxes.
"And -- oh, I went and
got my hair done. What do you think?"
Angel didn't look up.
"I don't like it."
"I beg your
pardon?"
"Sorry," he said
flatly. "I don't." He glanced up finally to see that Cordelia was
staring at him, hands on hips, nostrils flaring in an unflattering manner.
He'd made her mad, and Angel dimly knew he should feel worse about that
than he did.
"Okay, we're picking
you up a copy of Tact for Dummies," Cordelia said. "You can't
just tell someone you don't like her hair!"
"You asked me,"
Angel pointed out.
"Yeah, but -- but
--" Cordelia gestured with one hand. "The question, 'do you like
my hair?' is in the same category as 'does this make me look fat?' Honesty
not required."
Cordelia's hair used to be
long and soft and dark. He'd buried his face in it once, drunk in the
scent. Angel hadn't been himself at the time, but more than a year later,
he could still remember the smell, the feel of it against his skin.
"The cut is okay," he said. "It shows off your neck --"
"So NOT the compliment
I was looking for from you."
"-- but the color's all
wrong." Angel could tell Cordelia was going from merely angry to
furious, but he still didn't care. In fact, weirdly, he felt himself
getting angry in return. No -- it wasn't anger -- something else building
up inside him, pressure tightening all around him, inside him.
"Well, excuse me for
expecting good advice from a hair-gel addict."
"You asked me what I
thought --"
"I didn't expect you to
TELL me!"
Angel slammed his fist into
the wall and yelled, "I just want everything back the way it
was!"
Cordy stared at him. He
stared at the wall. The plaster had cracked all around his hand, a
spiderweb of cement. His fist hurt, and he felt his throat closing up.
"Cordy -- oh, God, Cordy, I'm sorry."
"Jesus," Cordelia
breathed. "Angel -- are you --"
"It's like I can't
concentrate," Angel said. "I can't think about Connor, and I
can't stop thinking about Connor, and nothing makes any sense to me
anymore."
She flung her arms around
him, hugging him tightly. "I know you didn't mean it. I know you're
upset. I'm being so stupid, talking about my hair -- I just don't know what
to say."
Angel hugged her back.
"You don't have to say anything," he said. "You're
here."
"I want to say
something to make it all better, and I can't, I can't make it better
--"
"It's okay. It's okay,
you can talk about anything, I won't get mad again, I promise --"
Cordelia lifted her head and
blinked several times, hard. She forced a smile. "You know what? On
reflection, I'm not sure 'Golden Shimmer' was the right shade after
all."
Angel tried to smile in
return. "You're always beautiful to me."
"Are y'all okay?"
Fred's voice from the
doorway brought Angel back to something like clarity. He realized that
Fred, Gunn, Groo and Lorne were all staring at them -- brought up the
stairs, no doubt, by the sound of his punching the wall. Now they were all
staring at him and Cordelia.
Angel stepped away at the
same moment Cordelia did. She smiled and wiped quickly at her eyes.
"Everything's fine," she promised. "Angel and I were -- we
were talking about my hair."
Gunn nodded sympathetically.
"I figured you had to be upset about that. Don't worry, Cordy. It'll
grow out."
"Excuse me?"
Cordelia scowled.
Gunn held up his hands.
"But, hey, what do I know about hair?"
"I see you kids have
been busy," Lorne said, stepping gingerly through the debris.
"It's no longer a federal disaster area in here. I'd downgrade this to
a plain ol' mess." Lorne patted Angel's shoulder. "What say I get
some of this out of your way?"
Angel looked down at the two
boxes sitting on the dresser. Once they were gone, Connor would be, too.
"Not yet," he said quietly.
Groo put his arms around
Cordelia's waist. "Truly you have worked miracles, my princess. So
much has been done in so little time." He kissed her lightly on the
forehead, and she smiled up at him.
"Maybe that's your
demon power, Cordy," Fred suggested. "Amazing cleaning-up
ability."
"What demon would that
be from?" Cordelia asked. "The Tidy-Bowl Man?"
"Sounds like a demon
candidate to me," Gunn said. He, too, was joining in the forced cheer.
"I mean, you gotta wonder why the man's choosing to float his rowboat
in the toilet in the first place."
"I do not
understand," Groo said. "You explained what the toilets are for,
princess, but you never spoke of boats."
"Stick with the first
explanation," Cordelia said quickly.
Angel kept looking at the
cracks in the plaster. Just like a spiderweb. Drusilla had loved
spiderwebs. She pretended they were bridal veils and tried to put them in
her hair, and when they broke she cried and cried --
All at once it came
together. The glassy doll's eyes of the teddy bear. The memories of the
tiara, of the feel of dark, silky hair against his hand. The need to
protect. The need to attack.
"Drusilla," Angel
whispered.
Everyone stared at him.
Finally, Cordelia said, "Drusilla -- what?"
"She's here,"
Angel said. "In Los Angeles. Not far away."
Cordelia looked skyward.
"And I thought it could not get worse."
"Whoa, whoa,
whoa," Gunn said. "How do you know this, Angel? You got
spidey-sense or something?"
"Something like
that," Angel said, though he didn't have slightest idea what
"spidey-sense" was. "I could always tell when the vampires
in my line were close by. And Drusilla's close by now. I've been feeling it
for a while. I didn't realize it earlier because -- well, I didn't."
"Um, I think I didn't
get the memo," Fred said. "Who's Drusilla?"
"Bad-ass vampire from
Angel's own bad-ass days," Cordelia supplied. She stepped away from
Groo, already all business. "If she thinks she can waltz in here and
kick Angel while he's down, she's got another think coming. Assuming
Drusilla thinks anything at all." Fred frowned. Gunn held his hand up
to his temple and twirled his finger around in the international sign for
"crazy as a loon."
"Just peachy,"
Lorne said. "You sure about this, big guy? Not just a bad dream, some
tuna salad that was just a smidge off?"
"I'm sure," Angel
said. Now that he'd identified the sensation, he couldn't believe he hadn't
recognized it before. Drusilla was very close, within a few miles.
Groo held up one hand
uncertainly. "Of course I wish to join in the slaying of the Drusilla
beast," he said. "But what of the vampire attack Cordelia has foreseen?
I am certain we all remember the eventful vision of this morning, and the
unfortunate fate of the pancakes."
"Oh, great,"
Cordelia sighed. "We have to be at LAX in an hour and a half, Angel.
Any chance Drusilla's hanging out at the airport?"
"She's closer than
that," Angel said.
"Here's a plan,"
Lorne said, stepping to Groo's side. "How about the Boy Wonder and I
cruise down to the terminal and take care of the undead ruffians? That
frees you guys up to hunt down Drusilla."
"You are willing to go
into battle with me?" Groo said. He smiled at Lorne. "I am
surprised, for your unwrinkled clothing and well-trimmed nails do not speak
of a warrior. But I salute your courage, my groomed friend."
Lorne closed his eyes in a
pained wince. "I can go with Groo," Cordelia offered quickly.
"Oh, no, you
don't," Lorne said. "I haven't met Dru for myself, but I've
gotten a peek during Angel-cakes' musical numbers. And there is no WAY I'm
going anywhere near that chick. She makes Anna Nicole Smith look stable,
and my head will probably explode if she so much as hums."
"That settles
that," Gunn said. "Only question is, where's Drusilla?"
"Someplace she
likes," Angel said. "Someplace -- fun."
"That could be anyplace
where people can bleed," Cordelia said. "Can you narrow it
down?"
Angel took a mental tour of
the surrounding blocks, then remembered a museum he'd passed before. He'd
thought of Drusilla then.
"I think I can,"
Angel said.
***
Fred lowered herself through
the skylight, straightening her arms slowly while pressing her feet
together to avoid the shards of broken glass still clinging to the edges of
the shattered pane. It was hard work, and before she was halfway through
her arms ached with the effort. Then, just as she was sure she was about to
drop the rest of the way and land in an ungainly heap on the floor, she
felt broad shoulders rise up under her feet, bearing her weight. Strong
arms gripped her legs, anchoring her.
"I got ya,"
Charles said from below her, and Fred felt herself sinking smoothly and
gracefully toward the floor, like a ballerina descending from a high lift.
Once she was safely on the ground, she tugged her T-shirt back into place
and peered into the gloom around them, trying to make out the details of
their surroundings. The Museum of Victoriana had probably looked very
elegant 25 years ago. But the wood paneling was darker than was now
fashionable, the ceilings a little low. The wall-to-wall carpeting had worn
thin. Fred thought it looked genteel but shabby -- a place built with care
and then forgotten.
Cordelia, who was standing
next to Angel, frowned. "THIS is your idea of 'someplace fun'? Angel,
I've been in morgues with more atmosphere."
"Not my idea,"
Angel said. He sounded distracted, Fred thought, as if he were only
half-concentrating on talking to Cordy. "Drusilla's. She always liked
museums. This way."
He set off along the
hallway; first Cordelia, then Charles and Fred, followed him. As they
walked, Fred's attention was drawn by the paintings and even some
photographs of men and women in stiff poses and stiffer clothes that lined
the museum's hallways. In the gaps between the wall displays there were
cabinets filled with strange, old-fashioned objects. Fred had always been
more interested in science than history, but even so her fingers itched
with the desire to pick things up, shake them, figure out what they were
for and how they worked.
"Museums ARE fun,"
she said. "All these things are little pieces of time, preserved like
-- like the marshmallows in a gallon of rocky road." Fred broke off
and frowned to herself. "That wasn't a very good analogy."
"Worked fine for
me," Charles said, taking her hand lightly in his. "Hey, my
uncanny sixth sense is tellin' me you might want to go grab a midnight
sundae after this. Am I right?" In reply, Fred squeezed his hand and
smiled at him.
"The summer we went to
France, I visited the Louvre in Paris," Cordelia said. "It was
okay, I guess, although after a while you start wondering how many marble
statues a country actually NEEDS. And the Mona Lisa looked like she was
about to say -- ohmigod!"
Somehow, Fred sensed that
quote wasn't from the Mona Lisa. Charles tightened his hand around hers,
and together they hurried to catch up with Cordelia, who was standing in
the doorway of the next exhibition room.
The room was filled with
dolls from floor to ceiling. A hundred or more glittering eyes gazed down
at Fred unblinkingly. The dolls' painted faces were individually benign --
but there was something unnerving about the sight of ranks of
undifferentiated perfection.
"Creepy," Fred
said.
"Creepier,"
Cordelia amended. She pointed at the floor.
The body lying in the middle
of the room belonged to a man in his late fifties or early sixties,
gray-haired and jowly. Or he would have been jowly, if most of his throat
hadn't been ripped out. But Fred saw straight away that Cordelia hadn't
been talking about the gore.
The man on the floor had
been killed savagely, by something that had taken pure, visceral pleasure
in the act of violence. But, after the kill, the same something had rolled
the body on to its back and tucked a cushion under the corpse's head and a
teddy bear into the crook of its arm.
"Drusilla wants to care
for things," Angel said. "But she doesn't know how."
Charles slipped his hand
free from Fred's and flicked his wrist. When she looked down, she saw he
was holding a stake. "If she's crazy, that plays better for us. A vamp
that doesn't think straight is a vamp that's easier to dust."
Sharply, Angel said,
"That's the biggest mistake you can make about Drusilla. She's insane,
but she's smart. She thinks differently -- but she does think. That's how
she's survived this long. That's why she's so dangerous." Suddenly,
his stance changed, becoming harder, tenser, and his face darkened.
"Isn't that right, Dru?"
As he spoke, Angel stepped
to one side and turned around, revealing the figure who had been standing
behind him, in the doorway of the doll room.
In the last year, Fred had
slowly grown used to the idea that vampires looked like the people they had
been when they'd died -- normal people, fat or thin or ugly or handsome,
superficially no different than anyone you might see on the subway, except
a whole lot more dangerous. Well, maybe a little paler, too. But the girl
who was gliding toward Angel carried about her an aura of the supernatural
so strong it seemed to make the air around her hum. Her skin glowed
moon-white, and her black hair rippled over her shoulders like a veil of
mourning. Her lips and cheeks were flushed, and her eyes glowed feverishly.
The body sheathed in its grubby red dress was skeletal even by L.A.
standards. There could be no mistaking this vampire for a normal person.
"My thoughts are wasps," Drusilla said. "They sting my brain
all over. Pzzzt!"
As she spoke, she lifted her
hand and waved her finger through the air, mimicking the helter-skelter
flight of an insect. Her gaze followed her fingertip as it spiraled and
danced in front of her; the sight seemed to entrance her, as if she had no
idea what direction her hand was going to take next. Maybe, Fred thought,
she really didn't.
Drusilla's finger darted
toward her bare arm, like an insect diving to attack. Her nails,
talon-sharp, left a red score on the delicate skin.
"That's enough,
Dru," Angel said.
Drusilla's hand continued to
arc and dip in the air. As Fred looked on, she realized that there was a
rhythm to the apparently random motion, a pattern that was strangely
soothing, even hypnotic --
"I said that's
ENOUGH."
Fred blinked. Angel's hand
was wrapped around Drusilla's thin wrist, encircling it easily, preventing
her from moving. He was gripping her tightly -- so tightly that Drusilla
gasped. Then she gave a soft moan which was equal parts pain and pleasure.
She looked up at Angel and smiled. "Hurt me again."
Angel stared at her, then at
his fingers digging into her arm. Slowly he released his grip. "No. I
know what you want from me. But I'm not going to give you what you want
anymore."
Drusilla cradled her wrist
to her chest. She looked up at Angel with huge, sorrowful eyes. "Why
did you go away? That was when all the bad things started. You all went
away, one by one, and now I'm the only one left. I'm all alone."
Cordelia glanced at the body
on the floor. "Keeping friends is easier if you don't brutally murder
everyone you meet. I'm just throwing out an idea, here."
"Spike's gone away.
They put metal in his mind, and now he can't drink. It poisons him from the
inside out." Slowly, Drusilla's voice was taking on a dreamy quality;
she sounded as if she were telling a story she had rehearsed many times to
herself. "She was next. I wasn't there, but I felt her crumble, with
remorse in her heart and little hands and feet in her belly."
A tear rolled down
Drusilla's cheek; her gaze had turned inward, and she didn't appear to be
aware of anyone else in the room. Softly, Angel took a step back, then
another. He motioned to Charles, who silently threw him the stake.
The movement caught
Drusilla's attention. She lifted her arms toward Angel in a gesture of
entreaty. "Daddy," she said.
Angel froze. In a low voice
that sounded as if it might crack, he said, "Never call me that
again."
Then he struck.
Angel moved fast, the motion
a blur in the dimness, but Drusilla was faster; she seemed to know what he
was going to do before he did it. Fred heard his stake clatter to the
ground and saw a slash of red chiffon and black hair dart through the door
of the doll room.
Led by Angel, they ran after her, but the hallway outside the doll room
stretched emptily in both directions, and there was no sign of Drusilla.
"She's going to get
away," Fred said.
"Not this time,"
Angel said. He sounded as determined as Fred had ever heard him.
"She's caused too much suffering. I've let her go too many times
already. It's time to end this."
"I'll second
that," Cordelia added. "Did you see the stains on her dress? I'm
adding 'crimes against couture' to the list of reasons why Dru's gotta be
dusted."
While she'd been talking,
Angel had been looking intently up and down the corridor. Now he pointed to
an exhibition room just a few yards away. The doors to the room were
quivering on their hinges, not much, but enough to indicate that someone
had recently passed through them. "She went in there."
Fred read the sign above the
door out loud. "'The Old Curiosity Shop: Victorian Inventions and
Curios.' Well, that sounds interesting."
"More importantly, it
sounds non-lethal," Cordelia said. "Unlucky for us if Dru holed
up in the Antique Weapons Gallery."
Charles was studying a
museum floor plan on the wall. He tapped it to draw their attention.
"There's no other way out of this room. She's trapped."
Angel nodded. "Then
let's finish this." He pushed the door open, and they looked into the
room.
"Jeez," Cordelia
said. "It's the garage sale that time forgot."
Fred saw what she meant. The
room they entered was more like an attic that hadn't been cleared out in
years, instead of an organized museum exhibition. Some of the objects in
cases and on stands around her were old-fashioned but recognizable -- Fred
saw a sewing machine and a telephone in the 'Household' section -- but
others were entirely mysterious. A printed label on a black box which
spewed copper wires identified the device as an early X-ray machine, but
what was the equally strange contraption resting on a tripod next to it?
A high pitched, reedy giggle
broke the silence. "Cold!" Drusilla's voice sang out. "Cold,
colder, coldest."
Gunn started. "What the
hell?"
"It's a game," Angel
said in a low voice. "Hide and seek." He took several careful
steps forward.
More laughter.
"Coldest, cooler, warm."
Cordelia shook her head in
disbelief. "She's giving us HINTS so we can find her and stake her?
Whatever."
Fred tipped her head, trying
to place the source of the laughter. "She's over there."
Directed by Drusilla's
voice, they ventured further into the exhibition hall. It seemed to Fred
that the further they went, the more arcane and fantastical the objects on
display became, until it was impossible to tell what any of them might have
been intended to be. Fred was unwillingly reminded of how she had felt as a
child waking up from a bad dream to find her bedroom suddenly a strange and
unfriendly place, filled with distorted, wavering shapes. In Pylea, she had
crouched in her cave, overwhelmed by the same sense of dislocation, but on
a massive scale. The memory still made her shake.
Ahead of them, Drusilla's
voice was growing louder. "Hot. Hotter. Flames licking all around, hot
coals!"
But she'd been alone in her
cave, Fred reminded herself. Now, she could reach out and take Charles'
hand. And that made all the difference.
"Burning,"
Drusilla whispered.
She was crouching inside one
of the exhibits, sitting cross-legged in the base of a pyramid which seemed
to be made of some kind of black stone. The pyramid was so large it had
been placed on a plinth by itself, apart from the other exhibits; it had a
square base and four sides that tapered to a sharp point some ten feet
above. The near side was hinged, to make a door. Fred had never seen
anything like it before.
"The game's over, Dru," Angel said. "You know how this is
going to end."
"I know how it
began," Drusilla said. "Such a long time ago, like a bedtime
story. You used to tell me wonderful stories, with screaming in them. The
ending stays the same, but the beginning can change. I'm going to tell the
story the way it should have been."
And she quickly pulled the
door at the front of the pyramid closed, sealing herself inside.
No one spoke for several
seconds. Finally, Cordelia said, "Is it just me, or did Dru just do a
really, really stupid thing?"
"She ran into a dead
end, told us how to find her, then went and locked herself up right in
front of us," Fred said. "Tactically, not the smartest
moves."
Charles looked at Angel.
"What was it you said? Oh, yeah -- 'She's insane, but she's smart.'
Man, I think you should've just quit at 'insane'." Angel didn't
respond; he just kept staring intently at the pyramid.
Cordy was eyeing the black
pyramid as well. "How heavy do you think that thing is? I mean, could
we load it on Gunn's truck, take it outside and open it up after sunrise?
Because I'm thinking simple, risk-free Dru-disposal."
Tentatively, Fred stepped up
on to the plinth, and rapped the outside of the pyramid with her knuckles.
It was smooth and cool to the touch, and felt solid -- could it be marble?
Given the pyramid's height, even if the sides were only six inches thick,
that would still imply a mass of at least -- Fred did some quick mental
calculations and frowned. "This is way too heavy for us to move."
Without warning, the door of
the pyramid started to swing open again. Fred heard Charles shout, and she
stumbled back, trying desperately to get out of Drusilla's reach --
-- But Drusilla was gone.
The space inside the pyramid was empty.
"Damn, that thing's got
a back door," Charles said. "She musta got out."
Fred peered inside the
pyramid and, when she was completely certain it was empty, went inside. The
interior was surprisingly roomy -- there was enough space for at least a
few people -- but there was nowhere to hide. The floor was solid, and
although the walls were covered in all sorts of intriguing dials and levers
and golden rings, there was no other door. "I don't think she could
have."
"She's not here,"
Angel said. "Not even close. She's -- gone."
"Pardon me for asking
the obvious question," Cordelia said, "but what the hell is that
thing, and what's it doing in a museum filled with nineteenth century
English stuff?"
Fred started to read the
notes for exhibition visitors, displayed on a board attached to the side of
the plinth. "According to this, it belonged to the fifth Earl of
Ashford. He was an eccentric millionaire."
"Eccentric?"
Charles said, raising one eyebrow.
"As in, died in
Bedlam," Fred said. "He was an amateur Egyptologist --"
"A lot of Victorians
were," Angel said.
"And he built this as a
-- as a --"
Fred's eyes went wide. The
silence stretched out, and she knew the others were impatiently waiting for
her to speak again, but no words would come.
"Fred, you wanna help
us out here?" Cordelia prompted.
She still couldn't come up
with anything to say, so Fred just read the plaque's words aloud. "The
Earl of Ashford's many delusions included his belief that the ancient
Egyptian religion held the keys toward practicing various forms of magic.
Experts disagree on the interpretation of this device, though most believe
it to be a private sanctum of worship. But theories are as diverse as
experts -- some think it was a mausoleum, others a sculpture, and one
writer even posited that it was intended as a --" Fred took a deep
breath. "As a time machine."
There was a short pause.
Then Cordelia said, "I don't guess there's any hope for the
'sculpture' option?"
"This is not a time
machine," Charles said. "Ain't no such thing."
In a quiet voice, Fred said,
"Then where'd Drusilla go?"
For a long time, no one
spoke. Fred was aware that her stomach was churning, her mind humming with
surprise and fear, and she wondered if the others felt the same way.
Finally, Angel said, "I've been around a long time, but every time I
think I've seen it all, something new comes along. A time machine -- is
that possible, Fred?"
"There's no technology
-- not even an approximation of the technology -- for that," Fred
said. "But there's a whole heap of different ideas. Some people don't
think you can travel in time, even in theory. Some think you could go back,
but not forward. But, as a general principle, do most physicists think it's
possible? Yes."
The other three were staring
at her. No, Fred realized, not at her -- past her, at the black pyramid,
looming silent and empty behind her.
"This is NOT a time
machine," Charles repeated, shaking his head.
"I know it sounds
farfetched," Angel said. "But Drusilla used that device to do
something -- to go somewhere. We have to --"
"No, no, NO,"
Charles said. He started pacing. "No time machines! Absolutely not. I
mean, okay, vampires are real. Found that out a few years ago. Freaked out,
dealt with it. Then I found out that zombies are real. Werewolves are real.
Witches are real. Freaky telekinetic chicks with personal problems are
real. But not time machines! Okay, maybe every single other weird-ass thing
out of a horror movie is real, but not this!"
"Charles?" Fred
wasn't used to seeing him out of control, and it unnerved her more than it
should have done. She looked around at the others to see if they were as
worried as she was. They didn't seem to be.
Charles looked at them all
in a mixture of frustration and misery. "I just want one damn thing
not to be real," he said. "Just one fake thing. That's all I
ask."
"I hear the Easter
Bunny is a crock," Cordelia offered. She patted his shoulder and
smiled ruefully. "I know how you feel. I've been there myself. You
just have to face it -- that moment when you realize, no matter how high
your weirdness threshold gets, it's never gonna be high enough."
Fred went to Charles and
squeezed his arm. "This is weird, I know. But we have to focus. I
think we might be in a lot of trouble."
That seemed to work, and
Fred was relieved. Charles breathed out. "A time machine. That's --
crazy. I mean, you'd have to be crazy to even --" He broke off, his
face changing. "You'd have to be crazy."
"Suppose that thing is
a time machine," Angel said, "and suppose Drusilla just used it
to go somewhere, then -- hypothetically -- what kind of damage could she
do?"
Cordelia said, "Just
before she closed the door, she was ranting about changing the
beginning."
Fred felt her heart flutter
as her mind started to work out the implications. "She could go back
to the beginning of human history and kill the first homo sapiens. Or create
so many vampires that human civilization never develops past the stone age.
She could --"
Cordelia held up a hand,
cutting Fred off. "Okay, so she could do very bad things, up to and
including wiping out civilization as we know it." She frowned, then brightened.
"Wait a second. Dru can't have changed the past -- if she had, we
wouldn't be standing here having this conversation. Right?"
She looked so hopeful that
Fred hated to let her down. "It's called the ripple effect. Reality is
a little like the surface of a pond. Drop a stone in it, and the waves move
out from the point of impact. So if the past has changed, we probably
haven't got that long before the effects work their way to 2002."
"We have to figure out
where Dru went -- when she went," Angel corrected himself. "Then
we have to follow her."
Charles grimaced. "Man,
I KNEW you were gonna say that."
"Fred --" Angel
said.
Fred nodded and hopped on to
her feet to enter the pyramid again. "There's some kind of writing in
here, around all the dials and such. It looks a little like Egyptian
hieroglyphics."
Angel, Cordy and Charles
crowded into the space inside the pyramid. Four bodies was a crush, but
there was just enough room for them all. "Can you read it?" Angel
asked.
"Math is my thing, not
languages. I mean, I've picked up bits and pieces from W--" Fred
stopped herself from saying the name just in time. It didn't make any
difference -- from the uncomfortable looks on Charles and Cordy's faces,
she knew they were thinking the same thing she was. But, as useful as
Wesley's presence would have been right now, Fred doubted he was ever going
to get the opportunity to do any translating anywhere near Angel, ever
again. "I've picked up a little, but not enough. I can't read
this."
"Lemme see,"
Cordelia said. As she jockeyed for a better position, she nudged against
Fred. Fred put her hand against the wall of the pyramid to steady herself,
and felt something give under her fingers. The pyramid door swung smoothly
shut, and they were suddenly confined in darkness.
"Cozy," Gunn's
voice said. She heard him fumbling in his pocket, and then he pulled out
his lighter and flicked it. "Now we can see exactly how much trouble
we're in."
"This had better be a
time machine," Cordelia said, "because I do NOT want to have to
explain how we got trapped in here to the museum staff when they open up
tomorrow."
"What are all these
rings for?" Charles said. The highest level of the pyramid was covered
in small, carved hooks; from each hung a small golden ring. No, Fred
realized -- from all but one. One of the rings had been taken. Acting on
instinct, she reached up and took one herself.
"I don't think that's a
good idea," Charles said.
The ring shone dully in
Fred's hand. "Why not?"
"Didn't you ever see an
Indiana Jones movie? This thing could be booby trapped."
"Decapitated by a
museum exhibit," Cordelia said. "Yeah, that's gonna look really
dignified on my death certificate."
"Something's
happening," Angel said.
He was right, Fred realized.
On each of the four walls of the pyramid, individual hieroglyphs were
starting to glow softly. She counted seven -- no, eight -- in all, each one
exuding a soft lambency. Each was under one of the dials; Fred didn't
understand the settings, but she knew not to change them. She touched the nearest
glowing symbol. Immediately, it went out. "I think you're meant to use
the rings to activate the machine. Like -- like the key of a car. You use
the dials to set it, to determine where you're going, maybe like the
steering wheel. And the symbols record -- something."
"What kind of
something?" Charles asked.
"I'm not sure. The most
recently used settings, maybe?" She frowned. "I can't think of
anything like that on a car."
"You mean, these could
be the settings Drusilla used," Angel said.
Fred shook her head.
"I'm not sure."
"Only one way to find
out," Cordelia said determinedly. She reached up and placed her
fingertips on two more of the glowing hieroglyphs. Both instantly went out,
making the pyramid's interior noticeably darker.
Charles pressed the two lit
shapes closest to him, and Angel took two more. Now only one symbol still
glowed.
"If we press this, and
nothing happens, we are gonna feel so dumb," Cordelia said.
Fred's hand hovered over the
last glowing hieroglyph.
"Do it," Angel
said.
Fred touched the symbol. It
went out. For a moment, she was kneeling in perfect darkness, the musty
smell of the museum in her nostrils and the feel of three bodies -- two
warm and one cool -- close by.
Then the floor vanished.
Fred screamed. She thought
they all screamed, but she could only hear her own terrified cries. She
felt herself tumbling and falling through a vast and empty void, and in her
terror, her only clear thought was that this time there wouldn't be anyone
there to catch her at the other end.
*********************
Chapter 2
*********************
Cordelia started screaming the moment the floor fell out from beneath her
and didn't stop until it reappeared, just in time for her to belly-flop
onto the ground.
"Nyungh," she
said, which was about all she could say, or think, after having her breath
knocked out of her. She could taste dust in her mouth and hear Gunn and
Fred gasping beside her in the dark.
Angel, who'd had the breath
knocked out of him in a permanent sense a long time ago, said, "Thank
God."
"For what?"
Cordelia croaked, turning over on her back. Then her eyes opened wide.
"I hope you don't mean for that."
Above them, waves of
red-gold light shimmered, fluctuated, bent and shone anew. Cordelia thought
it looked like the surface of a pool -- if the pool happened to be on fire.
"If you're thanking the
big guy upstairs for stoppin' us falling any further, I'm on board with
that," Gunn said. "Next time, we gotta learn the difference
between a time machine and a trapdoor, okay?"
Angel turned his face toward
Cordelia; she couldn't see him well in the dim, shifting light, but she
could tell he was concerned. "Are you hurt?"
Cordelia wiggled her toes
and fingers, then sat upright. Her body groaned in protest, but she felt no
fresh pain. "Not hurt as in injured, no. But hurt as in, I'm gonna be
sore for days -- that's another story " She peered anxiously into the
dark. "Drusilla -- she's not --"
"She's headed away from
us," Angel said. "It's safe for now."
"What the hell is that
stuff?" Gunn said, looking upward.
Angel said, "I think
it's the way back to where we came from. It might have closed up when we
passed through, and I'm not sure we could have opened it up again. But it's
still open."
"Ergo the thanking God,"
Cordelia said. She blinked and tried to make out their surroundings; the
shimmering light from the portal above them cast strange shadows on her
friends' faces, and the bracelet Groo had given her scattered rainbow
reflections on to the cave walls as she moved, like a mirror ball spinning
too fast. "Where are we, anyway?"
Fred's voice echoed slightly
as she said, "We're in a cave." She pushed herself up on her
elbows, and Cordelia saw that her body and face were tense and drawn.
"Smells like a cave. Sounds like a cave. I know caves. This is
one."
"Hey, there," Gunn
said gently. He rubbed Fred's shoulder. "You ain't alone in this cave,
okay? You got your friends, and you got your way out. You're all
right."
"I'm all right,"
Fred repeated, as if by rote. Then she squeezed her eyes shut, opened them
again and took a deep breath. "I'm all right," she said once
more, and this time it seemed as though she meant it.
"I guess the 'where' is
not so much the point," Cordelia said. "The 'when' is really what
we want to figure out."
"I still don't think
that was a time machine," Gunn said.
Cordelia pointed upward
toward the gleaming pool directly over their heads. "Does that look
like a trapdoor to you?"
"No," Gunn
admitted. "But it doesn't look like a time machine, neither."
"How many times have
you been through a time machine?" Cordelia demanded.
Gunn folded his arms across
his chest. "How many times have you been through a trapdoor?"
"There's only one way
to settle this," Angel said as he got to his feet. He offered her a
hand, and she let him help her stand. The sudden move made the blood rush
to her head, and she clasped Angel's arms tight for a moment, hanging on
for support. "Cordy?" he said quietly.
"I'm good," she
said. "Just still with the freaky from our death-defying plunge back
there."
"Fred, do you still
have that ring?" Angel said.
Fred held up the gold
circle, still clutched in her hand, as she got to her feet. Gunn dusted her
off before turning to himself. "Sure thing. I'm still not certain
about its exact function --" She peered at the cave's roof and held
the ring up experimentally. Red-gold sparks crackled on the portal's
surface, and Fred pulled the ring back in a hurry. "But I think it's
our ticket back."
"Very glad that ticket
was round-trip," Cordelia said. "So, which way is the exit?"
Fred sniffled, and Cordelia
wondered for a moment if she'd started crying. But then Fred pointed to her
right. "The fresher air is coming from that direction."
"Let's hurry,"
Angel said. "It's going to be sunrise before too long, and then I'm
not going to be able to go out with you."
As they moved away from the
portal's unearthly light, the cave became steadily darker, until Cordelia
was forced to feel her way by running her hand along the rough wall. Then,
to her relief, the way ahead started to brighten.
"I got a
question," Gunn said to Angel. "How come, if we're on the inside
of a mountain, you know the sun's about to rise?"
"I don't know how,
exactly," Angel said. "I just know."
Score one for weird undead
sixth sense, Cordelia thought as they emerged from the mouth of the cave --
Angel was right. The sun wasn't up yet, but the horizon was distinctly
lighter in what was apparently the east. Cordelia looked around in the gray
pre-dawn murk, and saw what looked like a totally normal forest -- big
trees, ferns, moss. Turning to Gunn, she said, "Unless the museum is
doing some radical redevelopment to its basement, I think your trapdoor
theory is blown."
"Yeah, I'm getting
that," Gunn said. "But this looks just like the present to me. I
mean, the present in some woods somewhere, but the present."
"Forests haven't
changed much in the last hundred centuries," Angel pointed out.
"We're going to have to find something we can use to date this
place."
Cordelia said, "If we
see a whole bunch of people who look like John Malkovich, I'm gonna panic.
Just warning you now."
Fred began making her way
down the slope that led away from the cave, her feet making rustling sounds
through the leaves. She called back, "I think there's a road down
here! Or a path, or a trail."
Gunn bounded down after her,
and Cordelia grabbed Angel's hand for balance as they followed. He was
looking eastward, more than a little worried, not that she could blame him.
"How long have we got before you've got to get to shelter?" she
said.
"Not long," he
said, wincing slightly. "More than five minutes. Less than ten."
Gunn shook his head.
"How are we gonna catch up with Dru if you're stuck in a cave?"
"If I can't move, Dru
can't move," Angel said. "We're far away from any subways or
sewer systems. That means she's going to have to find shelter in a minute
herself."
Cordelia sighed, relieved.
"Okay, that's good news, right? You vampy types can't move during the
day, but we can. So that gives us time to investigate, figure out what's
the what, while you two are getting your beauty sleep." Looking at
Angel's drawn, tired face, Cordelia wondered if he'd slept since Connor was
taken. Probably not, she thought. "Angel, you should go on back. It'll
probably take us a while to get anywhere, since I don't see any signs, or
cars, or --"
"Found something,"
Fred called.
She was kneeling on the edge
of the dirt road, examining what appeared to be a stone. As the others went
to her side, Cordelia saw, etched in the stone -- SIGHISOARA 3.
"Ziggy Sahara,"
Gunn said. "Don't guess you have any idea where that might be?"
"Romania," Angel
said. "It's in Romania."
He spoke quietly, but
Cordelia felt her whole body tense up as though he'd screamed. Romania. She
whispered, "Angel -- we still don't know when we are --"
"It's 1898," he
replied. His hands were clenching by his sides, his face set. "That's
the only reason she'd come back here. Drusilla hated Romania. She'd only
come back for one thing."
1898. Cordelia's mind was
whirling. Just over 100 years ago. That meant --
"We'll stop her,"
Cordelia said quickly, taking Angel's hand in her own. "Angel, it's
going to be okay. Dru's not going to do this."
"Do what?" Gunn
said, staring at Angel and Cordelia in turn. "What the hell happened
in Romania in 1898?"
Angel said quietly,
"That's when I killed a gypsy girl. For revenge, the gypsies cursed me
to have a soul. And that's what Drusilla's come back in time to stop. She's
going to stop me from getting a soul."
For a few moments, they were
all silent together. Fred's hand covered her mouth, and Gunn brushed his
fingertips against her shoulder. At last, Gunn said, "I'm gonna go for
understatement here and say that would be bad."
"We have to find
Drusilla," Cordelia said. She looked over her shoulder at the horizon,
which was getting even more pink. "Angel, you've got to get back in
the cave. Angel?"
Angel looked zoned, she
thought. No -- worse than that. Even more tired than he'd seemed just a few
moments ago. She would have thought he'd be worried or angry or plain old
pissed-off at Drusilla's plan. Instead, he was just quieter and, somehow,
even more sad. Cordelia felt as though she should do something, but couldn't
think what. So she simply took his hand in hers. The distant look on his
face didn't change, but he came back to reality enough to say, "Can
you guys check out the area for a while? Don't confront Drusilla if you
find her. Just come back and let us know."
"Yeah, sure," Gunn
said. Fred nodded. As the two of them headed down the road, Angel turned
and walked back toward the cave. Cordelia had to either follow him or let
go of his hand.
She followed him back
inside.
***
"Crazy vamp chick
didn't have more than a twenty minute head start, and then it got light. So
she's gotta be hiding somewhere near the caves. And since there aren't many
places to hide -- where is she?" Charles rubbed his ankle. "We
musta walked at least five miles already."
Fred looked at the sky and
did a mental calculation based on the height of the sun and what she
estimated their average walking speed had been since leaving Angel and
Cordy at the caves. "Actually, it's more like one or two. You never
complain about having to walk back home."
"Because back home, I
never have to walk. If God had meant us to wear out shoe leather, he
wouldn't have given us trucks." Charles waved a hand around himself,
indicating the vast, monotonous expanse of forest. "At least in L.A.
there's plenty to look at -- store windows, billboards, the occasional
minor celebrity bein' done for possession. Even the trees ain't changed in
the last four hours. And how do we know we're not just goin' around in one
great big loop?"
"Because we've been
walking in a straight line, toward the sun. We're heading due east, so we
can't get lost. And the trees are different -- these have thinner,
lighter-colored bank, and they have wider leaves than the trees back at the
cave." As she looked more closely at the trees, Fred saw something she
hadn't noticed before. "And I think there's a village or camp or
something nearby."
"How'd you figure
that?"
"Those trees don't have
any branches low down," Fred said. "They've been taken for
firewood. There must be people someplace close."
"Listen to you with the
tree forensics." Charles grinned. "You're a regular Girl
Scout."
"I was never a Girl
Scout," Fred said. They started walking again, picking their way over
the uneven road, Fred with considerably more dexterity than Charles.
"I didn't know what trees with branches missing meant until I was in
Pylea. I went too close to a town, and they nearly caught me -- I was lucky
to get away, and afterward all I could think was how stupid I'd been not to
figure out what the missing branches meant --"
Fred broke off, remembering
those first, terrible months in Pylea, when she'd realized just how poorly
equipped for survival her comfortable upbringing and college education had
left her. She'd had no idea how to hunt for food; the forest trees had been
heavy with fruits, but the first time she dared to try the red berries
she'd seen the birds eat, she'd spent the next three days doubled over in
agony. And even the berries had disappeared during the first winter, when
she'd cowered, shivering in her cave because she had no way of making a
fire --
That thought triggered
another memory, an unexpected one -- the sense of triumph she had felt the
first time her attempts to use the lens of her glasses to focus the sun's
rays on to dry leaves had produced crawling red sparks and then the
glorious warmth of rising flames. Not long after, the hook and line she'd
improvised had caught a fish in the stream near the cave, and Fred had
enjoyed her first hot meal in over a year.
Walking with Charles through
the Romanian forest, sure-footed and confident she could find her way, Fred
found for the first time she could think about Pylea without having to
suppress a shudder of panic.
"Hey." Charles's
voice broke in on her thoughts. She felt his hand on her shoulder,
comforting. "It's okay. I know this has gotta be a lot like gettin'
sucked into Pylea. I know you're doing some hard dealin'. But you're not
all alone this time. We're here. I'm here."
Charles was so protective
and sweet; that was one of the main reasons she'd fallen for him. But she
didn't feel frightened now -- she felt strong. Fred opened her mouth to
tell him so, but before she could speak, she heard the clatter of wooden
wheels on the bumpy ground, accompanied by a rough voice and the clip of
hooves. "Someone's coming."
"Must be rush
hour," Charles said.
The cart that appeared
around the next bend in the track was a ramshackle contraption pulled by a
weary-looking horse and driven by an old man whose eyes were tiny slits
buried beneath his white-tufted, wrinkled brow. The frown that appeared on
his face when he saw Fred and Charles deepened to a scowl when Fred stepped
out into his path.
"Good morning,"
she said politely. "We're not from around here and we were wondering
if you could -- well, first, if you could speak English, and if you can
--"
The man reached into the
cart behind him and produced a large stick, which he brandished
threateningly.
"Now, there's no need
to --" Fred began.
The man brought the stick
down, hard, on the horse's flank. The animal whinnied and broke into a
trot. Just as the cart was bearing down on her, Charles pulled Fred out of
its way.
Fred ran after the cart --
on the rutted track, she could easily match its speed. She reached out, and
her fingers grasped the waxed cloth that covered the cart's load.
"Wait! We only want to ask a couple of questions --"
She heard another crack of
the old man's stick, and the cart accelerated away from her. Fred gave up
the chase and stood in the middle of the track, catching her breath.
Charles caught up with her.
"Good roads, and the locals are SO friendly. I'm writing to the L.A.
Times travel section about this place when we get home."
"I guess we don't
exactly look like we're from around here."
"You mean I
don't."
At that, Fred looked up.
"Charles, we must have BOTH looked weird to him."
"Sure," Charles
said, an edge of sarcasm in his voice. "It musta been that blue
T-shirt you're wearin' that scared him off and not, say, the fact he's
never seen a black guy before."
"Actually, the fact
that I'm wearing pants instead of a skirt probably makes me look like a
prostitute or something." She frowned. "Maybe I should be glad he
didn't stop."
Charles said, "You
would think this girl would not be that hard to find. A red dress oughta
stand out like a signal flare."
"She's got to be hidden
from the sunlight, Charles," Fred pointed out. "So she could be
under a log. Or in another cave. Or buried under leaves. Or --"
"I get the picture.
Unfortunately, that picture includes us not finding her before dark."
Charles exhaled heavily. "Okay, nothing for it but to head back and
tell Angel and Cordy --" He broke off. "Man, maybe I'm just
hallucinating 'cause I didn't get any breakfast, but I can smell something
cooking, and it's GOOD."
Fred sniffed the air -- he
was right. The faint aroma of something frying was drifting toward them
from the woods on the other side of the track. "The village must be
that way. Maybe the people there will be friendlier."
Charles nodded. Together,
they crossed the track and followed, first the smell of cooking food, and
then the sound of voices laughing and talking, until they came to a low
hill. Fred started to pick up her pace, but Charles held her back.
"This time," he
said, "let's hold off on the introductions, okay?"
Fred looked at the trees
around them. One, an ancient oak, was taller than the rest, with strong
branches and an abundance of leaves. "I've got an idea," she
said. "Help me up."
Charles needed no further
explanation. He laced his fingers together, making a platform to boost Fred
up to the level of the tree's lowest branches. Once they were within her
reach, it was easy to pull herself the rest of the way. She wriggled upward
into the tree, climbing until she had found a solid perch high above the
ground.
She shuffled into a secure
position on a lofty branch, then pushed the leaves aside to survey the
forest from her new vantage point.
"See anything?"
Charles called from below.
Fred was looking down on a
village -- although not of the kind she had expected. Instead of buildings,
there were brightly painted wagons; instead of public buildings, there were
large tents, big enough to hold twenty people or more. The camp was
bustling with activity, and everywhere Fred looked, she saw people busily
at work mending, unpacking, and building. A woman was cooking on a griddle
over an open fire, keeping a watchful eye over the children playing next to
her at the same time, while near them a man used a knife to extract a stone
from the hoof of one of the horses tethered at the campsite's edge.
Fred described everything
she saw to Gunn, feeling all the while an odd mix of fascination and slight
but insistent guilt at the knowledge that she was spying on these people's
daily lives. But there was something compelling about observing, unseen,
and it was all the stranger when she remembered that what she was seeing
was more than a hundred years old, a slice of history brought to life.
"They look
friendly," she decided. "I'm gonna come down and --"
She was about to descend, when
the thundering noise of a galloping horse stopped her. Gunn had heard it,
too. "What's happening?"
"I'm not sure --"
Fred watched, and saw a man on horseback ride into the camp, so recklessly
that piles of carefully stacked pots and pans were overturned. Fred could
hear more than one person raise their voices to complain -- she was too far
away to make out the words, but the tone was clear -- but the new arrival
didn't seem to hear them. Instead he dismounted and went straight to a tall
man who was standing by the largest wagon.
The horse rider said
something to the tall man, then embraced him. The tall man nodded and held
out a hand to the woman who had been cooking. She didn't take his hand, but
instead collapsed, very slowly, like a puppet whose strings were being cut,
one by one. As she started crying, a group of the other women swiftly
gathered around and led her into the largest wagon. Fred knew she was
watching a tragedy unfold before her.
A hundred years ago, she
thought: This all happened a hundred years ago. But she could hear the
noise of the woman wailing as she climbed down the tree, the sound of
fresh, raw grief piercing the clear, calm morning.
"What happened?"
Charles asked.
"They're gypsies,"
Fred said. "I think they might be THE gypsies. Charles, everything
that happened -- I think it just started."
***
"I just want you to try
to sleep," Cordelia said again.
Try to sleep, Angel thought.
Sleep seemed like some strange, foreign concept -- something he used to do
a long time ago, like riding in carriages and powdering his hair. Something
that belonged in the museum back in Los Angeles. The last time Angel had
slept, his son had been in a crib in the next room with his soft, regular
breathing echoing reassuringly from the baby monitor, his good friend
Wesley was taking care of things downstairs; and Angel's greatest care had
been the fact that Cordelia loved somebody else. That world seemed further
away than the Victorian era. In fact, Angel realized, right now it was --
in 1898, Queen Victoria was still alive, but his life in L.A. was more than
100 years in the future. Somehow, that idea made him even more exhausted
than he had been before.
"Angel?"
Cordelia's voice echoed a little within the cave. "Are you even
listening to me?"
"I'm listening,
Cordy," he said. "I just don't think sleep is an option right
now."
"Come on," she
said as she stepped to his side. She was smiling gently at him, trying to
tease him from his gloom. Angel recognized the look, loved it dearly, but
knew even Cordelia's ability to handle his moods had limits. "It's
bright and early in the morning. That makes it naptime for vamps,
right?"
"Drusilla's on the
loose, we're in the past and there's a chance my all-too-mortal soul is in
danger," Angel said. "That makes it not naptime. It's about as
far from naptime as it gets."
She held out her hands,
placating him. "Okay, so, sleep's off the activities list. But you
need to rest, Angel. If we're going up against Drusilla, we need you at
full strength, right? Fred and Gunn and I might be able to handle her on
our own, but I'd feel better if you weren't dozing off during the
battle."
Memory pulled at Angel
again, and his stomach dropped as the implications hit him. "It's not
just Drusilla," he said. "That month in Romania, all four of us
were together. Me and Dru and Darla and Spike. There's a chance we could
encounter any or all of them."
Even in the uncertain light
in the cave, Angel could see Cordelia's face go pale. To her credit, she
said only, "All the more reason you've got to rest. If you can't
sleep, you can at least lie down. Give your legs a break to get ready for
all that running-for-our-lives that's probably coming up."
Angel sat down heavily on
the ground; Cordelia stretched out next to him and, to his surprise,
pillowed her head on his legs. Of course, he thought. She's tired too. I
should let her get some sleep instead of worrying over me. He lay back on
the earth, and he was surprised how comfortable he felt.
Cordelia murmured,
"Outside -- when we found out where we are -- when we are -- whatever.
You looked upset."
The red-gold light on the
roof of the cave still flickered nearby. It didn't look as though their
portal would close until they went back through. "You guys didn't look
happy either. With good reason."
"That's not what I
meant, exactly," Cordelia said. "I just wondered what you were
thinking, is all. And by now, I almost always know what you're thinking, so
not knowing kinda threw me off there."
Cordelia knew so much, Angel
thought, and yet didn't know anything at all. "I was thinking that I
have to start it all over."
"Start what?"
"All of it," he
said. The red-gold light was distracting if he stared at it for too long,
so Angel shut his eyes. "We have to stop Dru. We have to make sure
that I get cursed with a soul, and spend 100 years wandering the earth
alone, and meet and fall in love with Buffy so I can lose my soul again and
terrorize her and kill again. And get cursed again, and get Buffy back just
to lose her again, and have to leave her. And go to Los Angeles, and start
to have a decent existence, and -- and have a son. And lose him."
Cordelia was quiet for a
while, and then he felt her turn over. He opened his eyes to see her on her
side, her cheek against his thigh, a worried crease between her eyes.
"Hey. There's a lot of good in there you just left out, you know. Like
your mission, and the whole shanshu prophecy. Not to mention yours
truly."
"I know," Angel
said. "Believe me, I know that. It's just right now -- so soon after
-- just thinking about it all makes me -- tired." The word seemed to
mean something else right then, something Angel couldn't exactly define,
but it was the force weighing down so heavily on him that even sitting up
seemed impossible. "I'm just so tired, Cordy."
She was quiet for a few
moments. Then her hand patted his gently. "Let's think about the good
stuff, okay?" Cordelia said. "Like -- Angel, you remember the
suntan lotion commercial I did? How you showed up on the set and freaked
out?"
He knew Cordelia was just trying
to distract him. Of course, she couldn't have chosen a much better memory
to distract him than that bikini. Angel closed his eyes again and shook his
head. "They might as well have made you wear dental floss."
"Dental floss would
have been more comfortable," she said. "It was so funny seeing
you on the beach set. Like you were going to start playing volleyball or
something."
All those stage lights.
Angel remembered the stage as broiling hot, but he'd liked the simulation
of sunlight. That thought made him remember the daylight outside, felt if
not seen; he'd all but learned to ignore its diurnal influence the past
couple of years, but right now, he felt it as strongly as ever. The urge to
sleep, brought on by the rising sun, bound him up so that he didn't want to
move; it was confining and comforting at once, like an infant's swaddling.
And so warm.
"The other swimsuit was
less obnoxious." Cordelia's voice seemed more distant. "I wanted
that one instead of that bizarre macrame thing. It was probably somebody's
art therapy project in prison."
"They have prisoners
make bikinis?"
"Who knows? Might be a
nice change from license plates. Anyway, I got to talking with the other
model, and we decided to flip a coin --"
Angel his muscles relaxing
involuntarily, melting into the ground beneath them. Cordelia had known
what she was doing. She was too good at this.
"-- and I was totally
going to call heads, because you call it after you catch the coin, right?
But while it's in the air, she called heads, and then --"
Angel fell asleep.
***
"Wow. Amazing what the
sky looks like without smog, huh?"
Nobody answered Cordelia.
Without the familiar noises of traffic, sirens and overhead planes, the
night was eerily quiet. She shivered and wished she had something to put on
over her green T-shirt.
Conversation might take her
mind off the chill, but Cordelia was realizing there wasn't much chance of
that. Gunn and Fred, who had spent most of the day walking already, had
little energy for anything other than trudging side by side; Angel's long
sleep had clearly left him more alert, but his face was closed off, and by
now she knew the body language that went with that look well enough to
understand no amount of perkiness was going to penetrate his silence. It
was going to be a very long night. "It won't take too long to walk to
the city, right?" she asked hopefully. "The sign said Sighisoara
was just 3 miles away."
"It's not far,"
Fred agreed, "but the road runs right past the gypsies' camp."
Cordelia frowned. "Then
I vote we take a BIG detour. We know they're out to wreak terrible
vengeance on Angel. We don't want our version to get accidentally wreaked
upon twice." She tapped his arm. "Right?"
"Yeah," Angel said
after a second, but he didn't sound convinced. Cordelia remembered what
he'd been talking about in the cave, just before he fell asleep, and
realized that Angel's state of mind must be even lower than she'd thought.
"How big a detour can
we risk?" Fred asked. "We can't risk Angel getting trapped in the
open if we're still walking when the sun comes up. And even when we get to
the city, we have to find a place to stay without any money and explain the
way we look." She groaned. "This gets more complicated the more I
think about it."
Angel opened his mouth to
reply, then apparently decided to say something else. "Someone's
coming."
Cordelia started -- she
hadn't heard anything -- but a few seconds later she saw a light
approaching along the dark track. As it neared, she realized it was a
lantern, bouncing where it hung on the front of a carriage. The carriage
was pulled by a team of four horses and guided by a driver in a smart blue
uniform, a plumed hat sitting jauntily on his head. Cordelia didn't know a
lot about history, but she knew she was looking at the
late-nineteenth-century equivalent of a chauffeur-driven limousine.
"Think we could hitch a
lift?" she asked.
"They won't stop for
pedestrians," Angel said. "This is the age of highwaymen,
remember."
"You never know until
you try," Cordelia said with determination. She stepped out into the
road and stuck out her thumb -- would nineteenth-century people know what
that meant? They seemed to, because the driver of the carriage pulled
sharply on the reins, and the horse slowed from a trot to a brisk walk.
When the carriage had drawn level with them, another tug on the reins
brought it to a stop.
The carriage door opened,
allowing Cordelia to see its three passengers -- a broad-shouldered young
man wearing a stiff wool suit, an even younger woman whose face,
incomprehensibly, went bright red as soon as she saw Cordelia, and a much
older woman, small and thin, whose graying hair was wound around the crown
of her head in a severe and impossibly complicated pattern of braids.
Cordelia treated them all to
her brightest, most winning smile. "Hi there. We're going to
Sighisoara, and we were wondering --"
"Sighisoara!" the
man exclaimed. He had an English accent, and Cordelia thought --
unwillingly, and just for a second -- of Wesley. "Why, that's where
we're going. I don't suppose you know if this is the right road?"
"There's a signpost in
that direction," Fred said, pointing. "The city's beyond
that."
"But it's a long
walk," Cordelia said quickly, "and since we don't have a
carriage, we'd be really grateful for a ride."
"Certainly not!"
the older woman said, apparently horrified at the idea. "Edgar, what
are you thinking, conversing with these -- these circus ruffians?"
"Mama, you were the one
who insisted we stop to ask for directions," Edgar began, with a tone
of weary infuriation that suggested this kind of argument was a regular
feature of his existence.
Cordelia placed her hands on
her hips. "Hey! A little less with the abusive language, okay? Who do
you think you are, lady?"
The woman regarded her
icily. "I am exactly that -- a lady. Lady Clara Oxley. And you, my
dear, are plainly anything but. Look at you," she added scornfully,
"walking around with your legs showing and your hair as short as a man's!
I declare I never saw anything so base! Why, you have nearly shocked poor
Elspeth into a faint."
The girl -- Elspeth,
Cordelia guessed -- went even redder and covered her mouth with her hand.
"Base?!" Cordelia
repeated. "Listen, you old --"
"She's in
costume!" Fred interrupted, hastily stepping in front of Cordelia.
Cordelia looked at her.
"No, I'm not."
"Yes, you ARE,"
Fred said. "For -- the play. The play -- we're going to put on in
Sighisoara because --" she screwed her eyes shut, struggling for inspiration.
"Because we're
entertainers," Gunn interjected. "Traveling entertainers."
Cordelia turned to Angel,
but he looked as confused as she was. She grabbed Fred and hissed,
"What are you doing?"
"We need to get to the
city as fast as we can, which involves them taking us there," Fred
whispered back. "We need a cover story -- so start improvising."
Lady Clara was looking down
on them from the carriage with obvious disdain. But Edgar and Elspeth,
Cordelia saw, seemed interested. "A play, you say?" Edgar said.
"How capital! What's it about?"
Fred looked at Gunn. Gunn
looked at Cordelia. Angel just looked bemused.
"It's about -- "
Cordelia began, "-- about some kind of disaster. A disaster that, um,
ruined our clothing and left us in, in rags. Right. A disaster." A
single idea popped into her head -- a terrible, humiliating idea that
instantly pushed out all her other thoughts and made it impossible to think
of anything else. "It's a -- musical. About a shipwreck," she
blurted. Her voice wavering, she slowly started to sing:
"Just sit right back
and you'll hear a tale, a tale of fateful trip --"
"Oh, no," Gunn
said. He looked horrified. "Not that. Anything but that."
It was too late to stop now.
Cordelia made frantic motions with her hands, urging the others to join in.
"-- That started from
this tropic port, aboard this tiny ship.
The mate was a mighty sailing man, the skipper brave and sure --"
Cordelia seized Gunn and
Angel by their arms and dragged them to stand beside her.
"Five passengers set
sail that day for a three-hour tour --"
"-- A three-hour
tour!" Fred piped, making a brave but doomed attempt at harmonizing.
Cordelia nodded at her in gratitude.
In a timid voice, Elspeth
said, "But there's only four of you."
"We're doubling
parts," Gunn said. Then, adding his rough baritone to Cordelia's
voice, he sang:
"The weather started
getting rough, the tiny ship was, uhh..."
"Tossed," Cordelia
prompted. "The tiny ship was tossed."
"-- the tiny ship was
tossed -- thanks --
If not for the courage of the fearless crew, the Minnow would be lost
--"
"The Minnow would be
lost!" Fred cried, clutching her hands dramatically to her chest.
The end was in sight.
Cordelia took a deep breath and raced through the remaining lines:
"The ship took ground
on the shore of this uncharted desert isle,
with Gilligan, the Skipper, too, the millionaire and his wife --"
She tossed her hair and sold
the next line -- might as well enjoy herself --
"-- the MOOOVIE star
--"
She was running out of breath
now, but didn't dare stop:
"--
TheprofessorandMaryAnnhereonGilligansisle!"
Cordelia took a deep,
gasping breath. That wasn't as bad as she'd thought. Grinning, she pointed
at Angel, who had remained silent throughout the performance. "Then he
does a kind of a hula dance."
"The hell I do,"
Angel muttered.
"And that's just the
opening number," Fred concluded. "It gets even better after that.
MaryAnn gets hit on the head with a coconut and thinks she's Ginger -- and
then the millionaire finds out he's lost all his money -- and all sorts of
interesting people, and Globetrotters, and Gabors wash up on the island
too."
"They went wild for us
in Paris," Cordelia added.
"Well, I say
bravo!" Edgar applauded with what seemed to Cordelia to be genuine
enthusiasm, and after a second Elspeth joined in, too. "That was
perfectly marvelous. Wasn't it, mama?"
"Hmmph," Lady
Clara Oxley said doubtfully.
"But where are your
accoutrements?" Edgar asked.
Cordelia blinked. "Our
what?"
Edgar waved his hands
expansively. "Your play-scenes, and props, and suchlike. The necessary
business of acting."
"Oh, THOSE
accoutrements," Fred said. She bit her lip, in a way that Cordelia
knew meant she was thinking very hard and very fast. "Well, see, we
were viciously attacked --"
"How ghastly!"
Elspeth exclaimed. Even Lady Clara looked a little more sympathetic.
"By whom?"
"Bob Denver's
lawyers," Gunn muttered under his breath. Cordelia shushed him.
"Bandits," Fred
said. "They took our horses, too. And now we won't be able to open in
Sighisoara tomorrow night." She sighed theatrically.
"The forces of
lawlessness shall NOT triumph," Lady Clara declared. She turned to her
son. "Edgar, why have you not invited these honest people to share our
carriage? Have I imbued you with no spirit of Christian charity?"
Edgar obediently leaned
forward, offering Cordelia his hand to help her into the carriage. As she
reached up to take it, his eyes widened. "My word. What is that?"
He was staring at the
bracelet that Groo had bought her; even in the faint light cast by the
carriage's lamps, it shimmered with a myriad of colors. "May I?"
Edgar asked. When Cordelia nodded, he brought out a pair of spectacles and
examined the bracelet closely. "How extraordinary. It's flat, and yet
one would swear the pattern hovers above it -- I've never seen anything
quite like this. Wherever did you get it?"
"It's, uh, it was -- A
prince gave it to me." Well, that wasn't exactly a lie, Cordelia told
herself. And, besides, now that she was deep in pretense anyway, what harm
was there in rounding out her backstory? That's what they'd told her to do
in the acting classes she'd taken.
"A -- a real
prince?" Elspeth whispered, agog.
"From a distant
land," Cordelia elaborated. "We gave a special performance there.
The prince loved it so much, he insisted on giving me this."
"Oh," Elspeth
breathed. "How wonderfully exotic. Oh, Edgar --"
"My sister appears to
be quite taken with your bauble," Edgar said. "Would you consider
allowing me to obtain this marvelous piece of craftsmanship for her?"
"I don't know about
that," Cordelia said. "It's got sentimental value."
"I'll pay you."
"Done."
Edgar got out his wallet,
and Cordelia slipped the bracelet off her wrist. Behind her, Cordelia could
hear Gunn mutter, "Is this a good idea? You remember 'Back to the
Future' -- spend one quarter the wrong way, the whole world changes."
Just as quietly, Angel
answered, "Sooner or later, you guys will need food. We'll all need a
place to stay. We're not going to get those without money."
Gunn said, "And I'm
guessin' they don't take American Express round these parts." Cordelia
figured that meant he was okay with the plan, which was a good thing, since
the bracelet was gone and the coins were heavy in her hand.
Angel murmured, "This
is probably the least damaging way to make some money." Easy for him
to say, Cordelia thought, a little glumly. Sure, it was tacky, but it was
the first gift she'd gotten from a man in years, not counting gifts from
Angel. Oh, well, she decided. She'd find a way to explain it to Groo.
Edgar took out his pocket
handkerchief and folded the bracelet carefully up in it. "This has
turned out splendidly all round. I anticipated a dull journey, but now Mama
and Elspeth and I will be richly entertained by stories of your travels."
Six or seven hours of
inventing stories about the exploits of the Angel Investigations Theatre
Workshop was going to be a trial, Cordelia thought, but it'd be worth it if
they didn't have to walk all the way to the city. When Edgar offered his
hand for the second time, she reached up to accept it gratefully.
Before she could, Angel
stepped between them. "What's today's date?"
Edgar looked nonplussed.
"Well, we left Salzburg five days ago -- so today must be the
fifteenth. November 15."
"And the year is 1898?"
Angel pressed.
Edgar looked at him oddly.
"Well, of course."
"Thank you," Angel
said, "but we can't accept your kind offer. We have -- other business
to attend to before we go to the city."
"Oh," Edgar said.
"If you insist, my dear fellow. Terribly sorry to lose your company.
We'll be sure to come and see this play of yours. Break a leg, what?"
He signaled to the driver,
who cracked the whip once, spurring the horses forward. Just before the
carriage jerked away, Elspeth leaned forward and whispered to Cordelia with
frank admiration, "I think your hair is awfully daring."
As soon as they were gone,
Cordelia hit Angel square in the chest. "What IS it with you? They
were gonna give us a ride, and you said no! Angel, are you even
listening?"
He wasn't -- he was staring
after the fast-vanishing carriage lamps, frowning slightly. "I have
the weirdest feeling I've met those people somewhere before."
"Man, I had to sing the
Gilligan's Island song," Gunn said, coming to stand beside Cordelia.
"In public. With actions. For nothing! That kind of thing sours good
relationships, you hear what I'm sayin'?"
Some distance along the
track, the faint lights of the carriage finally winked out. Angel blinked,
and seemed to snap back to the current moment. "Tomorrow is November
16, 1898," he said, turning back to them. "That's the night I was
cursed. We've only got one day to find Drusilla and stop her from changing
history."
"Right," Cordelia
said. "All the more reason to get to the city as quickly as possible."
But Angel was shaking his
head. "There's no point if we don't know exactly where Drusilla is or
what she's planning. To be certain of stopping her, we're going to need
help, and fast."
"Help from where?"
Fred asked. "We don't know anybody in 1898. Well, I guess we know some
people, like Queen Victoria, but that's more knowing OF them than knowing
them, and anyhow, she's in England and I don't think there's much she could
do to help us."
Angel closed his eyes
briefly, and Cordelia could sense what it cost him to say what he did next.
"There is one place we can go."
***
"The creature who did this," the gypsy said, "the vile
monster who stole my child -- he shall suffer. He shall suffer as no other
of his kind has ever suffered. For all eternity, he will know our pain.
Soon he will feel our wrath."
"Right there with
ya," Cordelia said, smiling nervously as she stood in the center of
the gypsy camp, where a hundred eyes stared at her suspiciously. "Now,
what if you could get some help in tracking down this vile monster?"
The gypsies looked at one
another. Cordelia plowed on. "And what if that help came from the
absolute LAST place you'd expect?"
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Chapter 3
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Angel kept his body still
and his back pressed against one of the oak trees. He didn't turn toward
the gypsy camp, but he could see the faint flickering of their bonfires
reflected in Gunn and Fred's eyes. He could just hear Cordelia saying,
"the absolute LAST place you'd expect," and briefly he looked
skyward. Only Cordy.
Gunn muttered, "Have I
mentioned that this is a real bad plan?"
"Only six thousand
times or so," Angel replied.
"Well, here's six
thousand and one," Gunn said. "Angel, these guys hate you. You
killed, what was it, the favored daughter of their clan? The second you
walk outta the woods, you are gonna get staked. Or beheaded. Maybe
both."
Far away, Cordelia was
saying, "And you wouldn't, like, you know, KILL anybody who was trying
to help you get revenge, right?"
Angel said, "Gunn, if the gypsies had wanted to stake me, they had
their opportunity. They didn't take it. They want to curse me."
"They'll want to curse
you tomorrow," Fred pointed out. "Today, they might just want to
stake you."
That, Angel had to admit to
himself, was a good point. But it was already too late. Cordelia was
calling, "Um, unexpected help? I think they're ready for you."
"I'm going out
there," Angel said. "Stay on either side of me -- but stay at a
distance. If they see I'm in human company, they'll know something's
changed right away."
"What if they just
think we're vampires?" Gunn said.
"Then duck any
stakes." Angel took a deep breath -- purely for courage -- and walked
forward.
As he stepped into the
circumference of the firelight, gasps rang out. Mothers snatched up their
children and retreated into the shadows, while the men all reached for the
closest weapons to hand, grabbing knives, axes, pitchforks and wielding
them threateningly.
Yet, strangely, within a few
paces Angel realized that he didn't have to steel himself to walk toward
the gypsies. In fact, it felt almost as if he was drawn to them, as if the
morass of grief and anger and pain he'd created was pulling him in. All his
troubles -- every wretched second of souled existence, from the first rush
of stunned guilt over the gypsy girl's death to the moment he'd realized
Connor would never come back -- they all flowed from this place, this
moment. It was dangerous and terrible, and he was likely to get killed, and
yet Angel felt as if this place was where he belonged.
No, he couldn't think about
that now. He had to concentrate. Everything depended on what happened next.
Angel held up his hands, as though showing he was without a weapon could
possibly reassure these people.
A very tall, powerfully
built man with a gray beard-- the girl's father, Angel remembered with an
agonizing jolt -- stepped forward. "Angelus," he said.
Fully aware of how
improbable it must sound, Angel said, "I've come here to help
you." At the sound of his voice, the gypsies jumped again.
"Help us?" another
man exclaimed. His accent was thicker than the others. "This beast
killed our Gia, and he pretends that he wants to help us?"
"I'm not the Angelus of
1898," Angel said. "We're not from the present day. Magic has
brought us from a time more than a century in the future. I have the soul
you cursed me with."
At that, a ripple of shocked
and outraged exclamations passed around the crowd.
"He lies!" the girl's father shouted, and a chorus of agreement
rang out around him. Now that the initial shock of Angel's appearance was
wearing off, the mood of the gathering was rapidly becoming violent.
Fred and Gunn crowded closer
to Angel, trying, as Cordelia was, to form some kind of human shield around
him. "I don't guess I could convince you guys to stand at a safe
distance," Angel said.
"Nope," Gunn said.
"Let's face it, Angel. A safe distance would probably be, like,
Detroit."
Suddenly the crowd quieted,
then parted. Angel didn't realize why until the gypsies nearest to him
stepped back deferentially to reveal a very tiny, very old woman who
hobbled slowly toward Angel, leaning on a carved stick. Her back was bent
with age, so that when she raised her head it was clear the movement caused
her no small measure of pain. But the rheumy eyes that gazed at Angel were
unafraid.
"Gregor," she
said, addressing the gray-bearded man. He replied in Romanii, and for
several tense minutes Angel could only stand quietly while they debated
vehemently in a language he didn't know. Unsure what else to do, Angel kept
his hands in the air and tried very hard to look sincere.
The gray-bearded man,
Gregor, finally said, "Mother Yanna says you have your soul. But how
can this be? What magic takes people through time?"
"We're kind of
wondering that ourselves," Fred said helpfully.
"It is a trick,"
the thickly accented gypsy said. "He has some kind of spell, something
that makes it appear he has a soul. He discovered our plan and tries to
stop us through deceit. This is the Angelus we seek."
The mob muttered angrily,
and a few of the weapons were hoisted even higher. Angel thought fast.
"I am from the future," he said. "And I can prove it."
Gregor held his head high.
"Prove it, then."
"There's a loophole in
the curse," Angel said. He meant to use this only as evidence, but as
he spoke, long-buried anger began to push its way to the surface. As
dangerous as it was -- to him and to his friends -- Angel couldn't keep the
edge out of his voice as he continued. "If I experience perfect
happiness, and only perfect happiness, then I lose my soul, become the
monster again. The curse you put on me made it possible for me to kill
innocents again, people who had nothing to do with your daughter's death,
people who haven't even been born yet. But since you never saw fit to tell
me that, how could I know -- unless it happened?"
They all stared at him.
Gregor said, "But -- you have your soul now --"
"We re-cursed
him," Cordelia said. "Nifty spell, by the way. Nice, smelly
herbs."
"As long as we're
having this conversation, maybe you'd like to explain it to me," Angel
said. As his anger grew, he could hear his voice becoming colder, harder.
"Why did you make it possible for Angelus to get out again? You freed
me from all that guilt, for a while. I didn't suffer at all after my soul
was gone. Is that really what you intended?"
The old woman, Mother Yanna,
stepped forward and spoke in halting English. "That part of the curse
-- that was not for you."
"Sure felt like it was
for me," Angel said.
"What would give a
creature -- creature like you -- perfect happiness?" Mother Yanna
said. Her gnarled hands were clasped in front of her, and Angel realized
with shock and disgust that she was smiling. "Only -- only to be
forgiven. Only to be loved. If such a creature were forgiven, if he were
accepted and wanted, then our curse, it would have no meaning anymore. You
would be young and strong and happy forever. This we would not have."
"Rather than let me be
happy, you'd condemn more people to die?" he demanded.
She shrugged. "Their deaths
would be the price of vengeance. But only one we wanted you to hurt --
whoever it was who was fool enough to forgive such a monster as you.
Whoever cared so little for our lost Gia that she would love the monster
who killed her. That one -- she ended our vengeance, and so she had to
pay." Mother Yanna smiled a gap-toothed grin. "The soul, it was
your punishment. The return of the monster -- that was her punishment. Our
revenge on the one who loved you. And I see by your face that this is how
it came to pass."
Angel couldn't speak. He
wanted to kill that old woman, feel her brittle old bones snapping in his
hands like matchsticks. He wanted to kneel down on the ground and weep.
Perhaps more than anything, he wanted to just turn around and walk away. Cordelia's
hand tightened around his arm, and he wondered if she were remembering that
bleak winter of 1998 and her terror for her own life. God, he could have
killed Cordelia then, and he would never even have known who she really was
--
Somehow, Angel kept his
voice steady as he said, "You chose a powerful vengeance. But someone
has come from the future to try and prevent that vengeance. You want to
curse me with a soul. Believe it or not, I want you to curse me with a
soul. But if that's going to happen, we're going to have to work
together." As the crowd murmured, he added, "I don't like it any
more than you do, but there's no other way."
Finally, Gregor asked,
"This person -- you know who it is?"
"It's not a
person," Angel said. "It's a vampire. She's powerful, and she's
insane, and it's going to be difficult to predict her moves. But I can
predict my own -- because I remember them."
More murmuring. As the
gypsies argued among themselves in Romanii, Gunn glanced over at Angel.
"So far, would you say this is going well or badly?"
"None of us are dead
yet," Cordelia said.
"Speak for
yourself," Angel said.
She made a face. "None
of us are more dead than we were ten minutes ago. I think that means it's
going well."
Fred said, "I would
really like to have a higher standard than that."
"Silence!" one of
the men shouted. "If you want to talk of other things -- while we talk
of our dead daughter --" He gestured toward a nearby tent. "Go
there. Talk of other things there, if you can."
Cordelia began tugging Angel
toward the tent. "Let's get out of immediate staking distance,
okay?"
"'Bout time somebody
had a good plan," Gunn said as he took Fred's hand in his and headed
toward the tent. Angel and Cordelia followed them, but as they walked
closer, events from the past -- from the near future -- began to come back
to him. He realized what the tent was, why the gypsy had taunted him to
enter.
"Maybe you guys should
stay outside," Angel said.
"Excuse me, did you not
see the hysterical, torch-wielding mob?" Cordelia said. "I think
we're better off out of sight."
Gunn reached for the flap
that served as the tent's entrance, but Angel put a hand on his arm,
stopping him. "She's in there. The gypsy girl, or what's left of
her." After a moment, he added, "Gia." He hadn't ever known
her name. It seemed appropriate to finally call her that.
The others stood very still.
Finally, Fred said, "Angel, would you mind so much if I didn't see
her? It's not like I don't know you used to kill people, 'cause I do know
that, and I understand that things are different now, and I love you all to
pieces -- not in a Charles way! Just in a friends way, but a
really-good-friends way, and that's not going to change, not ever, not even
if I see her, but -- but -- I don't want to see her."
Gunn sighed heavily.
"What she said. But shorter."
"You don't have to go
in either, Angel," Cordelia said. Her eyes were brilliant in the
firelight, and she was staring at him intently, trying hard to read him.
"Not if you don't want to."
"They want me to,"
Angel said. "Given what we're asking them to do, I think I should do
what they ask. And -- I just think I should."
Cordelia squared her
shoulders. "Okay, then. Let's go in."
"Cordy --" Angel
felt his chest constrict at the thought of Cordelia seeing the evidence of
his brutality.
Maybe she could read what he
was thinking after all, because she simply said, "I went to Miss
Calendar's funeral."
Angel nodded and went into
the tent, Cordelia at his side.
The gypsy girl -- Gia, her
name was Gia -- lay on a bier. Angel remembered the glimpse he'd had of her
when the gypsies herded him into this camp to be cursed; they'd changed her
clothing by then, straightened her limbs, wiped the blood from her body.
None of that had been done yet. Angel could see the blood on her mouth,
where he'd kissed her as she shook in her death tremors. A hundred years
ago. Yesterday.
The sleeve of her dress was
ripped away, and the dark bruises of his fingertips were deep in her arms
where he'd held her down. But what sickened Angel most about his memories
of her death was not how brutal it had been, but how ordinary. She had been
a special treat, but still, in the end, just another kill, a few hours'
distraction. His recollections of her death were mixed up with all the
other things he'd thought about during it -- places he meant to go, things
he meant to do. He walked closer to the body, let the memories come back to
sting. He could use them; this was pain with purpose.
"Did you break her
neck?" Cordelia whispered. She was still at his side; Angel had
thought and wished that she would remain at the entrance, but instead she
was leaning over the girl's body as well. She was looking at the girl's
smooth, unmarred throat.
"No," Angel said.
He hesitated, wondering if the indignity of what he was about to do was too
much. Then he looked again at Gia's dead body and realized it wasn't; he
had already committed the ultimate crimes against this girl. There was
nothing else to be done to her, no further injury she could suffer. He
pushed her skirt up away from her legs. Cordelia's eyes went wide as she
took in the brutal bite marks on the insides of the girl's thighs.
Angel could remember the
pure sensual satisfaction of drinking from her there; for a moment, it was
as if he could taste the blood again. Cordelia was staring at him, unnerved
at what he had done -- not only in killing her, but in showing her off now.
Angel realized, with disgust, that he felt a sense of ownership of this
girl, or what was left of her. Claiming her was a vampire's instinct, and
still his own.
Then again -- wasn't she
really the one who owned him? Angel looked down into Gia's still, drawn
face and murmured, "You were avenged." It didn't seem as though
there could be anything else to say.
Angel smoothed her skirts
back down and looked into Cordelia's face. Miss Calendar's funeral, he
knew, was no preparation for this. He had killed Jenny Calendar quickly,
after a only few brief moments of fear. Her death had been easier than most
of his victims', easier by far than Gia's. Angel felt a deep, horrified
shame that Cordelia was seeing this -- and yet, at the same time, it felt
right. She should know, he thought. She deserves to know.
Cordelia's fingers fluttered
out, as though she meant to touch Gia's hair, but then she let her hand
drop. She said only, "This is what you remember."
Angel nodded. To his
surprise, and deep gratitude, he felt Cordelia wrap her hand around his
own.
"Memory," said a
voice behind them. "A difficult thing. What do you think I will
remember?"
Angel and Cordelia wheeled
around to see old Mother Yanna, who stood in the entrance to the end.
Behind her, Angel could just make out the figures of Fred and Gunn, both of
whom were determinedly not looking into the tent.
With an imperious wave of
her hand, the old woman said to Cordelia, "Leave us."
Cordelia -- never one to
respond well to direct orders, Angel thought ruefully -- looked like she
meant to argue with that. He touched her arm. "It's okay, Cordy. Go to
Fred and Gunn. I'll handle this."
"Are you sure?"
Cordelia whispered. "She's giving you the harmless-old-biddy routine,
but she could be packin' wood."
"She doesn't do her
work with stakes," Angel said. "Wait outside."
With a dubious backward
glance, Cordelia left the tent. Angel faced Mother Yanna alone. Somehow,
she was more intimidating than the entire mob outside -- this one woman's
pain, and fury, and complete lack of fright.
Mother Yanna gestured toward
Gia. "A pretty girl. Clever. Good with herbs and medicines. I was to
teach her my craft." Angel, wordless, could only nod. "My
granddaughter. Did you know this?"
"No," he
whispered. "I didn't."
The memory came rushing
back, so sudden and so strong that it felt as though he were possessed --
not by a spirit, but by the past. Angel could almost feel Connor, shifting
ever so slightly within his father's arms as he sucked greedily at the
bottle of formula Angel held, its microwaved heat warming both his tiny
body and Angel's cold hand. Small eyes, unfocused but clear, gazed up at
Angel in the early morning hours in total contentment and trust. It was the
only hour in Angel's life when he'd known with complete certainty that he
was exactly where he needed to be, when his heart asked for nothing else
but what he held. It wasn't perfect happiness -- his fear for his son was
always there, beating away the seconds in the place of his heart -- but in
some ways it was better than perfect happiness. What he'd felt for his son
was too real for perfection.
Angel had mourned his
victims before, sincerely and deeply, but also, he now realized, blindly.
He had imagined what it would be to lose a child. Now he knew, and he
finally understood that a century's imaginings of grief still weren't
adequate to grasp the truth of it.
"I know what it means,
now," he said. "To lose someone you love. I know that I made
hundreds -- thousands -- of people feel that pain. I know what I did to
them, and to you." He repeated, slowly, "Because of you, I
understand."
"You have lost someone,
then," Mother Yanna said. Her deep, creased eyelids blinked
contemplatively. "Not long ago, I think."
"A few days,"
Angel replied.
"The pain -- it is like
no other, is it not? And you understand pain, if I have done my work
well."
Angel closed his eyes.
"You have."
She made a sound that was
neither a laugh nor a sigh -- a sound of satisfaction and surprise.
"It tears at you, this grief. It makes you something that you were not
before, something -- lesser. Something you despise."
He tried to remember exactly
what Wesley's face looked like in the moment before he grabbed the pillow.
He couldn't remember. He could only recall how the pillow had felt in his
hands, how weak Wesley's struggles had been beneath it. "Yes,"
Angel said.
"I must endure this
forever," she said. "You have done this to me, to everyone who
ever loved her. We must be these creatures until we die."
Angel opened his mouth to --
to say what? To apologize? How stupidly inadequate, but what else could he
possibly say? Yet Mother Yanna kept talking. "But you -- you need not
suffer as we suffer. The grief you feel, this can be lifted from you."
What could she mean? Angel
stepped away from her. "You still have to curse me with my soul,"
he said. "You can't take that back. I can't allow that to
happen."
"Fool," she said,
strangely gentle. "It would take more than this to stay my hand. You
will suffer; we will see to that."
Angel wondered just how
strange his world was that her words made him feel relieved.
"Your soul, it will
remain. But I can do more. I can do far better by you than you have done by
us," she said. Her voice was gentler yet. "I have shown you that
we are stronger than you. I will show you that we are better than you as
well. I will stop your pain."
Transfixed by her voice, by
her wrinkled old hands held out to him, Angel whispered, "How? It
feels -- it feels like nothing could ever --"
"Your memories of the
one you have lost are nothing to you now but torment," she said.
"Nor will they ever be anything else to you any longer."
She spoke quietly, so
quietly Angel had to strain to hear her, and yet it seemed as though her
voice were the only sound in the world, soothing and calming him. "I
can't stop thinking about what I've lost," he said.
"I can take this
pain," she said. "Let me take it from you. So many burdens you carry,
and this is your heaviest. This burden, you can lay down."
Angel felt himself relaxing
as he stepped closer to her. "I'm so tired," he said.
"I understand,"
she whispered. Her hands -- trembling not with fear, but only with age --
went to his temples, and he felt the soft brush of her skin against his.
"You need only lay the burden down, and then you will be free."
Lay it down. Let it go. Let
the memories go.
Connor in his arms, looking
up at his father. The tiny face receding, the memory becoming strangely
dim...
Angel reeled back, pushing
the old woman away. She raised an eyebrow as he stared at her.
"My memories," he
said. "You were going to take away my memories of my son."
Mother Yanna shrugged, her
lips curling in a cruel smile. "Would this not end your pain?"
Connor, Angel thought. I
wouldn't even have remembered him. I'd never even be able to think what his
face looked like. I'd never have remembered that again. He felt his body
begin to shake. "It would have been -- worse than pain. A thousand
times worse. And you know it. You would have robbed me of the only thing I
had left."
"Yes!" she
shrieked, all pretense gone. "As you robbed me!"
"If you want to find
out if I'll still fight you," Angel said. "I will. I'm here to
make sure you curse Angelus. That's the punishment you chose, and that's
the punishment I'll help you with. If you try to take my memories -- this
truce is over." He stepped closer to the old woman; this time, she
couldn't hide a moment of fear, and Angel felt a sick satisfaction as he
saw it. "And if you hurt my friends, you'll spend the rest of your
life wishing you were dealing with the demon."
She smiled that terrible
smile of hers again. "You come to us and you speak soft words of help
and guilt. But deep in your heart, you hate us still."
Angel remembered lying in
Buffy's arms that long-ago night, with no idea that her punishment was
bound to his own. "Yes," he said. "I hate you."
Mother Yanna nodded. "I
do not trust your soft words, vampire," she said. "But your
hatred -- this I can trust. If your hate is true, perhaps the rest is too,
hmm? We shall see. We shall see."
The gypsies are going to
help, Angel realized. We did it. He wondered whether he ought to feel
better or a hell of a lot more afraid.
***
Darla sat up in bed,
wondering what had woken her.
Beside her, Angelus
slumbered on, one arm sprawled comfortably across the bolster. The curtains
of the villa's master bedroom were tightly shut, although the sharp glow
around their edges told Darla it was daytime.
Downstairs, she heard the
crash of something being violently destroyed.
She shook Angelus roughly.
"Wake up."
He rolled over on the
mattress, opened one eye and smiled at her lazily, still sated in every way
from the previous night. "Again? Well, if you insist...."
"Listen," she
instructed him. A second later, the noises downstairs started again.
Angelus frowned, then sat up beside her, now fully awake.
"What time is it?"
he asked.
Darla looked to the clock
which sat on the mantle above the bedroom's fireplace. Or, more accurately,
she looked to where the clock should have been. It was gone.
Angelus had seen it, too.
"Thieves," he said. "And still downstairs, plundering. To
think, there are people of such low morals in the world." He smiled, a
wolfish, hungry smile that wakened Darla's own appetite.
She smiled back and got out
of the bed, pulling on her robe before tossing Angelus his. Quietly, they
moved along the upper floor of the villa, then down the ornate stairs to the
tiled entrance hall. The dwelling was among the finest in Sighisoara and
must have seemed as ideal a target for robbers as for the local gossips who
had lately been wondering about its new tenants, who had arrived so much
earlier than anticipated.
The noises were coming from
the drawing room. Darla reached out to open the door, but stopped when
Angelus laid his hand over hers. She looked at him questioningly.
In a low voice he said,
"When we confront them, pretend to be frightened, as a woman would be.
It will be a great ruse."
Angelus and his games.
Usually Darla was happy to indulge him, but sometimes she craved killing in
its purer forms -- straightforward, quick and satisfying. But for Angelus,
even such an unexpected opportunity as this had to be molded into artifice.
Men and their hobbies. Without answering him, Darla pushed the door open
and went into the drawing room.
Deception was unnecessary.
There were no thieves.
In the center of the room,
every clock in the villa had been piled into a ticking, chiming heap. Darla
saw the clock from the bedroom, the kitchen clock -- even the grandfather
clock had been dragged in from the hall and now lay in an undignified
position on its side next to the writing desk. Every inch of the drawing
room floor was covered in shards of broken glass and wood. At the center of
the orgy of destruction, Drusilla sat cross-legged, intently smashing the
clocks one by one with the fireplace tongs. She was humming to herself,
wholly content.
"Drusilla!" Darla
snapped.
Drusilla didn't respond, and
after a second Darla saw why -- she had wound her hair ribbons, one green
and one violet, into rolls and then pushed them into her ears. She reached
for another clock -- one that had walnut casing and was probably an antique
-- and happily smashed its face. Darla noted with annoyance that Drusilla
was wearing that outfit again -- the black velvet basque with the tartan
skirt -- that made her look like some escaped Scottish lunatic. She raised
an eyebrow at Angelus, who understood her meaning and laughed. "It's
appropriate," he pointed out. "Drusilla hath murdered
sleep."
Not in the mood for literary
allusion, Darla marched across the room and pulled out Drusilla's
improvised earplugs. "What are you doing?"
"Killing time,"
Drusilla said. "Before midnight comes, and we all turn to pumpkins.
Tick tock, tick tock, I couldn't sleep for the noise." She looked at
the ribbons dangling from Darla's fingers and playfully snapped at them,
like a kitten playing with a ball of string.
"You've broken every
clock in the house," Darla said angrily, waving a hand at the
wreckage. "How are we supposed to tell the time now?" She marched
to the window and yanked open the curtains, making sure to stand well back
while noting with satisfaction how Drusilla threw her hands over her face
and cowered from the light. "I know -- there's a sundial in the
garden. Perhaps we'll send you outside to look at it."
"A monster with a
clockwork heart," Drusilla muttered. "But it turns to flesh under
the hammer, and he will bleed and bleed."
Darla looked to Angelus for
support and saw with irritation that he was smirking, amused by what he no
doubt saw as Drusilla's delightfully crazed antics. His patience with her
was far greater than Darla's own; while Angelus saw Drusilla as a work of
art, Darla was more inclined to view her as their halfwit child.
Spike's voice came from the
hallway outside the drawing room. "What's happening? Drusilla's gone
--"
Two halfwit children, Darla
thought sourly. What a fine family we make.
Spike appeared at the door,
and he ignored the devastation to comfort Drusilla. She clung to him, and
he stroked her hair. "What's the matter, pet? Were the clocks saying
nasty things to you? Like the lampshade last week?"
"I did it to stop the
future," Drusilla said. "It hurtles toward us and brings terrible
things with it."
"The only thing
bringing terrible things to you in the near future will be me," Darla
said.
"Come, Darla,"
Angelus said lightly. "A little destruction is good for the spirit. And
draw the blinds, lest you end up punishing us all for Drusilla's little
game."
Darla brought the curtains
together so hard they cracked; the last shaft of sunlight made something in
the debris glint familiarly. Darla leaned down to retrieve it and smiled
smugly when she recognized the ruined remains of Angelus' gold pocket
watch. "Yours, I believe," she said, handing it to him.
His face changed, darkening
with anger, and he threw the watch down in disgust. "Our little
magpie's almost more trouble than she's worth."
"She's just
bored," Spike said. "Christ, we're all bored. Bored of this
provincial piss-hole, bored of superstitious, garlic-chewing peasants, and
most of all, bored of hanging around while YOU --" he pointed to
Darla, "-- wait for a fancy dress party where you're not even planning
on killing ANYONE, and YOU --" now he pointed at Angelus, "--
plan one of your theatrical kills that any REAL vampire could manage in
less time than it takes to snuff out a candle."
Angelus snarled. He grabbed
Spike by the neck, lifting him and pinning him to the drawing room wall.
"If I were you, I would not speak so freely of being snuffed out. It
might give me ideas."
Spike, unable to reply
because of the hand on his throat, just grinned, a touch nervously. After a
moment Angelus, apparently satisfied to have won the point, let him slide
to the floor. "Leave my sight. Both of you."
Drusilla looked forlorn at
her banishment, but Spike was smiling as he picked himself up. He was
always happy, Darla noticed, to get Drusilla away from Angelus, to reserve
her attention solely for himself. "It'd be a pleasure," he said.
"How about it, love? It's early enough for us to go out the back.
We'll take a stroll in the shadows to the cathedral, then snack on the
pious all day long."
He helped Drusilla to her
feet and guided her to the door. But as they passed Angelus, Drusilla
stopped, refusing to move even when Spike pulled her arm. She placed one
bony finger in the middle of Angelus' chest. "Daddy has a reflection
again. It's looking down at the little dead girl, and it has guards -- a
lady with short hair, and a lady with long hair, and a man with not any
hair at all. The reflection's put his hands through a mirror to reach you,
and they're all cut up, and he wants you to be cut up too."
Darla made a noise of
exasperation. Sometimes Drusilla even sounded insane by Drusilla standards.
Angelus was the one who tried hardest -- and had the most success -- at
finding the occasional method to Drusilla's madness, but even he was merely
shaking his head at this.
"Come on,
Drusilla," Spike said as he towed her out of the drawing room.
"The pious are piping hot and waiting for us."
"Hot cross buns," Drusilla said, already cheerful again, as they
passed out of hearing.
Angelus shook his head.
"The time it takes to snuff out a candle. That's what Spike thinks of
as an appropriate duration for pleasure. No wonder we're forever trying to
get Drusilla out of our bed and into his."
Her patience ended and her
mood black, Darla snapped at him. "He's just tired of your amateur
theatricals," she said.
"I don't expect Spike
to understand the difference between pleasure and art -- but you,
Darla," Angelus shook his head. "You were the one who taught me
this. This theatre is not the work of an amateur. And timing is
everything."
"Perhaps," Darla
said, making no effort to hide her irritation, "you should explain the
plot to me again."
Angelus began to pace the
drawing room, feet crunching over the scattered cogs and wires and hands.
"Lord Percival Dalton believes he is a vampire hunter. Indeed, he has
become obsessed with the creatures since reading a certain recently
published novel by Mr. Stoker."
"That hack." Darla
rolled her eyes. "It's so blindingly obvious that he's never even met
Dracula. If he had, he wouldn't have been half so impressed."
"Lord Percy has come
all the way from his comfortable residence in London to the book's setting,
Transylvania, to find vampires. And, by a happy coincidence, he has struck
up a friendship with a gentleman with similar interests." Angelus gave
a low bow, as if introducing himself. "Tonight, I expect to receive an
invitation to dine with Lord Percy at his home. I have given him reason to
believe that should such an invitation be extended, I will use the occasion
to present him with a genuine vampire."
"This deception may
amuse you, but I'm growing bored waiting for your elaborate plans to come
to fruition. For once, can't you just kill someone without making a show of
it?"
"It takes a second to stop
a heart beating. To destroy a life takes time and planning." Angelus
stopped pacing, and drew Darla into his arms. "You understand
that."
His hand rested on the small
of her back, then began to slide down. Darla wasn't in the mood and twisted
away from him. "I understand that when I desire a little novelty, I
have to conjure it myself. Just last night, I brought you the gypsy whore.
I didn't hear you talking of the benefits of planning as you took her
virtue and her blood. What gifts have you brought me of late?"
"I paid for those fool
rooms in the hotel," Angelus said. "Where we're to pack up and
move tomorrow, even though we're quite well-established here. Why? So you
can have one of your wretched views and be a half-mile closer to the grand
ball tomorrow night, where you'll wear all the finery I've bought you
--"
"Dresses. Hotel
rooms." Darla was pacing. "The sort of banalities any mortal
might bestow on his wife. Those aren't gifts. Those are no less than I
deserve."
"You refuse to be
pleased," Angelus said angrily.
"And you refuse to
please me!"
"Who are you?"
said a strange, feminine voice. "This is intolerable! Edgar, come here
at once!"
Darla spun around, surprised
by the unexpected voice. A woman was standing in the doorway of the drawing
room, glaring at herself and Angelus with haughty disdain.
A man, with an Englishman's
irritating deference of manner and poor taste in tailoring, came to join
the older woman. Behind them, Darla could see a few people moving about,
bringing trunks and cases into the villa's entrance hall.
"Edgar," the woman
said, "These people should not be here. Make them leave."
"Now, Mama," the
man said, "I'm sure there's a perfectly reasonable explanation."
He looked around at the wrecked clocks lying over the floor, before
apparently deciding that politeness required pretending to have noticed
nothing amiss. "I'm dreadfully sorry about this, but there seems to
have been some kind of mix-up --" Abruptly, he broke off, and to
Darla's surprise, smiled widely at Angelus. "Why, my dear fellow, how
excellent to see you again. I nearly didn't recognize you out of costume.
And what a smashing wig! Quite wild, very in the spirit of Robinson Crusoe,
what? Elspeth, come here -- it's our good friend the actor."
Another woman -- young and
oozing sweetness, docility and every other quality Darla loathed about her
sex -- rushed to join the man. "What a marvelous surprise," she
gushed. "However did you get here before us?"
"Another of your
amusing deceits, Angelus?" Darla asked wearily.
But he shook his head.
"I don't know these people."
"Of course you
remember," the man prompted. "We met on the road. You sang that
song about the little boat, and the shipwreck --"
"And the
coconuts," the young woman added.
Darla stared at them, then
at Angelus. "He sang a song about -- coconuts?"
"I did not,"
Angelus snapped.
"Edgar," the older
woman said imperiously. "When are you going to tell these intruders to
get out of our house?"
"YOUR house?"
Darla repeated. "Oh, no. I don't believe so."
"It is ours for six
weeks," the woman said. Her manner was superior, her tone arrogant, as
if the world had an obligation to conform to her view of it. "We're
renting it. You should not be here."
"The previous tenants
haven't left," Angelus said smoothly. This was true, after a fashion;
their desiccated corpses were sealed up in barrels in the kitchen.
Suddenly, Darla was bored
with all of them. Bored with foolish little humans who did not understand
their importance began and ended with the red fluid in their veins. Bored
with Drusilla's crazed antics, with Spike's constant impudence, with
Angelus' obsessive game-playing. Most of all, she was bored of the
grinding, unchanging sameness of her recent existence.
"I'm going back to
bed," she announced. "When I wake, I expect this --" she
waved at the mess on the floor, "-- and them --" she pointed at
the three people standing in the doorway, "-- to be gone. No more
unpleasant surprises."
Angelus glared at her.
"And I thought you were eager for novelty."
Darla didn't answer him;
instead she stalked out of the drawing room, past the newly deposited pile
of luggage in the entrance hall, and up the stairs. Behind her, she could
hear Angelus' voice as he took care of their unexpected visitors.
"See, now -- renting.
That was a mistake. You have far more rights in a home as an owner than you
do as a renter. For instance, the right to deny someone permission to enter
--"
Not even the sound of
screaming that followed was enough to lift Darla's foul temper.
***
"Okay, so, I know the
peasant look is back in style," Cordelia said to Fred. "But I
don't think it would be if people had to wear real peasant underwear."
Fred grimaced slightly as
she nodded. Discomfort aside, though, it was sort of interesting to wear
these clothes, so different from the ones she was used to. She had a long,
heavy skirt that fell almost to the ground, cloth shoes and a loose blouse;
her hair was braided up on top of her head in a more complicated style than
she'd ever attempted herself. The gypsies only had the smallest hand
mirrors, so Fred had no idea what she looked like. But from the amusement
on Charles' face, she suspected the overall effect was more than a little
silly.
Cordelia, as usual, made it
look good. The skirt that dragged around Fred's legs flowed around Cordy's,
and the folds of the soft peasant blouse draped the best curves of her
figure. The kerchief tied around her head to hide her short hair was
brilliantly colored and patterned. But the face beneath the kerchief still
looked unhappy. "I mean, what IS this?" Cordy muttered, pulling
in an undignified way at the material beneath her skirt.
"Burlap?"
"At least you HAVE
underwear," Charles said.
"You are now entering
the TMI zone," Cordelia said. "Gotta say, though, they did a
pretty good job of wrapping you up otherwise." With the high-collared
coat, muffler, gloves and wide-brimmed hat Charles now wore, very little of
his decidedly non-Romanian skin tone showed. Fred giggled as Charles posed,
model-style, in his gypsy clothes; she clasped her hands together, felt the
gold ring she'd slipped on one finger and became quiet again. She looked
down at the ring, their one-and-only ticket back to the present -- assuming
there was still a present to get back to.
Angel had only pulled on a
coat over his normal clothes; if things went according to plan -- insofar
as they had a plan, Fred reminded herself -- he wouldn't be seen by anyone
until after dark, if at all. He was pacing the tent where they now stood,
restless and uneasy, and Fred suspected that had very little to do with the
fact that he was shielded from the sunlight by only a drape of canvas.
"Let's review this, okay?"
They'd done little besides
reviewing it all morning, but Fred thought it wisest to humor him.
"Sure thing. Take it from the top."
"No, I want you guys to
take it from the top," Angel said. "Step by step. Come on."
For a brief moment, Fred was
reminded of Wesley, drilling them on the details of a case. She put that
thought aside, took a deep breath and spoke. "Drusilla -- old-timey
Drusilla, the one who actually belongs in this century -- she left the
house you were all staying with early in the morning with the vampire
called Spike."
Charles picked up the story.
"Wasn't a whole lot of way to get in that house except first thing in
the morning and after sundown. So Dru -- the one who belongs in the 21st
century -- what do we call her? New Dru? Dru Two?"
Angel looked slightly
pained. "Just keep going."
"Dru couldn't have
gotten in as early as this morning, and so she can't get back to you to
warn you or anything before tonight," Gunn said. "So she can't
make her move until sundown."
"As it so
happens," Cordelia chimed in, "sundown is just the time when a
certain Scourge of Europe gets into a bust-up with his girlfriend and
announces he's going out for a while, to -- where did you say you were
going when you left Darla?"
"I didn't." Angel
frowned. "I remember arguing with Darla, and I remember leaving, but I
don't remember where I was going. But the important part is that I
left."
Charles cast a worried
glance at Fred. She fought the urge to return it, though her stomach was
clenching with fear. This entire operation depended on Angel's ability to
remember exact details of the most traumatic, confusing night of his
existence. What if he got it wrong?
Cordelia quickly said,
"Let's just say you were -- I mean, Angelus was -- going for a moonlit
stroll. But while Angelus is admiring the stars, he's attacked by gypsies.
They drag him out into the woods, all the way back to the camp, and boom!
Curse-o-matic pops the dice."
"Drusilla would have
heard some of this story from Darla," Angel said. "I told of her
some of the rest myself, back in 1998. So she knows where she needs to
be."
"Somewhere between your
front door and the gypsies," Fred said. "So right outside your
front door is where we need to be."
"See, Angel?"
Cordelia said. She spoke playfully, but Fred could hear the gentler tone
beneath her words. "We know the drill. We know what we're doing. We're
ready."
Angel straightened up a
little and actually smiled at Cordelia. "Yeah," he said. "We
are." He glanced at the others. "Have you guys slept enough? Had
plenty to eat?"
"Too much adrenalin to
do more than nap," Fred said. "And we've eaten. That goulash was
the -- goulashiest."
"So, now we get to call
for our wagon," Gunn said. He didn't look happy. "Are we gonna
have one of these gypsies driving us?"
Cordelia shrugged. "I can
ride, but I never tried to drive a wagon or carriage or anything. So I
guess we'd better ask."
Gunn looked even less happy.
"I'd much rather have somebody who didn't mostly want us dead behind
the wheel. Well, not 'wheel,' really, but --"
"I can handle the
reins," Fred said. When the rest of them stared at her, she shrugged.
"My granddaddy had horses out on his farm."
"You learn how to
handle horses in Texas," Cordelia said. "See, I KNEW the flyover
states had a purpose."
***
Memories were dreams, insubstantial
and ever-changing, and not to be trusted. But there were a few, a very few,
which never changed, which were somehow more real than the rest.
Dru remembered a time before
the cold and the hunger and the constant confusion, a time when everything
had made a lot more sense than it did now. She remembered the taste of
bread dipped in warm sweet milk, eaten sitting at the feet of an old woman
whose thumbs clicked as she knitted. She remembered picking up the needles
herself and crying when the delicate pattern of yarn disintegrated in her
clumsy fingers. She remembered a kindly voice telling her, "The whole
pattern hangs by a single stitch, my dear. Drop one, and it all
unravels."
Change one stitch, and
everything would fall apart. A stitch in time...
Dru looked down at the gold
ring she'd slid on her finger for safekeeping. It was the needle, and time
was the thread. She would change this one stitch.
Daddy would come back. Or
else never leave.
The cathedral was quiet: on
this bitter November afternoon, most of the pious had decided to choose the
warmth of their homes over godliness. Dru wasn't cold -- she'd met a kind
man who'd given her his woolen cloak and his nice, warm blood. Her tummy
was full and her head buzzed as she walked down the aisles, chills running
up and down her back from the knowledge of the cross behind her. She wasn't
precisely sure what was supposed to happen next, but that didn't concern
her -- Dru never planned further ahead than her next footstep, and yet
somehow she was always just where she needed to be.
She knew she was in the
right place, again, when she heard her name being spoken.
"Come on, Drusilla. I
know something's wrong. You can tell me what it is. You can tell
Spike."
She ducked behind a pew and
waited. When Spike and the other Drusilla appeared, she pushed herself
further back into the shadows and watched them. Spike's hair was that
boring old color again, and the her-who-wasn't-her was wearing that lovely
plaid skirt, the one that made her think of thistles and dirks and
beheadings. Dru remembered wearing it, and there she was, wearing it. It
was like one of those funny stories, she decided, the ones Spike used to
like to stare at on the glowing television-box, the stories of people who
weren't really real. Drusilla thought those were silly stories -- why would
anyone be interested in people who weren't real? This story was much
better, because it was real, and because she was going to change it.
"Didn't you like the
vagrant?" Spike smacked his mouth with some distaste. Their footsteps
echoed on the stone. "Don't blame you. That was cheap plonk he'd been
drinking. Bit of an aftertaste, there."
The other Drusilla peered
over Spike's shoulder, and her eyes met Dru's. At first Dru felt confused
-- then she smiled at the other Drusilla. The other Drusilla hesitated,
then smiled back.
"Spike," the other Drusilla murmured, "I'm cold. Kill me
something warm. Something nice."
From where she stood, Dru
could see Spike grin as he put his finger under the other Drusilla's chin,
tilting her head up toward him. "That's more like my girl. You wait
here. I'll try and find someone who's been drinking a little less. Or at
least a little less dangerously. I'm sure there's a nice prior or friar
downstairs." He paused. "Any particular denomination? All right.
I'll be off then."
He disappeared into the
outer chambers of the cathedral, and Dru came forward, out of the shadows
of the pews. She waved at the other Drusilla, who bounced on her heels and
clapped her hands in glee. "There's two of me!" the other
Drusilla said. "Do you remember things forwards, like I do?"
"And backward,"
Dru said. "But I have more backwards than you do."
The other Drusilla nodded.
Lowering her voice, she whispered, "He's going away. Soon. Daddy's
going away, and none of them care."
"He won't come back
until he's happy," Dru told her, taking the other Drusilla's hands in
hers. They were cold and pale and exactly like her own.
"What makes him
happy?"
"A slayer," Dru
said. "A slayer in his thoughts and his heart and his bed. And Spike
will follow."
The other Drusilla's eyes
filled with tears. "I'm a good girl. Aren't I a good girl?"
"Don't fret, pretty.
All the stitches will come undone."
The other Drusilla looked
hopeful, but uncertain. "How?"
Dru let go of the other
Drusilla's hands. "Like this," she said, then hit her over the
head.
The other Drusilla's eyes
rolled up into her skull, and she slid down on to the cathedral's cold
stone floor. Dru took her by the ankles and dragged her into a confessional.
Once they were out of sight, she set to work unbuttoning the other
Drusilla's velvet cloak, followed by the basque and the skirt and layers of
petticoats and corsets she wore underneath it. Corsets were so stiff, and
they hurt so. Oh, how she had missed corsets. And what pretty, pretty skin
she had. What pretty marks Spike and Darla and Angelus all made. Maybe
she'd have such pretty marks again soon.
The last buttons slid
through their buttonholes just as she heard footsteps approaching. Dru stepped
back out into the church at the same time as Spike rounded the corner,
pulling a half-unconscious man with dark hair and swarthy skin behind him.
He was smiling, obviously pleased with himself. "You wanted something
hot -- this one was in charge of the spices for the monsignor's kitchen. At
least, that would explain the paprika." He noticed the feet sticking
out of the confessional and looked disappointed. "Oh, you've eaten
already."
"Just a taste,"
Dru told him. She smoothed down the front of her gown. "Is this a
pretty dress, Spike?"
Spike let go of the cook,
who collapsed on to the floor with a moan of pain. He came toward Dru,
taking her by the shoulders and kissing her deeply. She felt the thrill of
being worshipped, as she deserved. "'Course it is, love."
She smiled at him. "I
missed the pretty dresses. I don't like dressing like a man."
Spike laughed. "You
should try it. A bit racy, that. But if you think I'm putting on corsets
and a bustle, think again." The cook moaned again and tried desperately
to crawl away from them. Spike stopped him by bringing his boot down on the
man's hand. "You want any of this? Before it gets cold?"
"Save him for
afters," Dru said. She held out her arm and smiled when Spike took it.
As they started to walk away, she said, "I dreamed there was another
me. A me who wasn't. Could you stake another you?"
Spike thought for a second.
"Someone who looked like me, you mean? Yeah, I reckon I could."
He grinned. "I wouldn't, though. I'd keep the bugger around for a bit,
see what I looked like with different hair, make sure my clothes looked
right, that kind of thing. It would be like a mirror you could maim."
"Mirrors have sharp
edges, and they cut," she said. "The sharp edges came crashing
down on my head, only it wasn't my head at all."
"That's a lovely story,
pet," Spike said absently.
"Yes, the story's
lovely," Dru said blissfully, "now I'm telling it."
********************
Chapter Four
********************
Cordelia sniffled. "You've got to tell me how you keep from sneezing
with all this hay."
"I avoid
breathing," Angel replied.
"Of course you
do." Cordelia sighed. "I guess Tavist-D was invented a long time
after 1898, huh?"
"You don't have to ride
back here with me," Angel said. Cordelia was sitting beside him in the
back of their borrowed transportation, a lieterwagon with a heavy cloth
drape covering its top and sides. The drape was effective at keeping out
the late-afternoon light, but unfortunately equally effective at keeping in
dust from the hay piled inside. The gypsies hadn't bothered cleaning out
the wagon on their behalf. Fred was handling the horses up front with Gunn
by her side, and Angel was sure there was room for Cordelia up there as
well.
"I'm going any time
now," she insisted. "I'm gonna be there to see Old Evil You come
barreling out of the house. Do you think I'd miss the chance to see you
with even dorkier hair than you now have?"
"First of all, Golden
Shimmer, my hair looks fine," Angel said, hoping this was true.
"And second, you don't have to ride back here at all, if it's making
you uncomfortable."
Cordelia didn't even bother
reacting to the Golden Shimmer remark. She put the bundle of twenty-first
century clothes she was holding on her lap to one side, allowing her to
lean closer to Angel. In a softer tone, she said, "I just wanted to --
Angel, this is all pretty intense. Even for me, and I'm not the one having
the real-life flashback. And this is a bad time for this to happen -- not
that there's a good time to have your psycho ex try and mess with history
--"
Angel interjected,
"Cordy, I'm all right. At least as close to all right as I'm going to
get for a while."
Only after he said it did
Angel realize it was true. In Cordelia's face, he could see an echo of his
inner surprise, but even as she opened her mouth to ask him about it, Gunn
called to them. "I think we're at the right place, Angel. You wanna
catch a glimpse of this and see?"
"Sure," Angel
said. He ducked into one side of the wagon as Gunn pulled the drape back,
revealing a slim, bright triangle of daylight. Fred's hand -- holding a
tiny mirror -- swerved around, showing him the sunlit world outside.
He squinted, trying to
remember the street and recognize it in the unfamiliar afternoon light. At
last Fred's swiveling wrist hit the right angle, and he quickly said,
"There. Stop there."
The villa. Slate roof and
gables. The deep score in the door, made by the flailing boots of one of
their victims. Angel glanced at Cordelia and nodded.
"We've got our home base,"
Cordelia confirmed for Fred and Gunn. "How long before Elvis leaves
the building?"
"I ran out just a
minute or two after the sun went down," Angel said. "And it's not
long until sunset now."
"Then I'm going
up," Cordelia said. She hopped out of the back of the wagon, and Angel
could hear her going around to join Fred and Gunn. As she went, she called,
"So, you and Darla are having a big fight in there, huh?"
She was just trying to keep
him talking, Angel knew. He didn't mind. It would help him to focus on what
had happened, to hold the necessary memories close. "Not that big a
fight. At least, not by our standards. Some of our battles weren't on the
same scale as your usual relationship spats."
"I don't think I want
to hear about those," Fred said hurriedly.
"What were you fighting
about?" Gunn asked. "She eat somebody you had your mind on?"
"No." He
remembered Darla, icicle-sharp and gleaming in white satin, the
disapproving purse of her lips. "We were supposedly fighting about a
kill I wanted to make that night. She was in the mood for something
different."
Cordelia said, "What do
you mean, supposedly?"
"Really, the fight was
about something we didn't talk about," Angel said slowly.
"Sometimes she ruled me. I mean, she dictated everything I did, everything
I felt. I existed only for her."
He could hear Cordelia
mutter, "So glad I asked."
"But sometimes --
sometimes I ruled over her," he continued. "Then she was a slave
to me. We'd go months or years at a stretch, one of us controlling the
other, and then we'd switch. When we were here, in Romania -- I ruled her.
Darla wanted the whip hand back, and I wasn't ready to give it to
her." He'd never consciously understood that, not once in the 150
years he and Darla were together, nor in the century after her. How was it
he was only realizing that now?
"Please, in future, try
to leave any whip details out of your memories, okay?" Cordelia
sounded a little more terse than usual. "Get back to the color
commentary."
"I had this kill set
up," Angel said. Somehow, returning to this place, at this moment, was
causing details of memory to resurface for the first time in decades.
"He was an English lord. His name was -- Dunstan? Dalton? Something
like that, I think. Anyhow, she thought it was too stagy, and she wanted me
to call it off."
***
He dressed with such care, Darla thought as she watched him. Sliding on his
shirt, enjoying the feel of fabric against his skin. Buttoning up his
waistcoat, his strong hands delicately plucking the whalebone buttons.
Angelus took a positively decadent interest in his clothing.
She often enjoyed watching
him get dressed for just that reason; his sensual delight in the smallest
details was one of the qualities she prized most in her lover. But tonight,
for some reason, it annoyed her. "He hasn't even invited you
yet," she snapped from her place on the bed.
"He will," Angelus
said, self-assured and smiling. Darla fought back the desire to slap him.
"And when he does, I shall be ready. Now, tell me, my pretty mirror --
how do I look?"
Darla folded her arms in
front of her. "Like an overweening dandy, if you must know."
Angelus just grinned more
widely. "Ah, such temper. I believe someone's feeling neglected."
He slid his hand along her leg, brushing aside the white silk of her robe.
"Don't worry. I'll make up for lost time when I come home. You know
how I get after a particularly fine kill."
The liquid warmth in his
voice threatened to melt her resolve, but only for a moment. Darla jerked
away from him and slid off the other side of the bed. "When you come
home, you may have to take out your -- enthusiasm -- on Drusilla. Or maybe
Spike would be happy to service you. I expect to be elsewhere, enjoying
other company."
"Other company, is
it?" Angelus' eyes glinted dangerously as he crossed the floor.
"And what other company might that be?"
The only company Darla had
had in mind was that of a few warm-blooded street urchins no one would
miss. But Angelus' anger was immediate and satisfying; it aroused her more
than his smugness had. She decided to embellish the lie.
Smiling at him, Darla lifted
her chin. "While you've been dining with your bookish young lord, I've
had to fill so many hours. What luck, to find someone so willing to help me
while away the long, lonely nights."
Angelus stared at her as
though he'd never seen her before. "You know I don't begrudge you a
sailor now and then," he said. "You allow me my nuns, after all.
But I won't have you throwing some scrap of a mortal in my face."
"You won't have
it?" Darla repeated incredulously, more outraged by these simple words
than anything he'd said or done in years. "YOU won't have it? And am I
to live by what you will and won't have?"
"I think perhaps you
are," Angelus growled.
She laughed in his face.
"Well, then, you can think again."
***
"Girl was gettin' down an' dirty with somebody else?" Gunn said.
"Maybe," Angel
said. "She lied a lot, but then so did I. In any case, that wasn't the
point of the argument."
Fred said, "Just in
case you were wondering, Charles, if this ever comes up for us, it WILL be
the point of the argument."
"Back at ya," Gunn
said. Angel could tell by the sound of his voice that Gunn was smiling.
"So, Mr. and Mrs.
Co-dependency are in a plain old power struggle," Cordelia said.
"But if you guys did this all the time, why did you run off and leave
her?"
"Because running off
and leaving each other was something else we did all the time," Angel
said. He settled back into the hay; he still had a couple of minutes left.
The setting sun made the dark red of the wagon's drape the color of fire.
"But we always came back. I didn't have any idea that this time, when
I left -- it would be for good."
Not quite for good. Angel remembered a scant few weeks in China, days of
desperate lovemaking and nightmare-riddled sleep, nights of deceit and
trickery and lies. He remembered a hotel room with a warm, human Darla who
had given him her life and her soul seconds before Drusilla took both from
her. He remembered one night in his room at the Hyperion, broken glass on
his floor and in his bed. Worst of all, he remembered her suffering in
labor, bleeding and despairing, giving him their son as she gave herself up
to die.
Not these memories, Angel
reminded himself. He tried to pull his thoughts back to what would have to
pass for the here and now. "Darla claimed that I had forgotten
her," he said, hoping that Gunn and Fred and Cordy hadn't noticed his
long silence. "She said wanted someone who would never forget
her."
***
"I've been thinking," Darla said, stretching out her arms as if
admiring them. "Spike's a hindrance, and nothing but. He's forever
wrecking our plans, ruining our hiding places, the like."
"As he has been for
almost twenty years," Angelus snapped. He was agitated now, as Darla
had intended he should be. "I don't see what this painfully obvious
fact has to do with your poor taste in infidelities."
"Let's replace
him," she said. She gave Angelus her most stunning smile as she began
tucking her hair up into a chignon. The posture of her arms, raised behind
her head, lifted her breasts in a way she knew Angelus found very appealing
-- not that she intended to fulfill his desire, even if she did succeed in
reawakening it. "I'll even let you do the staking, as much as I'd
enjoy it. But my treat would come later."
Angelus stopped pacing and
stared at her, hard and cold. "Don't tell me you seriously intend to
turn your latest infatuation."
"He's far superior to
Spike in every respect. He'll make a good companion for us. For me,
especially. While you're off amusing yourself with your elaborate games, he
can amuse me here. And then we'll all be happy." Darla paused a
moment, purely to heighten the impact of what she said next. "Besides,
let's not forget -- you owe everything you are to my capacity for
infatuation."
That reminder of his own
origins had exactly the effect Darla had hoped to achieve. "I forbid
it!" Angelus exploded.
"You forbid it? You
dare forbid ME from doing anything?" Darla wanted to attack him. To
rip his silken skin to shreds with her claws, drink his blood and laugh in
his face. "And this is all the notice I can expect from you? I warn
you now, Angelus -- if you think so little of me, others don't. And Spike
isn't the only one who can be replaced."
***
Gunn said, "Wait. She was going to off this Spike guy? Just -- poof?
Like that?"
"That was Darla's
solution to anything who got in her way," Angel said. The sun was low
now. Angel could feel its weight lifting from him, feel his body becoming
stronger and more free. So close now. So close. "Humans, vampires,
anyone. I don't think she really intended to get rid of Spike -- but she
would have done it. So would I. And Spike would have staked both of us, if
he'd thought he could get away with it. That's just how things were."
"You do realize just
how dysfunctional all this was, right?" Gunn asked. "Compared to
this, the guests on Springer look normal."
"How long now?"
Fred asked quietly.
"Not long," Angel
said. "I ran out just after sundown. The last things we said to each
other --" How trivial it all seemed now. Such a stupid reason to go
running off. And to this he owed everything he'd become, everything he'd
done -- to this stupid fight. "She said I had nothing to give her
anymore. And I told her I wasn't going to waste my gifts on an ungrateful
bitch."
"You are SO lucky
you're not dust," Cordelia said.
***
Darla followed him down the stairs, shouting at him all the while. "I
don't need this from you, Angelus. I don't need ANYTHING from you. You have
nothing to give me anymore."
Angelus whirled around as if
to shout back at her. Then, to her surprise, he hesitated. Slowly, a
catlike smile spread across his face. "I think perhaps I do." He
continued down the stairs, and Darla stared after him for a moment before
she followed.
"What's that supposed
to mean?" she demanded.
Angelus called from the
foyer. "I killed some intruders for you this morning, remember?"
"Oh, please,"
Darla scoffed. "As if you didn't enjoy that yourself."
"Killing them proves
nothing," Angelus said. She could hear the sounds of rummaging, as if
through a box or trunk. "But taking the time to find out what they
brought with them..."
Unwillingly, Darla felt the
tiniest bit curious. "They brought something interesting?"
"Many fine
things," Angelus said soothingly. He came back into the room with his
hands behind his back. "Now, you see, you or Spike -- or that fool of
a mortal, whoever he may be -- you'd just kill them as quick as ever you
could, get rid of the evidence even quicker. But I take my time. And even
you'll admit that's where my patience brings rewards."
With that, Angelus brought
his hand forward, and in it was --
"What is that?"
Darla said.
"It's a bracelet."
"I can see that,"
she replied, not even bothering to sound angry. Cautiously, she brought her
fingers toward its glittering surface. So many colors, and they floated
above the material, instead of lying within it. A bracelet of a thousand
jewels, and yet it was perfectly smooth. "What metal is this? I've
never seen the like."
"Nor have I,"
Angelus said. "But it's beautiful, isn't it?"
"Oh, yes," she
whispered.
***
"Then she slapped me," Angel said.
"You had it coming,
buddy," Cordelia confirmed.
"I slapped her
back," Angel said. "She told me it would be a cold day in hell
before I slept with her again, and I told her that the thought of sleeping
with her put me in mind of both hell and cold days --"
"Whoo, this got
nasty," Gunn said. "Damn, cuz, no wonder you remember all
this."
"This wasn't that
unusual," Angel said. "I told you." But the memories seemed
to be growing stronger by the moment. His past was his present again.
Everything happening across the street -- it was as real to him as though
it had happened yesterday. No, he reminded himself. It's happening now.
"Then she started throwing things at me. Lamps, pictures, anything she
could get her hands on."
"I guess the crashing
starts anytime now," Fred said.
***
"I was saving this," Angelus said. His voice was low and smooth,
and Darla lifted her eyes to his slowly, almost coquettishly. He smiled.
"I wanted to give it to you on a special occasion."
Darla dimpled up at him.
"Today's very special."
Angelus took her hand in
his, and the touch of his skin against hers excited her against her will.
He gently slipped the bracelet over her fingers, up her arm, caressing her
as he did so. "Do you really believe I don't think of you?" he
murmured. "I think of you all the time. Even as I plan my surprise for
Lord Percy -- I'm also planning surprises for you."
"I like this kind of
surprise," Darla said. She turned her arm this way and that, and the
bracelet caught the light in a dizzy flush of colors. Darla laughed like a
spoiled, greedy child, her anger forgotten.
***
"Just a minute or two more now," Angel warned. Already, almost no
light was coming through the drape. He got to his knees and began brushing
away the hay.
"We're keeping a
lookout," Cordelia assured him from the front of the wagon. He could
hear her alighting, the soft pat of her feet on the dirt road. "Just
how does this big fight wrap up?"
"I told her I was tired
of her behaving like a fishwife," Angel said. "She told me she
was tired of me, period. I threw one of the lamps back at her, just as I
felt the sun go down. Darla was screaming at me as I went out the
door."
"Can't wait to hear her
voice again," Gunn said dryly. "Okay, it's showtime."
***
Angelus pulled Darla close, and she didn't bother fighting him. She didn't
want to fight him. Her sweet, darling boy. Always thinking of her. His
games really weren't so bad -- not when they brought her dividends such as
this. "Mmmm," she said, moving sinuously against him. "What
a fine, generous man I have."
"And what a beautiful,
desirous woman I have," Angelus said. He ran his tongue along the
length of her throat, and she shivered. He whispered, "Wanting as much
as she is wanted."
Darla slid her arms around
his shoulders, which had the dual effect of drawing him nearer and bringing
the strange, glittering bracelet back into her view. "Lord Dalton is a
proper English gentleman," she murmured. "Surely he won't have
dinner so early as this."
"Probably not,"
Angelus agreed. He began untying the sash of her robe. "He'll probably
be an hour or so sending his invitation."
"Only an hour?"
Darla pouted. "You with your preening. It would take your more than an
hour to get dressed again." She stuck out her bottom lip,
mock-sorrowful. "How disappointing."
"I'm a patient
man," Angelus said. "But I can work quickly when the incentive is
right." He tugged her robe away from her shoulders, leaving her naked
to his gaze -- save for the bracelet. "Leave that on."
"As if I'd remove
it," she said. "Even for you."
Angelus laughed and swung
her up into his arms. "Let's go upstairs," he said. "And
there we'll see just what you will and won't do for me."
"Yes," she said,
nipping at his throat as he carried her up. "Oh, yes."
***
"The sun's going down," Angel said.
"We can actually see it
this time," Cordelia said. "Okay, watching for Dru. Watching the
door."
Angel lifted the corner of
the wagon's drape, giving him his first direct look at the street. The
familiarity of it hit him hard, but he focused on the door. "Any
moment."
"She's gonna waylay him
right here. Right here," Gunn said. "But we are waiting."
The sun was gone. He could
feel the remnants of it against his skin, remember that it was just as it
had felt when he stormed out that night. "It's happening," he
said. "It's happening -- now."
Angel tensed. So did the
others. The door didn't open.
Then the door didn't open.
Several minutes later, the
door still hadn't opened.
"Uh, Angel?" Fred
said. "When you say 'now,' when exactly do you mean?"
"This is it,"
Angel said, stunned. "This -- this should be it."
"It's okay,"
Cordelia said quietly. "It was a hundred and some odd years ago,
Angel. You're off by a couple minutes. No big. It's gonna happen any
second."
"I'm not off,"
Angel insisted. "I remember this. I know how it happened, except --
except it's not happening."
"Dru," Gunn said
flatly. "Gal got in there and screwed this up already."
"She couldn't
have," Angel said. "The back entrance was shaded from the sun
first thing in the morning, but only then. There's no way she could have
gotten in any later, and there's no way she could have gotten from where we
were last night to here any faster."
"She could've used a
blanket," Cordelia said. "You do all the time -- plenty of vamps
have ways of moving around in the daytime."
Angel shook his head.
"Drusilla's terrified of daylight. She doesn't understand that
blankets will protect her. If she didn't get in first thing in the morning,
she didn't get in at all."
"Are you sure?"
Fred said. She clearly hoped Angel would answer quickly in the affirmative.
But the door stayed closed.
"I don't know,"
Angel said. "I don't know what Dru's done. I don't know where she is.
All I know is --"
"-- you're not running
out to get cursed," Cordelia said. "When I get my hands on Dru
--"
***
Drusilla could hear the voices as though they were at a very great
distance. They rang like bells, great clangy bells. Everything in her head
was ringing, and Drusilla did not like it at all. She tried to put her
fingers in her ears, but her arms wouldn't move. Naughty arms.
She felt fingers -- warm,
human fingers, so very appetizing -- against her throat. The voice nearest
to her spoke again, in that language she hadn't bothered to learn. She
didn't have to know what the words meant, when she could see the thoughts
behind them, flickering and spinning like a zoetrope machine.
She opened her eyes and sat
up.
The priest -- nasty priest,
wearing a nasty cross -- gave a cry of surprise and leaped back. He called
out to another priest, who hurried over to join him at Drusilla's side.
The priests had found all
the dead people in their church, and they thought she was a dead person
too, and they were right. But she was the only dead person who would get up
again.
The first priest clasped his
hands together and, face alight with joy, began to babble loudly in that
silly language. Drusilla ignored him as she attempted a mental feat she
undertook only rarely, and never with much success. She tried to
concentrate.
Her reflection had hit her
on the head. Naughty reflection. Now Drusilla was wearing her reflection's
dress, which was very strange -- the crimson cloth glittered as she moved,
the stitches were so tiny they must have been sewn by fairies, the skirt
was so short that her legs showed almost to the knees, and she hadn't a
corset at all. "How very daring," she said to herself. "I'm
a boHEEEMian." That was a funny word, and she said it to herself a few
dozen times. If she was wearing her reflection's clothes, did that mean she
was her reflection, now? Was her reflection, her?
The priests were still
jabbering, their words clogging her ears and their thoughts muddling her
brain. The crosses they wore made Drusilla's skin itch. So she grabbed
their heads and smashed them together as hard as she could.
So much clanging! But the
bells broke, and now they were all soft.
Drusilla thoughtfully lifted
her bloody fingers to his mouth and began licking them, one by one. She
felt pleased with herself, because now it was nice and quiet again, and she
could think clearly, about important things.
She wanted her own pretty
dress back. Then she could be herself again.
Pleased with this line of
reasoning, Drusilla got up and headed purposefully out of the church.
***
"All right, all right!" Spike was laughing as he lifted the
crowbar. "What is it I'm supposed to say again?"
"Batter up!" Dru
cried. "You say batter up! Say it, say it, say it --"
"Batter up!" Spike
yelled. Dru hefted the pitcher in her hands, then tossed it the length of
the china shop. Spike swung the bar and smashed the pitcher to pieces.
"Run the bases!"
Dru said. "You have to run the bases, if you're a good boy."
"Then I shouldn't run
them at all," Spike pointed out. But he began running them anyway. The
china shop's owner was first -- at any rate, what was left of him -- and
the two patrons who'd entered that evening were second and third. Home was
Spike's own coat, but Dru didn't intend to let him get there.
She ran to his coat, trying
to reach out and touch him. "You're out!" she said, giggling.
"You're out!"
"Am I?" Spike
said. He was grinning insanely at her. "What are the rules of this
game -- what is it called again?"
"Something-ball,"
Dru said. "There's a song all about it. Peanuts and crackerjack and
huge leather mittens. They play it in America."
"You've never been to
America, you silly bint," Spike said.
"I've been all sorts of
places," Dru said. "You'll go to all sorts of places too. And we
shan't have any fighting, and you'll make your hair all sorts of pretty
colors, and we will have Daddy and Grandmother with us forever and
ever."
Spike didn't seem as happy
about that last part. "Oh, yeah, there's the icing on the cake."
"Won't be any nasty
slayers," Dru said. She could see this better future now, full and
shining, like the moon. The moon would be coming out soon, and she could
dance for it in the streets, with Spike by her side. "Won't be any
metal in your mind to take away your thirst. The dollies won't pack up
their bags and hide."
"You said it. None of
that," Spike said. He sounded a little tired. "We ought to be
getting back, Dru. Angelus is going out, and you know how Darla gets when
she's bored."
"No," Dru said.
"We won't go back. I've come back, and now there's only going forward.
Everything's all right again. Let's play something-ball some more."
"You're batty,"
Spike said. Dru drew her arms up and pretended to be a bat, flapping all
around the china shop. She danced over the bodies of the people they'd
killed, and Spike laughed and laughed. The boning of her corset cut into
her skin, sweet familiar pain. "Ah, what the hell," Spike finally
said. "Darla can amuse herself for one night."
Dru grabbed up the crowbar.
"In the belfry," she sighed, smiling dreamily at him.
"Batter up, bats up, bats, bats, bats."
Spike selected a heavy
platter and began making moves like a discus thrower. "Play
ball!"
***
The sun had gone down a full
ten minutes ago, and the darkness on the street, unbroken by electric
streetlights or car headlamps, was complete. But the windows of the villa
glowed with a gentle golden tint, lit from within by oil lamps and candles.
From time to time, Cordelia could see shapes moving behind the drawn
blinds, evidence that the vampires were still inside the house.
"That's it," Angel
said at last. "I'm going in there."
He jumped down from the
cart, but before he could start crossing the street, Cordelia grabbed his
arms; Gunn helped hold him back. "SO not a good idea," she said.
"What are you planning on doing? Because somehow I don't think
knocking on the door and explaining nicely to yourself that you have to
come outside so you can begin a century of torment is gonna work."
"I'm going to make sure
he gets cursed," Angel said, "even if it means I have to knock
him -- me -- him out, tie him up and drag him to the gypsies myself."
As he spoke, his arms and shoulders tensed, as if he were getting ready to
do just that.
"Darla's in there,
too," Gunn reminded him. "The way I remember it, she was pretty
mean in a fight -- and I don't guess she got much softer in the last
hundred years. You gonna take two to one odds?"
"Maybe five to
one," Fred said. "Angelus and Darla being alone in the house is
the way things should have been. But we know Drusilla's changed something
already. Maybe she found herself and Spike and told them everything. Maybe
they're all in there right now."
That, finally, seemed to get
through to Angel. His shoulders slumped, and he shrugged off their
restraining hands. "This is all wrong," he said.
"And we're gonna put it
right," Cordelia told him firmly. For whatever reason, Angel seemed to
have shaken free of the worst of his depression; she didn't intend to let
him sink back into it. "So, the first thing we've gotta figure out is
how to get your evil ol' self out of there. Ideas?"
Gunn turned to Angel.
"Where were you headed when you stormed out? 'Cause I'm thinkin',
maybe if we found another way to get you to go there --"
But Angel was shaking his
head in frustration. "I don't remember. When I left, I was angry. I
wasn't thinking about where I was going."
"Maybe you were going
to that guy Dalton's place," Cordelia suggested.
"No," Angel said.
"Fighting with Darla made me lose any interest I'd had in him. When I
left the house, I just wanted to --" Angel hesitated, then finished
reluctantly, "I just wanted to kill the first person I came across.
Preferably as brutally as possible."
Gunn crossed his arms.
"I don't guess you ever thought of working out your excess aggression
some other way. You know, punching bag, quick game of squash, that kinda
thing."
Angel gave him a look, then
went on, "I wanted to kill someone, but I never got the opportunity. I
got as far as the theatre when the gypsies jumped me --" He stopped,
and suddenly his face cleared. "The theatre. It happened in an
alleyway behind the theatre. They had garlic and crosses and holy water,
and there were about fifty of them. They caught me off guard, overpowered
me and dragged me back to their camp. I remembered all that, but I'd forgotten
it happened outside the theatre. How did I forget that?"
"Just a guess, but
maybe being beaten to a pulp by a vengeful mob took your mind off the
scenery for a second," Cordelia said. "We'll forgive you."
"The theatre,"
Fred said. "That's where we've got to get you -- I mean, him --
to."
"Heads up, guys,"
Gunn said suddenly. "Someone's coming."
A cloaked figure --
indistinct in the darkness but definitely female -- was walking up to the
villa's front entrance. "Is that Drusilla?" Fred asked.
"And if it is, which
one of them is it?" Cordelia added. She sighed, thinking that the one
thing the world emphatically did not need was multiple Drusillas.
"That's not Dru,"
Angel said with certainty.
"Damn," Gunn said.
"Then it must be the nineteenth-century equivalent of a pizza delivery
guy. Except, if we don't do something, she's gonna be the hot snack. Come
on."
Without waiting for a
response, he headed off across the street. "Charles, wait!" Fred
called after him.
It was too late. The cloaked
woman had already put her hand on the chain which hung at the side of the
villa's front door. Even from her position across the street, Cordelia
could hear the faint clanging of bells inside the house.
"If they open the door
and see Charles too --" Fred said.
She didn't have to finish
the thought. Immediately Angel started running toward the villa; Fred and
Cordy quickly followed him, stumbling as they went. Lucky dead guy with his
night vision, Cordelia thought. He can just get around all the loose stones
and -- eww -- horse poo on the roads. But, smelly-stuff danger to cloth
shoes aside, she couldn't look down: she could only focus straight ahead,
on the villa's front entrance, where Gunn stood in plain view.
She barely slowed down as
they reached him. Somewhere inside the house, bells were still ringing
loudly.
"-- You gotta get out
of here," Gunn was saying to the cloaked woman.
"Who are you?" the
woman gasped in an English accent. Not even a woman, Cordelia realized -- a
girl, maybe even younger than she was herself.
No time for "Gilligan's
Island," Cordelia decided. As they all reached the villa's steps, she
said, "We're time travelers from the twenty first century. Inside this
house, there are a couple of vampires who'll kill you if you're still here
when the door opens. So now we've got the Mystery Science Theatre 3000
explanation out of the way, how about you just RUN?"
The look on the girl's face
changed from surprise to fear. "Gypsies! You're gypsies!"
"No, we're not,"
Fred said. She glanced down at her borrowed clothes. "Although I see
why you might think that."
The girl started to sob.
Sinking down on to her knees, she clasped her hands together in
supplication. "Please, don't kill me. I've nothing of value. I'm just
a servant --"
"No one is gonna get
killed," Gunn said. "Not if you listen to me --"
But the girl was beyond
listening, Cordelia realized. She was shaking with terror, and her sobs
were becoming louder and higher-pitched.
"Somebody better get
her quiet --" Fred began.
Cordelia looked worriedly at
the villa's entrance. Angelus and Darla were inside. Why hadn't the bell
ringing brought them to the door? If the bell-ringing hadn't done it,
surely the screaming would soon --
There was a thunk, and the
servant girl's cries abruptly stopped. When Cordelia looked around, the
girl was lying unconscious on the steps. Angel was standing over her, fist
closed.
"You hit her!"
Cordelia said to him accusingly.
Angel looked uncomfortable.
"I had to stop her screaming, and gentle persuasion didn't seem like
an option."
"Guys, maybe we should
move," Fred said. "You know, before they decide to find out what
all the noise out here is about."
That provoked an immediate
response. Gunn and Angel picked up the girl's unconscious body between
them, while Fred and Cordy found a path around the side of the house. It
wasn't until they were safely out of sight of the door that Cordelia began
to feel even a little safer.
Gunn and Angel laid the
servant girl out on the cool ground, and Cordelia checked her over. A large
bump was already swelling just above the girl's ear, and when she woke up
she was going to have a particularly unattractive bruise. "You are SO
lucky this isn't 2002," Cordelia said to Angel, "or you'd be
looking at a personal injury suit for sure."
But Angel looked as if he
had other things on his mind. "This isn't right. I have to think about
this."
"About which
part?" Gunn said. "The part where history's all screwed up, or
the part where Dru couldn't have done it, except that she did, or the part
where we don't know what the hell is going on?"
"The part where you
saved her life," Angel said.
"That's not top on our
list of worries," Gunn said. But then he hesitated, realizing what
Angel meant a half-second before Cordelia did herself. She stared down at
the unconscious girl in the street, feeling vaguely sick in her stomach.
"You weren't there when
she arrived before," Cordelia whispered. "I mean, in the history
that was supposed to happen. But Darla might have been."
"So Darla might have
killed her," Fred said, catching on. "Which means --"
Fred didn't say it. Neither
did anyone else. History was even more out of joint than it had been
before.
Cordelia wondered what they
could do, then realized the answer and rejected it in the same moment.
"Angel, we can't," she said. "We can't kill her. I know it
changes things even more, but -- we just can't."
"No, we can't,"
Angel agreed, to Cordelia's immense relief. But his face was still troubled
as he said, "We don't know if we changed history here. So we also
don't know if we'd change it by killing her. That means we leave her
alone."
The night breeze moved the
girl's cloak, and Cordelia saw there was an envelope tucked into it. She
took it out and opened it; the card inside was cream-colored and inscribed
with elegant, old-fashioned script. She read it out loud for the benefit of
the others: "'Percival, Lord Dalton, requests the pleasure of your
company for dinner at his home in Leiberstrasse, Sighisoara, on November
16, 1898, at nine o'clock.'"
"Give me that,"
Angel said. He took the card from her. "This is one invitation I won't
be accepting." He ripped it to shreds, taking out some of that
repressed violence on the paper; Cordelia watched him carefully, but Angel
seemed reasonably controlled, at least for the moment.
Then a noise from somewhere
above them made them all look up. A light shone out from a room on the
villa's upper floor; the window was open, and the sounds coming from within
were clearly audible in the quiet night.
"Oh," Darla's
voice cried. "Oh, ohhh, ahhh, OHHH --"
Even in the darkness,
Cordelia could see Fred turning a brilliant shade of pink. Cordelia herself
was too annoyed to be embarrassed. She folded her arms and looked at Angel.
"Now we know why no one's coming to the door. They're too busy just
coming. I thought you said you FOUGHT with Darla?"
"Apparently we made
up," Angel said uncomfortably.
His embarrassment deepened a
second later, when another voice joined in with Darla's moans. This voice
was lower, male, and instantly familiar to Cordelia. The last time she'd
heard Angel make noises like THAT had been in the freaky haunted dressing
room at the ballet.
Angel winced. Gunn covered
his mouth with his hand, trying very hard not to laugh. Cordelia felt
herself going from annoyed to furious. It was one thing to think about
Angel having sex with Darla, but it was another, altogether more upsetting
thing to think about Angel enjoying sex with Darla. Not to mention sounding
just like he had that one time he'd made out with Cordelia at the ballet,
even if neither of them had really been themselves at the time, because a
girl liked to feel special, possessed or not. Cordelia was aware that this
line of reasoning didn't make sense, and she also didn't care. She gave
Angel her best subzero-arctic glare. He winced again.
Fred was staring up at the
window too, but fortunately she was focusing on more important matters.
"I think I know how we can get Angelus out of there."
"You mean, out of
her," Gunn said, smirking. Cordelia and Angel both stared at him until
he became serious. "Okay, what's the plan?"
Fred gazed down at the
still-unconscious servant girl. Then she looked at the shredded invitation
Angel still held in his hand. "Well, it's a little risky..."
***
"That's not risky," Charles said. There was no longer even the
slightest hint of amusement in his voice. "Risky is not putting on a
seatbelt. This is suicide."
Fred took a step back, which
made it easier to look him in the eye. "No, it isn't. It's a
calculated risk. Charles, we're running out of time. If Angelus doesn't get
cursed tonight -- well, history might get changed so much we'd never be
able to put it right." She took a breath, and tried to
sound reassuring as she said, "Besides, if this works, I won't even
have to go into the house."
"IF it works,"
Charles said stonily. "What makes you think you won't end up as
cocktails, just like she would have?"
He pointed down the street,
where Cordelia was bundling the semi-conscious servant girl into a carriage
while Angel paid the driver to take her back to her employer's house. From
the gestures Angel was making to accompany his halting Romanian, Fred
guessed he was saying the girl had been attacked by gypsies -- although
what explanation he was offering for the theft of her servant's uniform was
anyone's guess.
The uniform -- an
over-starched white blouse and black pinafore -- wasn't nearly as warm as
the gypsy clothing had been, and Fred pulled the cloak more tightly around
herself as a chill wind rattled dry leaves along the street. "I've
been with y'all for almost a year now, Charles. I may not be a champion
like Angel or Cordy, or a really great fighter like you and -- like you.
That doesn't mean I can't help. That girl didn't have any idea what she was
getting into, but I do. I've learned a few things, you know -- battle
tactics, and strategy, and --"
"You're not researching
a term paper!" Charles snapped. "This is for real."
Fred blinked; she'd never
heard him get angry like this before. Quietly, she said, "I know it
is. That's why I'm doing it."
Charles began to pace up and
down in front of her. "Why you? Why not Cordy?"
"Because I'm the right
size to wear these clothes," Fred said, gesturing at the servant
girl's uniform she now wore.
"That's a hell of a
stupid reason for risking your life," Charles said angrily.
Fred started to feel herself
getting angry in return. "Then here's a better reason -- this was my
idea, and I can do it, and it's my risk to take." She stepped in front
of him and stopped him from pacing by jabbing her finger in the center of
his chest. "You take risks all the time."
"Like when?"
Charles demanded.
"Like just now! You ran
right up to the front of the house when you thought that girl was in
danger. What if Angelus and Darla HAD answered the door?"
"That was
different."
"How?"
"Because I can look
after myself."
"So can I!"
Charles was staring at her,
a peculiar kind of hurt in his eyes, but it was too late to take it back,
even if she could have. "So can I. Charles, I spent so long in Pylea
looking after myself, and it was so hard to keep doing it, all the time, I
went kinda crazy trying. And then, when I got home, I guess I wanted -- I
needed -- someone else to look after ME for a while. And you did. You make
me feel safe, and that's the best thing you could've done for me, because
now I can be brave again. But you have to let me be brave."
Charles looked at her, and
for a long time his face barely changed. When he finally spoke, his voice
was soft again, and sounded more like the Charles she knew. "I lost so
many people. Lost my friends. Lost my sister. They were all brave, and it
didn't save them. I'm not gonna lose you."
As he finished, Charles put
his arms around her, hugging Fred to himself so fiercely that it was a
little difficult to breathe. She didn't mind.
"That's okay," she
told him. "Now I'm found, I'm not gonna get lost again."
As Angel approached them,
Fred tried out her English accent. "Tell me, guv'nor, did they bleeve
you about the gypsies?"
"Seems like it,"
Angel said. He raised an eyebrow. "That's a little heavy."
"I'm taking the accent
from 'My Fair Lady,'" Fred said. "I guess maybe that's not 100%
accurate."
Angel said, "Say as
little as possible, and just try to not to sound like you come from Texas.
You shouldn't be talking to him for long, so hopefully he won't notice
much."
Charles was still glowering.
"I just wish there was somethin' else we could do to make this safer
apart from voice coaching."
"There might be,"
Angel said. "Do either of you have any string?"
***
The front door bell rang for the third time. Darla propped herself up on
one elbow, so that the bed sheets slipped off her in a manner which Angelus
might almost have thought was unintended, if he hadn't known her as well as
he did. "Aren't you going to answer that?" she asked.
He was too comfortable to
think about moving. "Most likely it's only Spike and Drusilla."
Darla sniffed her derision.
"Hardly. He lacks the requisite gentility and she the soundness of
mind to use a bell pull. Perhaps whomever called earlier, while we
were..." She gave a half smile and dragged her finger down the center
of his chest, "...otherwise occupied has returned. Perhaps it is your
invitation to dine with the foolish Lord Dalton."
The bracelet on her slim
wrist scintillated in a myriad of colors. Angelus caught hold of her hand
and kissed her fingers lightly, one by one. "Should I answer it,
then?"
"One should never
disappoint the aristocracy," Darla murmured, her attention fixed on
the bracelet she wore. She was captivated by it, Angelus saw, as in thrall
to its beauty and novelty as she was to her desire for him. Pretty, foolish
Darla. A vicious, magnificent creature -- but still,
in her cold heart, greedy and selfish and easy to manipulate, if you knew
the tricks. After 150 years, Angelus was pretty sure he'd learned them all.
"You should go," she said.
He savored the subtle
pleasure of victory as he pulled on a robe and left her, and he was
savoring it still when he opened the front door of the house on the cold
night outside. "Yes?"
The girl staring up at him
from the villa's steps was little more than a waif, nearly swamped by her
servant's uniform and cloak. Sounding as if she had rehearsed the words by
rote, she said, "Sir, my master, Lord Dalton, sent me. He wishes to
invite you --"
Angelus smiled.
"-- to meet him outside
the theatre this evening."
Angelus felt his good humor
begin to sour. There was, of course, no reason why Lord Percy couldn't meet
his end anywhere, but Angelus hadn't spent weeks enduring the man's tedious
company for the privilege of drinking from him in some alleyway. No, the
artistry of this kill depended on subverting His Lordship's insufferable
sense of invulnerability, and that could only
be accomplished by demonstrating just how little security he enjoyed, even
in his own home.
"Tell Lord
Dalton," Angelus said, "I very much regret that I have another
engagement this evening." He started to close the door.
"Wait!" the
servant girl said. Her accent was strange -- as if she were aping a
high-class tone, the exact opposite of Spike and his put-on Cockney.
"You have to go!"
It was surprise, more than
anything else, that stayed Angelus' hand on the door. He stared at the
girl, undecided as to whether to be amused or offended. "Perhaps in my
age my hearing is suffering -- did I just hear a maid give a gentleman an
order?"
"No," the girl
said, looking increasingly flustered. "I mean, yes. I mean -- Lord
Dalton said to tell you -- that he has something to give you. A gift."
Now Angelus was curious.
"What manner of gift?"
"Something you'll have
for a very long time," the girl said. "It's -- priceless."
"Intriguing,"
Angelus said, looking at the girl closely for the first time. She was thin,
but her complexion was pleasingly smooth and her eyes were bright. He
wondered if he should present her to Darla, to occupy her while he went
out. Softening his voice, he said to the girl, "You're shivering, my
dear. The night is cold. Won't you step inside?"
The girl hesitated. "Oh
-- oh no," she said at last. "It wouldn't be proper."
"Come, come,"
Angelus said briskly, smiling at her as kindly as he could manage. "We
needn't tell Lord Dalton. And it is only a few minutes by a warm
fire."
Her eyes were wide as she
slowly stood more upright, straightening as she became more confident, her
cloak slipping open slightly to reveal her throat -- and, hanging on a loop
of twine, a small, crudely made cross.
Revulsion lanced through
him, and Angelus fought to keep from wincing. He turned his head slightly
to remove it from his sight. The cross could not have kept him from the
girl if he were truly hungry, but he was not. Neither was Darla. And such a
bony little thing was not worth even the minimal trouble.
"On second thought,"
Angelus said, "go back to your master. Tell him I will join him
outside the theatre, and that I very much look forward to spending tonight
in his delightful company."
At that, the girl looked
relieved. "Yes, sir," she gasped and, before Angelus could
dismiss her, turned and ran down the villa steps and across the street.
Angelus watched her go, amused, before closing the door.
Upstairs, Darla was still
lounging in their bed. "My beautiful boy," she said to Angelus as
he returned, her earlier displeasure entirely forgotten. When he reached
for his waistcoat and jacket instead of rejoining her, she merely pouted.
"You're leaving me."
He leaned down and kissed
her. "For the shortest of times."
"Are you dining with
Lord Dalton?" Darla smiled languidly. "Or are you dining on Lord
Dalton?"
"There's been a change
of plan," Angelus told her. "But I can improvise. All the great
artists do."
When he left her, she was
twisting her arm in the glow of the oil lamp, marveling at the way the
pattern on the bracelet changed in response to her movements.
Angelus smiled. "It's
like I always say," he murmured to himself. "You can never go
wrong with jewelry."
Chapter 5
Drusilla peered in through the window of the china shop. She could see
Spike, running in a mad circle. And Drusilla could see her reflection,
wearing the clothes that belonged to her. Her favorite skirt, the one with
the tartan pattern Grandmother said made her head ache.
But right now it was
Drusilla's head that hurt. All the dishes were flying about in the china
shop, shattering into smithereens and creating a kind of blizzard of broken
china. So much crashing. Drusilla only liked crashing when she made things
crash. Then she liked it a lot.
Did her reflection's head
hurt, too? She had the same head as Drusilla, after all. They both had
long, dark hair in pretty curls, and they both could see forward and
backwards all at the same time, and Spike didn't seem able to tell the
difference between them at all.
Spike was laughing with her
reflection now. Their mouths were all bloody.
"They've been having a
lovely party," Drusilla said, frowning. "No invitations were
sent, and I have no cake."
She wanted to ask the
reflection why she'd swapped their clothes. She also wanted to ask Spike
which of them he liked better -- or perhaps he liked them both. Drusilla
took a moment to consider how that might be, and shivered in pleasure. She
smiled. "A party, a party. Crackers for everyone."
But as Drusilla began
skipping toward the china shop's door, she started seeing forwards again.
She froze in her tracks and gripped the sides of her head. Too many things
to see -- all locked up inside her head, and her head was full to bursting
-- "Daddy?" she gasped.
Angelus was running. He was in the street behind the theatre, the place
with all the lovely costumes and the people who sang for their suppers. But
he wasn't alone, oh no, oh no. They were waiting for him. A mob with
terrible fire and spells, and they were a net, and Angelus was a fish. She
could see him, the only point of clarity in the maelstrom of her mind's
eye. He was writhing and twitching as though he were caught on a hook.
They were going to do
terrible things to him. Not stake him. Worse than staking him, so much
worse --
"Daddy!" she cried
out again. She forgot about her reflection, about the party, about
everything except getting to Angelus' side.
Desperately, frantically,
she started to run.
***
"You sure you're all right?" Spike said. "Looked like a
nasty one, that."
"Verrrry nasty,"
Dru said, unclenching her fists from her hair. She'd still had shards of
china in her hands when the vision overtook her, and now their broken edges
had cut up her hands. Smiling, she held out her palms to Spike, who began
doing something between kissing them and licking them. Either way, she
liked it.
Between licks, Spike said,
"What was that, anyway? You were shrieking about Angelus something
awful. Don't tell me his little theatricale has gone wrong." He
snickered. "Not that I'd mind pulling his irons out of the fire,
watching him try to explain it all away."
"He's in the fire
now," Dru said sadly. She knew not to go running off this time, but it
was hard, so hard. Poor Daddy. "It will make him too warm to stay in
the night with us. He will have to go into the day, no matter how much it
burns."
"This is music to my
ears," Spike said, moving on to her fingers. His tongue flickered over
a knuckle.
"I went to him
before," she said. "When there was only one of me. I went there,
but I was too late, and there was ever so much crying. I followed him into
the forest, and I was all alone, and no one was there to stop my
tears." Dru looked down at Spike with vague displeasure. "You'd
found yourself a traveling salesman, and you were playing with his
wares."
"Sounds like fun,"
Spike said genially, not attempting to understand her. Then he straightened
up and frowned. "When you say 'wares,' is that a euphemism?"
Dru was not thinking about
the salesman. He had not happened. Other things would happen. Some of them
were very painful to see, very frightening, but they would make her story
come out right at last.
"I shan't be alone in
the forest this time," Dru said.
***
Angelus walked easily through the streets on his way to the theatre. He
paused from time to time, glancing over his shoulder, then shook his head
and continued on his path.
A few moments after one
backward glance, Cordelia, Fred, Gunn and Angel all stood up from behind
the small cart they'd ducked behind. "That was close," Gunn said
in a low voice. "It's like he knows he's being followed."
"He senses a
vampire," Angel said.
"Where?" Cordelia
said, looking around. Everyone stared at her, and she folded her arms
across her chest. "I think we have more important things to do than
make fun of me for saying that."
Fred turned to Angel.
"If you're setting off his vampire radar or sonar or whatever it is,
maybe you should stay further back and let us follow him."
"This is too
important," Angel said, shaking his head. "I can't sit back and
hope the gypsies get to perform the curse. I have to do something."
Cordelia took his arms in
her hands. She could feel the tension coiled inside him still; he was
desperate to strike, to act. "If the 'something' you do is tip Angelus
off to a trap, then that's not so great, right? Just take it easy,
cowboy."
"Cowboy," Angel
repeated, looking skyward. She couldn't tell if she'd amused him or annoyed
him. As long as it kept him from doing something stupid, Cordelia would
take either option.
"All right," Gunn
said. "Let's think strategically, okay? I may not know jack about
Sighisoara or Romania or gypsies and all, but I know street fighting, and
that's what's about to go down here."
Fred smiled up at Gunn, her
face expressing both surprise and relief. Angel didn't say anything in
agreement, but he was listening calmly, always a good sign.
"Strategy," Cordelia said. "Strategy is good. Except -- can
we maybe strategize and walk at the same time? He's getting ahead of
us."
They started to follow the
dark figure ahead of them again, keeping to the shadows. "He's going
straight to the theatre," Gunn said.
"We think he is,"
Angel said. He was staring straight ahead at the past version of himself.
Cordelia knew Angel's night vision was much better than a human's, but
unless he had some kind of vampire fog-vision he'd never mentioned, she
doubted he could see Angelus any more easily than she could. A light mist
was forming, and to Cordelia, Angelus was a blurred and indistinct
silhouette. "He could decide on an impulse kill at any moment,"
Angel said.
"He can't kill anybody
else!" Cordelia whispered. "We've already monkeyed with history
once. That's enough monkeying. No more monkey do we need."
"Not to devalue the
lives of any innocent Romanian citizens," Fred said, "but
shouldn't we be watching out for Drusilla?"
Cordelia groaned.
"She's already done her damage."
"We don't know
that," Angel said. "She might keep watch until she's sure the
danger has passed, and it hasn't."
"So, two
objectives," Gunn said. "Keep Angelus on his track, and don't let
Drusilla or anybody else get too close. Anybody who ain't a gypsy with a
chip on their shoulder, I mean."
Cordelia realized they were
all already walking a little faster, purpose driving their steps. Angelus'
outline was a little clearer. She gathered up the hem of her heavy skirt in
her hand. "What positions do we take?"
Angel said, "I'll stay
as far back as I can, in case I tip him off. Gunn, that leaves you."
"And me," Cordelia
chimed in. When Angel stared at her, she said, "Trained fighter,
remember? I know everything he knows, because you know everything he knows,
and you taught me everything -- dammit, I can handle it."
"I don't like it,"
Angel said, but to her surprise he then continued, "but I don't like any
of this. Fred, you and I will stay on the outskirts. We'll steer people
away from him, and if we see Drusilla -- we stake her."
The hesitation in his voice
was so slight that Cordelia was sure Fred and Gunn hadn't noticed. When she
looked at Angel's face -- stern with resolve -- Cordelia wondered if she
had imagined it. She said only, "Let's go."
***
Tendrils of mist curled
along the street outside the theatre, blurring the edges of buildings and
lending the night a mysterious, almost sinister edge. Angelus curled his
lip in wry amusement at that thought -- after all, it wasn't the fog that
made this particular part of Sighisoara more dangerous than anywhere else.
It was him.
Nevertheless, something
about the way the fog swirled and churned, distorting familiar shapes out
of recognition, disquieted Angelus, and he wasn't sure why. The vague sense
that another vampire was close wasn't new -- eastern Europe was crawling
with the undead, most of them barely one step up from the ignorant,
ill-bred peasants they had once been and now hunted. No, it was the odd
sense of familiarity that bothered him -- not Darla or Drusilla or Spike,
or even Penn, if by some unfortunate coincidence he had come to Romania
too. This was something else, something that was at once more familiar and
more alien than any of them.
Ridiculous thoughts. Darla
had always said he was too inclined toward pensiveness, and for once
Angelus was inclined to agree with her. He reached for his pocket watch,
before remembering Drusilla's clock-destroying spree. Well, no matter -- he
could tell the time well enough by the height of the silver-hazed moon
above the mist. Lord Dalton was late and, unlike the fictional vampires
that had caught his Lordship's imagination, Angelus had no particular love
of lurking in cold, damp alleys. Not when a roaring fire, a comfortable bed
and a pliant -- for the moment, at least -- woman waited for him back at
the villa.
Tomorrow, Angelus would play
the role of contrite friend again. Tomorrow he would earn his invitation
into Lord Dalton's home. Tonight, he was simply bored and irritated, and in
no mood for play-acting.
He started to walk away from
the theatre.
***
The rain-barrel Cordelia was squeezing up against was almost as tall as she
was and easily wide enough to conceal both herself and Gunn. It was also,
unfortunately, damp and cold and more than a little slimy. While Gunn
peered around the barrel's curved edge, Cordelia concentrated on not
getting green gloop on her borrowed clothes.
"Fog's getting thicker," Gunn said. "I can't see nothin' out
there."
"Do you see
Drusilla?" Cordelia asked.
"No."
"Do you see the
gypsies?"
"No."
Cordelia sighed. "Well,
at least you can see Angelus."
"Actually," Gunn
said after a second, "I can't."
"What?"
Cordelia pushed in next to
Gunn and looked around the side of the rain-barrel with him. At once she
saw what he had meant about the fog -- the light mist that had descended
while they had been following Angelus to the theatre was now a soupy murk
through which it was impossible to make out much of anything. "Where'd
he go?"
"He's probably still
there. We just can't see him."
Cordelia squinted, trying to
make out definite forms in the haze. But every time she thought she saw a
man's silhouette, the fog's twisting vapors revealed it to be something
else -- a stack of crates or a sack hanging on a hook. She felt a stab of
anxiety as she realized the street outside the theatre was empty. Angelus
was gone.
"He's not there."
She hit Gunn on the arm. "He was there a second ago! How'd we lose
him?"
Gunn was looking up and down
the street, his face serious. "Damn. He coulda gone either way. If we
want to find him fast, we're gonna have to split up."
Cordelia stood up.
"Fine. I'll go left, you go right." That made it sound more as if
they had a plan, and less as if the plan they'd had was rapidly coming
apart.
She started to leave, but
Gunn's voice behind her made her look back. His face was grave as he said,
"If you see him first, you stay back. Stay out of sight."
Cordelia nodded.
"Sure."
"Cordy, I mean
it," he said, more harshly. "Don't think just 'cause Angel taught
you a few moves you can take him. And don't go thinkin' that 'cause you're
buddies with our Angel you can appeal to this one's better nature. Because,
until those gypsies get hold of him, he doesn't HAVE a better nature."
***
The fog made surveillance difficult, but it had certain advantages, Fred
thought. Such as, the ease with which she was able to hide herself at the
side of the street, keeping watch without fear of being seen. She was
hiding near the theatre's side entrance; from there, she could hear muffled
applause from the audience inside. The playbill above the door was in
Romanian, so Fred wasn't certain what they were showing their appreciation
for, but from the sounds of raucous laughter, she guessed it was a comedy.
She heard footsteps
approaching before she saw their owner and tensed as she peered into the
foggy darkness. But the shape that started to form out of the murk was
familiar -- tall and broad-shouldered -- and Fred relaxed a little. Just
Angel, back after making a sweep of the other side of the street. She
stepped out to meet him.
She realized, a second too
late, that this Angel had longer hair than he should have, and wore a
finely tailored jacket instead of the peasant's wool coat the gypsies had
provided for him. If she ran he would hear her, and any moment now he would
see her --
Hands grabbed Fred from
behind and pulled her back into the shadows. Instinctively, she started to
struggle, before realizing that the hands holding on to her were pale and
cool. She tried to stand still, but her heart was thudding in her chest and
her breath seemed to explode out of her, air warmed in her lungs condensing
into clouds that thickened the mist. Fred sucked in a lungful of air and
held it as long as she could, until her heartbeat pounding in her ears
threatened to deafen her. Next to her, Angel stood so rigidly that it was
easy to imagine she was being held by a granite statue that someone had put
clothes on.
Angelus' steps slowed as he
passed them. He looked over his shoulder. But he walked on, and didn't
stop.
Fred exhaled. Angel let go
of her arm, and it was only when she tried to move it she realized he'd
gripped her tightly enough to bruise her.
"He's going," she
whispered. "Angel, he's not supposed to leave."
Angel nodded his agreement.
"We have to stop him." He stepped out of the alcove and began to
follow the already-indistinct form of Angelus. From inside the theatre,
more laughter rang out, the happy sound a stark contrast to what has
happening in the street outside. But it gave Fred an idea.
"Help me get this door
open," she said, indicating the stage door. Angel hesitated, still staring
after Angelus, but when Fred started to tug more urgently at the door, he
came back to help her. "In about a minute, he's going to walk right
past the theatre's main entrance."
Angel wrapped his hands
around the stage door's handle and pulled hard at it. "How does that
help us?"
There was a snap from within
the door, and it swung open. The previously muted noises of laughter and
applause were suddenly loud and clear. "I'm exercising my power of
free speech," she said. "Turns out there is a good reason to do
this, after all."
"Do what?" Angel
was still confused, but Fred had no time to answer, so she just ducked
inside.
She was standing at the side
of the theatre. The first row of seats was in front of her, and steps to
her left led up on to the stage. Opening the side door had allowed a blast
of chill air into the warm theatre, and one of the actors standing at the
side of the stage looked down at her in irritation. But his costume
consisted of a bright red turban, a sleeveless shirt that opened all the
way to his navel and a pair of gold and blue pantaloons, and so it was hard
to take his annoyance very seriously.
Fred ran up the steps and on
to the stage, almost knocking over an actress wearing a belly-dancer's
costume on the way. The actor dressed as a sultan who was currently
standing in the middle of the stage giving a speech broke off when Fred
barged in front of him, launching instead into a stream of angry Romanian
that was aimed at her. Fred was glad she couldn't understand what he was
saying.
The audience, meanwhile,
laughed louder. They thought this was part of the performance.
"Everybody has to get
out," Fred shouted. "There's a fire."
More laughter and applause.
Fred cupped her hands to her
mouth and shouted again, her voice cutting through the noise. "I said,
there's a FIRE!"
Some people were still
laughing, but others had stopped and now looked uncertain. Fred didn't know
how many of the theatre audience understood English, but apparently her
urgent tone and frantic hand-waving was getting the message across.
"Fire!" she yelled again.
At the back of the theatre,
she heard a voice shout something which she guessed was the Romanian
translation of what she'd just said. That did it. Within seconds, people
were clambering out of their seats and running toward the theatre exit.
Some pushed past Fred and fled out of the stage door, but that was okay.
Most would run out of the main entrance into the narrow street -- and that
was a lot of people, because whatever they'd come to see had been playing to
a full house. Until the crowds cleared, it wouldn't be possible to move in
the street outside. Fred hoped that delaying Angelus' escape by five or ten
minutes would be long enough.
On the other hand, it was
possible that neither they nor the gypsies would be able to find him in the
crowd. And that wouldn't be good.
The theatre was empty. Fred
followed the last of the audience out through the stage door, and back on
to the street where Angel was waiting.
But he wasn't. When she got
outside, Angel had gone.
***
Angelus was walking past the theatre's doors when they burst open,
engulfing him in a stream of terrified humanity. For a second, he was too
surprised to do anything except stay where he was while the crowd surged
out of the building. They reeked of fear, and he could hear shouts of,
"Fire!" in English, Romanian and a few other languages, too, but
he quickly realized there was no smell of smoke in the air. A hoax, then.
Usually, Angelus relished
this kind of hysterical mass panic; on many occasions, he'd been its
instigator. Tonight it merely exasperated him, and as he tried to fight his
way against the flow of the fleeing crowds, he seriously considered
snapping a few necks to make his progress easier. As tempting as the idea
was, he rejected it. Only the desperate or the inexperienced killed in
public, and Angelus was neither.
Instead, he allowed himself
to be carried along with the stampede until an opportunity to extricate
himself presented itself. As the throng pushed him by the entrance to an
alleyway at the side of the theatre, Angelus slipped into it. He quickly
realized why none of the crowd followed him -- the alley was a dead end,
and if the theatre had been burning down, it would have trapped anyone who
tried to shelter in it. But the theatre wasn't on fire, and Angelus only
sought a place to wait while the fleeing hordes dispersed.
He was pleasantly surprised,
then, when someone else had the same idea. As Angelus was straightening his
cravat and brushing off his jacket, a girl stumbled out of the mob and into
the alleyway. She couldn't have been a member of the fleeing audience, he
realized immediately -- she was wearing the rough, coarse clothes of a
peasant rather than the theatergoers' finery. Her headscarf had fallen down
over her eyes, blinding her, and she fumbled as she tried to adjust it,
before giving up and taking it off. The hair underneath had been sliced
short and was a deep blonde color, unflattering to her complexion. That was
a pity, Angelus thought, because in all other respects she was a comely
lass. Very comely, in fact.
He smiled to himself. A
pretty girl, a secluded alleyway and the noise of a crowd to mask the
screams. Perhaps tonight would not be entirely wasted, after all.
The girl knotted her
headscarf and pulled it back into place. To herself, in English, she said,
"Okay, Cor. Time to get back out there."
"There is no
hurry," Angelus said pleasantly. "Tarry a while, here with
me."
The girl started and looked
round, seeing him for the first time. Her eyes widened.
"Oh, hell," she said.
***
Fred had given up trying to go in any particular direction -- it was all
she could do to stay on her feet, and if she fell she was sure she'd be
trampled in seconds. Swept along by the tide of people, she clutched at
coat-tails and cloaks, anything to keep herself upright. With relief, she
saw that the street opened up ahead of her into a large, paved square -- if
she could make it that far, she'd be okay.
She couldn't. The shoes
she'd borrowed along with the maid's uniform -- heavy-soled and clumsy --
were too large on her, and she tripped. Fred gasped as she started to lose
her balance, putting her arms out in front of herself as she fell. For an
instant, she felt nothing except blind terror -- this is it, I'm going to
die, I'm really going to die -- then it passed, replaced by a kind of
obstinate determination. She'd survived Pylea. She'd staked vampires. Those
were difficult things. Right now, all she had to do to survive was
something easier. She had to get up. GET UP.
She levered herself up on to
her hands and knees, and from that position somehow regained her footing. A
moment later, the force of the crowd pushed her out into the paved square,
like a cork popping out of a bottle. Fred was hurled forward, unable to
stop until she collided head-on with some unfortunate person who was trying
to go in the opposite direction.
"Sorry --"
"Fred!" It was
Charles. Fred wanted to weep with relief; instead she just grabbed him. He
hugged her back, then pulled her to one side, out of the way of the
thinning crowd. "Are you okay? What the hell's happening? Where'd all
these people come from?"
"Theatre," Fred
gasped. "Fire --"
"The theatre's on
fire?"
"No." Fred was
slowly catching her breath. "But the people inside thought it was, and
they panicked."
"That's all we
needed," Charles said. "Some idiot startin' a riot for fun."
"The idiot was
me."
"Oh." Charles
paused for the briefest of seconds before saying positively, "Good
thinkin'."
"No, it wasn't!"
Fred cried. "I mean, I thought it was. Angelus was leaving, and we
just needed to hold him up for a couple of minutes, but now we've lost him,
and I don't know where Angel is either --"
"Whoah,
backtrack," Charles said, holding up one hand. "You saw Angelus?
Where?"
Fred pointed back down the
street. "Right outside the theatre."
Charles looked grim.
"Hell. That's the way Cordy went --"
The clatter of hooves and
wooden wheels on cobblestones interrupted him. Fred looked around, and saw
a caravan almost identical to the one the gypsies had given them racing up.
After a second, she realized that the similarity was no coincidence -- this
wagon was packed with grim-faced, armed gypsies, and more of them clung to
its sides.
"Hooray for the cavalry,"
Charles said in a low voice.
The gypsy driving the
caravan was the tall, gray-bearded man who Fred remembered was Gia's
father. He tugged on the reins, guiding the horses toward Fred and Charles,
but even when he was close enough to be heard above the noise of the crowd,
he didn't speak to them. Instead he simply eyed Fred and Charles with an
interrogatory, half-hostile stare.
Charles pointed back along
the street. "He went thataway."
The gypsy nodded, and
cracked the reins. Leather snapped against the horse's flank, and the
caravan charged up the street Fred had just left, forcing a passage through
the thinning crowd.
Charles watched the gypsies
go, looking pleased with himself. "I always wanted to say that."
***
Be careful what you go looking for, Cordelia thought. You just might find
it.
That wasn't exactly how the
saying went, but it was close enough. She'd gone looking for Angelus, and
she'd found him. But this part of finding him -- the part where he found
her, too -- that hadn't been in the plan.
He sauntered toward her,
smiling slightly, and she was amazed not at how much like Angel he was, but
how different. Sure, the old-fashioned clothes and even stupider hair made
for a superficial distinction, but it was more than that. It was in his eyes,
she realized. She'd gotten used to seeing warmth and affection in those
eyes, but Angelus' gaze was coldly appraising. Acquisitive. There was
nothing of Angel in the creature in front of her. Cordelia had known that,
but she hadn't truly felt it until now.
"Come, now," he
said. "The crowds have frightened you. Take my hand. It will give you
courage."
He held out his hand to her.
Instinctively, Cordelia backed away. She was closer to the entrance of the
alleyway than he was, so running back out into the street was still an
option. It probably wouldn't do her much good, though -- if he decided to
chase her, her heavy skirt and cloth shoes meant she didn't stand a chance
of outrunning him. Cordelia had never wanted anything quite as much as she
now wanted a pair of Nikes and a fifty-yard head start.
Angelus' hand was still extended toward her, but the look on his face was
growing noticeably less kindly. Too much effort to keep up the act,
Cordelia figured. Still, she had to do something -- she couldn't stand here
staring at him forever --
She looked at his
outstretched hand, and suddenly saw Angel standing in exactly the same
position on the mat in the training room in the Hyperion's basement. A few
seconds later, he'd been flat on his back, and Cordelia had been jubilant
because the judo move she didn't think she could possibly pull off had
worked.
Confidence surged through
her. She could throw him. She'd thrown Angel --
(-- just once and he'd let
her do it --)
-- and she could do it
again. She reached out to take his hand, trying to adjust her stance the
way Angel had shown her. She'd only get one shot at this.
She gripped his hand, tensed
all her muscles -- and pulled Angelus forward.
In the judo move, what
should have happened next was that the opponent, in this case Angelus, went
flying head over heels. What actually happened was that Angelus stumbled a
little, then glared at her. Oh, shit, Cordelia thought.
She was still trying to
decide whether running or fighting was the marginally less suicidal plan,
when a brick plunged through the layers of mist and landed with comical
accuracy on Angelus' head.
He slumped onto the ground,
and the hand Cordelia was still holding went limp. A dark shadow dropped
down through the fog, landing with a soft thud just behind Angelus' still
form. Cordelia let Angelus' hand fall and looked at Angel. "Where did
you come from?"
"The roof," Angel
said, pointing upward. Then he looked down at his unconscious past self.
"You shouldn't have tried to throw him. That would never have
worked."
Cordelia put her hands on
her hips. "Hey, I could've done it. I just -- didn't."
"Your stance was all
wrong," Angel said. "Your feet aren't far enough apart."
"How can you even tell
where my feet are under this tent?" Cordelia asked, holding up a
handful of skirt for emphasis. "Okay, sure, something was off, and we
need to practice --" On the ground between them, Angelus gave a low
moan as he started to come round. "You really don't stay out for long,
do you? I think I'm gonna have to clock you again."
"Be my guest."
Cordelia picked up the
brick, but before she could strike, a caravan pulled up at the alley's
entrance. Quietly, Angel said, "They're here. Come on."
Taking Cordelia's hand, he
pulled her to the edge of the alley, leaving Angelus still woozily trying
to sit up. Before he could, a gang of gypsy men were leaping down from the
sides and back of the caravan and crowding into the alleyway. As far as
Cordelia could tell, every man in the camp who could lift a weapon had
come, from teenagers to white-bearded grandfathers. They swarmed around
Angelus, who was now sufficiently recovered to offer some resistance, but
he was disoriented and hugely outnumbered. Within seconds, he was bound
tightly.
Cordelia expected them to
stop at that, to bundle their prisoner into the back of the wagon and go.
But overpowering Angelus only seemed to fuel the gypsies' anger. They
kicked and stabbed and punched the hunched figure on the ground with a
collective fury more extreme than anything Cordelia had ever seen before,
and in their faces she saw something that was not unlike Angelus'
inhumanity.
Then, as if on some signal, the attack was over. Four of the burliest
gypsies lifted Angelus -- who, incredibly, was somehow still able to
struggle -- and threw him into the cart. The wagon pulled away, and she and
Angel were alone in the alleyway. Cordelia was surprised to find she was
shaking.
She heard the clatter of
footsteps, and Gunn, swiftly followed by Fred, appeared at the top of the
alley. "The gypsies --" Fred gasped.
"They were here,"
Angel said. "They have him."
Gunn grinned, and punched
the air. "All right! We fixed it."
We fixed it, Cordelia
thought. She breathed out in relief.
Behind her, Angel said,
"Not yet. We can't be certain until they perform the curse. Tonight
isn't over yet."
Relief drained away as
Cordelia realized Angel was right. Drusilla could still interfere; the
night wasn't over. Not by a long shot.
"So what do we do
now?" Gunn asked. "Follow them?"
"That's exactly what we
do," Angel said. "Spread out. Cover as much ground as you can.
It's just another few minutes -- but if Dru can still stop us, she
will."
***
Cordelia could feel the dirt
road turning into scrubby grass beneath the soles of her cloth shoes. She
was out of breath and exhausted; apparently her demon powers didn't include
long-distance running. She held one hand to her chest and desperately
sucked in air. Angel and Gunn and Fred had separated, like Angel had said;
she knew they weren't far away, but it didn't change the fact that she felt
isolated and on edge, alone in the dark.
She hadn't lost sight of the
gypsy caravan. The mob was beating the sides of the wagon with sticks and
shovels, shouting at the bound figure inside. Cordelia didn't understand
one word of what they were saying, but the tone of the chorus was clear.
Fury. Pain. Contempt.
Against all logic, she felt
herself becoming angry at the gypsies. Cordelia bit down on her lip and
forced herself to remember that the creature in that wagon was only a part
of the Angel she knew. "It's okay," she whispered, not knowing if
she spoke to the Angel of the future, the Angel of the present, herself or
all three. "It's supposed to happen like this."
"'Tisn't."
Cordelia whirled around and
saw Drusilla, crouched low to the ground, her curved fingers digging into
the earth like a burrowing beast. Her hair was wild, and blood flecked her
dress, her hands and her face.
The dress -- pencil straps
and filmy red silk -- was from Saks. Cordelia had longed for it to go on
sale, but it never had; it had been galling to see it a faded, soiled wreck
on Drusilla at the museum. Now it was bloodied and torn, spoiled utterly by
the vampire's casual destructiveness. Ruined in the same way she wanted to
ruin Angel's future. All their futures.
"Drusilla,"
Cordelia said, taking her stake from her belt and brandishing it. "So
lucky I ran into you."
"You know my
name," Drusilla said wonderingly. "I don't know yours. I saw you
with your funny hair, but I didn't see your name."
"Funny hair? Excuse me,
but I have just one word for you: Volumizer. Try it." Cordelia snapped
at her, but the anger was all for her words. She kept her body still and
her eyes focused on Drusilla. Funny -- she'd never thought about it, but Drusilla
probably didn't know her name. Not that it mattered.
"Voll. You.
Miser." Drusilla straightened up and smiled. Her teeth were
unexpectedly bright in the darkness, and Cordelia realized she was staring.
Why shouldn't she stare? Dru was definitely stare-worthy.
Behind them, the gypsies
continued to shout.
"You've a pain in your
belly," Drusilla said.
"I'm fine,"
Cordelia said automatically. She wanted to stop staring at Drusilla's
mouth, but somehow couldn't look away.
"No, no, no,"
Drusilla said. "The building has a skeleton, with sharp metal bones.
You were falling and falling and falling, and the bones bit into you. I
look inside you and I see the bite."
Cordelia gasped in agony as
pain cut through her, pain so complete and overwhelming that she thought
she would black out. A shaft of heat slashed her clear through -- from her
back through her ribs --
She fumbled at her shirt,
and her fingers hit metal. Hot blood flowed over her skin. Cordelia looked
down, horrified, to see the rebar protruding from her torso. "No
--" she choked out.
"Oh, yes,"
Drusilla said. Her voice grew nearer, but Cordelia could only stare down at
the metal bar that had impaled her. "The bite is real. The pain is
real. It twists you all up inside, and all that lovely blood's been
spilled."
"Help -- help me
--" Cordelia didn't know who she was speaking to anymore. She didn't
know where she was, who she was. She could only concentrate on the metal
pinning her to the ground. Dizziness washed over her, and she could feel
herself swaying. Or was that the ground moving? Not an earthquake -- not
another earthquake.
"Let me help you,"
said a voice she knew. Cordelia opened her eyes and saw Xander standing
next to her. He looked horrified and concerned and guilty. He had been
kissing Willow, and oh, God, Cordelia was going to kill him the very second
she was sure she wasn't going to die. Xander said, "I can get this out
of you. Then you'll feel better."
Xander would help her. He
would, she knew he would, he might kiss Willow, but that didn't mean he
didn't care, that he wouldn't help. Cordelia whispered, "Get it out of
me."
"I need your
stake," Xander said.
Stake. Stake. She didn't
have a stake. She had been in the van with Oz -- but no, there was a stake
in her hand, and so she must have had one --
Xander said, "Hurry.
We'll get out of here. Just you and me."
Oh, God, it hurt so bad.
She'd do anything to make it stop hurting. But Cordelia still gasped,
"And Willow? And -- and Oz?"
"We don't need
them," Xander said.
Xander had said that. Xander
would never say that. Cordelia stared at him. With all the strength she had
left, she slapped him hard across the face.
He shrieked -- and in that
moment, his voice and face turned back into Drusilla's. The pain lifted
from Cordelia instantly; the bar and the accompanying agony vanished so
quickly that she stumbled, thrown off balance by nothing more than the
change in sensation. "You hypnotized me!" Cordelia cried.
"Memories are the best
dollies of all," Drusilla said, and she lunged for Cordelia.
It was now, when Cordelia
didn't have time to think about it, that Angel's training paid off. She
forgot all about complicated judo moves she'd tried once, and instead
ducked and spun in the way Angel had made her practice until she was sick
of it, and then made her practice some more. By now the response was
instinctive, and suddenly Cordelia found she was in fighting stance, her
stake raised and ready.
Drusilla clawed at Cordy's
face. Cordelia blocked the blow with her free arm, spun and kicked hard. It
caught Drusilla, who had apparently not been expecting any kind of
resistance, off guard and off balance. She stumbled backward. Now Cordelia
was on the offensive.
"What's this? Eager,
eager." Drusilla stared at Cordelia. "I see those who fight us in
my dreams. I haven't seen you in my dreams."
"You want to dream?
Fine. Goodnight, Dru."
Cordelia lashed out with the
stake again; Drusilla blocked her, but clumsily -- so clumsily, for a split
second she left her chest exposed to attack. Sensing that she'd never get a
better opportunity, Cordelia lunged forward and plunged her stake deep into
the hollow between Drusilla's ribs.
Drusilla cried out, not in
pain or fury, but in what sounded like the disappointment of a child. She
whispered, "You broke it. You broke it. You br--"
She crumbled into dust.
Cordelia stared at the heap
of ashes on the grass. "I staked Drusilla," she said. It didn't
work. She still didn't believe it. She tried saying it a little louder.
"I staked Drusilla." Staring at the stake in her hand, Cordelia
felt herself begin to laugh shakily. "Oh, my God, I am such a
bad-ass." She put one hand out to balance herself on a nearby tree and
used the other to feel her abdomen again. The hard, ridged scar near her
ribs still tingled faintly. For a moment, Cordelia did nothing but try and
convince herself that her surroundings were real. The vampire-dust still
swirling in the breeze was real. The scent of the evergreens was real. The
faint hooting of an owl was -- not only real, but the only sound she could
hear.
"Angel?" Cordelia
whirled around. No gypsies. The caravan Angelus had been in was sitting
there abandoned -- one of its sides had obviously been bashed through. From
the inside.
He's out, she realized. He's
loose. While Drusilla had me in flashback mode, Angelus got away from them.
The gypsies are after him, and if they can't curse him, they'll just try to
kill him.
Far away, she heard a man's
shout. Was that Angel's voice?
"Angel!" She began
running toward the sound, not thinking of anything besides reaching him.
Her feet pounded against the earth, stumbled over tree roots. Branches
scraped her legs and her shoulders. Cordelia tried to focus, though it was
hard in such total darkness. No, not total -- far ahead, she thought she
could see torchlight. "Angel, I'm coming --"
A hand snapped out and
grabbed her arm, and she screamed until another hand covered her mouth. One
of the gypsies -- the young one with the thick accent, hissed at her,
"Shhh, foolish girl! It is being done."
"WHAT is being
done?" Cordelia pulled her arm from his grasp and brandished her
stake. "Be specific."
"The curse," he
said. "It is the hour of our vengeance."
She stared at him, wondering
whether or not to believe him. At last she said, "I'm gonna go see for
myself." When he opened his mouth to object, she snarled, "Do NOT
try to stop me."
He said only, "When
this is over, leave these woods. Leave this time. Tonight we will have our
vengeance -- and our purpose in leaving you alive ends."
"Yeah, I'm so tempted
to hang around," she muttered as she turned away.
Slowly, quietly, she picked
her way through the forest undergrowth. If other gypsies lurked nearby,
they said nothing to alert her to their presence or to prevent her from
getting closer. The torchlight grew brighter and brighter; Cordelia could
hear someone speaking now, one of the gypsies -- but she couldn't quite
make out the words.
The gypsy stopped speaking.
She heard rustling nearby, as if other figures were moving away. They were
done watching. The curse was over.
She crept forward toward the
edge of a small clearing. A few torches still illuminated the area, but
only she could only see one figure: Angel, bent low on the ground, doubled
over in what looked like physical agony. "No," she heard him
whisper. "No, it cannot be -- "
Cordelia leaned against a
tree-trunk, weak with exhaustion and an emotion she couldn't quite name.
That was Angel. Her Angel. It was like he had just been born.
His hair was long. His hands
were clenched in fists. She could hear him crying. Cordelia had never seen
Angel cry before. The sound of it tore at her, brought tears to her own
eyes.
She felt Angel's hands
against her shoulders, and she didn't have to turn around to see his face.
She leaned back into his half-embrace, comforting the Angel she could reach
in the place of the Angel she couldn't. Together, they watched his past
self crumble under a swelling, unendurable weight of guilt and
self-knowledge.
After a few long minutes,
Angel pulled her back gently, urging her away from the crumpled figure on
the ground. Cordelia didn't budge. She whispered, "I can't leave him
there."
Angel almost smiled.
"You have to leave him there," he replied. "He has to be
there before I can be here."
Cordelia took a deep breath,
nodded and sighed. Somehow she forced herself to walk away with Angel and
never once look back.
***
Dru wandered along the street, weaving a random path through the crowd.
Spike continued on his way, slightly ahead of her, laughing at the mayhem.
There were lots of people shouting and shrieking in words Dru didn't know,
but she could see the high, leaping flames that were only in their minds.
She didn't remember this part, and that confused her, but so many things
confused her that it scarcely seemed worth the trouble to worry about this
one.
"The moon is
high," she said. "It's time, time, time."
Spike heard her voice even
amid the chaos. "Time for what, my venomous black blossom?"
"Crying over spilt
milk. Can't pour it back again." Then she laughed in jubilation.
"But I did. I poured the milk back up into the glass, didn't I? Didn't
I, Spike?"
"You bet," Spike
said. He wasn't really listening. Nobody listened to her for very long. Dru
didn't mind that. When nobody listened to you, you could scream ever so
loud, so loud you broke all the mirrors.
"I found a book,"
she said. "Many men tried to read it, and they couldn't. They said it
didn't make any sense. But they said I didn't make any sense, either. And
so I tried to read it, and when I did, the letters untwisted themselves and
did a lovely dance on the page. They danced and danced until I knew all the
steps. They sang to me. They were crazed, you see? Just like me."
Spike fell back a couple of
steps and slid his arm around her waist. "You wear lunacy the way
lesser women wear satin," he purred. "It clings to you, Drusilla.
It shines in the night, and it makes you beautiful."
"I know," she
said. This was Spike as he should be. This was the world as it should be.
Except, of course, for just one thing. "Daddy's very sad right
now."
"I'm deeply
concerned," Spike said, nibbling at her neck. Then he scowled.
"You don't want to go to him tonight, do you?"
"No," she said.
"That's not what I went backwards to do, oh no. I did that once, and
it wasn't any good at all. Ashes, ashes, we all fell down. Do you think the
moon knows my name?"
"Yours and no
other." Spike was already threading his way among the crowds again,
leading her as they went. "Out of an entirely bent curiosity -- what
did you 'go backwards' to do?"
Dru laughed and laughed,
spinning around in the center of the thronging masses. "You'll see,
you'll see," she said. "Save it for afters."
***
"You staked Drusilla," Angel said again. He still couldn't quite
believe it.
"Yup," Cordelia
confirmed. She had her arm looped through his, ostensibly for support in
case she tripped on the rough, potholed dirt track that led back to the
caves as they made their way through the pre-dawn murk. She hadn't so much
as stumbled once throughout the journey, and Angel doubted she really
needed his guidance. But he still let her hold on to his arm. "She
swiped me with her nails, tried to scratch my face off --"
Gunn, who was walking a
little way ahead, holding hands with Fred, looked back at them. "Hey,
how about sticking to the facts? One tiny little nick on your cheek does
NOT equate to your face bein' scratched off."
"The quote was, she
TRIED to scratch my face off." Cordy was trying to sound annoyed, but
with little success. "She didn't. I staked her first. I -- staked --
Drusilla."
Angel could not share in
Cordelia's giddy excitement about Dru's end -- he remembered her first
death too well for that. Drusilla had been his creation, his responsibility
and, in her own, twisted way, a kind of innocent. Angel had always expected
to feel both guilt and grief when this day came, and yet he wasn't feeling
that at all.
Cordelia giggled and said it
a few more times, with different emphasis each time. "I STAKED
Drusilla. I staked DRUSILLA."
Gunn groaned. "Enough
already! You'd think no one ever dusted a vamp before."
"He doesn't get
it," Cordelia said. She squeezed Angel's arm. "You get it,
right?"
"I get it," Angel
said quietly. He got something, although he wasn't sure it was the same thing
Cordelia meant. Angel got that the future he'd thought held nothing for him
without his son in it was back on track, and that he felt something about
that he hadn't expected to. It wasn't happiness -- never that, not now --
but it was a better emotion than he'd ever thought he'd feel again.
Gratitude, perhaps.
It wasn't until they left
the track and started to climb uphill toward the cave's entrance that
Cordelia let go of Angel. "You know what?" she said. "When
we get home, I think I'm gonna have to break a longstanding resolution and
call Xander Harris. I want to hear what he has to say when I tell him Dru's
dust and I did it."
"When I get home,"
Gunn said, "I'm gonna eat microwaved popcorn and toasted Pop Tarts and
watch TV. No -- first I'm gonna drive my truck around for a while. Or maybe
I'll listen to a CD --" Suddenly he broke off and looked at Fred.
"You've still got that magic ring thing that's going to get us home,
right?"
"Sure I do," Fred
said. "When I changed into the clothes the gypsies gave us, I made
sure I took it out of the pocket of my jeans." She was silent for a
moment. Then, in a very quiet voice, she said, "Of course, then I
switched clothes with the maid."
They all stopped walking and
stared at Fred. Cordelia clutched Angel's arm again, and this time he
thought perhaps she did need his support, a little. Gunn looked most
horrified of all.
Then Fred held up her left
hand, the ring shining on her finger. "I'm only foolin' y'all. You
think I'd lose our way home?"
"That," Gunn said
as he stooped to enter the cave, "was NOT funny. Speakin' of clothes
-- who's got our regular gear?"
"I do," Fred said,
holding up a bundle of pants and T-shirts secured with a belt. She pulled
at the maid's uniform she was still wearing. "Can't say I'll miss
nineteenth century clothing."
"We can only pray
burlap isn't big on the catwalks next season," Cordelia said. "Or
ever." She followed Fred and Gunn into the cave.
Before he went inside, Angel
looked back one last time, at the dark and deceptively tranquil
countryside. It was peaceful, even beautiful, and Angel decided that if it
was another century before he saw Romania again, it'd be too soon.
By the time Angel had caught
up with the others, they had changed back into their own clothes and were
gathered underneath the portal in the cave's roof. It was still, he noted
with relief, open and as active as it had been when they'd come through it.
The only question that remained now was --
"How does this thing
work, again?" Cordy asked.
"I don't know,"
Fred said. She took the ring off her finger and started to raise it over
her head, toward the portal's shining, crawling surface. "But I think
proximity may be the trigger --"
As she spoke, the surface of
the portal bulged downward, as if drawn by some force exerted on it by the
ring. Fred inhaled sharply, and when Angel looked down at her feet, he saw
only her toes were in contact with the cave floor. "Everyone," he
said, "take hold of her."
Gunn put his arms around
Fred's waist, while Cordelia grabbed her raised arm and Angel her free
hand. Now he was in physical contact with Fred, Angel could feel the raw
power of magic coursing through her. He looked up just as the ring touched
the portal --
The ride was no less wild
this time. If anything, plummeting upward -- which was the best description
Angel could think of for the sensation -- was an even more disorienting
experience.
Then it was over, and he was
back inside the black marble pyramid at the museum, crammed into the dark,
confined space with three other bodies. At least, Angel hoped there were
three other bodies. "Is everyone here?"
"I'm here," Gunn
said. "And I got hold of someone's arm."
"My arm," Fred
said. "I'm okay. Or I will be when my head stops rotating."
"I'm here,"
Cordy's voice said, "but I think my stomach is still in the
1970s."
Angel put his shoulder
against the pyramid's door and pushed. "Let's go home."
They all stumbled out into
the museum, which was only slightly less dark than the interior of the
pyramid. Angel smelled the familiar smells of a museum -- mustiness and
dust, industrial cleaning products and the faint remnants of thousands of
people -- and something else too, something less familiar --
"Y'all never asked me
what the first thing I'm going to do is," Fred said as they began
making their way through the exhibits.
Gunn ducked underneath the
extended arm of a Grecian goddess. "I'll bite. What's that?"
"Two words," Fred
said dreamily. "Indoor bathrooms."
"Oh, GOD, yes,"
Cordelia said. "Until yesterday, I never fully appreciated the miracle
that is Charmin."
Smoke. The unfamiliar smell
was smoke. Angel frowned. Was there a fire in the museum? "I think we
should get outside."
"Let's please not
shimmy through the air vents again, all right?" Gunn said. "We
can hop on out the front. If the security alarm goes off, what the hell.
We're outta here."
They went into the high,
arched hallway that led to the main entrance. Funny, Angel thought. I
remember the ceilings being a lot lower -- of course, we were never out
here --
"That's weird,"
Fred said, pointing at a rough-hewn marble statue. "That looks like a
Michelangelo. What's that doing in a Museum of Victoriana?"
The smell of smoke was
getting stronger. Angel realized he'd begun to walk faster, as had the
others. "Something's not right," Angel said.
"What?" Gunn said.
"Like what?"
Angel reached the front door
first. The alarm didn't seem worth worrying about, so he flung open the
door and saw --
The streets were ablaze. All
around them, buildings were going up in flames or smoldering into ash.
Distant screams and shouting echoed through the night. Angel realized he
could smell the metallic gristle of ruined electrical wiring, the thick
haze of blood, the slimy tracks of things not human. Worst of all, he could
smell death -- death on a scale he'd never known before. The air was thick
with the rancid stench of it.
Next to him, the others
stood agape. For a few moments, they could only stare at the carnage before
them.
Finally, Cordelia said,
"Okay. Who left the gas on?"
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A STITCH IN TIME
Book Two: The Eleventh Hour
by Yahtzee and Rheanna
Yahtzee63@aol.com
Rheanna@goldenmaze.com
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Chapter One
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"This isn't right."
Angel could hear his own
words echo hollowly in the great hall of the museum. He could hear the
quick, shallow breathing of Cordelia, Fred and Gunn, all standing appalled
by his side. Beyond the museum's walls, he could still hear the screams.
"Boy howdy, it's not
right!" Cordelia pressed her palms against the door, as though she
were willing the outside to change into the world they'd left. "Oh, my
God, what happened? Where are we? I mean -- when are we?"
"We must have
overshot," Gunn said. His voice was toneless, dead with shock.
"We've landed in the middle of World War III."
"We didn't change any
of the settings on the time machine," Fred said. She was twisting her
hair nervously, bouncing slightly on her heels. "Logically, it should
have taken us back to when we left. Unless -- unless this is another
dimension. A hell dimension, like that place where --" She looked at
Angel and stopped.
Quartoth, Angel thought, and
for an instant felt an insane kind of hope. He'd welcome a return to hell,
if there was any chance he could find his son there. But even that
flickering dream was swiftly crushed when he realized he'd recognized the
one of the structures outside. "No. This isn't another
dimension."
"Angel, I'm sorry, but
that is NOT Los Angeles," Cordelia said.
"Not our
neighborhood," Gunn said. "Compton, maybe."
"No," Angel said.
"It's Rome."
By way of demonstration, he
opened the door again. For a few moments, they all stared at the ruined
city. In some places fires raged in the hollow shells of buildings, while
in others flames dripped from low, sulfurous clouds. Everywhere he looked,
Angel saw a devastation so total nothing had escaped it. But the city, although
dead, wasn't deserted. The debris teemed with creatures that slithered and
scuttled, pouncing on each other with cannibalistic glee. In the streets
and on the corners lay the bodies of those who had tried to flee and
failed. In the far distance was the unmistakable silhouette of the
Colosseum.
Angel shut the door again.
Fred said weakly, "Now, see, I was wondering when they built a
football stadium downtown."
Cordelia whispered,
"Angel -- we screwed it up." Her face was pale as she stepped
closer to him. "Didn't we? When we were in the past, we did something
wrong and -- and we -- oh, God. We did this."
"That servant
girl!" Gunn's eyes were wide. "The one I kept from going into
y'all's vamp hideout. She must've been supposed to die. Instead, I saved
her, so she could live and give birth to the Antichrist."
"We don't know
that," Fred said. She was trembling now, and her voice was slightly
higher-pitched as she continued, "The ripple effect means that it
could have been anything we did that was different to what was supposed to
happen -- some tiny change we caused had unforeseen effects, which in turn
had unforeseen effects, growing more and more cataclysmic as time went on,
eventually rendering the reality we once knew null and void --"
Suddenly she slapped herself across the face. As Angel and the others
stared at her, Fred took a deep breath and said, "It could have been
anything. I doubt we could ever figure out what we did wrong."
Angel considered what she'd
said for a moment, then felt himself tense as the implications sank in.
"If we don't know what we did wrong -- then we can't return to the
past and fix it."
Fred nodded slowly. "We
might even make it worse."
"Worse?" Cordelia
gestured in the general direction of the door, and by extension, at the wrecked
world beyond it. "How, exactly, could it get worse?"
"Nuclear fallout,"
Gunn said. "That's just off the top of my head, but I'm sure there's
more where that came from."
"We still have to
try," Angel said.
"Yeah, I know,"
Fred said. "I'm just saying -- we can't go back blind. First we have
to find out what happened here and what led up to it. That's our only hope
of undoing this."
Cordelia tried to smile.
"So, I guess that's ixnay on just going back to 1960 to discover the
Beatles."
It wasn't much of a joke,
but Angel was grateful for it all the same. He quickly squeezed Cordelia's
hand, borrowing courage as much as giving it. "All right. We have to
figure out what happened. We might as well start here."
"Right," Fred
said, brightening marginally. "Museums are usually about history,
after all."
Angel breathed in deeply and
concentrated, searching for the scent of smoke in the air. After a moment,
he said, "This building's not on fire yet. We've got a little while, I
think."
"This building is
stone, right?" Cordelia said. "Looks like it, mostly. I mean,
sure, lots of flammable stuff on the inside, but those stone walls ought to
buy us some time."
Angel thought about what
she'd said and felt his body tensing up yet again. "You're right.
Trouble is, you're not going to be the only one to think of it."
"Meaning --"
Cordelia's jaw dropped. "Something else could try and get in."
Fred hurriedly said,
"Why don't we see if this museum has a weapons and armaments
section?"
A rack of pamphlets and
museum guides yielded a version in English, which informed them that they'd
left the time machine in a sculpture hall ("I wasn't the only one who
thought it was a statue," Cordelia said pointedly). Better yet, the
guide pointed the way to an extensive exhibit of medieval weaponry, both
European and Asian. They made their way there quickly, and Angel smashed
through the cases without any thought to the alarm system. He doubted
anyone remained to hear it.
He said nothing, and his
friends said little. Fred was too busy studying the various museum guides
for clues about the time they'd found and the history they'd changed; he,
Gunn and Cordelia were testing their weapons. Cordelia seemed briefly
interested in a scimitar, but Angel was relieved to see her choose a
classic sword. No time for experimenting, he thought, casting an appraising
glance at a mace. We need to carry what we're best at, no more.
Angel found he needed to
concentrate on only the most immediate, pragmatic aspects of their
situation. Sharpen Cordelia's sword. Check the grip on Gunn's axe. Lead
everyone back toward the time machine; best to figure out their next move
while simultaneously protecting their means of transport.
If he let himself think of
anything else at all, then Angel found himself thinking about the history
that hadn't happened in this world. He still didn't know exactly when they
were or what had changed, but he knew this much -- thousands, maybe
millions, of people had suffered horribly because they'd made a mistake.
The further damage they'd wrought, they might not ever know.
And worst of all -- Angel
was pretty sure that in this reality, Connor had never been born.
As they made their way
through the darkened museum, headed toward the sculpture hall, Cordelia
said, "That pamphlet telling you anything yet, Fred?"
Fred shook her head.
"So far, it doesn't look like anything is different. I mean, this
museum has a lot of antiquities -- things we wouldn't have changed anyway
-- but they have some modern things too. Warhol still painted some soup
cans. Picasso still had a blue period."
Gunn said, "Yeah, I'd
hate to think we stopped some paintings from getting made on our way to
destroying the world."
"Charles, it's as good
a way as any to know a lot of things were still the same, at least until
very recently."
"Then what
happened?" Cordelia asked, directing the question at no one and
everyone. "We changed God-knows-what in 1898, the whole twentieth
century happened just fine and then -- kablooey! It all goes wrong a
century later? It just doesn't tie up."
Angel stopped walking. The
others froze immediately; when he half-turned around, they were staring
back at him. Slowly, Angel lifted his finger to his mouth, warning them to
silence. Fred clutched the pamphlet to her chest, and Cordelia adjusted her
grip on her sword, bringing it to the ready.
The footsteps were ordinary
-- human weight, regular walking speed, no special caution about noise. How
many people? Angel thought. Maybe four -- no, five. He held out his hand
and unfolded his fingers deliberately, silently counting them off for the
others.
Cordelia nodded. Gunn
mouthed the word, "Where?"
Angel listened to them for
another few moments. They were one level up, a few feet over -- he
concentrated, then murmured, "Sculpture hall."
"The time
machine!" Fred whispered.
Angel ran toward the hall,
moving as quickly and quietly as he could, leaving his friends falling
behind. That didn't matter. If someone or something -- maybe the thing that
was more directly responsible for the mayhem outside -- was trying to get
the time machine, then Angel had to stop them immediately or die trying.
He leapt up the stairs to
the next level, where he could hear their voices -- men, mostly, but one
woman -- and charged through the doors. Amid the statues, Angel could see
five people standing there. They looked like ordinary people in ordinary
clothes, yet each was armed with a sword. A few of the intruders were in
the shadows, but on the face of the man closest to him, Angel saw shock,
recognition and disgust. "Angelus," he said, in a cool, clipped
English accent. "We ought to have known."
"Known what?"
Angel said, stalling for time. He was pretty sure he could defeat five
humans, but with the stakes so high, "pretty sure" wasn't good
enough. The others were on their way to improve the odds. "My
name?"
"The entire world knows
your name now," said the woman, stepping forward. She was sick with fear,
so acute Angel could smell its intoxicating fragrance wafting from across
the room. Yet she stood her ground. "As you intended they
should."
The full meaning of her
words hit Angel hard, making him weak, almost nauseated, in an instant. He
rasped, "You mean -- the carnage outside -- what's happening -- I did
that."
"You've come here to
brag?" said another of the men. He was the tallest, and probably the
strongest of the group. There was a militaristic stiffness to his bearing.
"No. We know what you're here for."
"The same thing you're
here for!" Cordelia came striding through the door, Gunn and Fred
close behind. Angel didn't turn to face them, but he could see the surprise
on the English people's faces as, one by one, his friends flanked him.
Cordelia continued, "You want to hijack our time machine? It's so not
happening. Sorry about the sucky week you guys are having, but I'm afraid
you're stuck with it."
"Until we change
it!" Fred added helpfully.
Gunn brought his axe into
position. "Until then, we suggest you step outside. Make yourselves
comfortable in the rest of the museum. I understand there's a snack
bar."
The fourth of the invaders,
almost the furthest back, came forward into the dim emergency lighting. He
was older than the others, with white hair and a salt-and-pepper beard.
"We know what's at stake here," he began. "So do you. That's
why you know we won't be stepping aside."
"They're human,"
whispered the woman to the white-haired man. "Basil, the three with
Angelus -- they're not vampires. They're human beings."
The white-haired man
hesitated for a moment, but then he stepped closer to Angel. "It
doesn't matter what they are," he said. "It only matters what
they want to do."
"How did they know
about the time machine?" said the tall man. "That is among our
most guarded secrets --"
"Hey, we're not
DEAF," Cordelia said. "If you guys want a battle, you can have
one." Her bravado was half bluster, Angel knew; Cordelia had become a
fighter in the past year, but she wasn't yet hardened enough to easily face
the prospect of hurting or killing human beings. "But we don't want to
hurt you."
They all stared. Then they
all started to laugh -- harsh, bitter laughter that Angel could tell
unnerved the others. To Angel, the sound of it was like razor cuts; he knew
the intruders were laughing because of the pure absurdity of the idea that
Angelus didn't want to hurt anyone.
The gypsies cursed me, Angel
thought. I remember it, and this time, I saw it, too. It happened. We stopped
Dru. Cordy staked Dru. What went wrong?
As the intruders stopped
laughing, the fifth and final member of the group stepped from the very
back of the room into the light. "On behalf of the Council of
Watchers," he said, "we decline your demand for surrender."
Angel stared at him, knew
his friends were doing the same. As one, they each whispered,
"Wesley?"
Wesley Wyndham-Pryce --
suit-clad, sword-wielding and somehow looking younger than Angel remembered
-- stared back at them in shock, his earlier cool forgotten. "I beg
your pardon?" he said, clearly astonished.
The other Watchers were
staring at Wesley, who looked both bewildered and desperate to deny knowing
Angelus or anyone who would consort with him.
Cordelia choked out,
"Angel, they're people -- it's Wesley -- "
"They're not
real," Angel said. He could only see Wesley, his white-linen suit
seeming to glow in the dark. He looked like a boy. He looked the way he had
the day Angel had offered him a job. "None of this is real. Tomorrow
it won't exist. This reality doesn't matter." The sword was heavy in
his hand, and he could anticipate the power of his blows. Angel's human
mind, confused and overwhelmed, suddenly seemed to shut down; his vampiric
mind took over, sizing up the situation and seizing the instant.
"Nothing we do here matters."
Angel slammed the broad side
of his sword into the head of the white-haired Watcher closest to him. The
man fell, and the female Watcher screamed. Cordelia silenced her by leaping
forward and punching her hard across the jaw.
"Take them!"
yelled the tall man.
Angel could see the battle
going on around him -- he knew that Basil was getting up from the floor,
that Gunn was tackling another of the men, that Cordelia was wrestling with
still another in earnest. He could smell the blood trickling from the
woman's mouth, staining Fred's hand as she punched the female Watcher back
down.
But only one figure in the
room mattered. His prey.
Wesley was fumbling with a
crossbow, trying to get it loaded. The Wesley that Angel remembered was
good with a crossbow, but he'd only become so after he'd begun working with
them in L.A. He'd needed so little practice to become good -- practice he
hadn't gotten with the Watchers -- practice he didn't have in this reality.
Nothing we do here matters,
Angel thought. His face shifted, and his fangs slid into his mouth, sharp
and strong and familiar. He knocked one of the other Watchers into a
Renaissance bronze, saw the man slump down, semiconscious. We can do
anything here. Anything at all.
"Stop him!" It was
Basil's voice. Angel whirled around, swinging his sword toward Basil's head
with all his might. Something made him turn his wrist, made him use the
broad side once again. Angel could do whatever he wanted. He didn't want to
kill at random. That didn't mean he didn't want to kill.
Basil fell. The female
Watcher moaned as she toppled to her knees. One of the men fell on the
floor in front of Gunn, stunned or dead or unconscious. Wesley had the
crossbow ready. He pointed it at Angel and fired --
("Sleep tight,"
Angel had said, and he kissed his son's face. Connor was cradled in
Wesley's arms. It tore Angel's heart to think of Connor being gone for one
whole night.)
Angel turned to the side,
preternaturally fast, and the arrow whooshed by him to thud into the far
wall. He leapt forward, relishing in the panic on Wesley's face as he
scrambled to reload. Angel's sword swung upwards, its tip catching the
crossbow and sending it flying.
"Angel!"
Cordelia's voice. Not afraid. Not needing help. He could ignore it. Angel
tackled Wesley; he felt the human's chest buckle, his balance shifting and
falling. They tumbled to the ground, hard marble beneath them. Angel caught
a glimpse of Wesley's ashen face and sent his fist smashing into it.
"Angel!" Not just
Cordy now. Fred too. And Gunn. Still not important.
Wesley put his hands up,
less in an attempt to attack than in a futile attempt to shield himself
from the blows. Angel punched him, again and again and again, and every
time his fist made contact with flesh, he said his son's name. Out loud, he
realized, hearing the gasped words more consciously than he spoke them:
"Connor -- Connor -- Connor --"
"Angel, please! Please
stop! Just look at me, please -- Angel --" Cordelia was crying. Why
was she crying? The danger was past. The other Watchers were all
unconscious; Angel could tell without even looking.
Wesley shoved himself away
from Angel, gaining no more than a few inches of space. Angel grabbed the
sword he'd dropped and swung it toward Wesley's neck --
And froze.
The point of the sword was
at Wesley's throat. Wesley lay there, bleeding and terrified and helpless.
The cries of the others seemed to be very far away. Nothing he did here
mattered.
Wesley's face looked so
young. The white-linen suit was just like the one Wesley had been wearing
when Angel offered him a job.
Angel dropped the sword. He
stared down at Wesley, who stared up at him.
"Why did you do
it?" Angel said, knowing this Wesley couldn't answer. "Why
couldn't you just tell me? I would have listened to you." His throat
grew thick, but Angel kept on, the words spilling out of him, slurred by
his fangs. "I trusted you. I trusted you more than you trusted
me."
"Angel."
Cordelia's voice was closer now, and when her hands touched his shoulder,
the world shifted again. Angel felt his forehead smooth, and his fangs
retracted. The haze of killer instinct faded from him, leaving only the
smell of blood.
Wesley shook, apparently in
a shock that was half terror and half relief. Angel said again, "I
trusted you." He let his head fall backwards so that he could see
Cordelia's face; she was looking at him through her own tears. "If he
had told me --"
"I know," she
whispered. "Come on. Let's step back for a minute, okay? We can -- we
can check out the paintings in the hallway, huh?"
Gunn and Fred walked up,
each with weapons at the ready. Angel knew they would watch Wesley. He got
to his feet, but his body seemed too heavy for his muscles to support. He
slumped against Cordelia, who slid her arm around his waist. "We'll be
right back," she whispered. Fred nodded.
Wesley took a deep breath.
"BytheauthorityoftheCouncilofWatchersIcommandyou --"
"Shut UP," Gunn
said, poking his sword in Wesley's general vicinity. Wesley shut up.
Angel let Cordelia walk him
to the hallway, but once the door swung shut behind them, he slid back onto
the ground. Cordelia didn't slide with him, but she stroked his hair,
guided him until he let his head rest against the side of her leg.
"You stopped," she said quietly. "You didn't have to stop,
and you did."
"I would have listened
to him," Angel said. "If he had told me."
"It's all right,"
Cordelia said. "It's over. It's all over."
Angel thought of Connor,
drowsy and small, cradled in Wesley's arms as they went out the door.
"It's all over," he echoed.
"Are you gonna be
okay?"
"Yeah," he said.
He wrapped his arms around Cordelia's legs, not hugging her tightly, just
leaning against her. "Give me a couple of minutes."
Cordelia laughed weakly, her
voice hoarse from unshed tears. "Angel, for once it's true -- we have
all the time in the world."
***
According to Cordelia's
watch, the date was April 26, 2002, and the time was just after seven in
the evening. She stared at the numbers, trying to make them mean something,
but no matter how hard she tried, the winking display was irrelevant
nonsense. She took the watch off and put it in her pocket.
The sound of footsteps
approaching made her look up. Gunn and Fred were returning, their shoes
echoing noisily on the stone floor. "All done?" she asked.
Gunn held up a large bunch
of iron keys, and jangled them. "Locked 'em up separately in the
Egyptian rooms. But it's gonna be a while before they start hollerin' to
get out -- the other four are still out cold. They're sleeping like babies
--"
He broke off, and visibly
winced as he realized what he'd said. Cordelia cast an anxious glance in
Angel's direction -- in the wake of their arrival in this apocalyptic
future and the encounter with Wesley, her concern about his emotional state
had ratcheted back up to DefCon Four. But Angel didn't seem to have heard;
he was sitting by the small fire they'd started using Gunn's lighter and a
collection of guidebooks, watching the fire's smoke twirl up to the high
roof. He seemed calm, at least for the moment, and Cordelia was grateful
for that much. The fire cast the shadows of both the time machine and Angel
on to the wall, elongating and distorting them into monstrous shapes.
Suddenly, a noise that was
half-howl and half-shriek pierced the silence. Cordelia didn't recognize
it, but she was pretty sure it wasn't the kind of sound made by a fluffy,
gentle-natured creature that just wanted to be friends.
Angel looked up. "That
came from outside. They're not in the building yet."
"Ya had to go and
finish with 'yet'," Gunn muttered.
"We're not going to be
safe here for much longer," Fred said. "We have to figure out
what's going on." She looked over at the obelisk in the far corner.
"All of us."
"If you think -- for
one instant -- that I would ever help you, you are mistaken," Wesley
gasped, his voice thickened by his broken nose. His hands were tied around
the back of the obelisk with Gunn's belt, immobilizing him. It also
prevented him from wiping away the blood from a deep gash on his forehead,
which was hardening in a sticky trail on his cheek.
The last time Cordelia had
seen Wesley this badly beaten up had been after Faith had tortured him.
Then, she'd wanted to scratch Faith's eyes out, to show her what happened
to people who messed with Cordelia Chase's friends. But Angel had done
this. Angel's grief and rage were written on Wesley's face, in blood and
bruises, and was Wesley still her friend?
"My name is Wesley
Wyndham-Pryce," he said. "I am here in the service of the Council
of Watchers and the greater good. And that's all you're getting out of
me."
Angel began, "We're not
trying to --" He seemed to catch himself, and broke off abruptly.
"Someone else had better talk to him." He got up and walked to
the other end of the hall, his back to Wesley.
Cordelia realized instantly
that, as untrustworthy as she and the others might appear in Wesley's eyes
right now, they were probably going to stand a better chance of dealing
with him than the Scourge of Europe, a.k.a. the guy who had just broken
Wesley's nose. She glanced back at Wesley; he was trying to mask his fear,
and with some success. Only someone who knew him as well as Cordelia did
could have guessed at the depth of terror he was trying to hide. She walked
over to the obelisk where Wesley was tied up. "We're not going to kill
you."
Wesley looked --
justifiably, Cordelia had to admit -- skeptical. "Aha. And I suppose
you've given my colleagues tea and crumpets and sent them on their merry
way."
God, she'd forgotten how
annoying he could be when he chose. "They're all tied up in the next
room -- which is a pretty good deal for them, since it's a LOT safer in
here than outside," Cordelia told him, putting her hands on her hips.
"You'll also notice
that we haven't killed you yet, which is kind of a point in our
favor," Fred said from where she stood beside Gunn. "Also,
remember how we were yelling for Angel to stop hitting you? That's all
non-murdery, right?" Cordelia shot her a look, and she shrugged
apologetically. "Just tryin' to help. I'll hush up now."
Wesley tried to raise an
eyebrow, before pain from his swollen, battered face prevented him.
"You've undoubtedly kept me alive only so that I could -- enjoy the
pleasure of Angelus' company." At the other end of the hall, Angel glanced
over his shoulder slightly, not quite enough for Cordelia to read the look
in his eyes. Wesley looked at Cordelia curiously, then Fred and Gunn in
turn. "None of you are vampires. What kind of deal have you made with
him?"
"Things ain't the way
they look to you," Gunn said. "And I know this is gonna sound
crazy, but we're trying to fix whatever went wrong here."
The look on Wesley's bruised
and swelling face in response to that was easy to read. He was clearly
incredulous. "FIX it? Angelus -- trying to FIX this?"
"This isn't
Angelus!" Cordelia said, increasingly disconcerted by Wesley's
presence and the unnerving sounds from outside. "Wesley, that time
machine -- we came out of it. We know how it works because we used it.
We're from --" She hesitated, unwilling to tell Wesley the whole story
at once, "-- another time. A time when Angel has a soul."
"A soul?" Wesley
repeated. Cordelia nodded and folded her arms across her chest. That would
change things, make Wesley understand this was different.
Then Wesley started to
laugh.
The sound of it echoed off
the marble floors, the high ceilings, the statues that framed them. It
wasn't a cruel sound; he wasn't mocking them. Cordelia almost wished he
was. Wesley was laughing from sheer surprise and disbelief. She glanced
over to see that the others were equally unsettled by his reaction. Gunn
muttered, "I'm getting the feeling this is gonna be a hard sell."
"That's rich,"
Wesley said at last. "And, I must hand it to you, an ingenious
attempt. You've obviously got sources deep within the Council. The level of
betrayal --" He trailed off for a moment, then regained himself.
"Honestly. You're all standing there in blue jeans and T-shirts, using
modern slang, as American as Mickey Mouse. Did you really believe I'd think
you'd come forward in time from 19th-century Romania?"
Cordelia's mouth fell open.
"How did you know that?" Wesley looked away, unwilling to
continue the conversation and obviously regretting his indiscretion.
"How could you possibly know that?"
At the other end of the
hall, Angel turned around and came back to join them, all reticence to
speak to Wesley overcome by something more urgent. "I didn't have a
soul in 19th-century Romania," he said as he came to stand beside
Cordelia. "Not until the end --"
"Wait a second,"
Fred said. "What Wesley's saying is, in this reality, there was a time
when Angel had a soul, but -- but he doesn't anymore, and hasn't for a
while. Not since Romania? Wesley?" He shifted slightly; Cordelia
realized that he looked uncomfortable, even aside from all the swelling and
bleeding. The angle of his arms had to hurt, at least a little.
She went to the obelisk and
loosened the belt the tiniest fraction. Wesley lunged forward, but the
bonds didn't break; he could, however, stand a little more upright. As
she'd hoped, the gesture got Wesley to make eye contact with her as she
came around. "Just tell us about Angel having a soul," Cordelia
said. "And how he lost it. That's all we want to know. That can't do
any harm, can it? The world's ending. It's not like it's going to get any
worse than that."
For a moment, Wesley
hesitated, but then he said, "There's not much more to know. What your
source told you is really all the information there is. Watcher legend has
it that, in late 19th-century Romania, Angelus murdered a young gypsy girl.
As revenge, the gypsies cursed him with a soul, so that he might know the
horrors he had wrought. But Darla -- and don't pretend you don't know who
she is --"
Wish I didn't, Cordelia
thought.
"Darla somehow forced
the gypsies to remove the curse and restore him to his former amorality.
They did so -- and were promptly slaughtered for their pains." Wesley
was clearly exhausted and, quite possibly, concussed; he leaned his head
back against the obelisk. He glared unevenly at Angel, who stared back in
mute horror. "The Watchers' records said that Angelus' memories of his
conscience only spurred him to greater viciousness and brutality afterward.
He began hunting down family members of his past victims. He'd apologize --
and then kill them, too."
"Darla did try to
reverse the curse," Angel said. He closed his eyes for a moment, deep
in thought. "Dammit, what did she say?"
"Angel?" Gunn
said. "You know what he's talking about?
"My memory right at
first -- right after the curse -- it's confused," Angel said. He began
pacing, nervous energy evident in every step he took, every line of his
body. "For a long time after it happened -- years -- I was barely
sane. But once, when I was with her in China, Darla told me something...
she told me she found the one who performed the curse. She was going to
threaten to kill his family unless he reversed it."
"True love," Gunn
noted dryly. "Why didn't it work?"
"Spike missed the
'threaten' part," Angel said. "He ate them."
"Something we did must
have changed that," Fred said. "We have to think of everything we
did in 1898 that could have changed that."
There was a silence as they
all considered this. Cordelia guessed the others were thinking the same
thing she was -- no matter how hard they had tried not to interfere with
the past, once you started making a list, it was clear they'd changed a lot
of things. She glanced over at Wesley to see how he was taking it, but he'd
either passed out or gotten close to it.
"We went to the gypsies,"
Angel said at last. "They knew we were from the future."
"We talked to those
English people on the road," Gunn added.
"I staked
Drusilla," Cordy said.
"No, that one doesn't
count," Fred said. "You staked our Drusilla, the one from the
present."
Angel stopped pacing, froze
and turned around. He stared at Fred, then Cordelia. "How do we
know?"
Cordy looked at him.
"Know what?"
"How do we know that
the Drusilla you staked was the one from 2002?"
"Well --" Cordelia
frowned. "She was wearing the same dress she had when we found her in
the museum in L.A. You know, the red floaty one from Saks, with the layer
hem and the little straps --"
Angel held up a hand,
cutting Cordelia off in mid-flow. "But are you SURE it was the Dru
from our time?"
"Of COURSE I'm
sure," Cordelia said tartly. But, almost immediately, doubt crept into
her mind. "I told you, she had on the dress from before, and it's not
like they could have swapped dresses -- I mean, I guess they could have,
but we don't know that." Then she hesitated. "And -- and -- well,
she didn't recognize me. But that's hardly weird by Drusilla standards,
right? It's not like we've spent a lot of quality time together, so she
might not know my name --"
"She knows your
name," Angel said. "Back in Sunnydale, when Xander did that
spell, the one that made all the women in town fall for him --"
Oh, God, Cordelia thought.
Xander's mojo spell, the one that made Willow run after us with an axe and
Buffy's mom come on to him. It seemed like a memory from another life.
"-- Drusilla was
infatuated with him, and she was furious at you for being the one he
wanted." Angel hesitated. "I, uh, may have told her your name.
And where you lived. And when cheerleader practice let out."
"Angel!" Cordelia
smacked him hard on the arm. "You could have gotten me killed!"
"That was the
idea." Angel looked thoroughly miserable. "Cordy, I'm sorry.
Believe me, I've thought about it, and it makes me --" He stopped,
looked away and, after a second, continued, "Her anger wore off with
the spell. But Drusilla knew who you were. She wouldn't forget."
Fred said urgently,
"Was there something, anything else she said that would identify her
as our Dru? Or as not-our Dru? Anything at all?"
"She was really
confused, no surprise there, and she didn't seem to realize I would know
what she was or how to stop her..." Cordelia trailed off and
swallowed. "She didn't know me. She asked me who I was. Uh, guys? I
think I might have staked the wrong Dru."
Gunn swore under his breath.
Then he said, "We left her there. We thought we'd won, so we came back
home and left 2002 Dru in 1898."
It was all so obvious, now,
that Cordelia couldn't believe they hadn't worked it out sooner. Angel
said, "Drusilla never intended to stop the original curse. Her plan
was to change what happened afterward. To make sure it was reversed. That
was just as good for her purposes, and easier for her to pull off, because
she knew exactly what had gone wrong. And we just came home and let her do
it."
They remained silent for a
few moments, taking that in. Gunn raised his hand like a student asking a
difficult question in class. "Not to look inside the dark cloud and
find an even darker lining, but -- are we sure that's all that
changed?"
Cordelia wheeled around and
smacked Wesley gently on the cheek with her palm. "Wakey-wakey, Wes.
We gotta talk."
He half-opened his eyes and
looked woozily at her. "Ah. You're not all dead yet. Shame."
Cordelia ignored that.
"Would you mind clarifying, for those of us just tuning in, just how
it is Angelus destroyed the world?"
"Not Angelus,"
Wesley said. He was slurring his words a little. "Not technically, I
mean. The majority of the murdering and incineration is the work of the
Judge. But Angelus helped Drusilla and Spike put the damned thing together,
and he's the only one pure enough in his evil to command the Judge's
allegiance." He laughed brokenly. "But why do you ask me things
you already know?"
"The Judge,"
Cordelia's thoughts were spinning now. "Angel, that was that loser
from the mall that time, wasn't it? The one Buffy took out with a
rocket-launcher?"
Wesley's jaw dropped.
"A rocket-launcher! Of COURSE! Not forged by the hand of man --"
Angel nodded. "That's
the one. And what we saw outside -- he could do that. But the clues to
finding the pieces of the Judge were discovered years ago -- wait. Wesley,
what year is this?"
Cordelia could see Wesley's
hesitation, his reluctance to answer Angelus. But perhaps the sheer
triviality of the question made him shrug and say, "It's 1998, of
course."
"This is four years
ago!" Cordelia said, indignantly. "Fred, I thought we were going
to go back to where we came from! Or when!"
"We should have,"
Fred said. "I don't know exactly how the time machine works, but it
doesn't make any sense for it to choose a new exit date at random --"
"No," Angel said
suddenly. "Not at random." The others all looked at him. He said,
"Don't you see? It brought us as far forward as it could. It couldn't
go any farther than this."
Fred put her hand to her
mouth, then nodded. "Because -- 1998 is where this reality ends."
Wesley's left eyelid -- the
one that wasn't swollen out of recognition -- was fluttering open and
closed. Cordelia shook him back to wakefulness. "Why didn't you use
the time machine sooner? Why'd you let it go this far?"
"Too risky,"
Wesley mumbled. "Last resort. We knew about it for a long time... let
it stay hidden, just another museum piece... For the best. Too tempting,
too easy to change things..."
The killer part, Cordelia
thought bleakly, was that he was right. Between Drusilla's interference and
theirs, history had somehow been well and truly screwed.
"What were you going to
do in the past?"
"The simplest, most
obvious thing... We were going back to drive a stake through Angelus'
heart. Stop him... before he had a chance to awaken the Judge to murder the
world. But you've put paid to that, and I've failed. I've failed
again." He looked up at Cordelia, and she saw a peculiar, desperate
pleading in his face. "Kill him. If you have any shred of decency, of
humanity, kill him. If the world can't be saved, at least let it be
avenged."
His one open eye stared up
at her, a bloodshot rim of white visible all around it. Cordelia could see
her revulsion reflected in the dark circle of the pupil. Yet more
vengeance.
Then Wesley's eye fluttered
shut, and his head slumped sideways on to his shoulder.
Another memory popped into
her head, one that was so vivid and real it made her eyes prick with tears.
She remembered eating breakfast with Angel and Wesley, the three of them
sitting around the table in the kitchen of Angel's apartment underneath the
old office. Angel had made eggs, and Wesley had devoured them as if he
hadn't had a proper meal in days. Cordelia had teased Wesley that someone
so scrawny shouldn't be able to eat so much, and Angel had smiled for the
first time since Doyle had died, and Cordelia had thought that maybe
everything was going to work out okay, after all.
She looked again at the
marks of fury Angel's fists had left on this Wesley's face, and she tried
to feel some measure of sympathy for him. But all she could think of was
Connor, tiny and helpless and gone for good.
This isn't the only future
that got wrecked, she thought.
From somewhere else in the
museum, there was a crash, followed by a pounding, drumming sound that
swiftly became deafeningly loud. "They're in the building," Angel
said.
Cordelia leapt up.
"What are? No, wait, on second thoughts, I really don't want to
know."
"The time
machine," Angel said. They ran to it, the pounding, screeching sounds
growing closer all the time. Beneath her feet, Cordelia could feel the
ground shaking, as if something massive were trying to push its way up from
below. "Fred, can you take us back to 1898? Right after we left?"
"I think so --"
At that moment, the museum
floor split open, a jagged crack splitting the exhibition hall in two. Gunn
and Fred were on one side, with the time machine; Cordelia and Angel were
on the other. From deep below, the crevasse glowed red-hot, and Gunn and
Fred appeared to waver through the heat-haze.
Angel looked at the widening
gap, then at Cordelia. "We have to jump."
"I was SO hoping you
weren't gonna say that," Cordelia said. Angel's face looked strange,
and for a second she thought it was purely the effect of the ghastly red
glow coming from the crevasse. Then she realized it was something else.
He's scared, she thought. He's scared we're not gonna make it.
Angel took her hand, and
together they backed up as far as they could. As they ran toward the gaping
crack, Cordelia could feel the floor growing hotter with every step until,
as she put her foot down at the edge of the chasm, she felt the soles of
her shoes squelch slightly as they melted. She gripped Angel's hand as
tightly as she could -- and they jumped.
For an instant, they were
suspended in a blast of heat so intense it felt as if the air itself were
on fire. Cordelia looked down and saw beneath them a shaft that seemed to
sink endlessly, plunging through layers of red and white heat to a source
that was blacker than any night. And she saw that the walls of the shaft
were crawling with hordes of screaming, grasping demons, every one of them
climbing toward the world above, ready to claim it as their own.
Then she landed on the far
side of the chasm, losing her balance and tumbling awkwardly. Hands grabbed
her and hauled her to safety. When she opened her eyes, she saw Gunn.
"Angel --"
"It's okay. You made
it. You both made it."
"Angel --"
Gunn twisted Cordelia's head
to one side. "It's okay. Look. You never even let go of each
other."
Cordelia looked and saw her
hand was still wrapped around Angel's. He was lying beside her, smiling
unevenly. She tried to grin back. "I think we just won the Olympic
gold for Hellmouth Leaping," she said hoarsely.
Fred was looking past all of
them, to the silhouette of Wesley's body tied, unconscious and helpless, to
the obelisk as the demons swarmed nearer. "You know what you're doing,
leaving him there," she said, blinking hard. "You're killing him."
"No, I'm not,"
Angel said. Some of the shadow that had haunted his eyes since his attack
on Wesley seemed to fall away from him. "I'm saving him."
He pulled the others to the
time machine, leaving the dying world to burn behind them.
***************
Chapter Two
***************
The servant girl had a black
eye, Darla noticed. It was a minor detail, of no consequence, certainly not
compared with what the girl was saying. "Yes, Lord Dalton's been very
concerned. He very much wishes to see you."
Darla hesitated on the step.
Not enough. "Are we invited in, then?" Despite her raging fury
and grief, she forced herself to simper convincingly. "I -- I never
thought to be invited in by a member of the nobility." Behind her,
Spike gave a short cough intended to signal both his amusement and
irritation at her game.
"Certainly,
ma'am," the servant girl said. "You're very welcome to Lord
Dalton's home."
She extended her arm and
smiled encouragingly, no doubt expecting Darla and her companions to remain
timid and unsure. Darla had no more patience for play-acting and swept
inside, not even bothering to look back at Spike and Dru.
Play-acting, she thought,
with a pang of something that might have been heartache in a mortal woman.
If you hadn't had such a weakness for theatre, my darling boy, then you
wouldn't be --
Darla closed her eyes
tightly for a moment. She couldn't think of it now. First things first.
She pushed the manservant
aside and threw open the doors. Seated at a small reading table was a man
whose slight stature, bald head and tiny, wire-rimmed glasses made him look
more like an academic than a nobleman. His dressing gown was silk -- Darla
could always tell -- and so perfectly pleated and tucked that he might have
been lounging about in the afternoon, rather than roused from his bed in
the hours before dawn. He rose to his feet instantly, manners and practice
overcoming his surprise. "Madam! I had expected you to be announced
--"
"What did you do to my
husband?" She used the title as a tactic; it would give her rights in
this foolish man's eyes, make him speak. Yet the feel of the word on her
tongue made her shiver for no reason she could name.
"You are -- Mr.
Angelus' wife? I had no idea --" Lord Dalton looked embarrassed, then
covered for his friend's lapse. "He was, of course, a very private
man. I should not have presumed that he would introduce me to his family so
soon."
"I know his habits far
better than you, sir." Darla snapped.
"He eats up
light," Drusilla sing-songed as she stepped up behind Darla. "He
drinks tears."
Lord Dalton's gaze flickered
over to Darla's companions, and she took a moment to despise the necessity
of dragging them along with her. But how could she cast them aside now?
Though she was loath to admit it, if she didn't have Spike and Drusilla,
she would now have nothing. "Tell me what you did to my husband,"
she said. "The gypsies got to him. Did you tell them where he was?
Lead them to him?"
"The gypsies!"
Lord Dalton looked shocked -- and yet, Darla thought, not as astonished as
he might have. "But of course! When my servant girl was on her way to
your house last night, they waylaid her and treated her most brutally.
Come, girl, show them your face."
The servant girl came into
the room, her black eye now explained. So, Darla thought, the gypsies found
us on their own. This foolish creature just got in the way. No answers to
be found here. At least it serves my other purpose.
"Is Mr. Angelus
hurt?" Lord Dalton said. "Is he missing?"
"Yes," Darla said.
"As are you."
"I beg your pardon?"
She smiled, a tight,
sarcastic little smile. "You came to Romania to find vampires, Lord
Percy." Darla let her face shift into its demonic visage and reveled
for a moment in his surprise and terror. "Well done, sir."
Darla grabbed his shoulders
and bit into his neck savagely, with no thought for finesse or even for the
stains on her gown. Lord Dalton's hands pawed weakly at her, scrambling to
push himself away, to no avail. In the corner of her eye, she could see
Spike making short work of the servant girl; behind her was some thumping
and gurgling that probably signaled the manservant's death and Drusilla's
lunch. Darla kept gulping down Lord Dalton's blood, needing the strength
more than she could ever remember before.
As his heart began to flutter
and fail, she let him flop back. His eyes were glassy, his skin waxen.
Angelus' voice, so loud and distinct that it startled her, echoed, "I
forbid you to turn him."
He had been speaking of a
paramour that never existed, not this ludicrous creature, and yet Darla
felt the old defiance blaze up inside her again. She brought her wrist to
her mouth and bit in deeply; the pain seemed to belong to someone else.
"Drink," she said. "Drink, and you'll know the truth to all
the stories."
Lord Dalton drank. Then he
died. His body collapsed to the floor, and Darla stared down at him until
Spike and Dru came to her side.
"You turned THAT
git?" Spike said. "Mark my words, he's not going to be any fun.
Worse than that dolt Penn, more than likely."
"He won't be up for a while,"
Darla said. "A day, maybe two. I drank too much."
"Not like you, getting
careless," Spike said. "Vamping some idiot who can't be of any
use for a day or so, dragging us off from our perfectly good villa, running
off from our perfectly good hotel rooms that were waiting later on --"
"He can't find
us," Darla said quickly. "He mustn't find us."
"Who? Angelus?"
Spike looked at her in disbelief, then cackled in glee. "Oh, this is
brilliant. You're pretending to run off from Angelus again, just so he can
chase you --"
Against her will -- against
every instinct she had, vampiric and otherwise -- Darla felt her eyes
filling with tears. "Be silent," she hissed. "It's not yours
to question what I do."
Drusilla's fingers stroked
through Darla's hair, as slender and cool as the teeth of an ivory comb.
"Drink up your tears, little baby grandmother," Dru said.
"Spike doesn't mean to be unkind."
"Yes, I do," Spike
said.
"They won't beat
us," Darla said. She knew she was making less sense even than Dru; she
didn't care. "I won't let them win."
Drusilla smiled. "Not
this time."
***
Fred tried very hard to
remember the last time she'd looked around to see where she was and been
happy about the answer. It had been a disturbingly long time ago, and, to
judge by where she thought Angel was leading them, it wasn't going to
happen again anytime soon.
"Uh, Angel?"
Cordelia said, breaking the shell-shocked silence that had lasted since
they'd left the cave in the Romanian woods. Now they were winding their way
through the pre-dawn streets of Sighisoara, and there was no longer any
doubt about where they were going. "Is it my imagination, or are we
headed in exactly the wrong direction?"
"We're going to the
villa," Angel said. "Where Darla, Dru, Spike and I lived."
"Hence my use of the
phrase, 'exactly the wrong direction,'" Cordelia said. "Angel, I
know the whole apocalypse-timeshift-Wesley thing was stressful -- it was
for all of us --"
Charles cut in. "What
she's asking is, are you insane?" Fred winced. After what she'd seen
before -- the second crazed attack Angel had made on Wesley, or a version
of Wesley, anyway, in two weeks -- that question seemed far too close to
the bone.
But when Angel answered, he
sounded calm. "Not yet," he said. "Believe me, I don't like
this any better than you do. If there were anywhere else -- but there
isn't. Darla will be trying to avoid me. That means she's going to be
anywhere but the villa."
"She thinks you -- as
in, past you -- might be coming back here?" Fred said. When Angel
nodded, she said, "How do you know you won't?"
"I didn't before,"
Angel said. "I know that's no guarantee, but it's got to be a good
sign. We can stay there today, bide our time, rest, get some supplies.
Maybe some money."
"She won't have taken
it all with her?" Cordelia said. "Shame to leave good money lying
around."
"We took possessions we
particularly liked," Angel said. They were getting close to the villa
now, and Fred found herself thinking gratefully of whatever brief rest they
might get. She'd had only one afternoon's nap since their first trip back
in time yesterday -- two days ago? How long was it? She couldn't think of
how to calculate it anymore. "But only our favorites. What we could carry
easily, no more. You could always steal something newer or better the next
day."
"So we can get
clothes," Charles said. "Which would be good, seeing as how the
gypsies aren't going to be loaning us new outfits again." Fred nodded;
she felt ridiculous in her 21st-century gear, even though the streets were
utterly deserted at this hour.
Cordelia said, "We SO
do not need to visit the gypsies again. I mean, I see where they're coming
from, but there are some serious hostility issues at work with those guys."
"But we have to see
them!" Fred said, so surprised she stopped walking. The others halted
as she said, "Spike and Darla are going to kill them. We know
that."
Everyone was quiet for a
moment. It was Charles who answered her, "Fred, we ain't here to see
that they don't die. We're here to make sure they do."
Fred took a moment to
consider it. "It's like the servant girl, isn't it?" she finally
said. "Except this time we know. They have to die."
"Yeah," Angel
said. "They do."
Cordelia quickly said,
"Let's just get to this villa, okay? It's freezing out here, and if
I'm going to have to fight for my life, I'd like to do it before I'm
completely numb."
They came to the villa;
Angel motioned for them to stand back, then went and tried the door. It was
unlocked, apparently, as it swung open at his touch. For a few moments, she
and Charles and Cordelia stood there, breathless and waiting. At last, a
lamp came on inside, warming the windowpanes with its glow. Fred breathed a
sigh of relief. "See?" Cordelia said. "Completely
safe."
Charles rolled his eyes at
Fred as they went inside, and she smiled. Then she got a look at the place,
and froze on the spot. "Oh, my God."
The room had been ransacked.
Everything breakable was broken; trunks lay in the hallway, open and obviously
rifled-through. A few scraps of cloth -- clothing or linens -- hung on
chairs and banisters. Fred wondered if the dark stains in front of the
fireplace were blood, then decided she didn't want to know.
Even Angel looked surprised.
"It wasn't like this when I left," he said. "Darla must have
-- she would have been angry. I mean, she was angry."
"When you left that
night to meet Lord Dunstan or Dalton or whatever it was?" Cordelia
said. "Not this time. You guys were way too cozy, and now you've reminded
me." She began to peer into the trunks and sift through their
contents, scowling all the while.
"No, not then,"
Angel said. "When she came back and found me later -- a few hours ago,
I guess. When she realized I had a soul."
Cordelia's face brightened.
"A-hah!" She held up a roll of something that was obviously
money, even if Fred didn't recognize the currency. "Angel, is this a
lot of money? Please say this is a lot of money. If we're gonna be stranded
back in time, I would prefer to be stranded and rich." Something about
what Cordelia said sent a shiver down Fred's back, and she gripped the side
of the trunk.
Charles said, "How did
you find that?"
"She can smell
it," Angel said. He smiled at Cordelia then, a gentle, familiar smile
that was more relaxed, more human, than any expression Fred had seen on
Angel's face in weeks. "Remember when I used to hide a couple twenties
around the old office?"
"My surprise
bonuses," Cordy said, squeezing his arm. "So, have we won the
nineteenth-century lotto? Or is this like Italian lira, where you need
something like eighty thousand to buy a Coke?"
"It's
substantial," Angel said. "We can't buy a house with it, but we
can live well for a month or two. Buy what we don't find here."
"First off, we need
clothes," Fred said. She was still cold; the house was almost chillier
than outside. Maybe that was why she was shaking. She pulled a dove-gray
dress from the trunk. "Angel, was this Darla's or Drusilla's? I think
I could maybe wear something of Drusilla's --"
He looked at the dress,
puzzled. "It's possible that I just don't remember, but I don't think
that belonged to either of them. In fact, I don't remember these trunks at
all."
Fred shrugged. "I guess
we can check the closets, too."
"Try the trunks
first," Angel said quickly. "It's just -- I just might not
remember."
"Nothing to do but try
some stuff on," Cordelia said. "I hope none of this is Darla's. I
don't want anything that belonged to that skank."
Angel started to say
something, then evidently changed his mind. "I'm going upstairs. Darla
wouldn't have taken my things with her. So my own clothes should still be
up there." He started to climb the stairs.
"Any guy clothes in
that trunk?" Charles said.
"Wait," Fred said.
She wasn't aware of having said it especially loudly or abruptly, but
everyone stopped what they were doing and looked at her. They sensed it
too, Fred realized; the same fear that was making her shiver was there
inside all of them, but it had fallen to her to speak about it first.
"Guys -- if we don't succeed -- not that we won't! But if we don't
stop Dru from undoing Angel's curse, what are we gonna do?"
Quietly, Angel said,
"Then we have to kill him."
"Angel, no!"
Cordelia whirled around to face him. "Are you out of your undead mind?
If we stake that Angel, then there's not gonna be this Angel -- you know,
the YOU Angel." She turned back around to Fred. "Am I right?
That's the way it works, right?"
"I don't know,"
Fred confessed. "The field of temporal dynamics is completely
theoretical, or it WAS, before today, when we proved Delaney's hypothesis
about -- oh, never mind." She sighed. "If we hadn't changed
reality so dramatically, then yes, Angel would cease to exist after we
staked -- well, let's keep calling him Angelus just to stay clear here.
That might be instantaneous, or it might not happen until Angel attempted
to leave this time for the restored future."
"See?" Cordelia
said, folding her arms in front of her. "No staking."
"Wait," Charles
said. "Cordy staked the Drusilla from 1898 -- but that didn't make
2002 Dru pop out like a light bulb. We know she stayed around and changed
history and screwed up the future we saw in Rome. The same thing would have
to apply to Angel, right? So we could stake Angelus, save the future and go
home in time to get pizza." He was trying very hard to look hopeful,
so hard it made Fred's eyes almost tear up. For all his anger, all his
jaded posturing, Charles could work so hard at hope.
"Maybe," Fred
said. "Nobody knows for certain. When the timeline diverges
irrevocably, if we're still here, then Angel might no longer be the future
version of this Angelus. Instead, we'd all be artifacts from an entirely
separate reality, almost like another dimension. Changes we made here
wouldn't affect us at all. The disconnect could be complete. In that case,
Angel would survive our staking Angelus -- but none of us could ever go
home again."
Charles groaned. "My
head hurts. This is what I get for dropping outta tenth-grade physics to
take shop."
"Maybe doesn't cut
it," Cordelia said. "We can't stake Angelus and 'maybe' kill
Angel too. We can't 'maybe' get stranded in ye olden days forever."
Angel said, "Cordelia,
we have to." Before Cordelia could protest, he continued, "The
alternative is letting reality become what we saw in Rome. We can't let
that happen. Not if it kills me. Not if it kills all of us."
Everyone was quiet for a few
moments. Cordelia ducked her head so that Fred couldn't see her face. Angel
came down a couple of steps toward her, but she shook her head quickly.
Charles rubbed Fred's back, a quick motion that somehow comforted her far
more than it should have done.
"Okay," Cordelia
finally said. "Okay, then. Let's just all -- get some sleep. We can
think about this after we get some sleep."
Someone knocked hard on the
door. Everyone jumped. Fred clapped her hands over her mouth to stop
herself from screaming. Cordelia looked back over at Angel and whispered,
"You said they wouldn't come back!"
"They wouldn't,"
Angel said. "They also wouldn't knock." He came back down the
steps. As the heavy hand knocked on the door again, he called, "One
moment!" then added a phrase that Fred suspected meant the same in
Romanian.
"We gotta hide,"
Charles said, gesturing at their clothes. Angel pulled something from one
of the trunks; Fred realized it was a cape. She went with Charles and
Cordelia into the next room, where they flattened themselves against the
wall behind the door, next to one of the abandoned trunks. They all tensed
as they heard the door open.
A voice said, in heavily
accented English, "Sir, here to move you into Hotel Lebada, yes?"
"The Hotel
Lebada," Angel said. Fred thought his voice sounded as though he were
remembering something. He was more certain as he answered, "Yes, of
course."
"This is the hour
requested," the caller's voice said. He did not sound very happy about
this hour -- still well before dawn -- being the one requested. "All
to be ready to move at this hour, it is said."
"I'm sorry for the
confusion," Angel said. "As you can see, we were robbed. We're
all very shocked."
As the caller, apparently an
employee of a local hotel, expressed his horror and sympathy, Cordelia
muttered, "As soon as Angel gets rid of this guy, we can crash. Well,
bolt the doors shut, then crash."
"I need sleep worse
than I ever have in my whole life," Fred said. "But I almost
don't see how I can sleep until this is over. If we have to stake --"
"Don't say it,"
Cordelia said. When Charles looked at her, long and hard, she said,
"If I have to do it, I'll do it. But don't expect me to deal with that
idea one single second before I have to."
In the following silence,
Fred heard Angel say, "We'll be ready to move in just a few minutes.
Hold the carriage."
"Move?" Charles
said. "Who said anything about moving?"
"Apparently," Fred
said, "Angel just did." Cordelia looked indignant.
Angel poked his head into
their room. "Change of plan."
"Yeah, thanks for
consulting us," Cordelia said. "I thought this was the one place
Darla and co weren't gonna be today. So why are we leaving?"
"We're going to the
other place they won't be," Angel said. "There was somewhere else
I could possibly have found Darla in the past. We'd arranged to move from
this villa into some hotel rooms, in preparation for a ball that was being
held -- I guess it's tonight."
"Anyplace the vampires
aren't is okay by me," Fred said. "And you know I mean evil
vampires, right? But still, Angel, why move? Seems like we could be more
secure here -- you know, we can nail boards across the doors and windows
without a bellhop asking us to quit. That kind of thing."
Angel shook his head
quickly. "We want to get closer to that ball," he said.
"We're going. Because I'd bet anything Darla's going."
"Usually I seize the
few chances I get to combine our mission and formalwear," Cordelia
said. "But get real, Angel. Look at this place. Darla's freaking out.
Her whole world just got turned upside down. Why would she still go to a
party?"
"You have to understand
-- that's exactly why she WOULD go." He spoke quickly, clearly trying
to organize complicated memories as he talked. "Darla -- she doesn't
-- I mean, she didn't ever admit anything was wrong unless she had to. She never
even explained my curse to Drusilla and Spike; they didn't know for sure
what had happened to me until they got to Sunnydale. She always tried to
pretend that things were the way she wanted them to be, until she could
either make them that way or destroy them. As a philosophy, it worked
pretty well for her. And she knows I might try to go to her at the hotel,
but there's no way I could have pulled myself together enough to go to the
ball."
Fred's memory of Darla was
of a desperate pregnant woman who had said ugly things to them all,
suffered terribly, then died at her own hand, all in the space of a few
days. None of those experiences fitted with what Angel was saying. But she
could see both Charles and Cordelia nodding slowly; their greater knowledge
of Darla apparently matched up. It was Charles who said, "If Darla's
coming to this throwdown, chances are she's gonna have Dru in tow,
right?"
"Chances are,"
Angel said. "I don't know for certain. I don't know anything for
certain. But it's a safe place to stay for the day, and it sets us up to
have a chance at finding them tonight. Plus you guys can get something to
eat."
Fred's stomach grumbled
hopefully. Cordelia still looked skeptical. "We could just go to this
ball tonight anyway, right?"
"I remember the Hotel
Lebada was very luxurious, for this era," Angel said. "It might
even have flush toilets."
"We're packin',"
Cordelia said quickly. "Clothes. We need clothes!"
Angel smiled. "I'm
going upstairs for my things. Get ready."
He went back out to the hallway
as the others began rummaging quickly in the trunk. Fred tugged out a
bonnet and put it over her head, then drew one of the capes around her.
Cordelia found a hooded cape and draped it around her jeans. Charles,
unfortunately, wasn't having much luck. "This is all girl stuff!"
he said. "The guy stuff is all the trunks out front."
"You could get by the
hotel staff in drag," Cordelia suggested. "It worked for Tom
Hanks."
Charles shot her a dark look
as he kept searching the trunk, increasingly desperate. Fred said
soothingly, "It's all right, Charles. We'll come up with some story --
maybe sing the Gilligan's Island song again --"
"No, no and NO,"
Charles said, giving up on the trunk and beginning to search the rest of
the room. "First of all, I ain't ever singing that song again in
public, and probably not in private neither. Second --" He hesitated.
Fred could hear the catch in his voice that meant he didn't want to say any
more. She stepped closer to him, but he shook off the hesitation, kept looking
under furniture, in an empty closet. "I don't want to be some kind of
freak here. It didn't mean much when I thought it was just for a couple of
days -- but if it's forever -- let's face it, the only way I even get into
this hotel is pretending to be your servant or something. And I can't do
that. Even pretending. Even for a day."
Cordelia didn't look too
sympathetic; then again, Fred thought, Cordelia seemed to enjoy pretending
to be people she wasn't. It didn't affect her pride, because that was
something that was as much a part of her as her blood. Charles' pride, on
the other hand, was a fragile, difficult thing at times. Fred knew how it
felt, the combination of panic and degradation that clawed and hurt. She'd
known that feeling ever since the first time a Pylean called her
"cow."
Respect, Fred thought. Her
mind zigzagged from one possibility to another. Pretending to be someone
else, she thought. Like in a play. Like the theatre -- that comedy last
night, with the man in the vest and the turban --
Quickly, she tore down the
curtains and draped a length of blue velvet over Charles, who for a second
was too surprised to do anything except let her. He looked, Fred thought,
like a statue about to be unveiled. "Very Siegfried and Roy,"
Cordelia commented. "And so not helping."
Fred tugged at the curtains,
pulling them into a shape that bore a slight resemblance to a set of
flowing robes. "Haven't either of you seen 'Gone With The Wind'?
Curtains can be clothes! Work with me here!"
The door opened, and the hotel
servants took two whole steps in before gaping at Charles. Angel, slightly
behind them, gave them a glare that clearly meant, "You were supposed
to be ready." Cordelia shrugged. Charles looked somewhere between
frightened and angry.
Fred gave the fabric one
last tug -- a mistake, as it caused one side of the curtain to slip off
Charles' shoulder, revealing the T-shirt underneath. Too late to do
anything about it now. Fred stepped back, presenting Charles with a
flourish. "Where are your manners?" she cried, not knowing if the
servants knew sufficient English to understand her. Her tone of voice
should be enough. "You are supposed to bow when you enter the presence
of the -- of the -- of the Caliph of Madagascar!"
One of the servants quickly
bowed, towing the others down with him. Angel and Cordelia both looked too
surprised to say anything. Charles stared at them for a moment, then swung
the velvet curtain over his shoulder grandly. In a deep voice, he said,
"You may rise."
"Begging pardon,"
said one of the servants. "This is not told to us."
"What?" Angel
said, picking up Fred's outraged tone with a barely suppressed smile.
"My instructions were specific."
"Please to
forgive," the servant said. "We beg the pardon of the Caliph
--?" His voice rose, making it a question.
Charles' expression
flickered for only a moment. "My name is --" He smiled broadly
and stood up even straighter. "Muhammad Ali."
Fred wanted desperately to
see the looks on Angel and Cordelia's faces, but she didn't dare meet their
eyes. Forcing herself to remain serious, she said, "You may carry out
the Caliph's belongings. We're ready to leave now. Aren't we?"
"Yes," Angel said.
"We are."
The servants stepped aside
expectantly; Charles stared at them for a moment before catching the hint
and walking imperiously out the door. Angel took Cordelia's arm to lead her
behind him, and Fred took up the rear, followed only by the servants
struggling with the trunk. As they went through the hallway, she noticed a
half-open closet door. Huh, she thought. Somebody left a shoe in there.
Then she realized the shoe
was actually still attached to the foot, and possibly more, of a person who
was undoubtedly dead. And only then did Fred realize the last and unspoken
reason Angel had wanted them to leave the villa for the hotel. She was glad
he'd insisted.
***
There were three pairs of feet sticking out of the pantry door -- the
maidservant's, the manservant's, and Lord Dalton's. The door wouldn't
close, and when Spike tried to force it shut, there was an unpleasant
crunching sound. "They won't all fit," he said.
"Crack, crack, crack of
bones, music like a xylophone!" Drusilla sang to no particular tune.
"Do it again!" She cupped her hands to her ears and started to
dance around the kitchen, her elbows knocking pots and serving ladles off
their hooks as she twirled manically. The sound of metal pans and cooking
implements crashing on to the kitchen's stone floor brought Darla's already
stretched patience to breaking point.
"Drusilla, stop it.
Stop that NOW." Drusilla ignored her, and so the next time she danced
within arm's length, Darla seized her arm and threw her down on to the
floor. Dru fell heavily and sat for a second, her face as blank and stunned
as a child's. Then, slowly, her lip began to tremble and a series of low
sobs started to shake her frail body. Instantly, Darla regretted her
actions -- not because she had made Drusilla cry, but because the sound of
it was more grating than the crashing of a moment earlier.
"Oh, don't take on so,
you're not hurt," she said roughly, but Drusilla only sobbed more
loudly. Spike dropped to his knees beside her, comforting Dru while glaring
up at Darla with greater defiance than he would have dared show in Angelus'
presence. Dru wept on, her sobs all the more ugly to Darla because she knew
a word from Angelus would have quieted her.
But Angelus was gone. The
gypsies had taken away her magnificent creation, her darling boy, and
replaced him with the sniveling, odious creature who'd whined about guilt
and reeked with the fetid stench of a soul when he'd crawled back to her.
His presence, his very existence, had been unbearable to her, and she'd
thrown him into the street. He'd been crying -- actually crying -- as she
slammed the door on him. Angelus had wept, and the noise had filled Darla
with such a depth of loathing she'd almost reached for a stake to finish
the gypsies' work for them.
She hadn't, and until now
Darla hadn't known what had made her pause. But as she watched Spike cradle
Dru on the kitchen's stone floor, she felt the beginnings of understanding.
"There's a knife in his
chest," Drusilla whispered. "Metal, not wood, so the pain goes on
and on and on. He feels it. He feels everything, now."
Darla stiffened. It was always
a mistake to become too reflective around Drusilla -- her words had an
unnerving habit of echoing other people's thoughts. If Drusilla knew about
the curse the gypsies had put on Angelus -- if her broken mind had somehow
intuited the truth -- how long would it be before she told Spike? And when
they both knew, the façade of normality Darla was straining to maintain
would crumble away, and she would have to admit to herself that Angelus
really was gone.
He was not gone. He could
not be.
"Spike," Darla said
sharply, "Go and check the rest of the house. I want to be certain no
one else is here."
Spike was still holding
Drusilla in his arms and didn't appear keen about ending that arrangement.
"If there was anyone upstairs, the screaming will have chased them."
Furiously, Darla said,
"I am TELLING you what you are to do --"
"Oh, you're telling
me?" Spike repeated. "Then why don't you tell me some other
things, while you're at it? Such as, what's happened to Angelus and why
you're as ready to explode as a bitch in heat --"
"Spike," Drusilla
crooned. She had stopped crying and was as calm as she had been
inconsolable a few moments earlier. She lifted her hand and drew one
fingernail along the side of his neck. "Spike, there's a chambermaid
hiding in the bedrooms. Her heart beats, thumpetty thump. Make it stop, for
me?"
Spike smiled, and leaned
forward, so his forehead touched hers. "Anything you want,
sweet."
He left the kitchen; Darla
watched him go, the looked down at Drusilla, feeling a strange and
completely novel sense of complicity with her. Slowly, she hunkered down on
the cold kitchen floor next to her. "Drusilla," she said,
"what do you know?"
Drusilla giggled. "Oh,
many, many things!" She reached out one skeletal finger and prodded
Darla in the stomach. "You're going to grow a little person."
That, Darla thought, was
about as probable as Angelus taking vows and becoming a monk. Ignoring
Dru's ramblings, she struggled to keep her temper. "What do you know
about Angelus, Drusilla? What do you know about what's happened to
him?"
Dru's expression became sad.
"The knife. The knife in his chest hurts and hurts. I hear his screams
echoing down the years. But he will come to love the blade that twists
inside him." She glared at Darla. "He will love it as he never loved
you."
Darla slapped her, hard.
Drusilla wasn't fast enough to turn her head away, and the jewels in
Darla's rings tore her cheek. Darla stared at her hand. She'd never
professed love for Angelus, or expected to hear similar sentiments from
him. All she'd asked was that he amuse her and indulge her, satisfy her
whims and desires whenever they arose. Love was for humans; like them, it
was weak and easily consumed.
But, a small voice in the
back of her head reminded Darla, both she and Angelus had been human, once.
"What are we going to
do?" Darla asked. She wasn't talking to Drusilla. She wasn't sure who
she was talking to.
Drusilla got up and walked
with serene calm to the rack where the kitchen knives hung. There were a
dozen or more of them, hung in order of size, from an inch-long blade for
paring vegetables to a meat cleaver. Drusilla chose a shining carving knife
and held it up under the flickering light of a lamp.
Then she plunged it into her
own chest.
She didn't stop until the
blade was no longer visible, the knife's handle nestling in the hollow
between her breasts. Drusilla gasped and tipped her head back, her face
alight with a grotesque mixture of agony and pleasure. Tottering a little,
she walked back across the kitchen.
Once they were facing each
other, Drusilla lifted Darla's hands and placed them on the carving knife's
ivory handle. "Take it out," Drusilla rasped. Her voice was
rough, and there was an unpleasant bubbling sound somewhere at the back of
her throat. "You have to take it out, before the flesh closes up
around the wound. Quickly, now!"
Darla tightened her grip on
the knife and pulled. Drusilla gasped as the blade slid out between her
ribs, leaving a blotch of deep crimson on the bodice of her dress.
Take out the knife, before
the wound seals up around it.
Of course.
"We'll find them,"
she whispered. "We'll find the vermin Kalderash and make them undo it.
We'll show them such terror as they've never known, and when Angelus is restored
to us, he will finish our revenge. It will be perfect."
Drusilla laughed, a ghastly
sound filled with gurgling from deep in her chest. Blood sprayed from her
lips as she giggled, "Yes, yes, yes! That's how it should have
been!" She seized Darla by the wrists and pulled her around the
kitchen in a mad, spinning waltz; for once, Darla let her. They must look
like two lunatics, not one, she thought, but she couldn't bring herself to
care.
They didn't stop until Darla
grew dizzy and Drusilla began coughing blood from her new wound. But as
Darla put a hand to her head to steady herself, she felt a bony hand grip
her wrist. Drusilla was staring intently at the strange but beautiful
bracelet Angelus had given her. She twisted her head, looking at it from different
angles, as fascinated by the shifting colors and shapes as Darla had been.
"They came back,"
Drusilla said. There was a strange look -- strange even for Drusilla -- on
her face as she spoke. "They're here again, and they want to tell the
bad story. Can they, when the pattern shifts and moves all the time? It
looks solid but you can't touch it. You're just like me, pretty little
hologram."
"Pretty little --
what?" Darla looked down at her bracelet. "It's not hollow."
Drusilla laughed and laughed; Darla was not accustomed to being laughed at.
"Why is that funny?"
"Hologram, hollow
gram," Drusilla said, shuffling over to tap the blades of the hanging
knives as though they were bells to ring.
Darla stared at Drusilla,
sensing for the first time something awry. Drusilla was given to singing
tuneless songs and making up nursery rhymes which invariably ended with
throat-slitting, but Darla had never known her to invent nonsense words.
And Drusilla had examined the bracelet with a kind of intensity that was
almost lucid. Darla had the distinct impression that, while she had been
preoccupied with keeping the truth about what had happened to Angelus from
Drusilla and Spike, somehow she had failed to see that something was being
kept from her. Right now, she couldn't begin to guess what it was -- but
she was certain she could find out.
"Bloody hell!"
Darla looked around and saw
Spike, standing in the kitchen door. There were flecks of blood around his
mouth and his face was flushed from a recent feed. But Spike's attention
was focused on the knife that lay on the floor between Darla and Drusilla's
feet, the blade streaked with blood. He stared at Darla with open
hostility. "If you've hurt her --"
"Lovely hurt,"
Drusilla interrupted. She lifted her hands, and showed him her fingers, the
nails black with already-crusting blood. "I did it all myself,
Spike."
"If I wanted either of
you gone, I wouldn't choose a toy like this to do it," Darla said,
nudging the carving knife with her toe. "I'd use a real weapon."
Spike sneered knowingly.
"Is that what's happened to Angelus, then? Did one of your tiffs get
out of hand and you dusted him?"
Darla didn't answer; instead
she exchanged a look with Drusilla, one Spike was meant to see. Their
shared secret was safe and, however curious he was, while Darla and
Drusilla were in collusion, there was nothing he could do about it.
There was a hook behind the
kitchen door, and a selection of servants' capes and cloaks hung on it.
Darla selected the largest and threw it at Spike. He caught it, and looked
at both the cape and Darla curiously. "What's this for?"
"You'll need it to keep
the sun off you," Darla told him. "You're going out."
"What's so urgent it
can't wait until dusk?"
"There are gypsies
camped somewhere near the city. I want you to find them before they move
on." Spike still looked doubtful, and something told Darla this was an
occasion to use persuasion rather than brute force to make him do her
bidding. Lowering her voice, she said, "I'm in the mood for slaughter.
I'm tired of delicate killing, choosing society victims with care. Think of
it -- fifty or a hundred mongrel gypsies who no one will miss."
Drusilla brought her hands
to her lips and closed her eyes, her face alight with anticipation. "A
bloodbath, a lovely bloodbath."
Spike grinned. "Now
THIS is more like it. We ought to ditch Angelus more often, if this is the
effect it has on you." He picked up the cape and turned to go.
"Spike," Drusilla
called.
Spike stopped and looked
back.
"Don't kill anyone
without me," Dru said. "It's no fun unless we all do it together.
No killing yet."
Spike shrugged. "No
killing yet. Fine."
"No killing!"
Drusilla repeated, more urgently.
"All right!" Spike
said, pulling on the cape. Darla watched him walk away along the passage
that led up to the main entrance hall, muttering all the time about people
who didn't credit him with any self-control.
"It's all going to be
different," Drusilla whispered. "Different and wonderful."
Darla laughed and took
Drusilla by the arm. "For once, you're making perfect sense," she
said. "Come upstairs. You and I have a ball to prepare for."
Drusilla spun around in a
circle, letting the knife-blades tear at her fingertips as she whirled.
"Second verse," she chanted. "Not the same as the
first."
*****************
Chapter Three
*****************
Angel buttoned up his waistcoat, carefully handling the whalebone buttons.
Vampires' weight could fluctuate over the years, albeit within a narrow
range, but he must have been at almost precisely the same build when he had
been cursed as he was now. His old clothing fit him perfectly, and Angel
was both startled and almost amused to realize that he remembered the cut
of the vest, the weave of the shirt, better than he had the name of Lord
Dalton, his intended victim of a night ago.
Then again, perhaps this was
only because he was concentrating so hard on the clothing. Angel had other
things on his mind -- his complicity in the destruction of a world, their
failure to understand Drusilla's plan until it was too late, what it had
felt like to attack Wesley again -- and he knew if he let himself dwell on
any one of those topics, he wouldn't think about anything else any time
soon. He needed to stay focused. Everyone's futures depended on that now.
"This is so
wrong," Cordelia said. Angel turned around to see her standing in the
doorway of their adjoining suites, wearing a camisole, pantalets and a
corset that, to judge by the stiff way she was holding herself, wasn't very
comfortable. "I mean, I thought DKNY bodyshapers were cruel and
unusual punishment, but this is crazy!"
The camisole was as modest
as a sleeveless T-shirt, and the pantalets were past Cordelia's knees.
Angel had seen her in clothes that revealed far more. And yet, as she stood
there, she seemed more naked to him than she ever had before, and he
couldn't think of anything to say.
Of course, he realized. I
think of these as clothes that a man only sees if he's about to make love
to a woman. So it feels more revealing to me than it is -- than it should
--
"Ground control to
Colonel Angel," Cordelia said, tipping her head to one side.
"You're the expert on torture devices, right? So you should understand
this corset thing."
Her voice brought him back
to the matter at hand with a jolt. "Let me see," he said,
motioning for her to turn around. When she did, he chuckled. "No, you
haven't done it right."
"I knew it," she
said, tossing her short hair. "I knew it wasn't supposed to be this
tight."
"No," he said.
"It's supposed to be a lot tighter. You haven't even pulled the
laces."
"Are you freaking
kidding me?" Cordelia's mouth was open as she stared at him over her
shoulder. "How did women back then -- now -- breathe?"
"They didn't breathe
all that well," Angel said. "You always read about Victorian
women swooning, right? Now you know why."
Cordelia inched away from
him. "Maybe I should find a different look for this party thing,"
she said. "When did the muumuu first become stylish?"
"I think that was never,"
Angel said. "You know, you don't have to get ready just yet. Fred or
Gunn either."
"You're getting
dressed," Cordelia pointed out. "Either that, or pajamas in this
era are way more formal than I ever guessed."
"I have to take care of
some things with the hotel staff downstairs," Angel said. "After
that, I'm going to try to sleep too. We should rest today if we can."
"I am going to
sleep," she promised. "I just want to figure out what I'm
wearing, is all." After a moment, she said, a little more quietly,
"Out of everything we have to think about -- that's kinda the only fun
thing, you know? Everything else is so --"
"I know," he said.
He rested his hands on her shoulders for a moment and added, with far more
conviction than he felt, "We'll figure it out, Cordy."
"You're a liar,"
she said gently. "And I love you for it."
Angel's stomach did a weird
and not unwelcome flip-flop, but the moment was broken by Fred coming
through the door in her own voluminous period underwear. The sight didn't
have the same effect on Angel as seeing Cordelia had. "Corsets are
supposed to be tight, aren't they?" Fred said, wrinkling her nose.
"This thing is falling off me."
Angel said, "You're
skinnier than most upper-class women of this era, Fred. You probably won't
need a corset." He considered it for a moment. "You might
actually want some padding. You should find something in those
trunks."
"Padding?" Fred
blushed a brilliant pink color.
"My girl don't need no
padding," Gunn said, following Fred through the doorway and hugging
her around the back. She smiled, reassured, and snuggled against him as he
held up an arm encased in a wide sleeve. "What I want to know is, what
are these baggy-ass shirts? You couldn't tuck these things in --"
"They're
nightshirts," Angel said. "For sleeping."
"Oh," Gunn said,
trying to drape his shirt around him a little more tightly. "Y'know,
I'd sleep in boxers if it wasn't so damn cold in here."
Angel looked underneath the
bed and lifted out a brass pan with a hinged lid. "You could use
this."
Gunn looked at the object
doubtfully. "For what?"
"It's a bed
warmer," Angel said. He lifted the lid of the pan in demonstration.
"You put hot ashes from the fire in there and then set it between the
sheets."
Gunn considered the
bed-warmer, then the nightshirt he wore. "So I get to burn to death in
bed AND look stupid at the same time. Gee, I'm loving the nineteenth
century more every minute."
Angel personally thought
he'd take a nightshirt over Gunn's Dockers any day of the week, but he
decided against mentioning it. Putting the bed warmer back where he had
found it, he said, "I'll get one of the servants to bring up a tea
tray and leave it at the door; I can bring it in when I get back upstairs."
"So what is it you're
working out with the bellhops?" Cordelia said. "Continental
breakfast? The hours for the sauna?"
"There are some things
we'll need for tonight," Angel said. "You and Fred have
ballgowns, but Gunn needs a suit and waistcoat if he's going to come across
as the -- what is it again?"
"Caliph of
Madagascar," Fred and Gunn said in unison, sharing another smile.
"I could order you what
I'm wearing," Angel said to Gunn, "but I don't think you'd like
it much."
"I can believe that, seeing
how stupid these frock coats and cravats and what-all look?" Gunn
said, shaking his head. "If that stuff is considered plain, I don't
even want to know what counts as fancy."
"We'll still want to
hire -- rent -- some jewelry for Fred and Cordy," Angel said. The
jewelry, of course, had been missing from the villa; Darla would have taken
that and left the rest. She'd always loved jewelry. "And Cordelia
needs a wig."
"So glad someone said
it," Gunn said. Then he caught sight of Cordelia's glare and pretended
to be very interested in the fastenings of Fred's loose corset.
When Cordelia turned the
glare on Angel, he said, "Your haircut's not contemporary. That's all
there is to it."
"And yours is?"
Cordelia gestured at his head.
"Once I brush it down,
it won't attract notice," Angel said. "People will think it's odd
that I don't have a mustache or beard, but it's not unheard of, and it's
not like I can do anything about that in a couple of hours. But you can
wear a wig."
For a second, he thought she
was going to continue arguing with him, but exhaustion got the better of
her and she yawned hugely. "Fine, then. Get them to send up dinner
later, Angel. I'm sleepier than I am hungry. How about you guys?"
Fred nodded. "I'm too
sleepy to be hungry at all."
"That's the first time
this girl ain't been hungry in almost a year," Gunn said, hugging her
again. "That's how you know it's serious."
"I'll have it sent up
in a few hours," Angel said. "Okay, is there anything you girls
need in your room?"
Gunn and Fred exchanged a
look. "Um, Angel?" Fred said. "Charles and I were sort of
hoping that, you know, we could, well, share."
Cordelia waved them off.
"Go on, you two," she said breezily. "Angel and I will be
fine. We've crashed out in the same bed before, right?"
"Right," Angel
said faintly.
"See y'all in a few
hours," Gunn said, drawing Fred back into what was now their room. As
the door closed behind them, Angel heard him whisper, "Come with me to
the casbah," and Fred's answering giggle.
Cordelia rolled her eyes,
but she was grinning. "Young love. SO disgusting." Angel thought
this was a little rich coming from somebody who called her current
boyfriend "Grooie," but he let it pass. "I'm crashing,
Angel. Be quiet on your way back in, all right?"
It would be far easier to
deal with the prospect of getting into bed with Cordelia if she were
already asleep, Angel thought; if she didn't notice him, then maybe he
could pretend not to notice her. Or at least the poorness of his pretending
wouldn't matter. "Stealthy, remember?" he said, and she smiled as
she stretched back on the bed, her head falling against the pillows.
That particular mental image
stayed with Angel as he went downstairs, negotiated with the hotel staff
and described exactly what he wanted -- or, at least, came as close as he
could with his rusty Romanian. When they asked him what dishes to send up,
Angel was almost entirely at a loss; he had never been in the habit of
eating human food as a vampire, and the names of the Romanian dishes meant
little to him. He finally settled on what sounded most familiar and hoped
it would be to the others' liking.
When he finally went
upstairs, he opened the door to his -- their -- bedroom as quietly as he
could. Cordelia was sprawled on her belly on the far side of the bed,
tucked beneath thick covers. She didn't even stir in her sleep as he shut
the door behind him. Relieved, Angel went into the small antechamber and
undressed, peeling off his nineteenth-century clothing down to his
twenty-first-century boxers, then tugged on a nightshirt. It felt odd -- he
hadn't ever been much in the habit of wearing anything to sleep in -- but
he didn't think Cordelia would be thrilled to find him sleeping nude next
to her. Unfortunately.
He settled into the bed as
gently as he could, trying to ignore the warmth created by Cordelia's
nearby body. Just as he plumped the pillow to his liking and closed his
eyes, her drowsy voice said, "Angel?"
"Just me," he
said. "Go back to sleep."
'Mmmph." Cordelia
turned onto her side to face him. "Angel, can I ask you
something?"
Angel didn't know whether to
feel dismayed or -- against all odds -- a little hopeful.
"Anything."
Cordelia lay there, blinking
sleepily, for long enough that Angel wondered if she was fully awake, or
whether she would simply drift off again in another few moments. But at
last she said, "I'm not even pretending to know how hard all this has
been on you. I haven't been there. I couldn't know."
"I'm okay," Angel
said, trying to soothe her back to sleep. "I promise you."
"I believe you,"
she replied. Her eyes were a little more alert now. "That's just it,
Angel. When all this stuff with Drusilla started -- you were still on the
verge. Don't even deny it."
"I wouldn't."
"All that stuff you
said, about how tired you were. How you didn't think you could stand to
start it all again -- I hated hearing you talk like that, but I understood.
I really did." Cordelia propped up on one arm. "Here's what I
don't get. When we did start it all over, it made you better. I don't mean
all better; I know it still hurts."
Angel had forgotten how soft
her voice could sound when she wanted. "Of course," he said.
"But -- you are better,
aren't you?" When he nodded, she said, "Why?"
He looked up at the ceiling
-- pressed tin, covered in sky-blue paint that was probably pure lead. He
weighed his answer carefully before he spoke. "Remember what I told
you about the spell the old gypsy woman tried to cast on me?"
"You mean -- the one
where she tried to take your memories? Yeah."
"Not all my
memories," Angel said. "My memories of Connor. She was going to
steal those from me, and when I realized that -- Cordy, I realized that's
all I've got of him, now. Those memories are the only way I have left to be
with him. And I knew I'd never want to lose them, no matter how much it
hurts to remember. That's all I have." Cordelia's fingers brushed
against his hand, and he looked back over at her. "Connor lost his
life, I guess. I'll never know when or how. But he -- he had five months. Five
months when he was taken care of and loved. It's not much, but it's what he
had. My son deserves those five months. If every other damn thing that's
happened to me happened so he could have those, then -- it's worth it. It's
all worth it."
Cordelia squeezed his hand
tightly. "We'll fix it, Angel," she said, her voice hoarse.
"We'll stop Dru. We'll make it all happen again."
"We will," Angel
said. He remembered Rome in ruins, fire leaping to the sky, the shattered
wreck of Wesley Wyndham-Price's body. "We have to."
Otherwise, the cost of
saving the world could be Angel's own life -- which he could give up -- and
Connor's -- which would be so much harder --
He rolled on to his side,
away from Cordelia, not rejecting her so much as turning into himself. She
said nothing, but after a few moments he felt her fingers in his hair,
gently soothing him to sleep.
It was a measure of his
exhaustion that it worked.
***
Angelus hadn't slept in --
how long had it been? Weeks, months, years? He'd lost track of time. But
the tiny part of his mind that was still clinging stubbornly to sanity
insisted the sun had blazed through the single window of the barn twice
since he'd stumbled into it, blindly seeking shelter from the dawn. Two
sunrises, and the sun had not yet set a second time. Less than two days had
passed. Two days that might as well have been an eternity.
("I would die
now," the man whispered, his hand outstretched toward the body of his
wife. "I would seek death, that she should not be alone a moment
longer in heaven." Maggots crawled out from under the bridal veil;
Angelus' merry joke had been to show young lovers how transient was the
flesh. But the groom had continued to profess his love even when Angelus
had made him watch his bride rot in front of him over the course of weeks,
and now the joke was growing tiresome. He broke the groom's neck and closed
the cellar door behind him as he left, but the man had been smiling as he
died and Angelus had not until this moment understood why, or comprehended
the extent of his defeat.)
("Show mercy,
sir," the girl begged. She was fresh-faced and slight, and he pinned
her down easily. "For the love of God, show mercy." He had
replied he had no love for God, but he would show her love of a different
kind, love that would make her bleed. Now he felt her under him again, yet
somehow all memory of pleasure in the act was eclipsed by the look in her
eyes as she pleaded for her dignity, her virtue and finally her life. He
had not even paused.)
("You are not my
son," his mother said. Her knuckles were white as she clutched the
rosary; a useless gesture, no saints could save her now. He flinched from
the sight of it, but it could not turn him back. "You are not my
son," his mother had said with bright, sorrowful eyes, "for my son
had a good soul." He had laughed in her face and drained her dry, but
now her words were like hot needles under his skin: My son had a good
soul.)
Angelus shuddered and
clapped his hands over his ears in an attempt to shut out the clamor of
voices that threatened to deafen him with their screams and pleas. They
only grew louder. He closed his eyes, but the faces that floated in front
of him simply became more vivid. He writhed and gasped on the floor of the
barn like a drowning man, swallowed up by a rising tide of revulsion and
guilt. Once, he regained his senses enough to see he had ripped open his
shirt and was tearing at his face, his chest, his hands, his nails leaving
deep scores in his skin, as if he could dig the soul out with his bare
hands. He heard screaming, and it was only hours later that the raw pain in
his throat finally made him realize the screams were his own.
And when his strength was
spent and his voice reduced to a croak, the parade of horrors in his mind
had still barely begun.
There had to be a way to
make it stop.
Angelus looked up and saw
the wide shaft of sunlight which slanted through the barn's single high
window, and realized there was.
Slowly, deliberately, he
began to move toward the light. He was weak, exhausted by the physical and
mental tortures of the past days, and he didn't have the strength to stand.
So he half-crawled, half-dragged himself toward the shaft of sunlight,
feeling his skin prickle with every inch nearer he came to it.
At last, he lay beside the
pool of sunlight. If he lay here long enough, the movement of the sun would
claim him of its own accord. Or, if he chose, he could simply roll into it
right now. He lay still as he contemplated both possibilities, feeling a
kind of relief that the voices would soon fall silent. Above him, particles
of dust from the hay glinted as they traced random paths lazily through the
air. It was an ordinary sight which Angelus had never consciously noticed
before, yet suddenly he found it extraordinarily beautiful.
("I'm an angel!"
his sister laughed. She was dancing in the sunlight under the barn's
window, while he lay on the soft, newly-cut hay and applauded her efforts.
Her faith was the simple belief of a child; she'd thought that every
sunbeam was a soul ascending to heaven, borne on angels' wings. She had
loved him without reservation or condition, and the gift he had given her
in return had been death.)
Every sunbeam a soul
ascending --
The shaft of sunlight moved
a fraction closer to him, and he felt his fingertips begin to burn. With
the pain came an emotion Angelus had not known in over 150 years -- fear.
A creature with a soul was a
creature that could be judged. And the burning that followed would not last
for seconds, but for all eternity.
He snatched his hand back
from the light and scrambled back into the shadows. As he cowered there,
the full horror of his situation began to sink in. There was no choice he
could make to end this torment, no possible release from his sentence. He
would suffer forever.
Forever.
Unless --
Darla could rescue him. She
had made him once; she could make him again, restore him, recreate him. And
he would be grateful, so grateful, if only she would come and make this
stop, make it all go away --
("They gave you a
soul," Darla said. She laid her hand on his cheek, her fingertips
gentle against his skin. Then her nails became talons as she scratched her
contempt on to his face. "A filthy soul!" she spat. "You're
disgusting!")
He lifted a hand to his
cheek, and touched the healing but still fresh scratch. "Help
me," he whispered. "Please help me."
At the door of the barn,
something moved. Terror gripped him, and he pushed himself into the darkest
corner, huddling like a frightened animal. A human shape approached him,
but Angelus was half-blinded by the sunlight, and he couldn't see its face.
Terror became wild hope.
Darla. It had to be Darla. She had come for him, and now everything would
be all right again.
"I'm sorry," he
said, holding out his arms to her. "I'm sorry. Forgive me. I'm sorry
--"
In that instant, he saw that
it wasn't Darla at all -- just a child, a peasant child, staring at him
with dark, accusing eyes. Abruptly, the child turned and started to leave.
Desperately, Angelus lurched forward, clutching at its feet, but he was
weak and only succeeded in sprawling on to the floor. When he lifted his
head, the barn door was swinging shut.
"Help me," he said
again, but there was no one to hear him.
***
Charles grinned at Fred.
"No matter what your dress is like, I don't think you're going to
improve on the way you look right now."
Fred -- on the far side of
their bedroom, pouring herself water from a pitcher -- blushed a little.
Being naked in front of Charles was still a very new experience: a little
embarrassing, but more enjoyable. Better yet was Charles being naked in
front of her; he was sprawled out on the bed, more relaxed than she'd seen
him since this time-travel craziness began. "Thanks," Fred said,
ducking her head. "But I really don't think this is appropriate
formalwear in 1898."
"You could probably get
away with it at the MTV Video Awards," Gunn said. He folded his arms
behind his head as she came back to sit on the foot of the bed. "Too
bad. These old-timey guys don't know what they're missing."
"Nope," Fred said.
Then she began turning the phrase over in her mind. "There's so much
they don't know, so much they're about to figure out. The biggest
revolutions in the study of physics -- they're only a few years away."
Her lips began to tug into a smile. "Charles, Einstein's out there.
He's alive, this very minute! He's not even that far away. He's -- oh, I
don't know how old he is, but he's probably a disappointing student right
now. Marie Curie. Niels Bohr. They're all out there, on the verge of so
many amazing discoveries. And they don't even know it yet."
She wriggled happily and
beamed at Charles. He didn't seem to share her enthusiasm; he was smiling
at her, but a little sadly. "Is that what you're going to do?"
Charles asked, his voice barely more than a whisper. "If we get stuck
here? Go do Marie Curie one better?"
Fred shook her head.
"Marie Curie's going to be working with radium. Thanks but no
thanks." Then she registered what Gunn had said and how he had said
it. "You're worried about us getting stuck here."
"Of course I am,"
Charles said. He shifted uneasily on the coverlets. "I know I bitch
about the agency, and not having any money, and the Hyperion being a drafty
ol' barn, but -- you know I love it there, right? That's the best I've ever
had it my whole life, working with you guys. Being with you."
Gently, Fred brushed his
cheek with her hand. "No matter what happens -- you'll still have
me."
The smile faded from
Charles' face. "Where is that gonna be? Anyplace in 1898 that a girl
who looks like you and a guy who looks like me can be together? I can't
think of one."
Fred hesitated. She hadn't
thought about that before.
Charles continued, "I'm
having trouble even thinking of a place where I could work that wouldn't
make me want to kill somebody, or myself. This Caliph gig is all right, but
let's face it: We don't have the cash to keep that up for long. The career
options for guys like me in this century? Sharecropping and being a Pullman
porter. I guess I could give Africa a try, but that just means I'd have to
live through a zillion civil wars. What's that you said? Thanks but no
thanks."
"There's places in
America that wouldn't be so bad," Fred protested. "There were
people trying to make a difference. You could help. WE could help."
"What? Pal around with
George Washington Carver? Help him figure out stuff you can make out of
peanuts? I don't think I'd be real good at that, you know what I'm
sayin'?" Charles thumped the headboard of the bed, his lips pressed
together in a thin line.
They sat together in silence
for a moment. Then Charles said, "Okay. Peanut butter. I could
probably come up with that one."
Against her will, Fred
smiled. Charles smiled back. Then both of them started laughing and
couldn't stop. Fred was giggling helplessly as she burrowed deep into his
arms. It was tragic and terrible, to be stuck in a time that wouldn't
acknowledge who Charles was, everything he had to offer. But it was also
just so incredibly -- stupid. So stupid you could even laugh at the idea.
It was stupid, but it was
also real. And it was where they were, right now, with only an uncertain
hope of getting back where they belonged anytime soon, or ever.
When they were both quiet,
intertwined on the bed, she said, "We'll think of something. I don't
know what, yet. But you're not going to be alone. We'll all be with
you." She kissed him, just at his collarbone, before whispering,
"I'll be with you."
"That means a
lot," Charles said, stroking her hair. "But you know what would
mean even more? Not getting stuck in the past in the first place."
"That's definitely Plan
A," Fred agreed. But she could no longer avoid seeing their other
futures, all tangled up in the past.
***
Cordelia realized, with a
jolt, that synthetics hadn't yet been invented in the year 1898. Which
meant that the hair in the wig she was currently adjusting on top of her
head must once have belonged to someone else. Probably recently.
Whose hair was this? she
thought. Did they, like, give it up willingly? Were there hair bandits? Has
this been washed? This could be the hair of a nasty person.
She gazed at her reflection
for a moment longer, then relaxed. Oh, well. Not gonna argue with results.
Instead of the short, blonde
'do she hadn't quite gotten accustomed to, Cordelia now had long, dark hair
caught up in an elaborate upturn of curls. The style seemed really full on
the top to her, but Angel had sworn this was the fashion. What were those
old drawings? Gibson girls? She studied her face in the mirror and decided
she enjoyed the effect. "I just realized I like big hair," she
said to Fred, who sat beside her at the dressing table. "If I ever
accept any other element of '80s retro, please shoot me."
"I kinda liked
leg-warmers," Fred confessed. "And I used to think the colors
back then were too bright, but right now they don't look so bad."
Cordelia rolled her eyes.
"No lie." Fred's dress for the evening was a brilliant magenta,
and her own was a color halfway between yellow and orange. Pitching her
voice to carry into the next room, she called, "What is it with these
people? Did the world just switch over from black-and-white, like, last
year?"
Angel's voice floated back,
"In a way, yes. They only just perfected aniline dyes. People are enjoying
the new effect. Besides, lighting's usually not as bright as you're used
to. Your dresses will look better in the ballroom."
"Do you promise?"
Fred said. Cordelia heard Angel laugh.
"Y'all got a brooch or
something?" Gunn said from his place in the corner. He had on a black
evening suit, around which he'd pinned the blue-velvet drapery as a sort of
toga-sash, in an attempt to look Eastern. At the moment, he was struggling,
with limited success, to create something that might be a turban. "This
thing ain't stayin' tucked."
"Let me work with it
some," Fred said, getting up to help him. "You think we could pin
a feather to the front?"
As Fred began to fuss with
Gunn's improvised robes, Cordelia put on her earrings. She winced as she
screwed them into place; they were heavy, and they weren't for pierced
ears, which meant that they felt as though they were going to stretch her
earlobes down to her knees before the night was over. They were pretty,
though -- elaborate and glittery, WAY too much by her own standards, but
obviously right for the wig and the dress.
She studied her reflection
for a moment. The dress had a deeper neckline than she would have expected;
weren't these people supposed to be prudes? The puffed sleeves were
extremely -- extreme. But as extravagant as all of it was, Cordelia liked
it. Style was a thing you could sense, at least if you grew up making
spring shopping trips to Milan. Cuts and colors changed, but not that sense
that everything just worked.
She glanced sideways and
wrinkled her nose; you could also sense when things didn't work at all.
"I look like a curtain
tassel," Fred complained. She pulled at the gold lace at her throat;
her wide skirts and the ruffles around her neckline overwhelmed her tiny
frame. At least her hair was pretty; they'd gotten it to look roughly like
Cordelia's wig. "How come the skinny girl had to be the one with no
taste?"
"It's not that
bad," Cordelia lied. "You would -- um -- be very visible in the
dark. Hey, the gold lace might work as a reflector or something. Like on a
bike."
"We're a couple decades
before headlights," Fred said glumly. She returned to work on Gunn's
turban-in-progress.
"You're beautiful in
anything, Fred. And, on the bright side -- at least you don't look like one
of those mushrooms in Fantasia," Gunn said. "Hey, Angel! Get on
out here in your fancy-schmancy outfit. I could use something to laugh at
besides myself."
Angel stepped into the room,
wearing his own evening clothes. Cordelia felt a wide grin spreading over
her face. Gunn looked utterly indignant.
"It's the new American
fashion," Angel explained. "They're calling it the tuxedo. I
think it might catch on."
His face was serious, but
there was humor in his eyes which Cordelia recognized and welcomed with
relief. He hadn't just been trying to reassure her when he'd told her he
had a reason to keep going; he'd been telling the truth. Angel really was
going to be okay.
"You look great,"
she said. "Very debonair."
It was a simple enough
compliment, but Angel seemed to like it. That man is such a fool about
clothes, Cordelia thought. No wonder we get along. He straightened his bow
tie, and she stood up and pirouetted for his inspection. When she met
Angel's eyes again, he was smiling warmly at her. "This century suits you,"
he said softly.
"Kinda on the fence
about the puffed sleeves," Cordelia said. "But I love the
earrings. Very bling-bling." As she had expected, Angel's face clouded
in confusion; Angel's world and the world of bling-bling did not mix.
"I coulda had a
tux?" Gunn said. "Angel, you are in some deep trouble. Why didn't
you tell me you were getting a tux?"
Angel frowned. "When we
went to the ballet, you complained about your tuxedo all night. I figured
you wouldn't want one."
Gunn held up the blue
velvet. "You figured I'd rather wear curtains?" Angel shrugged.
Fred said soothingly,
"Just think, Charles. You only have to wear the turban once, but you
can tell the story forever."
"I'm not telling
anybody about this," Gunn said, pinning a fairly competent turban in
place at last. "And neither are y'all. Are we clear on that?"
"Let's just get a game
plan together," Cordelia said. She took another sip of the
sticky-sweet liqueur Angel had ordered, resolving never to drink plum
brandy again. "First of all, let's go for the worst-case scenario. How
long do we give your vampire family to show up? Ten minutes? Two
hours?"
"More like two
hours," Angel said, instantly businesslike again. "Not much more
than that -- but after two hours, we should worry."
"Darla liked to be
fashionably late?" Cordelia guessed.
He looked a little
uncomfortable as he shook his head. "You just never knew when she'd
decide to kill someone on the way."
"So, if they don't
show, what do we do next?" Gunn said. "Start searching Sighisoara?
You can maybe use your vamp radar --"
"That's going to be
harder to do here," Angel said. "Romania is thick with vampires,
particularly in this era. I'd still know if one of the vampires of my line
were very close, but it's going to be more difficult to pick them out from
this crowd."
Cordelia didn't like the
sound of that, but then, it had been a while since she'd liked the sound of
any of this. "That means -- you want us to go to the gypsies? That's
not going to cut it, Angel. WE might have accepted that they've got to die
for the greater good of the future, but I'm guessing they might not see it
that way. Particularly coming from you."
"I realize that,"
Angel replied. "We'll just have to watch them. Wait for Darla and
Spike and Dru to make their move. Then -- we'll have to take it from
there."
Fred ducked her head.
"You mean we might have to kill the gypsies ourselves?"
They were all quiet for a
while. Angel finally said, "I don't know. The main thing is making
sure they don't lift the curse. We might just be able to kill Drusilla and
Spike."
Cordelia noticed that he
didn't say Darla.
"Well, then, let's look
on the bright side," Fred said resolutely. "If they do show up,
we just stake Drusilla, right? Poof!"
"But that's gonna
change the future too," Gunn protested. "I'm not saying Dru did
the world a whole lotta good after this, but she did something. And we all
know by now how easy it is to throw things outta whack."
Cordelia shook her head.
"But the world didn't change all that much, really -- not counting
what Angelus did with the Judge. That's a big 'not counting,' but
seriously. Remember all that stuff Fred was saying in the museum, about
Picasso and Warhol and all that? I mean, at this point, we're not going to
get out without changing history. That's just -- done. We only get to pick
the lesser of about ninety jillion evils, and killing Dru sounds like
it."
Fred nodded. "The
damage to the timeline is done, Charles. At this point, we can only
minimize it."
"I just want to make
sure the damage we do doesn't leave us stuck here," Gunn said.
"We don't kill Drusilla
unless we have to," Angel said. "We don't do anything unless we
have to." His voice was surprisingly hard, and Cordelia stared at him.
"Guess we'll see what
happens when we get there," Gunn said. "Now all we gotta do is
get through a couple hours of a 19th-century ball."
Fred said, "I'm
guessing a ball means dancing. I know how to waltz, and a couple of reels
-- I had to have a coming-out in high school. My grandmother insisted."
When Gunn's eyes went wide, she added, "That means I was a
debutante." He sighed in relief.
"I did the whole deb
circuit too," Cordelia said. "So we're okay on dances,
right?"
"Probably," Angel
said. "But there's a lot you need to know -- for instance, you're all
carrying yourselves wrong. You need to be a little less free with your body
language. More controlled, more formal."
Cordelia stood a little
straighter; sure enough, it made the corset's boning bite into her a little
less uncomfortably. "More formal. Gotcha."
Fred said, "Is there
going to be anything to eat? Not that those, uh, weird sausages weren't
just great, but -- you know me and my stomach. Too much is never
enough."
"Don't say that,"
Angel said. "Referring to any part of your body, except maybe your
hand or your head -- that would be incredibly rude. There are going to be
people downstairs who would be appalled that you said the word stomach in
public."
"You have GOT to be
kidding," Cordelia said. When Angel didn't crack a smile, she started
to get even more worried. "So, swearing is totally out of the question
--"
"Completely,"
Angel said. "Gunn or I might get away with it if we were speaking to
another man. But not you or Fred. The two of you need to know how to hold
your fans --"
"There's a wrong way to
hold a fan?" Fred said.
"Holding them different
ways means different things," Angel said. "You don't want to
inadvertently offend or encourage the wrong people. Keep your gloves on at
all times. And if anybody sends over a flower, let me see it. They all have
meanings; it would be a message, not a gift."
They began their tutorial on
the ways and manners of the late 19th century, and Cordelia listened
carefully. But beneath her attention was a kind of wonder and unease. She
was so accustomed to thinking of Angel as the one who was perpetually a
little out of step; now that was her role. He'd had to show her how to turn
on the lamps, what to use to brush her teeth, even how to wear her
underwear.
She placed one hand across
her abdomen, felt the confining corset beneath her ballgown. If they
couldn't get back to their own future -- if they got stuck in this era, one
way or another -- it was going to be like this forever. Always being a few
steps behind, always relying on Angel to set them right. Unseen constraints
holding them in a difficult place. Cordelia wasn't sure she could bear it.
Does it feel like this for Angel? she wondered. Is the present as weird for
him as the past is for us?
No, she decided. Nothing is
as weird as this underwear.
Finally, as they got up to
go, Gunn -- who had taken his place in front of them, befitting a foreign
ruler, said, "What do you guys know about Madagascar?"
Cordelia looked at the
others, who looked back somewhat blankly. Angel finally said, "Ah,
it's an island off the east coast of Africa."
"Yeah, that much I
knew," Gunn said. "I watched Carmen Sandiego same as anybody
else. But I can't make two hours of small talk outta that. What else?"
"They have lemurs
there," Fred said. "They're the smallest and most primitive
primates."
"Lemurs. Got it."
Gunn clapped his hands together. "What else?"
Everyone was quiet for
another couple of moments. Cordelia thought back to a trip she'd taken to
the San Diego Zoo. "Some lemurs have ringed tails?"
Gunn groaned. "This is
gonna be a long night."
***
It was a good day to be
alive. Or, in Spike's case, a good day to be dead.
Sure, the sun was high in
the clear winter sky, which was hardly the ideal conditions for a vampire
to take a walk, but any irritation Spike might have felt about the
necessity of ducking between pools of shadow in the forest was more than
offset by his good mood. Angelus was gone -- most likely because of some
fight with Darla, given her reticence on the subject of his sudden
departure. He'd probably be back soon -- those two enjoyed making up too
much to stay apart long -- but in his absence Drusilla was devoting her
undivided attention to Spike, and Darla had suddenly decided to let them
have some fun for a change. As far as Spike was concerned, the longer
Angelus sulked somewhere far away from the rest of them, the better.
If only the sun would hurry
up and set, the day would be perfect. In other words, night.
Spike made his way through
the forest, following a path that would have looked erratic to any
observer, until they realized he was using shadows like stepping stones
through pools of light. He was heading for a place between the forest and
the main road to Sighisoara which his enquiries in the city had indicated
was often used as a campsite by gypsies. 'Enquiries' wasn't exactly the
right word for grabbing strangers off the street and terrifying them until
they told him what he wanted to know, but Spike had never favored subtle
methods. Besides, it had worked.
Suddenly he stopped, sinking
into the shadows with practiced fluidity. Something was different in the
air around him: almost imperceptibly, it hummed, set vibrating by a beating
heart. A beating heart which was very close. Prey.
Spike grinned to himself.
His good day had just gotten even better.
The sun was starting to set,
filling the forest with an agreeable gloom that was more suited to Spike's
senses and his purpose. He moved more quickly now, less inhibited by the
shrinking patches of sunlight. The heartbeat was louder in his ears, now,
but its pace was as regular as it had been when he first heard it. The
stupid bugger had no idea he was being hunted.
It was more fun when they
knew.
Deliberately, Spike stepped
on a fallen branch, snapping it loudly in two.
The heartbeat suddenly began
to race.
That was more like it.
Ahead of him, Spike saw a
young man running through the forest, slowed by the low branches he
couldn't see and Spike could. The trail he left was marked as clearly by
the heady scent of fear as by disturbed vegetation.
Spike broke into a run,
easily matching and then exceeding the pace of his quarry. The pounding
heartbeat was a drum in his head, now, urging him on, filling him with a
surge of strength that never failed to thrill or delight him.
A second later, it was over.
The boy -- he was little more than a child -- gasped as Spike threw him on
to the ground, then tried ineffectually to fight off his attacker. Spike
briefly considered letting him get away, then decided he was too hungry to
waste time playing with his food. Time to eat.
He let out a snarl and
lowered his fangs to the boy's neck.
"Demon!" the boy
shrieked. Spike's ear was next to his mouth, and the noise made him recoil.
"Bloody hell, of course
I'm a demon," he confirmed irritably. "When something leaps on
you in the dark and grabs your throat, it's not usually an encyclopedia
salesman. Now hold still while I kill you."
"Demon!" the boy
shouted again. There was fear in his voice, but also anger and a measure of
determination that would have made Spike feel just a little uneasy, if the
situation had not been so wholly to his advantage. "You may take my
life, but you will not undo our vengeance. He suffers; I have seen
him."
Spike wasn't listening; he
was concentrating on pinning down his victim and exposing his throat. There
was the jugular, a rich, ripe well, begging to be tapped and drained.
Again, Spike made ready to
bite.
He heard something whistle
through the air, and felt a sharp pain between his shoulder blades.
With a roar, Spike got up
and spun around, keeping hold of his victim with one hand while clutching
at his back with the other. He had been hit by an arrow; when he pulled out
the shaft, he saw it was a single piece of sharpened wood, making it look
more like a stake than anything usually fired from a bow. He threw it down
in disgust, and realized that he was rapidly being surrounded by a crowd of
armed, torch-bearing men.
At least, he thought sourly,
Darla would be pleased he'd found the gypsies.
There were at least thirty
of them, and probably more coming. Spike relished a slaughter, but he
relished his skin more, and those odds weren't exactly ideal.
He pushed his foot down on
to the chest of his intended victim. At least a couple of ribs snapped
under his heel, and the boy cried out in pain. "Your little friend
here is still alive," Spike snarled at the gathering mob. "One
step closer by any of you and he won't be."
The crowd now formed a
circle around Spike, but it was no longer closing in on him. Spike kept his
boot firmly in the middle of the man's chest while he considered what to do
next.
One of the gypsies -- a
gray-haired man who was thin to the point of gauntness -- stepped forward.
Spike growled at him, and screwed his heel down until the boy on the ground
gave a low, gurgling cry of pain. "I think I told you to stay
back."
The thin man stopped. Then,
raising one hand, he started to speak, murmuring words in a language Spike
didn't know.
Gypsies and their
superstitions. Spike laughed and called out mockingly, "Sticks and
stones --"
He broke off abruptly. The
ground under his feet was getting distinctly uncomfortable.
Slowly, the thin gypsy
lowered his hand. He smiled. The soles of Spike's feet began to smoke.
Bloody hell, they'd only
gone and consecrated the ground right under him.
Spike leapt back,
overbalanced, and put his hand on to the ground to steady himself. His palm
sizzled, and he yelped. Now he was hopping from foot to foot, like a man
performing a bizarre and frenetic dance. A wooden arrow thudded into his
chest, too close to his heart for comfort.
Spike staggered backward,
and the gypsies surged forward to help their fellow. For a brief moment,
they seemed more intent on helping Spike's intended victim to safety than
on pursuing his attacker.
Spike fled, limping on
blistered feet and cursing liberally. Behind him, he could hear the gypsies
celebrating.
Not such a good day, after
all.
***
The boy -- his name was
Ernst -- was still trembling as he sat by the fire; the cup he was cradling
shook so violently the old woman feared he would spill its contents and add
to his already considerable pain by scalding himself. But his physical
injuries would heal, given time. That his mind would heal was less certain,
if the dull look of fear in his eyes was a fair measure.
"Tell me what you
saw," she said.
The gathered crowd fell
silent -- no small achievement, as every adult member of the clan had
gathered around the open fire which had been lit in the centre of the camp
as soon as dusk had fallen.
"Mother Yanna." It
wasn't the boy who had answered her, but Gregor. A giant by Kalderash --
and most other -- measures, he stood almost a head taller than any of the
other men in the clan, and was respected for more than just his physical
strength. Mother Yanna had been pleased when her daughter Ilsa had chosen
him over the rest of her suitors; she had felt the rightness of the match,
had sensed that the children of the union would be strong and gifted. Gia
had been both.
"Mother Yanna,"
Gregor repeated, "the boy has been through enough tonight. Can this
not wait until the morning?"
"It cannot,"
Mother Yanna said sharply. Gregor had the luxury of considering the
wellbeing of one person; the weight of the clan rested on her shoulders.
"The boy almost died to bring us news. He should at least deliver it.
Speak, boy."
The note of command in her
voice had the desired effect. Ernst gripped his cup more tightly and,
barely lifting his eyes, said, "The demon suffers. I saw it
myself."
There was a murmur of
approval from around the fire. "Tell us more," Mother Yanna said.
"I found it hiding from
the day in a barn. It shuddered and twisted like a man in his death throes,
and I heard it weep and moan. Then it saw me, but I didn't run." As he
told his story, Ernst sat up a little straighter. "The demon cowered
from me, and its eyes were wild, like a man in a fever. It spoke to
me."
"What did it say?"
"It said it was sorry.
It begged my forgiveness."
Mother Yanna felt a smile
tug at her puckered lips. "How did you reply?"
Ernst said, "I kept
silent, Mother Yanna."
"Then you gave it the
only answer it will ever receive," she told him. "We have given
birth to vengeance, and now it lives and grows. You did well, child."
At the other side of the fire, Gregor nodded in satisfaction. Beside him,
Ilsa raised her head -- she had barely been capable of speech since the
death of their daughter. Gregor took her frail hand in his powerful one and
squeezed it tightly, as if he could transfer a measure of his strength to
her. Then, looking around the assembled group, he said, "Tomorrow, if
it pleases the clan, we will break camp. We will leave my daughter's ashes
here, and take her memory with us."
All around the fire, there
were nods of agreement. But Ernst had lowered his head again; there was
something strange in the way his face was hidden, Mother Yanna thought. It
was almost as if --
"There is something
else you would tell us," she said, narrowing her eyes. "But you
are afraid, because it is ill tidings."
Ernst nodded dumbly. Mother
Yanna tottered around the fire until she was standing in front of him. She
put her hand underneath his chin and made him raise his face so that she
could meet his eyes. "I am old, child, and I have known more sorrow
and grief than you. Do not spare me."
In a rush, Ernst said,
"The other demon -- the one that came to us and claimed to be from the
future -- it is still here."
From all around the
campfire, Mother Yanna heard low gasps of anger.
"Are you certain of
this?" Gregor asked the boy.
"When I left here before
first light this morning, I went first to the house in the city where the
demons had made their lair. I saw lights in the windows, and I thought
Angelus had returned there, so I waited. Then a carriage came, and when
those inside came out, Angelus was among them."
"What was his
aspect?"
Ernst looked at her blankly.
"Mother Yanna?"
Impatiently, she said,
"Describe him."
"He walked tall,"
Ernst said. "He led the others to the carriage."
A suspicion had begun to
form in the old woman's mind. "Where did they go?"
"To the Hotel Lebada,
in the city. They have taken a suite of rooms there. I hid on the balcony
and watched them through a crack in the shutters." With scorn that
bordered on contempt, Ernst said, "Angelus was there, and the Moorish
man and the two women. They were dressing themselves in finery. I saw
Angelus smile and laugh. I could watch no more, and I left."
Mother Yanna nodded grimly
as she began to piece together the sequence of events. "And it was as
you returned to tell me this you happened on the barn, and found the demon
we cursed hiding there."
"Yes, Mother
Yanna." Ernst shook his head in confusion. "If I had not seen it
myself, I would not believe it. The two were alike in every detail, but one
was ashamed, and the other happy."
Yes, the old woman thought,
the two demons were indeed alike. If the story the creature who had come
into their camp had told them was not wholly a lie, the only thing that
separated him from the vampire Ernst had found in the barn was a hundred
years. In a hundred years, barely a ripple in history's wide ocean, the
vengeance she had carefully crafted would be eroded completely, and the
proof of it was currently staying in Bucharest's finest hotel and enjoying
the society of the city.
Mother Yanna's hands began
to tremble, but not with age. She was shaking with fury.
"The demon lied to
us," Gregor said. "It said it would return to its own time as
soon as our vengeance was assured."
"Indeed, the demon
lied," Mother Yanna said bitterly. "What innocents we are, to
have ever believed it could speak the truth."
Her voice shaking with
emotion, Ilsa said, "Why can it not leave us to mourn in peace? What
does it want?"
"It means to lift the
curse," Mother Yanna spat. "To end its suffering. It seeks to
undo our vengeance."
Gregor's face was grim as he
said, "The demons have aligned themselves against us. They sent one of
their number to kill Ernst before he could tell us this news."
Ilsa took her husband's arm,
her face white. "Against a host of demons, what protection do we have?
A few charms will not hold them at bay for long."
Another of the women nodded
in agreement. "We have enough to mourn already, in the loss of Gia. We
should flee, before all our children join her."
At once, a dozen or more
voices started to argue and debate, and the crackling of the campfire was
quickly drowned out by the clamor. Even Gregor was deep in debate with the
two men sitting nearest to him. Turning away from Ernst, Mother Yanna
walked into the circle of firelight, where everyone could see her. Then she
simply waited until silence fell again, as she knew it would.
"Would you run?"
she asked. "Very well. But how far? Show me a country where the sun
never sets, where the demons cannot walk, and I will gladly follow there.
Does any among you know of such a place?"
As she expected, no one
spoke up. Mother Yanna nodded curtly. "We are Kalderash," she
said. "We do not run."
"There are no cowards
around this fire," Gregor said quietly. "But what if this demon
from the future undoes our vengeance? What then?"
Mother Yanna reached into
her cloak and held up a stake. Her arm, which was weak with age, ached with
the effort, but she did not lower it.
"If we cannot have
vengeance," she said, "then we will have justice instead."
****************
Chapter Four
****************
"Presenting his Most Royal Majesty, the Caliph of Madagascar, Muhammad
Ali!"
Gunn entered the room first,
nodding slightly at the many finely dressed people who turned to stare. His
turban was tucked, his velvet curtain draped and his demeanor exactly
correct: formal, proud, even regal. Angel smiled. He never would have
guessed Gunn had it in him.
"Presenting Mistress
Winifred Burkle and Mistress Cordelia Chase of the United States of
America."
Angel hung back for a
moment, then followed the rest of his party. Gunn's entrance,
unsurprisingly, had prompted a ripple of interested murmuring, and Angel
was able to slip into the ballroom unobserved and, more importantly,
unannounced. If Darla and Drusilla were already at the ball, Angel had
decided he would prefer not to give away his presence too soon.
Fred sighed as she looked
around. "This has got to be the most beautiful place I've ever
been."
The ballroom's floors were
cream-colored marble flecked with gold, the high ceilings carved and gilded
and lit by elaborate chandeliers with crystal facets that sparkled. Oil
panels illustrating each of the seven Muses decorated the walls, with
nubile girls and fat cherubs in sky blue and rose pink. Candelabra on the
tables provided a little more light, and the band was playing a simple
tune, not intended for dancing. Women in satin gowns and men in black silk
nodded and curtseyed and bowed -- mostly to Gunn, who didn't seem
displeased with the attention. The jewels they wore glittered almost as
much as the crystals overhead. Same old, same old, Angel thought. But
before he could say that this was a fairly provincial affair, he saw the
awe in Fred's eyes, and the delight in Cordelia's, and he kept silent.
"Okay," Cordelia
said in a low voice, "I've panned-and-scanned the room twice now, and
no Darla or Dru."
"No," Angel said.
He tried to sense them, as best he could -- but in the first crush of the
party, with more than a hundred human heartbeats pumping blood in rhythm
around him, his senses weren't at their most acute. "Maybe they
haven't arrived yet."
"So what do we do until
they do?" Cordelia said. "Mingle? Because these guys look like a
bunch of stiffs." She gave one of her best smiles to an older woman
who passed near them.
The tension and uncertainty
of the past weeks rose up inside Angel again -- everything that had ever
mattered to him depended on making the right decisions and taking the right
actions in the next few hours. But giving into his fears wouldn't help
either; he forced himself to relax, to focus, to find one element of this
chaotic situation that he could happily concentrate on.
Cordelia's dress was the
color of fireplace embers, fitted tightly around her waist and breasts,
flaring into puffed sleeves that framed her face. Her white gloves called
attention to her slim hands, and the earrings caught the shining light in
her eyes. The band readied its sheet music and the crowd began reacting,
getting into place for the first number of the evening. "Until
then," Angel said, "we dance."
Cordelia raised an eyebrow.
"You're gonna dance?"
"I'm not doing anything
invented after 1910," Angel said.
"Guess that rules out
that breakdancing contest for later," Gunn said. "Should I, like,
try an accent?" Fred shook her head quickly.
"But before 1910 --
that's okay." Cordelia's smile was partly teasing, but partly
happiness.
"Exactly." Angel
took her hand and began leading her to the floor. "We'll have to make
do with the waltz."
"Oh, I think I can handle
that," Cordelia laughed.
***
Hearts like drumbeats, thump
thump, thump thump. The drums were loud and fast, like in a nightclub. What
was the nightclub Spike had liked so much, the one where she'd collected
all those ears?
"See Bee Gee
Bees," Dru sang happily.
"Very nice," Darla
said absently as they walked closer to the ballroom. Grandmummy wasn't
really listening, because she never did when it wasn't Daddy talking, or
when it wasn't knives sticking out of people. The cut in Dru's chest still
hurt, and she wondered if it would bleed as she danced, making a red rose
in the middle of all her white ruffles.
"Roses are the reddest
hearts of all," Dru said. "Spike shan't cut the flowers down,
this time. They will grow without thorns, and Daddy won't have to bleed
ever again."
Darla's eyes were sharp, cut
glass, broken windows. "You almost made sense again."
"Sorry," Dru
dropped her eyes. "I'm trying to cut back."
They went past a mirror in
the entryway, and it was as naughty as all the other mirrors, and it would
not show Dru how pretty she looked in her white satin dress. Spike and
Angelus hadn't been there to tell her, and Darla only had eyes for her own
frock, which was black as night. "You are the sky," Dru said.
"I am the moon."
"We're about to be in
public, Drusilla," Darla said sharply. "Save your poetry for
those who appreciate it. Children and corpses and Spike."
The music had already begun,
and the dancers whirled around the floor, confetti and coffee spoons. The
man at the doorway was going to ask them for their names, and then he would
say them very loudly. Dru did not like for just anyone to say her name. She
looked into his eyes and beyond them, pulled up the damp rag inside him and
wrung it out as she said, "We haven't any names. Not any at all."
"Not any at all,"
he repeated quietly, and he stepped aside to let them pass. Wring wring.
Grandmummy was leading her into the room -- and then she stopped. Then Dru
saw why.
Angelus was there. No, not
Angelus -- Angel, awful Angel, Angel who set fires and dug up all the
things that should be left buried. And the girl who saw things like she
did, but differently than she did, and those others too.
"How -- how can this
be?" Darla gasped. Her eyes were wide with shock, one hand to her
throat. Around her wrist, her hologram bracelet glittered with all the
little dancers.
Dru frowned, and all the
lovely dancing lights in her head, the ones that had zoomed in when she
read the book about the time machine, seemed to go out at once. "They
came back," Dru said. "Didn't see that. Didn't see that page.
Someone ripped it out, and tearing books is very naughty."
"Came back? They?"
Darla repeated the words, but she only stared at Angel. "How can he be
here? How can he be -- dancing?"
"Didn't see," Dru
repeated. It was all wrong, all wrong, ink on the coverlet, screams near
the policeman, holy water in Angel's eyes. She stamped her foot. "This
is MY ending!" she insisted.
"Your ending? What do
you mean?" Darla grabbed Dru's arm very, very hard. She stared at her
with eyes that stabbed. The cut in Dru's chest hurt again.
"Blades," Dru
whimpered. "Too many blades. The paper dolls are in little pieces. A
hat, a foot, a head."
"Tell me about your
dollies," Darla said, watching Angel glide across the floor with the
girl in orange. "Tell me about the one with the dark hair."
"You won't
listen," Dru insisted. "You've ribbons in your ears,
Grandmummy."
"Try me," Darla
said.
***
"The ladies do not wear turbans, of course," Charles said grandly
to his small audience of rapt listeners. "They dress their hair in
elaborate ways, with beads and braids, and wear fine cloaks of -- lemur
fur."
The people around him looked
suitably impressed. Fred tried very hard not to let her jaw drop. She'd
known Charles for almost a year, during which she thought she'd seen just
about every side of his personality: the angry side, the funny side, the
gentle side, the ballet-crazy side. But she had never guessed that right
down at the core, the guy was a complete ham.
"Your Majesty,"
one woman said breathlessly, "is the Caliph the ruler of all
Madagascar?"
"Of course not,
Bertha," her husband said with an apologetic smile in Charles'
direction. "You should know what a caliph is. They are Islamic
leaders, the direct descendants of the prophet Mahomet himself, and they
are believed to be the divinely ordained speakers of God's will on earth. I
had thought the caliphate was dismantled in the 13th century, but
apparently it survives on in local custom, what?"
That's what a caliph is?
Fred thought. I thought it was just a sheik or something. Charles looked
similarly confused for a moment, but he just put one hand on his chest and
smiled. "Yes. I'm -- one of them."
He glanced over at Fred, as
if hoping that she would help him out. She smiled, hoping he'd see what she
saw: Charles Gunn didn't need any help at all, not in this century or any
other. Charles must have gotten the message, because he grinned in return.
A portly old man with a
handlebar mustache boomed, "I say, is there much tribal warfare in Madagascar?"
Fred watched Charles
consider being offended, then start being amused. "We have great and
terrible wars," Charles said, in his best this-is-CNN voice.
"Even now, my tribe -- the Lakers -- struggles to defeat our enemies,
the Sacramento Kings."
"Ohh," the crowd
said. Fred flipped her fan up in front of her face so she could grin
unseen.
***
One-two-three, one-two-three --
Cordelia hadn't lied about
the deb circuit; she'd had her white lace dresses and her pearls, the
escorts who smelled like the beer they'd drunk in the parking lot. Her main
memories of the balls were of having to juggle cheerleader practice around
them. Certainly the dancing lessons she'd taken to get through had dropped
off the radar screen, and now it took most of her energy to just remember
what she was supposed to be doing.
Fortunately, Angel was a
good lead, his hand strong against her back, guiding her gently around the
floor. Cordelia had never seen Angel attempt club-style dancing, and she
was pretty sure she didn't want to see him try, ever; however, when it came
to this kind of dancing, it was clear he knew exactly what he was doing.
The chandeliers spun above
their heads. Angel was smiling down at her. She was breathless from the
corset, and from the dancing, and just from the strange joy of it. Weird
but true, Cordelia thought: The deeper the trouble you're in, the more you
want to enjoy what you've got.
"I don't believe
it," she said. "You're a good dancer."
"I'm really not,"
Angel said. "I don't think I can stress that enough. But I know how to
do this. It's not any different from swordfighting, really."
"Except for the swords.
And the fighting."
He gave her that little
half-smile. "Not like that. I meant -- you know how your body's
supposed to move. You learn the motions and the timing through experience.
Then, when you're in the moment, you can just -- go."
That sounds like something
besides swordfighting, Cordelia thought. She was about to say as much when
Angel's curse in all its permutations rose up in her mind, and she decided
that was a mean thing to mention. She just smiled at Angel instead as they
went through the last few steps, wondering why her spirits seemed so much
lower all of a sudden.
By the time the dance ended,
the corset was cutting into Cordelia and she had to gasp a little to catch
her breath. As Angel led her back to where Gunn and Fred were waiting at
the side of the ballroom, she stole a glance at the other female dancers,
and noted with envy that none of them looked even slightly winded. There must
be a knack to successful corset-wearing, she decided.
As they rejoined their
friends, Gunn was looking unduly pleased with himself, and Fred was shaking
her head. "Having fun?" Angel asked.
"Oh, sure," Fred
said, quirking her mouth. "Nothing like hearing the Caliph here tell
people they haven't lived until they've eaten lemur-kabobs."
"Lemur-kabobs?"
Cordelia blinked, totally unable to get past the word.
"Pardon me," said
a waiter -- no, Cordelia realized, not a waiter. But he was apparently part
of the staff, and he was holding out a tiny branch bedecked in brilliant
golden blossoms. "I was requested to bring this to you."
"Flowers," Gunn
said, then started. "That's a message, right, Angel?" When Angel
nodded, Gunn added, "Which one of the gi -- the ladies is this flower
for?"
"For neither," the
servant said, nodding in Angel's direction. "I was requested to bring
it to this gentleman."
As the servant stepped away,
Cordelia peered at the green-and-yellow branch in Angel's hand. "I
don't know those flowers."
"They're --
acacia," Angel said haltingly, clearly recalling the information from
a far-distant corner of his memory.
"So what message do
acacia send?" Fred said.
"They symbolize secret
love," Angel said. "That, or --" He was quiet for a few
moments before he finished, "Or the immortality of the soul."
Cordelia turned even as
Angel did. Darla stood several feet away, wearing black-satin and a
dark-lipped smile. She spoke quietly, her voice barely carrying to them
over the murmuring of the crowd. "Are you going to ask me to dance,
Angelus? Or -- will I have to break protocol?"
Cordelia got the very
distinct sense that when Darla said, "break protocol," she meant
something a lot more obvious -- and dangerous -- than asking Angel to
dance.
Angel's face was unreadable
as he walked forward and offered his arm. "Please do me the
favor," he said by rote. Darla took his arm and sailed off with him
toward the dance floor.
Gunn spoke first. "How
come Angel's dancing with her instead of wrestling her into a
headlock?"
"Because the other
vamps aren't here," Cordelia said, looking around. Spike and Drusilla
were either not at the ball or not in her field of vision -- in other
words, still unknown factors. "Taking out Darla doesn't do us much
good if Spike and Dru are still on the loose."
"This is just -- not
good," Fred said.
Cordelia threw all Angel's
words about formality to the winds and folded her arms in front of her.
"Ya think?"
***
"The mazurka is a fine
dance, don't you agree?" Darla asked. She was positioned opposite
Angel on the dance floor; he was lightly clasping her cool fingers as she
executed the dance's slow, graceful steps in perfect time with the music
the band was playing. "The waltz has passion, but the mazurka is
refined. It is the dance of aristocrats."
Angel didn't reply. He was
still concentrating on remembering a sequence of dance steps he hadn't used
in more than a century, and concentrating even harder on Darla. Her gown
was jet black, and that alone made her unique in a room filled with
scarlets and blues and jades. If he knew Darla -- and he did, so very well
-- it would amuse her to take traditional garb of demure mourning and turn
it into something scandalous. If that had been her aim, she had succeeded:
the sleeves of her gown were cut from muslin, leaving her arms outrageously
exposed almost to the shoulder, and the gown's neckline plunged daringly
low. Her lips were red and her hair was pinned into an elaborate cascade of
tight curls.
She looked the way she had
the very first night Angel had seen her in a tavern in Galway, a creature
so exotically perfect she hardly seemed real.
"A pity you weren't
alive when La Volta was the rage," she said. "Elegance and
athleticism and scandal, all in one dance. It would have suited you
admirably." Darla placed one foot behind the other and lowered herself
into a curtsey. As she rose, Angel linked his arm with hers, and they
circled each other.
"You dance well,"
Darla said. "I wonder if you remember who taught you how."
She was testing him, Angel
realized. Still unsure exactly who he was, Darla had chosen to ask him
something only he and she would know. "It was a Frenchwoman called
Madame Voltaine," Angel said. "The year after we met. You
arranged for private tuition because you said I should be able to pass for
a gentleman." He took a step forward; Darla stepped back by the same
distance.
Darla smiled. "And when
you'd learnt what you needed to know, we made sure she never danced again.
Those are such happy memories, aren't they?"
"Maybe for you,"
Angel said. "My perspective is different, now."
"Then the acacia was an
appropriate token." Darla was no longer smiling, but beyond that, her
face was unreadable.
"Yellow roses would
have been even better."
Darla's expression was blank
for a moment; then she gave an abrupt laugh. "To symbolize the death
of our love? Oh, no, I don't think so. Yellow roses also stand for joy, and
we had that in great measure. Or have you forgotten?"
Joy. She could look back on
the things they'd done, the horrors they'd visited on the world, and she
could call it joy. "I remember it better than you do. I've learned to
see it in ways you can't."
"You learn what you're
taught and no more," Darla said scornfully. "As you always were
and will ever be. We're immortal, my darling. We don't change."
"I changed, Darla. You
will, too."
Suddenly, he saw Darla not
as she was but as she would be: lying on her back in an alleyway while the
rain pelted down around them. Her face had been bare of makeup, contorted
with pain from the contractions that wouldn't stop and wouldn't allow their
son to be born. Her hair had been tangled and gray with filth washed into
it by the water coursing along the gutter, and as she pushed the stake into
her chest, Angel had seen in her eyes sorrow for what she was and love for
their unborn son. That night, she hadn't been perfect. But she had been
beautiful -- more beautiful than he had ever known her in all the centuries
they'd spent together.
Angel realized -- of all the
things Darla had been to him, and she had been so many -- only one mattered
to him anymore. Darla was Connor's mother. She was the mother of his son.
It outweighed everything: the murders, the sex, the torture, the betrayal,
even his own death and damnation. It all had led to Connor's short life.
His son had been in Darla's belly longer than in the rest of the world.
Angel felt the quick, irrational urge to touch her there -- right beneath
her navel, right where he'd felt Connor kick so long ago, where he would
feel Connor kick in days yet to come. His hand was at her waist, so close
--
Darla was looking at him
intently, and he realized his face had revealed more than he'd intended.
"There," she purred. "You still can't stop looking at me,
can you? I see it in you. I'll believe many things, Angelus; I'll even
believe in Drusilla's fantastical stories. But I'll never believe that our
love could die."
Drusilla's fantastical
stories --
Oh, God. Darla knew -- what
did Darla know?
Her eyes glinted up at him,
full of something that was half-mischief, half something far more
dangerous.
Angel looked to the side of
the ballroom, searching for Drusilla, but he couldn't find her. She must
have wandered off while he'd been concentrating on Darla, he realized, and
he hoped Cordelia and the others had been paying more attention to her
movements than he had. But before she'd gone, Drusilla had managed to
derail history again by telling Darla -- how much? He had no way of
knowing. He would have to choose every word carefully, in case he
inadvertently gave away some key piece of information.
The music shifted, the
melody echoing itself and becoming more layered and complex. Around Angel
and Darla, the other dancers paused for a single beat and then, in unison,
slowly began to circle in the opposite direction. Darla dropped her left
hand, made a half turn, and raised her right hand for Angel to take.
On her wrist, Cordelia's
hologram bracelet -- the same one Groo had given her, the same one she had
sold to the English tourists -- shone in the lamplight, scattering a myriad
of tiny rainbows on to Darla's ivory skin. Angel blinked in surprise, then
tried to hide his reaction. How the hell had Darla gotten that?
"Now," Darla said,
"the dance becomes interesting."
***
Some things about the past,
Drusilla decided regretfully, weren't as good as she remembered them. The
dancing, for example.
From where she sat she could
watch all the people, lined up in boring rows, repeating the same tiny
movements over and over again like clockwork toys. Pull out the springs and
they would all stop dancing. She wished they would stop. Dru thought about
how people danced in the future, packed together in the dark and drowning in
noise, a mass of bodies seething to the thudthudthud of music that wasn't.
That kind of dancing had no rules, no discipline, and Drusilla loved to
lose herself in its beautiful, blissful chaos. She'd forgotten that there
had been a time when dancing had been all about rules. Drusilla hated
rules.
She had tried to show some
of the people moving in constricted little circles how dancing would be in
the future, but the band wasn't playing the right kind of music at all and
nobody seemed to want to join in with her. So now Drusilla was sitting by
herself at the side of the dance floor, pouting and feeling bored.
Grandmummy had gone to dance
with wrong, wrong Angel -- Dru could see them from where she sat, circling
around each other like scorpions, freezing and scorching the air between
them by turns. Grandmummy had gone to him even after Drusilla had told her
who he was, and Dru didn't understand that at all.
At least Darla had someone
to dance with her. Drusilla wanted Spike to come back. In the future, he would
like the new way people danced. She was certain he would like it now, if
she showed him how it was done.
Suddenly, Dru straightened
up. Someone was watching her, someone's eyes and thoughts fluttering around
the edges of her mind.
On the other side of the
ballroom, a young man was standing apart from the crowd, holding a drink
and watching Drusilla. He thought she hadn't noticed, silly-billy. His face
was as blank as a tailor's dummy, but underneath Drusilla felt a brief, hot
flash of lust, followed quickly by shame. Lovely thoughts, sweet like
rotting fruit! Was his blood as sweet? Drusilla shivered in delight and
anticipation. Flies were buzzing in her ears; they liked the fruit.
Lowering her fan, she smiled
at the young man. His eyes darted from side to side, and when he realized
there was no one else standing near him who she could be smiling at, he
smiled back.
Still smiling, Drusilla held
his gaze, and held it and held it and held it. Then, like a Venus flytrap
closing around an insect, she caught his thoughts in hers and held him
fast.
On the other side of the
ballroom, the young man's hand dropped limply to his side, and his full
glass crashed to the floor, shattering. As he began to cross the dance
floor, walking in a straight line toward Drusilla, one of the servants
moved in to mop up the spill.
"Little fishy on a
hook," Drusilla said to herself. She held out her hands to him and he
stumbled closer, brushing against couples as they whirled past, unheeding.
***
Angel and Darla wove in and out
of the other couples, dancing together with enviable smoothness and grace.
Of course, Cordelia thought sourly, if she'd had a couple of hundred years
to practice, she'd be able to do the waltz or polka or whatever it was just
as well. But what was bothering her most right now wasn't the way Angel was
dancing with Darla but the way he was looking at her -- focused, intense,
as if she were the only woman in the room. Just that look bothered Cordelia
more than it should have.
Then again, Cordelia
reminded herself, getting worried when Angel went anywhere near Darla was a
rational response, given that she seemed to know exactly how to tie him up
in knots without even trying. Maybe that was something else that came
easily after several hundred years of practice.
"You watch the dancing
with such attentiveness, it is truly an injustice you are not
participating."
The voice speaking had an
American accent, which in itself was enough to make Cordelia look around
abruptly. The owner of the voice was a man about the same age as herself,
although the formal evening he wore suit made him look older.
"Huh?" she said, then remembered Angel's advice: Be controlled.
Be formal. She raised her fan in what she hoped was a demure and ladylike
manner. "I decided to sit this one out," she said.
The man smiled graciously.
"It would not be healthy to over-exert yourself."
"Right," Cordelia
agreed. "Plus, dancing in a corset isn't exactly easy."
The man paled in something
akin to shock; his eyes went to the ceiling, then the floor, then back to
the floor again. Ooops, Cordelia thought. Mentioning underwear obviously a
major no-no. In an attempt to get the conversation back on track she said,
"So, you're American, right?"
The man nodded and smiled,
clearly relieved to have moved to a safer topic. "From New York,
although I'm currently completing my studies in Paris." He bowed
politely and, holding out his hand, said, "Barnaby Scott."
Cordelia took his hand and
shook it -- probably, she thought afterward, a little too vigorously for a
nineteenth-century lady. "Cordelia Chase. It's nice to hear a familiar
accent." As soon as she said it, she realized how true it was. She
hadn't realized until now how wearing it was, to be in a strange place,
constantly surrounded by strange people speaking a strange language.
"It really is."
Barnaby Scott nodded in
agreement. "I have been fortunate to have the companionship of a
fellow student during my time in Europe; however, one longs after a while
to hear news from home."
News from home? Cordelia
struggled to remember her high school history classes. "Well, it's
been kind of busy what with, uh, Reconstruction and everything --" Out
of the corner of her eye, Cordelia saw Fred hurrying toward them. Grabbing
her by the arm, Cordelia pulled Fred into her conversation with Barnaby.
"Fred -- uh, Winifred knows exactly what's happening back home in
1898, don't you?"
Fred looked a little flushed
-- probably from the effort of carrying the weight of all that taffeta on
her tiny frame -- and also distracted. Without really registering Barnaby,
she said, "We annexed Hawaii and went to war with Spain over Cuba. And
-- Cordy, I just saw Drusilla."
Barnaby's face registered
confusion. "Hawaii? Do you refer to the Sandwich Islands?"
"What do sandwiches
have to do with it?" Cordelia frowned as she squeezed Fred's arm.
"Drusilla was here? You didn't tell me?"
"I saw her -- she was
all in white, and I thought, that looks like Drusilla. And right as I was
trying to figure out if it WAS Drusilla, she was gone." Fred shook her
head. "I didn't see her leave. She was there, and then she wasn't.
She's got that stealthy thing going on."
Barnaby said, "The war
with Spain has far more complex causes than --"
"-- we don't need the
geopolitics. Or the sandwiches," Cordelia said, waving a hand
dismissively. "It's Drusilla we have to worry about."
"What is this word --
geopolitics?" Barnaby said, sounding increasingly bewildered.
"And who is Drusilla?"
Cordelia said,
"Drusilla is our -- friend. Sometimes she acts a little bit flaky, so
we have to make sure she doesn't wander off alone."
"Maybe you saw
her," Fred said hopefully. "She's got long, dark hair and she's
wearing a cream gown with a red stole, and she's very pale. I mean, very,
very pale."
Barnaby thought for a
second. "Why, I saw Walter speak just a little while ago to a girl of
that description."
"Walter?"
"My traveling
companion," Barnaby said. "We are both studying in Paris --"
"Right," Cordelia
said, cutting him off. From the look on his face, interrupting men while
they were talking was something else genteel young ladies didn't do.
"And you saw Drusilla talking to him?"
"He looked quite
rapt," Barnaby said.
"I just bet he
did," Cordelia muttered under her breath. She glanced to where Gunn
was still regaling a small crowd with increasingly outlandish tales of
daily life in Madagascar, and realized there was no way she and Fred could
extract him without attracting the attention of the whole ballroom. Fred
had clearly reached the same conclusion.
"Come on,"
Cordelia said to Fred. "We're gonna stop Dru helping herself to
snacks."
***
The band played faster, and the dancers steps quickened accordingly. When
the dance required a full turn, Angel used the opportunity to scan the
ballroom. There was Gunn, seated in the middle of a small knot of people
who were listening to him in breathless wonder. Where Gunn was, Fred wasn't
far away, and Angel spotted her at the side of his fanclub. Then he saw
Cordelia, talking to a young, attractive man who was paying her more
attention than he should --
"Jealous, my
dear?" Darla asked. He looked at her, and saw her gaze had followed
his own. "Don't be. She's only human, and a common, ill-bred human at
that. She doesn't even know how to hold herself. But I know you, and I know
why she fascinates you."
Tightly, Angel said,
"You know much less about me than you think."
Darla smiled and executed a
perfect turn. When she was facing Angel again, she said, "Really? I
know she has the Sight. Isn't that what you found so delicious in Drusilla?
Perhaps you're not so different as you would like to believe."
'I know she has the Sight.'
Darla's words struck Angel with a deep, cold sense of dread. He put his arm
around Darla's shoulders and they joined the other couples to form a long
line of pairs. "What else has Drusilla told you?"
Darla laughed. "All
kinds of secrets. Yours -- and theirs." She looked, deliberately, to
Cordelia and Gunn and Fred, standing at the side of the dance floor. Her
gaze lingered longest on Cordelia. "I don't pretend that it makes
sense. I don't know what's the truth, and what's just Drusilla's gibberish.
You were always her great interpreter, not I. But what I do know -- it's
interesting, Angelus, what's become of you. What could become of them."
The line of couples broke
apart, and Angel and Darla were dancing by themselves again. Darla raised
her hand for the dance's final turn; Angel took it, but instead of holding
her fingers lightly, he crushed her hand in his fist with all the strength
he had. Darla stifled a gasp and instinctively tried to get free. Angel
didn't let go.
In a low voice, he said,
"Hurt her -- or any of them -- and you'll find out there are some ways
I haven't changed at all."
She had to be in agony, but
somehow Darla was still smiling. "That's what I'm hoping, my
darling."
The band stopped, and the
dancing couples broke apart and bowed politely to one another. Reluctantly,
Angel released his grip on Darla's hand. Her fingers were clearly injured,
and she quickly hid them in the folds of her dress.
"Until our next
dance," she said as she walked away.
***
"I wish you would stop using crazy as a pejorative term," Fred
said. "I'm not saying it's inaccurate; I'm just saying that mental
illness can happen to anyone."
"What am I supposed to
call her?" Cordelia muttered as they started to walk again.
"Sanity-challenged? The girl's a loon. Tact won't change that."
Fred noticed that Cordy seemed less nervous and more excited about their
impending confrontation; after a long night of pretending to be demure and
helpless, the urge to take action made sense.
At least, as much as
confronting a craz -- a mentally unstable vampire in an alleyway ever made
sense.
Fred pushed open the heavy
door, allowing Cordelia to be the first to go outside and try to see
Drusilla before Drusilla saw them. Although Fred didn't lack courage, one
of the unwritten rules of Angel Investigations was that the people with
superpowers should generally be the first into risky situations. When
Cordelia motioned for her to follow, Fred went out into the alley herself;
in an instant, her dress went from stiflingly warm to inadequate against
the night chill.
Neither of them said
anything as they began moving through the darkness, although they shared a
glance as they realized how loud the rustling of their many petticoats
could be in the silence. Fred fished in her tiny net-and-velvet evening bag
and pulled out her stake. Cordelia would already have done the same.
Then she heard a man's
voice, so slow and slurred that at first she thought he must be drunk:
"You dance most beautifully."
"It's all jumping in
the future." Fred had only heard her once before in her life, but
there was no mistaking Drusilla's voice -- musical and broken and Cockney
and ethereal all at once. "Jump and bounce and grind." The rustle
of silk signaled how close she was -- just ahead, just around the corner
where the alleyway met the street. Fred took a deep breath, but slowly, the
better not to be heard. "I want to see you dance the way I dance. Then
we'll eat. Can you jump for Mumsie?"
They paused in the last
moment before they'd turn the corner. Cordelia gave her an encouraging
glance, then counted silently with her fingers in the moonlight. Three,
two, one --
Fred and Cordelia whirled
around the corner as one. A man in an evening suit was doing a very, very
poor imitation of 21st-century dancing. Drusilla's back was to them, but
they could see her clapping. "So lovely, so lovely," she
sing-songed. "Shake your groove thing."
In a very quiet voice,
Cordelia said, "Apparently drinking her victims' blood isn't enough
for Dru anymore. Now she's humiliating them to death." She pulled her
stake back to strike. Fred held her breath. Could it be this easy?
Of course not. Drusilla spun
about instantly, skipping back a step, neatly out of harm's way. Then, to
Fred's astonishment, she beamed. "You're here!" Drusilla said.
"Come and dance with me."
"We're not here to
dance, Dru," Cordelia said.
Fred felt the back of her
neck prickle, felt her every hair stand on end. "Um, Cordy?"
Through her teeth, Cordelia
murmured, "Kinda busy here, Fred."
"I just have this funny
feeling that Drusilla's not talking to us."
Fred and Cordelia each
half-turned and saw him. He had a muddied overcoat, torn, with a few bloody
fingerprints on one lapel. His eyebrows were raised, a sardonic half-smile
on his face. Caramel-blond hair flopped over his forehead.
"Let me guess,"
Fred said. "This is Spike."
"My reputation precedes
me," Spike said, swaggering toward them. "Brilliant. I'd ask your
name now, except for the part where I don't care who you are so long as you
die entertainingly."
"Spike, I hate to tell
you this," Cordelia said, "but your hair's only going to get stupider
as the years go by."
"What are you on about
my hair?" Spike unconsciously reached up to touch his hair, which was
when Cordelia punched him.
Drusilla screeched in anger,
and Fred used one of those moves Gunn had taught her -- backwards hammer
fist, and hard -- to whack her without even turning around. In the split
second that both vampires were stunned, both she and Cordelia took off
running. Almost as soon as they'd begun, Fred could hear Spike and Drusilla
gaining on them, their original intended victim apparently forgotten.
"Gotta get -- to Angel
-- " Cordelia gasped.
Fred nodded, trying to catch
her breath and wondering how Cordelia could even move in a corset.
"How did you know -- to insult -- his hair?"
They swung back through the
door, their slippers sliding on the wood. The door slammed against the wall
behind them -- the vampires were so close --
"Easy," Cordelia
said. "You can always -- count on the vanity -- of a man who -- wears
nail polish."
"I can hear you!"
Spike yelled.
***
What would Drusilla have told her? There was no knowing, no guessing. Angel
was sure of only one thing: Drusilla would have told Darla what she had to
do with the gypsies to remove his soul -- or, at any rate, she would have
tried. Did Darla understand her? If she didn't yet, she would eventually.
Soon. It was only a matter of time before Darla came up with the answer and
began the work of undoing his curse -- and all of history with it.
Darla was moving away from
him through the crush of dancers, a lone storm cloud among the brilliant
colors and laughter. She was cradling her crushed hand, and he felt a
strange, terrible jab of guilt for hurting her. It was absurd -- beyond
absurd -- to feel that way about a creature who had murdered thousands and
would murder thousands more, among her victims his human self. But Angel
could only remember that hand reaching for a stake, preparing to condemn
herself to hell to give their son a chance to live.
That only happens if you
stop her, Angel reminded himself. Quit brooding and move, dammit.
Angel quickly cut through
the crowds to reach Gunn's side. He now had almost two dozen people
circling him, enraptured. "Of course I keep a harem," Gunn was
saying. "A man in my position has all the most beautiful women of the
kingdom from which to choose. Women such as Naomi and Tyra and -- But
perhaps I should say no more with ladies present."
"Oh, my," said an
older woman, her cheeks quite pink. "It's all quite different if it's
a matter of, ah, native custom --"
"Pardon me," Angel
said as smoothly as he could. "I need to address the Caliph on a
personal matter."
Gunn's eyes narrowed, but he
was still calm and magisterial as he nodded to his listeners. "You
will of course excuse us." Buzzing animatedly, the crowd dispersed and
Gunn leaned closer. "What's up with your ex?"
"She knows a hell of a
lot," Angel said. "Drusilla's told her about all of you, at least
in part."
"How much can she
possibly know about me and Fred?" Gunn said. "I got the
impression that even Cordy hadn't seen too much of her."
"Drusilla knows -- more
than she ought to," Angel said. "She sees the future, sometimes.
She sees dreams. Sometimes she creates dreams. Don't underestimate
her."
"After that whole
world-on-fire business? No chance of that." Gunn scanned the room.
"Speaking of Drusilla, I still haven't seen her. Or this Spike guy --
I mean, I wouldn't know him, but I figure the random bloodshed might give
him away."
Angel realized who else was
missing. "Did Cordelia and Fred -- have they gone back to the hotel,
or --"
"No. And no.
Damn," Gunn said. "We gotta find 'em."
"Angel!" Cordelia
yelled. He turned to see Cordelia and Fred running into the room as fast as
they could, all pretense to gentility gone. And behind them --
"What have we
here?" Spike shouted jubilantly. "It's PARTY TIME!" He
grabbed a violin from one of the musicians and brought it down, with a
crack, on one of the dancers' heads. People began to scream.
"And that's
Spike," Gunn said. Angel nodded.
"It's my party, and
you'll die if I want to, die if I want to, die if I want to --"
Drusilla crooned.
Cordelia's alive, Angel told
himself. All three of the vampires I need to catch are here in this room,
and we've got them outnumbered. Why doesn't this feel more encouraging?
"You heard the
man," Gunn said, pushing up his sleeves as he and Angel began charging
forward. "Let's party."
***
Fools. Worse than fools.
Humans were screaming and
carrying on; at least four women had already swooned, and some of the men
looked likely to follow. Darla stared at Spike and Drusilla in undisguised
contempt. Her plan -- the one and only plan they had to save Angelus from a
fate so much worse than death -- had in just moments gone from
risky-but-likely to almost impossible. All so Spike and Dru could have a
brawl.
"My God! That man --
he's not a man --" someone cried, pointing at Spike.
Darla savagely punched the
man who'd shouted in the solar plexus. As he doubled over behind her, she
muttered, "The sooner they have their fun, the sooner we can get out
of here."
When it was all over, she'd
tell Angelus how they'd nearly ruined everything. And then maybe they could
finally rid themselves of Spike and Dru for once and for all.
In the meantime, she'd have
her own fun getting rid of some of the obstacles to their plan, starting
with the brunette in the orange dress.
***
Cordelia felt rather than saw Angel coming toward her; when Drusilla was
jerked out of her line of sight, she knew it was Angel who had grabbed her.
Knowing Angel was fighting near her was just about the only thing that made
it possible to run forward toward Spike like it was no big deal. Just
another vampire. No worries.
Spike was smashing his way
through the bandstand, enjoying doing damage to the musical instruments
more than the musicians, at least so far. He side-kicked a cello into
pieces, strings popping everywhere. "Whoa! Flying wood," he
laughed, ducking his own debris. "Very bad."
"Staking wood,"
Cordelia said, bringing up her stake as she got in front of him. "Even
worse."
"You," Spike
snarled. In an instant he was at her side, out of striking range.
"First, what the hell is nail polish? Second, anyone wearing earrings
like THOSE shouldn't be talking about vanity."
Cordelia whirled around
again, keeping him facing her, keeping him engaged. Where were some demon
powers when you really needed them? she thought frantically. The stupid
Powers really could have left her an instruction manual or something.
Demonic Powers for Dummies. As it was, she was probably only going to be
able to stall him until Angel got there. Together, they could take him.
"You'll find out about the nail polish," Cordelia said.
"Unfortunately for us all."
"You're a rather
confident young lady, aren't you?" Spike said. "Quick with the
japes and the stakes. Are you one of those Slayers I hear tell about?"
"Me? A Slayer?"
Cordelia started to laugh, genuinely surprised and a little flattered.
In the moment her eyes
half-closed with laughter, Spike's hand clamped around her neck. 'Vanity,
vanity," he whispered. "All is vanity."
Cordelia swung the stake
backwards -- stubby end first -- into Spike's groin. Spike howled and
loosened his grip for the one moment she needed to pull herself free --
Another hand grabbed her by
the wrist. Cordelia's eyes went wide as she saw Darla smiling at her.
"You're a pretty
thing," Darla said. "I'll admit that."
Then she jerked Cordelia's
arm behind her savagely, spinning Cordelia around and sending shockwaves of
pain through her whole body. The world went gray around the edges, and
Cordelia felt herself reeling from agony and shock.
She gasped in a breath to
scream, but instead cried out again, "Angel!"
***
Angel's arm was raised, poised to drive the stake he held into Drusilla's
chest as she lay on the floor in front of him. He'd only have a second
before she came out of her daze, but that was okay with Angel. This time he
wasn't going to hesitate. No regrets, no split second indecision, nothing.
"Angel!"
Cordy. She was in trouble.
Instead of staking Drusilla,
Angel whirled around, leaving Drusilla on her knees on the dance floor,
where he hoped Gunn would finish her off. Drusilla was a lot less important
right now than Cordelia. Angel shoved his way through the still panicking
crowd, so jammed together in the hall that they could barely flee. There
she was, with Spike AND Darla on her, hanging awkwardly from the arm bent
at an unnatural angle behind her. Darla was gripping Cordelia's arm
savagely; she saw Angel and smiled brightly. She meant to kill Cordelia as
he watched.
Darla reached down and
buried her long, white fingers in Cordelia's dark hair. Her fingernails
were just at the hairline, and Angel knew what she meant to do. He'd seen
her do it often enough, a slash of the nails, a superhuman tug on the hair,
and the scalp would peel off just like a -- wig.
"What?" He could
hear Darla's amused bewilderment as she brought up only Cordelia's dark wig
in her hand. Cordelia's head slumped forward slightly; she was clearly
disoriented from the pain. Angel brutally shoved a few people out of his
way, struggling to get closer before Darla stopped laughing. Even now she
was focusing her attention on Cordelia again --
WHAM! A silver tray slammed
into Darla's head. Angel blinked as he saw who had swung it: Fred, who
looked both panicked and fairly pleased with herself. Darla lost her grip
for a moment, and Cordelia fell to the floor.
Angel got to Spike first; he
was doubled over and somewhat dazed. He looked up at Angel and said,
"Oh, there you are. Where have you been?"
Angel punched Spike hard in
the face. Spike staggered back, swearing in surprise and fury -- then
suddenly jabbed out with something pointed and wooden. Angel felt a second
of panic as he realized he wasn't going to be able to dodge the blow, which
swiftly turned to relief when he saw Spike's improvised weapon pierce his
stomach, not his chest. Finally pure, sharp pain washed away relief and,
for a long moment, everything else.
Angel looked dully at the
wood sticking out from his abdomen as blood began to pool on the front of
his tuxedo shirt. Funny, he thought when he could think again. Who would've
thought being run through with a violin bow would hurt so much --
And then he thought, Dammit,
impaled AGAIN.
With his last of his
strength, Angel lifted Spike up and threw him, as hard as he could, into
Darla. Both vampires went sprawling onto the ground, and Angel staggered,
trying to keep his footing despite the agony in his gut. Cordelia was on
her knees beside him, holding her arm. "Angel -- my shoulder -- "
"Charles!" Fred
cried. Drusilla had gotten her second wind. Angel saw Fred running to
Gunn's aid, but he couldn't go to help them -- Spike and Darla were getting
up, and Cordelia couldn't fight, so he would have to protect them both,
somehow. His head reeled with the pain in his belly, and Angel forced
himself to focus. He tried to ball his hands into fists -- he could if he
had to.
"Drusilla!" Darla
called. "Come here!"
"But I'm only getting
started!" Drusilla whined. Spike sneered at Angel and started to throw
himself forward, but Darla's hand shot out, holding him in place.
Darla said. "Both of
you! We're leaving! Now!" She looked at Angel -- bleeding, weak, and,
he realized, obviously unable to follow her -- and smiled.
"Forever," she said. "We promised each other forever. And I
keep my promises."
Angel wanted to say
something, but at that moment his legs gave out and he crumpled on his
knees beside Cordelia. Spike started laughing as Drusilla ran to their
side; Darla looked at Angel for one more lingering moment before pulling
them both away.
"Angel? Cordy?"
Gunn panted as he ran up to them, his turban now somewhat askew.
"Y'all okay?"
Angel took hold of the
violin bow with one hand, put his other hand in his mouth, then yanked out
the bow. His teeth broke the skin of his palm, and the splash of his own
blood on his tongue was enough to keep him from passing out. As soon as he
could speak, he said, "Follow them."
"The vampires?"
Fred said. "But -- if we're going to fight them -- we need you guys
--"
"I can't fight right
now," Cordelia said. She was slowly flexing the fingers of her injured
arm. "It's not broken, but it's not good."
"Don't fight
them," Angel said. "Try not to let them see you, if you can help
it. If they're going after the gypsy camp tonight, we have to know it. Find
out where they're headed, then come back for us. I'll be all right in a
couple of hours, and Cordelia -- I'll take care of Cordelia."
"Follow the
vamps," Gunn said. He glanced around the now-empty room, littered with
fans, flowers, sheet music and canapés. "These Victorians sure know
how to throw a party."
******************
Chapter Five
******************
Darla lifted the skirts of her gown higher in a futile attempt to keep the
mud off them. But the path they were following through the forest was
barely a track, and her ballgown was ruined. Everything, she thought
bitterly, was ruined.
"If you're not going to
tell us what's going on, at least say where we're going," Spike said,
holding his chest and grimacing a little as he tried to keep up with her.
Darla didn't answer Spike
because, for once, she didn't have the answers. Confused and disconcerted,
she was acting on little more than instinct, and her instincts told her
that in desperate situations, the best response was to buy time to think,
to hole up somewhere safe and dark. "We need a place to gather our
strength," she said, explaining what Spike should have known long ago.
"A place far away from the others."
"A cave!" Drusilla
squealed joyfully. "A lovely cave, damp and cold, with spiders and
little crawly things. I know a lovely cave for us to play in. So close, so
close."
"The closest one will
do," Darla said. Sure enough, they came upon one very soon, and
despite Drusilla's protests, she was able to herd her unruly charges
inside.
"I liked it better when
we were planning on holing up in a luxury hotel suite," Spike said.
The cave's interior was
indeed damp and cold. Darla sat down on a low outcrop of rock and rubbed
the sides of her head with her fingertips, willing the last few hours to
make some kind of sense. But it was impossible to concentrate, because
Drusilla had started to spin around and around in the middle of the cave,
her arms outstretched, tunelessly singing one of her made-up songs. "Blood
on the dance floor, blood on the knife, Drusilla's got your number,
Drusilla says it's right..."
Spike folded his arms
resolutely across his chest. "I'm not moving until I get some
ANSWERS."
Darla raised her head and
looked at them, loathing for both Spike's tantrums and Drusilla's ravings
welling up within her. They were like children, she thought with disgust.
No, they were worse than children, because at least children eventually
grew up. Spike and Drusilla were eternal infants, artlessly and clumsily savage,
more often hindrances than helpmeets. Right now, Darla could imagine no
greater pleasure than to rid herself of both of them, permanently. She
imagined the grit of their dust beneath her fingernails with a kind of grim
delight.
But she clenched her teeth
and then balled her one uninjured hand into a fist. It was hard to admit,
even to herself, but Darla needed them. Without Spike, she couldn't keep
Drusilla. Without Drusilla, she couldn't get Angelus back again. And that
was not a possibility Darla was prepared to consider. Just a few days more,
and she could wash her hands of them. Just as soon as she had her darling
boy back once more.
Maintaining a civil tone
with difficulty, she said, "What answers do you require, Spike?"
For a second, Spike looked a
little shocked that his outburst had produced a response -- usually, Darla
simply ignored him. Then, recovering himself, he raised a hand and started
to list points on his fingers. "Well, let's see. I want to know where
those two stake-wielding harpies back there came from, for a start. I want
to know why Angelus was siding with THEM against US. Above all, I want to
know -- what the HELL is nail polish?"
Drusilla broke off singing
and took Spike by the hands. "Pixies' paint pots, tiny little brushes
for fingertips. I'll paint mine red like blood and you'll paint yours black
like your black, black heart."
Spike laughed. "Damn. I
was hoping it had something to do with nails of the metal variety.
Preferably being hammered into people."
Drusilla shook her head at
Spike, chastising him with a teasing grin and a waggling finger. Darla
narrowed her eyes. There it was again -- that same strange lucidity Dru had
been displaying lately. Darla had noticed it when Dru had called her
bracelet 'hollow' back at the villa, and again when she saw Angelus at the
ball. In fact, Darla thought suddenly, almost all Drusilla's instances of
near-sanity seemed to relate to Angelus.
Spike stopped laughing and
draped one arm casually over Drusilla's shoulder. "Pixie paint --
that's one question answered. How about the rest?"
"The women at the ball
are of no consequence," Darla said, although as she said it she could
not help but recall the girl in the orange gown and the way Angelus had
looked at her. "They'll die soon enough. Angelus is -- not himself at
the moment."
"Not himself,"
Drusilla repeated, and giggled. "Not himself, he's someone else. He's
Angel."
In a second, Darla had
covered the ground between them. She struck Drusilla so hard she flew
backward, colliding with the cave wall with an audible crack then sliding
down it until she was sitting on the cave floor. Darla leaned down so that
she was nose to nose with Drusilla. "You will never, ever call him
that. He is Angelus. He is Angelus, my Angelus. His name is feared on three
continents, and it always will be, or I --" Darla broke off with a
choke, abruptly aware that Drusilla's face was wavering before her through
a haze of tears. She blinked them back before they could well over.
She felt a hand on her shoulder,
and Spike's strong grip spun her around so she was facing him. His face
shifted, showing his demon's aspect, and he snarled, "Lay a finger on
Drusilla like that again and I will rip out your throat -- and somehow I
don't think Angelus or Angel or whatever he wants to call himself will show
up to stop me."
"Spike..."
Drusilla's voice was soft. "Don't be angry with Grandmummy. She's sad
because he's gone away."
"My heart bleeds,"
Spike muttered, but he changed back to his human face and relaxed his grip
on Darla's arm.
Darla cared nothing for
Spike's bluster; typical, she thought, that he'd threaten her with
something messy and showy that would actually harm her not at all. She was
still looking at Drusilla. In a quiet voice, she said, "You know,
don't you? These things you've been prattling about -- pixie paint and
hollow bracelets -- they're not things you've seen in fugues and dreams,
are they? You're describing things that are real. Everything you've said
about Angelus, about those accursed gypsies --" Darla broke off, aware
that Spike was listening intently. "Tell me, Drusilla, how do you
know?"
"I came back,"
Drusilla said simply.
Darla felt anger mount into
rage within her. The truth, she was certain, was locked up inside
Drusilla's head, as jumbled and unintelligible as the rest of her thoughts.
"You never went away, you stupid, demented idiot --"
"The future,"
Drusilla whispered. "It's all metal, you know. It was in the book, it
was all in the book!"
"What book?"
"The book I found. The
book I will find." Drusilla held her hands up as if in a shrug.
"I was digging in the loveliest tomb. Faded flowers and dried skin
like little sheets of paper. Gray as doves, and when I breathed on them,
they rustled like silk." This was just the sort of thing that made
Darla long to slap Drusilla's face, but she forced herself to listen in
silence. "The hands held a book. I peeled back the fingers. Snap,
snap. Then I had the book. That man who died had wanted to take the book
with him. He didn't want anybody else to read it. Naughty man. He didn't
want to share his time machine."
Spike groaned. "Oh, not
THAT cheap penny dreadful."
Darla's head snapped up.
"You know what she's talking about?"
Spike shrugged and looked
just a little embarrassed. "I wouldn't even have started reading the
bloody book except that the bloke I got it from was so engrossed by it he
never even twitched until I had his throat out. I figured anything that
absorbing had to be worth a couple of hours. Turned out to be rubbish,
though."
Darla felt the faint,
flickering hope she had been nurturing start to die. She had almost been
prepared to give credence to Drusilla's stories -- but that was all they
were: stories. And not even Drusilla's.
"What was this
book?" she asked tiredly. "Who wrote it?"
"Some talentless
penny-a-liner called Wells. It's called The Time Machine." Spike
scowled. "If I had a time machine, I'd go back and stop him ever
putting pen to paper."
"Is it true?"
Darla asked Drusilla. "Is this all just a story?"
"A story," Drusilla
said happily. "Not THAT story. A different one. But the same. The same
and different too. Spike's story isn't supposed to be true, but it is. My
story's supposed to be true, but it's not." Her face clouded a little.
"Not yet. The pages are changing."
Darla turned around and
started to walk away.
Behind her, Drusilla's voice
softly added, "It's Angelus' story. I came back to change it,
Grandmummy. We have to make my story true."
Darla stopped. She looked
around.
A time machine, she thought.
Then: Drusilla came back. She knows because she came back.
A time machine. It wasn't
possible -- but it would explain so much. It would explain the Angelus with
whom she'd danced at the ball, who had grown so used to the soul the
gypsies had given him that he scorned Darla and lavished his affections on
a human woman. Was that how Angelus' story ended?
But it could still be
changed. Angelus could be restored. And once he was, with command over time
itself -- what power they would wield together!
Trembling with excitement,
Darla looked at Spike. "You know where the gypsy camp is, don't
you?"
He brightened immediately.
"Yeah, I found them. Are we going to do some real killing
tonight?"
"Soon," Darla
said. "Very soon. But there's one more element to put into place
first. Go and find Angelus, Spike. Bring him here."
"Bloody hell!"
Spike exploded. "Make up your mind! We just LEFT Angelus, or have you
forgotten?"
How to explain it without
giving too much away? For a second, Darla was at a loss, until Drusilla
helpfully said, "That wasn't Angelus, silly."
"It bloody felt like
Angelus' fist in my face," Spike said sourly.
"It wasn't," Darla
said. "I spoke to that creature. It wasn't Angelus. It was some --
some wraith or phantom that merely looked like him."
"Well, if that wasn't
Angelus, where is he? And how do you expect ME to find him?"
Losing her patience, Darla
snapped, "With a divining rod, if you have to! You're of his line,
Spike, you can find him. And when you do -- no matter how he behaves, what
he says -- BRING HIM TO ME."
Darla shouted the last words
with such vehemence that Spike actually took a step back. She smiled to
herself, satisfied that she had reasserted her dominance. For now, at
least.
"Don't get your
knickers in a twist, I'm going." Spike leaned down and kissed Drusilla
lightly on the crown of her head. "See you later, love."
"Bye-bye,"
Drusilla said. As Spike left, she lifted her hand and waggled her fingers,
waving after him like a small child. She looked up at Darla and smiled.
"The boys aren't here, and it's just us girls."
"That's right,"
Darla said. "And you can tell me stories to your heart's
content."
"I have a ring,"
Drusilla said, holding up her hand. A golden band glinted on one finger.
"Aren't I a pretty bride? We can go to my cave and see the fire on the
ceiling. The fire's a door. Ding-dong! Avon calling. Doorbells ring. My
ring."
Darla wanted to snatch the
ring from Drusilla to make her concentrate -- but then she thought, could
the ring play a part in this too? What did she mean by a ceiling of fire?
Nothing Drusilla said, however bizarre, could be ruled out.
Hunkering down next to
Drusilla, Darla repeated, "It's just us, and you're going to tell me
everything you know about books and time machines and the future. And,
believe me, this time I am listening to every word."
***
The night was cold, and Fred shivered as she crouched behind a fallen tree
trunk, watching the entrance of the cave where they had seen the three
vampires go in.
Charles looked at her in
concern. "You cold? You want to borrow my turban?" He meant it
sincerely, but there was something so funny about the idea of Charles Gunn
offering to lend her a bright red turban made from strips of curtain to
keep her head warm that Fred couldn't help but giggle. He smiled back at
her. "Seriously. This thing's toasty. Add some earflaps, and you're
talking about quality protection from the elements."
"It's okay. But thanks
anyway." She looked at the cave entrance and became serious again.
"I don't understand this. Why would they come all the way out into the
forest to hide out in a cave?"
"It doesn't make
sense," Charles agreed. "But as long as Darla and the rest of
Angel's vampire relations are hiding in a cave and not doing any
history-changing gypsy killing, I ain't gonna complain."
Fred looked at their
surroundings, suddenly realizing the clearing where the cave entrance was
located wasn't completely unfamiliar. "Yes, except that the portal
that the time machine made -- the one that links 1898 to the future --
isn't far from here."
"No way," Charles
said. "That was, like, miles away. Ten miles or something."
"I keep telling you, it
wasn't nearly that far. I can't tell exactly in the dark, but we're pretty
close." An unpleasant thought struck her. "Charles, do you think
that's why they came here? Maybe Drusilla told Darla about the time
machine."
Charles' face was grim as he
said, "I really hope not. The twenty-first century only just got rid
of Darla; it doesn't need her back again. Besides, Darla knew there was a
time machine around here, she wouldn't be near it -- she'd be in it."
He put his hand on Fred's arm. "Someone's coming out."
They tensed, and watched as
a shadowy figure emerged from the cave entrance. Even in the darkness, it
was possible to tell that the silhouette was distinctly male. "That's
Spike," Fred whispered. "Should we follow him?"
Charles nodded. "Darla
might be sending him to find the gypsies."
They crept forward, treading
as lightly as possible on the soft earth. Following a person unseen was
hard, Fred thought, but following a vampire with heightened senses of
hearing and smell and perfect night vision was a different magnitude of
difficulty again. To be certain of remaining undetected, they'd have to
stay so far behind Spike they'd probably lose him before they knew where he
was going --
"Bloody hell,"
Spike said and turned around.
Fred and Charles ducked
behind a dense bush. Fred held her breath and put her hand over her chest,
as if she could muffle the sound of her heart beating. Spike must have
heard them, or somehow sensed them --
But Spike was looking back
at the cave entrance, not Fred and Charles' hiding place.
"Should just go right
back in there," he said in a low voice. "Tell the stupid bint she
can't order me around." Raising his voice to a simpering falsetto, he
said, "'You're of his line, Spike, you can find him.'" Then, in a
more normal tone: "Even when he's gone it's Angelus this, Angelus
that. You'd think the whole bloody world revolved around him. Well, fine.
If she wants him, she can damn well have him. They can be happy making each
other miserable, and Dru and I can have some fun."
Abruptly, Spike turned and
set off back along the forest track at a brisk pace.
"She's sent him after
Angel," Charles said.
"No..." Fred said
slowly. "I think -- I think Darla's sent Spike after the other Angel,
the one who's just been cursed. And there's only one reason she'd want
him."
Charles looked at her.
"She's gonna do it -- she's gonna make the gypsies lift the curse.
Come on." He started to run -- but in the opposite direction to the
one Spike had taken.
Fred hesitated, confused.
"Aren't we going to follow Spike?"
Charles shook his head.
"If we're going to stop this, we're gonna need supernatural help --
injured or not."
***
Too bad, Cordelia thought
tiredly. I kinda liked that wig.
The image that faced her in
the mirror now was a far cry from the glamour of a few hours ago. Instead
of a crown of long, dark hair, she had her old Golden Shimmer crop,
somewhat flattened by a night of wearing the wig. Instead of the correct,
regal posture she'd had earlier, she was slumped over as far as the corset
would allow. Her puffed sleeves had been mashed down in the melee and now
reminded her vaguely of a collapsed soufflé she'd seen once at a dinner
party. Her gloves were bloodstained and crumpled on the floor. Only her
earrings, still dazzling and bright, had the same glitter.
"You're sure nothing's
broken?" Cordelia could hear the concern in Angel's voice, was aware
of his physical presence next to her, but the mirror only showed one weary,
slightly bruised face, and that was hers. For once, she envied Angel's lack
of a reflection.
But when she turned to look
at him, she saw his condition had already visibly improved in the hour
since they'd stumbled up the hotel stairs to their suite. At first they'd
been able to do no more than collapse (Angel on the floor, Cordelia in a
nearby chair) and try to recover. But Angel's vampiric regeneration kicked
in quickly. He was already moving more comfortably; the blood that soaked
his tuxedo shirt might as well have been shed by someone else.
"All I need is some
sleep," she said tiredly. "I need to get undressed, Angel. And I
can't really do it myself." She half-lifted her injured arm -- wincing
as she did so -- by way of demonstration.
Angel looked completely
flustered for a moment. Before Cordelia could even wonder why -- it wasn't
like he hadn't seen her in her underwear before, for Pete's sake -- he had
collected himself. "I'm sorry," he said. "I should have
thought."
She turned away to give him
better access to the back of her dress. She felt Angel begin unfastening
the buttons that ran along her spine, surprisingly deftly for a man with
such big hands, she thought. Then she half-smiled, realizing Angel had
probably done this many, many times before.
His hands worked their way
down to her painfully constricted waist. "You probably want to get rid
of this corset, too," Angel said. She felt his fingertip catch in the
ribbons that bound it so tightly closed.
"The word 'duh' is so
appropriate, and yet it just doesn't say enough," Cordelia said. When
Angel hesitated, she laughed a little. "That means yes. Take this
evil, evil contraption from hell off my body."
Angel pulled her sleeves
down her arms, going slowly, careful of her injured shoulder. Cordelia
winced, and he hesitated. "I'm not hurting you?"
"A little," she
admitted. "But not as badly as this corset. Keep going."
Angel slipped the dress down
over her hips, and it billowed to the floor, a flash of color at her feet.
Then he began unfastening the corset, loop by loop, and Cordelia felt her
grateful ribs expand outward. She took in a deep breath that filled her lungs
for the first time all night. The rush of oxygen hit her bloodstream, and
the room wavered around her for a moment.
"Cordy?" Cordelia
realized that she'd swayed on her feet; Angel had caught her around the
waist, bracing her against him. She leaned against his chest gratefully; he
seemed like the only still, solid thing in the room. "You're hurt
worse than I thought --"
"No, really, I'm all
right," Cordelia protested. She covered his arm with her own; the
motion sent jabs of pain through her arm, but she forced herself not to
groan. "It was just a whole lotta air all of a sudden. Felt nice. Hey,
I guess I'm one of the natives now -- I swooned."
"I should have thought
to lay in a supply of smelling salts." She could tell Angel was
smiling as he said it. As she'd hoped, he stepped back a little, reassured,
and finished loosening her corset. She thought he would remove it
immediately, but instead he gently took off her earrings and dropped them
on the bedside table, where they glinted in the faint light from the oil
lamp. Then he ran both of his hands through her matted-down hair; it was
surprising how refreshing that felt, to have her hair fluffed back up
again. Finally, he pulled the corset away from her and tossed it aside.
Cordelia would have thrown it very, very hard, but he had the basic idea.
She took a few more deep breaths, relishing her body's relative freedom.
But she could still feel bands of pain where the corset's boning had been.
She looked down in dismay to
see that her camisole was stuck to her skin from sweat and pressure; the
lines of the corset had dug into her flesh the way the seams did on
too-tight jeans, only far more brutally. Carefully, she took the fabric in
her uninjured hand and peeled it away from her sore skin. "Owww. And
ow. Every crappy thing I ever said about feminism? I take it back. Any
movement that got rid of these things is A-OK by me."
"You'll have marks for
a while," Angel said. He paused for a moment, then said, "I can
help a little. Lie down."
Cordelia sat gratefully on
the bed and carefully worked her way into a reclining position. As Angel
moved toward her, she grimaced. "Angel, you have got to take that
off." She gestured at his shirt. "I think we have freaked out the
hotel management enough without getting blood all over the bedspread."
"Oh. Right." He
quickly stripped off the shirt; though she'd seen him without it countless
times, Cordelia realized it had been a while since she'd been called on to
bandage up his wounds, or chatted with him after he got out of the shower.
She smiled a little as he half-turned to toss the ruined shirt on the floor
and let her glimpse the gryphon tattoo for the first time in months. Angel
moved as though he was going to sit beside her, saw her smile, then paused.
"Cordy?"
Feather mattresses were
beautiful things, Cordelia thought. Down pillows. The bed was so soft, so
welcoming. "Yeah, Angel?"
"I've been thinking --
I mean, I was wondering --" He gave her a look that was far harder and
more searching than she'd expected. "You haven't mentioned Groo at
all. This whole time. I was just -- aren't you worried about him?"
Groo. Cordelia remembered
his sweet grin in a flash of memory that was gone as soon as it came. Angel
was right: Not only had she not mentioned Groo, he hadn't even entered her
thoughts. Guilt stabbed at her briefly, but it faded in an instant.
"If you were evil, I never ended up working with you in L.A.,"
she reasoned. "That means I didn't get sucked through to Pylea, so
Grooie and I never even met. In the altered reality, he's in Pylea, being a
champion and loving life. In other words, Groo's the lucky one."
"Yeah," Angel
said, looking down at her. "I guess he is."
Something about the look on
Angel's face made her feel suddenly embarrassed. What would Groo think if
he could see her like this -- undressed on the bed, waiting for Angel --
Well, Groo couldn't see her.
But Cordelia rolled over on her stomach, all the same.
She felt the mattress sink
slightly as Angel sat next to her. He began rubbing her back, his
fingertips massaging the angry lines where the corset had been. It hurt --
but in a good way. Cordelia could feel the indentations along her back
begin to soften as he went. "How's that?" he said.
"Good. Better than
good. Keep going." He did. The muscles of her back, strained from her
injury and the fight, began to relax beneath his touch. "God, that's
terrific. Where did you learn to give such a great massage?"
"You wouldn't believe
me if I told you."
Cordelia smiled into the
pillow. She'd have to beg or bribe that story from him sometime -- sometime
when she didn't need him to keep going as much as she did right now. Then
she reconsidered their situation, and the smile faded from her face.
"I guess we kinda blew it tonight."
"It's not over
yet," Angel said quickly. "They got away from us, yeah. That
doesn't mean we're not going to catch up with them in time."
"But that was our best
shot," Cordelia said slowly. "You said so yourself." Angel's
hands were still for a moment, and she knew he was struggling to find a way
to console her. When he said nothing, she felt fear settle over her, more
overwhelmingly than at any other moment in their journey into the past --
because this was the moment when she finally had to face that they could be
trapped forever. She'd avoided thinking about the worst-case scenario all
this time, but she could avoid it no longer.
Quietly, she whispered,
"You can't stake the past you, Angel. Even if they uncurse him. You
can't."
"I'll have to."
"If you vanish --
Angel, if you die, if you're not in the world for the next 100 years, that
could be as bad as Angelus being around. Maybe worse." It felt worse.
Panic was flooding Cordelia's heart.
Angel, perhaps sensing her
fear, began stroking her back again. "Shh. Cordelia, that won't
happen. If I have to stake Angelus -- well, we know from Drusilla's example
that I won't just vanish --"
"Unless you try to come
back with us," Cordelia said. Then she glanced over her shoulder.
"You mean -- you wouldn't come back with us?"
Angel shook his head, some
of his old tiredness back in his face again. "I know what I did the
past 104 years. What I didn't do. If the only way for me to protect the
world is to do it all over again, then -- I guess I'll have to do it."
"All of it? Just repeat
the last century?" Cordelia's mind was whirling at the very thought.
"It might not be that
bad," Angel said, entirely unconvincingly. "Lots of great things
in the 20th century. Jazz, and V-E Day, and, uh -- Jack Nicklaus' last Masters."
Cordelia sighed out heavily.
"I can see right through you. Angel, you do NOT want to go through all
that again. The Dust Bowl and Vietnam and, and -- " She half-turned
onto her side, ignoring the cramp in her shoulder. "Angel, would you
go find Buffy like you did the first time?"
"Of course," Angel
said. "That would be part of making everything come out right again. A
pretty big part." He gently guided her to where she was lying flat on
her stomach again, then went back to work on her aching muscles. His
strokes were strong, almost painful as they bore down upon her back, and
yet her body went warm and liquid as he touched her.
She whispered, "Would
you fall in love with Buffy again?"
Angel was quiet for a
moment. He finally said only, "I don't know. I couldn't know. A
hundred years from now -- it's a long time." Then he patted her back,
almost playfully, and with forced cheer said, "Do you think you're
going to avoid working for me in L.A.? You're not getting out of it that
easily. I won't let you."
Cordelia smiled, snuggling
down into the soft pillows and mattress. She could see Angel's silhouette
on the far wall; the warm, golden light of the oil lamp traced around the
shadow of his body, as well as hers, stretched on the bed beneath him. His
chin was low, his eyes perhaps focusing on the small of her back. For some
reason it was interesting, watching him watch her.
"Of course," she
murmured, "we might have completely botched things up, and then we'd
have to stay here with you." The prospect should have terrified her;
it did quicken her heartbeat, make her fingers curl along the edge of the
coverlet. But what she felt wasn't really terror at all. "Maybe we'll
all be together."
"I want you guys to be
able to go back," Angel said. "But -- Cordy -- I'd miss you. A
lot."
"Of course you'd miss
us," Cordelia said. "I'm just saying, you might not have to. We
might be stuck here together." It was too much to be scary. She
couldn't do anything but smile. "What kind of a suffragette do you
think I'd make?"
Angel paused, but then she
heard him laugh a little. "I think women might get the vote a lot
sooner."
Cordelia made up her mind,
with the firm resolution best brought about by fear, that being stuck in
the past with Angel wouldn't be like being stuck at all. These corsets
wouldn't be in style too much longer, and at least she'd have her friends
with her. The mission -- well, there'd still be plenty of vampires and
demons around to be stopped, right?
She relaxed further, letting
go of the last vestiges of worry. The massage was definitely helping with
that. God, Angel had great hands.
Then she remembered those
same hands clasping Darla's as they'd circled one another on the dance
floor.
"Angel?" she said.
"Seeing Darla -- that must have been freaksome."
"In some ways," he
answered. He continued working on her back, smoothing away the pain.
"She's changed for me, because of Connor."
"She hasn't really
changed," Cordelia warned. "You can't think of her as Lady
Madonna. I did, and remember where it got me?"
"I understand that very
well," Angel said, in a tone of voice that suggested he understood it
a lot better than Cordelia did herself.
"It's not that I don't
trust you to do what you have to do," Cordelia said. "I trust you
more than anybody, Angel. But I don't want to see you get hurt any more.
You've been hurt enough."
Angel was silent for a
moment, and his hands stilled on her back. Cordelia wished she weren't on
her stomach, so she could see his face; was he upset? Was he angry? Was he
doing his stoic non-emotional thing?
Then he started laughing --
very softly, but laughing all the same. "Cordelia, you have to
stop."
"Stop?" She turned
her head so that she could see him; he was still sitting beside her, his
hands on her back, a half-smile on his face. "Stop what?"
"Stop trying to take
care of me all the time," Angel said. "You were just attacked by
Spike and Darla, you hurt your arm badly, and the corset alone almost
finished you off. And you're still worrying about me." He brought one
hand up to her injured shoulder. "Speaking of which, let me look at
this." He brushed the strap of her camisole down from her shoulder,
baring some of her back to his cool fingertips.
Stop trying to take care of
Angel? Cordelia wasn't sure how to take that at all, so she just lay there
in silence, obeying Angel's requests for her to wiggle her fingers, make a
fist, shrug, and so on. Finally, he said, "You were right earlier --
nothing's broken. You've probably got a sprain, but no worse."
"Okay," Cordelia
said, still unable to think of what to say. Angel resumed his ministrations
to her back, his touch cool through the thin cotton of her camisole, and
they were quiet together until she blurted out, "Why don't you want me
to take care of you?"
"Cordy -- no. It's not
that. Roll over."
"Huh?"
"Your stomach's got to
be hurting too, right?" Angel helped her roll over onto her back. As
his hands began massaging her belly, he said, "I'm glad I have you to
take care of me. I need you."
"So true,"
Cordelia said. "Glad we're clear on that. But then why do you want me
to stop?"
"I don't want you to
stop. Not ever," Angel said. He was watching her in the faint light,
his look softer, more open than she was used to seeing from him. She'd seen
it before, but so rarely. Too rarely. She liked it. "But you don't
have to do it all the time. I can take care of myself occasionally. And
sometimes you need me to take care of you."
"Not hardly,"
Cordelia protested, then realized that she was splayed out in bed, letting
Angel massage her skin back into inhabitability. "Well, okay, when I'm
being attacked by vampires, you do kinda come in handy."
"Thanks," Angel
said dryly. His palm brushed along the side of her waist. "But -- I
don't just want to take turns between being your bodyguard and your therapy
case. You're there for me a lot, Cordelia. I just want you to know I'm here
for you too. You can let me take care of you, sometimes."
"Like now,"
Cordelia said. His hands felt so good, and she felt herself relaxing still
more. She smiled. "I think I like you taking care of me. You know
what? Being stuck in the past might not be so bad. I bet you know all the
places to be and not to be. All the best stuff to do. We'll travel all over
the place, and you can show me the sights. We'll have adventures. Have some
fun for a change. You'll have to act like my husband, okay? I'm not having
anybody write me off as a 21-year-old spinster."
Angel's voice was slightly
uneven as he replied, "Your husband. Okay. I -- okay."
"What?" she said,
trying to make light of the sudden dismay on his face. "Are you
embarrassed to be seen with me?"
"Never." His hands
stilled on her belly, and she thought he would pull away. Instead, he
slowly took one of her hands in his own. "I like taking care of
you," he said quietly.
The intimacy of the moment
struck her in a flash, and Cordelia awkwardly felt as though she ought to
pull her hand away, or make a joke, or something. Something that would make
it clear that this was just their same old thing, hugging and joking and
talking and thinking nothing of it, Angel and Cordy, best friends 'til the
end. Not make it clear to Angel, because he knew that, and not clear to
her, because she knew that, but it seemed like it ought to be clear all the
same.
Instead, she felt her
fingers closing around his, as if of their own volition. Angel glanced down
at their clasped hands for a moment, then looked down into her eyes.
"Cordy?" he whispered.
"CORDY!" Gunn's
voice rang out from the corridor. Cordelia and Angel both jumped, startled.
"ANGEL!" Gunn was definitely running toward their door. Angel
squeezed her hand quickly, then got up from the bed just as the door was
flung open.
Gunn's turban was slightly
askew. "We got serious trouble going down. Can you guys move?"
"I'm fine," Angel
said. "Cordy?"
Cordelia sat up. Somehow,
she felt a lot more undressed in front of Gunn than she had in front of
Angel; she pulled one of the coverlets over her. "I can if I have
to," she said. "Don't ask me to turn any cartwheels. What's going
on? Where's Fred?"
"Fred is downstairs
stealing us a horse and carriage," Gunn said, shaking his head in
something that was both dismay and admiration. "That girl woulda done
okay in my old gang. We gotta hope she gets away with it, because we have
to get back out into the woods, and fast. Darla's sent Spike out to look
for you, Angel -- not YOU you, but the old you. We figure she's going after
the gypsies tonight."
Cordelia's heartbeat
quickened, and the pain in her shoulder seemed to dim.
Angel began to go toward the
next room where his clothes were, but stopped on the way to search through
the trunk where they'd hidden their small cache of weapons. He pulled out a
couple of hurriedly made stakes and a dagger Cordelia had lifted in the
museum in Rome and somehow not lost in the race to get back to the time
machine when that future self-destructed. Handing her the knife, Angel
asked, "Cordy, can you get dressed?"
"I can put on my jeans
and sweater," she replied. "It doesn't matter what I look like
now. Either we're about to get back to the future or blow the past to
smithereens."
Gunn growled, "Just
HURRY."
***
"The future is made of
boxes," Drusilla said. "So many boxes! They live in boxes stacked
on top of one another, and sit in boxes that float on roads like rivers.
And there are boxes for pictures and boxes that make music, and little
boxes that hold a thousand voices and make a sound like --" She closed
her eyes in concentration and made a noise that sounded, to Darla, very
much like a frog being tortured: "Brrrp! Brrrp!"
"Very nice,
Drusilla," Darla said impatiently. "Now tell me more about this
time machine. What exactly does the ring do? Can you show me if we go
there?"
"I'll take you to it,
if you're a good Grandmummy and wait," Drusilla said, sternly wagging
her finger. Was it her imagination, Darla wondered, or was Drusilla
enjoying this sudden shift in the balance of power between them?
"You're going to love it in the future. So many wonderful things!
Arbeit macht frei, Agent Orange, final solution, ethnic cleansing, and best
of all, they say the world will get hotter and hotter until we all
melt," she finished with an air of authority.
"The end of the
world," Darla said. How lovely, to boil away the mortal flesh of this
world and leave only the blanched bones. She felt herself beginning to
believe in Drusilla's dream-visions -- more than believe. She already knew
they were true, but she was beginning to long to see them for herself. To
take Angelus to them.
"And oh! Another
secret, one that sparkles and bubbles and shines on every street."
Drusilla leaned forward very close, so that their noses were almost
touching, and whispered, "Coke is it."
"Hey! Anyone want to
give me some help, here?"
Darla and Drusilla both
looked around; Spike was standing at the cave entrance, supporting with
difficulty some filthy, half-dead wretch. Darla felt a flash of anger: How
dare he disobey her when she had told him to find Angelus and not to return
without him --
The figure Spike was
supporting raised its head, and looked at Darla through rat-tails of
unkempt hair. It was Angelus. Spike had brought him, just as she had asked.
The night she had driven him
from the villa, Darla had thought it wasn't possible for him to look more
pathetic, more repulsive than he had as he had wept before her. Now she
knew she'd been wrong -- he still looked just as pathetic, but now his
clothes were filthy and torn, his face muddied, his hair matted. He must have
been sleeping in ditches, she thought with disgust. And he was weak,
leaning on Spike for support; he clearly hadn't fed since she'd thrown him
out. He couldn't bring himself to kill, Darla realized, and felt renewed
revulsion.
"Darla," Angelus
said. His voice was hoarse, barely a whisper, but the note of entreaty in
it was unmistakable. "Darla."
Darla said nothing. She
didn't move.
"Found him cowering
under a hedgerow. The devil only knows what's wrong with him," Spike
said. His face twisted into something that was half-grin, half sneer of
contempt. "He certainly smells like hell. You wanted him, so here he
is." And with that, he roughly shoved Angelus toward her.
Darla stood, rooted to the
spot, as Angelus stumbled toward her. His arms were held out to her, his
gaze fixed on her. He didn't seem to be aware of Spike and Drusilla at all.
In a voice so low only Darla
could hear her, Drusilla said, "Here he is, neither fish nor fowl. But
foul! He could be one or both or something else again. Choose a door, Grandmummy,
and take him through it."
Exhausted, Angelus sank to
his knees in front of Darla, his arms still outstretched. "Darla.
Darla, please. Please..."
He was begging her to help
him, she thought with distaste.
And then: He was begging
her. He needed her.
Darla remembered the Angelus
she'd danced with earlier that night, the one whose attention had wandered
from her and to the human woman in the orange dress. The one who'd walked
away from Darla without looking back. Suddenly, in spite of his filth and
degradation, there was something desirable about the man on his knees in
front of her.
Darla sank slowly to the
ground and, controlling her distaste, opened her arms. Angelus all but fell
into her embrace, clinging to her like a frightened child seeking its
mother. Which in a way, Darla thought, he was.
"Forgive me," he
mumbled. "Forgive me, help me, please, I'm sorry, help me --"
Spike was right: Angelus did
smell. Darla wrinkled her nose, but otherwise concealed her repugnance.
After all, what must the Master have made of her when he found her? She'd
been only a frail, enfeebled mortal, rotting from within. Sometimes
greatness began with humble materials. And Angelus already had greatness
within him; it was just shackled by his curse in chains she had the power
to cast aside. She lifted one hand and gently caressed his hair, brushing
it out of his eyes. "There, my sweet boy. Everything will be well
again, soon. Soon you'll be restored to us."
Angelus looked up at her,
his face feverish with gratitude. "You'll make this --stop? Make it go
away?"
"I will, my love."
"Thank you,"
Angelus whispered. "Thank you, thank you, thank you..." He
continued to mumble barely-coherent words of thanks as Darla rocked him,
childlike, against her breast.
In the century and a half
Darla had known Angelus, she had been in turns his teacher, his lover and
-- as reluctant as she was to admit it -- sometimes his slave. Now, for the
first time, she was his savior, and Darla found she was enjoying the role
not simply because it was novel.
Drusilla clapped her hands
together joyously. "See, we're a family again, all hugs and
smiles!"
"Pardon me while I
retch," Spike said.
***
The vampires were near, and the force of their proximity was almost
overwhelming.
Angel closed his eyes,
attempting to concentrate. Four vampires, so close, so familiar. Spike's
energy was sharp and swift, a red-hot dart whirring through his
consciousness. Drusilla's was diaphanous and unformed, a veil that clouded
his thoughts. Most familiar of all was Darla's -- cold and hard and
beautiful, cast-iron scrollwork that formed a cage.
And then the fourth -- alien
and familiar at once, himself and yet not himself. Angel felt as though he
ought to be able to read his former self better than any of the others, but
the reverse was true; all he could sense was distant pain.
"Angel, this would be a
bad time for a fugue state," Cordelia said.
"When would a good time
be?" Fred said reasonably. She was unharnessing the horse from its
carriage, so that it could run back to its stable and master. One way or
another, they wouldn't need it again.
"I'm fine," Angel
said. He peered through the night, hoping his other self would mask his
proximity from the other vampires. "They're headed deeper into the
forest. Come on."
"Not trying to be
negative here," Gunn said as they began making their way through the
forest, "but what exactly are we supposed to do when we catch up with
them? We weren't doing so hot against just the first three back at the
ballroom, and with one more -- that one being you -- it's gonna be
tough."
They were so loud. So loud.
Fred's footstep shattered a twig. Gunn's sleeve caught against the branches
of a bush, sending rustling echoes throughout the woods. Cordelia stumbled
on a tree foot, and it seemed as though the sound of it thundered. Angel
knew his senses were at their most acute, ready for battle, but there was
every chance the other vampires' were as well.
"Be quiet," he
murmured. "We stop them however we can. But --" This was too
important not to say out loud. "Nobody kills Darla. No matter
what."
"Angel," Cordelia
said. Her face was pale in the night, her voice low enough that even he
wouldn't object. "If it comes down to it --"
"It won't," he
whispered back. "I won't let it."
"I recognize this
tree," Fred said. She stopped in her tracks. "Angel -- this is
near the cave with the portal back to the time machine. Really near."
Cordelia's eyes went wide.
"Please, for the love of God, tell me that the vampires aren't headed
toward the time machine."
"I love God just
fine," Fred said. "But that's where they're headed. Do you think
Drusilla might have -- could have --"
"She's told them,"
Angel said. He had thought it impossible to be more desperate, but he had
been wrong. He began running after the vampires, not caring about the
noise. The others were right behind him, their weapons at the ready. As
they made their way up a slight hill -- not far from the cave at all, Angel
realized -- he was convinced that they'd finally reached the most desperate
moment of this entire journey.
Then they got to the top of
the hill, and he saw the torches.
"What the hell?"
Gunn said. They were all frozen in place, staring at the lights coming
toward them in the distant forest. Perhaps eight or nine torches -- the
sound of footsteps so much louder now -- more than a dozen people -- Angel
squinted, using his night vision to see just who was approaching.
"It's the
gypsies," he said.
"I thought Darla was
going after them!" Cordelia protested. "Since when do they come
after Darla?"
"Since now," Fred
said. "When we changed the time stream, let them know what happened --
they could have figured out more than they knew the first time around. So
maybe they're attacking Darla before she can get to them."
The truth settled around
him, heavy and dark. "That's one possibility," Angel said, though
he couldn't bring himself to believe it was true. "But that's not
necessarily what they're doing."
"What, you think
they're out for a midnight stroll?" Gunn said.
"They might not be
after Darla," Angel repeated. "They might be after us."
********************
Chapter Six
********************
"I thought you said -- this plan made -- sense," Charles gasped.
"It does," Fred
panted, hazarding a glance over her shoulder. What she saw wasn't
reassuring -- the mob of angry gypsies was barely twenty yards behind them,
their torches bobbing up and down as they chased Fred and Charles through
the dark forest.
"Oh yeah?" Charles
wheezed. He was using one hand to try to keep his turban on, with only
limited success. It was beginning to unwind at the top. "Leaping out
-- in front of the gypsies -- who want to kill us -- makes sense?"
"Sure," Fred said.
Her chest was tight with the effort of taking in enough air to run and
speak at the same time. "We make them chase us -- lead them right to
Darla -- then the gypsies and vampires -- will fight each other."
"And this helps --
how?"
"Darla won't kill the
gypsies -- 'cause Drusilla will have told her -- that's why Angel's curse
wasn't lifted -- the first time."
Something which might have
been an arrow whizzed so close to the side of Fred's head that she felt a
cold breeze in her ear. She grabbed Charles' hand, and they started to
weave and zig-zag between the trees, heading all the time back in the
direction of the caves.
"So," Charles
gasped, "Darla's tryin' not to kill the gypsies -- we're tryin' not to
kill Darla -- so tell me -- who are the gypsies tryin' not to kill?"
Fred didn't answer, just
kept running.
"I think I just found
the flaw in your thinking," Charles said. "Go faster. Next time
-- I come up -- with the plans."
***
Noises in the forest.
Voices, feet pounding -- a mob, not even trying to conceal their approach.
The vampires all lifted their
heads, turning as one toward the as-yet-unseen danger. Spike rubbed his
hands together, his eyes glittering yellow and predatory in the darkness.
"Looks like we're going to see some action after all."
"No, no," Drusilla
moaned. She had raised her hands to her head and was dragging her fingers
through her hair, ruining the carefully pinned and curled style. "This
is wrong, all wrong. They're not supposed to be here!"
Next to her, Angelus
shuddered. He could barely stand up, never mind fight.
"Get in the cave,"
Darla ordered. She pushed Angelus toward Spike. "Take him."
"I'm not missing out on
a perfectly good riot to nurse Angelus' hangover," Spike said.
"Angel," Drusilla
whispered. "Angel..."
"I TOLD you not to call
him that!" Darla exploded.
"Actually,"
Angelus' voice said calmly, "I prefer it."
But Angelus had not spoken.
Darla spun around. Angelus
-- the other Angelus, the one Drusilla insisted on calling Angel -- was
standing behind her. Darla masked her fury with a smile. "I'm so
pleased you could join us," she said. There was a woman with him, and
it took Darla a second to place her; she looked very different without the
wig and orange gown she'd been wearing at the ball. She, like Angel, wore
strange clothing -- the woman looked brazen, even to Darla's jaded eyes, in
trousers. "And you've brought your little whore, too. How nice."
"I'd think someone with
your personal history would be a little less free with words like
that," the girl said coolly. "My name is Cordelia, by the way. My
friends call me Cordy but, hey, how about you don't."
Spike's mouth was hanging
open. He looked at the Angelus who had slumped against a tree, blank-faced
and trembling, and then at the Angelus standing in front of Darla.
"That's no phantom. He's real. Damnation, would someone PLEASE just
EXPLAIN to me what in HELL is going on here? Because NONE of this makes any
SENSE to me!"
Drusilla patted him on the
arm comfortingly. "Don't be vexed. You'll get used to it, just like
me."
"Cordelia. Now I know
what to tell them to put on your gravestone." Ignoring the girl, Darla
directed her full attention to Angelus. He was standing only a few paces
away from his other self, yet in every other sense they were worlds apart.
"You had to follow me, didn't you? See, the flame still burns in
you."
"Don't flatter
yourself," Cordelia scoffed, but when Darla looked into the eyes of
the other Angelus she saw a flicker of something that told her she wasn't
so far from the truth.
"They're coming
closer," Drusilla said. Her eyes were going golden now too, with the
nearness of human rage and blood. "Very close now, Grandmummy. The
gypsies didn't wait for us to find them. Everyone is spoiling the story
now, and someone must pay. I want MY story, and I will write it in blood.
The blood's beating closer now. Thump thump."
"We might want to
concentrate on the rapidly approaching angry mob," Spike said.
"Could be trouble. More trouble than these two, anyway -- the
astonishingly unwanted extra Angelus and the girl with the bad dye
job."
Cordelia scowled at him.
"Irony is so gonna bite you in the ass on that one." But Darla
noted that she, too, was glancing over her shoulder at the gypsies.
"Spike, Dru." She
flicked her fingers toward the sound of the din. "See to the gypsies.
Under no circumstances are you to kill them. Maim all you like."
"I haven't maimed in an
age," Spike said, grinning in anticipation. He and Drusilla ran off
into the night.
"Cordelia," Angel
said. "Get him away from the gypsies. Keep him out of this if you
can."
It took Darla a moment to
realize what he meant. When she saw Cordelia moving toward Angelus --
wasn't one enough for this scavenging little wench? -- she wanted to
scream. But the gypsies were coming ever closer, and all her hot words
about preferring to see Angelus as dust had gone cold for her now.
"Angelus?" she
said quietly. "Go with her into the cave. I'll come for you
later."
"I don't want to leave
you," Angelus said. He would not look away from Darla's face, and she
had never found his gaze so welcome.
"You are some
pathetic," Cordelia said. "But you're gonna be some pathetic for
the next hundred years or so. I'm going to see to it." She grabbed
Angelus' arm and began pulling him toward the cave, away from Darla. For
one beautiful instant, Darla saw a flicker of her darling boy's old fury in
his eyes -- but then it was gone, lost in the sickening mire of guilt and
horror. He stumbled into the cave with Cordelia. At least he would still
obey.
A few feet away, a crash in
the underbrush was swiftly followed by screams and yells. The gypsies --
and, from the sound of it, some of Angel's human pets, too -- had found
Spike and Drusilla. Darla and Angel looked toward the clamor; she could
glimpse torchlight wavering through the branches, the too-quick silhouette of
an upraised hand slashing downward. By the time she turned away, Angel was
staring at her once more. They regarded each other for another moment of
silence.
Finally he said, "It's
my turn to ask you to dance."
Darla curtseyed. "Very
well," she said. "Let's dance."
***
Branches swished as Drusilla ran through them, little lashes in the night.
A forest of whips, how lovely. If only she could enjoy them.
The horrid gypsies were
running at them, shouting, and it would be so sweet to snuff them out, wet
fingertips to the flame. But that was not the end of the story.
"Look out!"
shouted a voice in English. It was the man with no hair, ducking to one
side, dragging the girl with long hair with him. The two of them liked
Angel as he was. As they saw Drusilla and Spike, their eyes went even
wider.
"Bloody hell, not this
one again," Spike groaned as he saw the girl. "And who's the
freak in the turban?"
"Oh, they're not
gypsies," Drusilla said happily. "You can kill THEM."
Spike grinned. "About
time something went my way tonight."
The man with no hair got
between the girl and Spike. "See, this is another flaw in the
plan," he muttered. "Two flaws and counting."
Then the gypsies burst
through the undergrowth. Everyone stared at everyone else for a long
moment. Too much thinking, Drusilla decided. Not enough bleeding.
Drusilla shrieked -- one
long, high, wavering note, as much singing as screaming. All their minds
went silver-white. She sought one fear that would hold them all, held it in
her mind's eye, put it in their minds as well.
Through their eyes she saw
the forest burst into flame.
The gypsies started to
scream as they ducked and cowered. Unearthly orange light appeared to
flicker through the trees, to drop like tears onto leaves that sent up
sparks. The girl with long hair beat at her trousers; the man with no hair
tried to help her. The gypsies were running in all directions, confused and
unnerved. Spike shrank back too, but she took his hand in hers and quickly
squeezed it twice -- their old signal for her best tricks and games.
"It's not real?"
he whispered. When she shook her head and smiled, Spike began to laugh and
laugh. "Oh, brilliant. Bloody brilliant. My perfect, vicious
dove."
Her Spike, with her again.
Her Spike, as romantic and deadly as ever.
"I shall see to the
gypsies," she said primly. It was just like playing Wendy Houses.
"You can kill the others."
***
"You think I don't know what you're up to?" Cordelia said.
Angelus looked up at her,
bewildered, from the cave floor where he'd slumped in apparent exhaustion.
She sighed. "Not YOU you. The other you. Angel. I know what you're --
what he's up to. 'Get him away from the gypsies.' He just wants me out of
the battle. He's trained with me, like, ninety zillion times, and he still
doesn't trust me in a fight. So, tell me, have you always been this
absurdly overprotective?"
She shrugged as she said it,
and the lancing pain in her shoulder reminded her that Angel might have had
other, slightly-less-annoying reasons for getting her out of the fray.
Angelus didn't answer; instead, he just lapsed back into his mute staring
at the ground.
Cordelia was disappointed to
feel her annoyance at Angel fading; it had been, by far, the easiest thing
to think about. It was a lot less frightening than the prospect of Angel
getting all sentimental about the ex-lover who was probably happy to kill
him, now that she had a spare. It was a lot less uncertain than wondering
what was happening to Fred and Gunn, caught between murderous gypsies and
semi-murderous vampires. And it was far, far less painful than really
looking at Angelus -- the Angel who had been.
This is Angel, she told
herself. My Angel. It's easier to call him Angelus, but even if he hasn't changed
the name yet, the rest is the same. He has his soul. He can love.
"Do you really want to
be with Darla?" she asked him quietly.
Angelus didn't look at her,
but after a few moments, he said, "She's my only hope."
"Hope? Hope of what?
Being what you were before?"
He grimaced in such
wrenching pain that Cordelia's first thought was that he was injured
somehow, bleeding from a wound she hadn't seen. But he only said, "I
don't want -- I can't -- but --" Angelus gripped his hair, pulling so
hard Cordelia thought he might actually rip out hunks of it by the roots.
"I want the pain to stop. I want it all to end. Darla can end
it."
"By yanking out your
soul like a bad tooth." Cordelia wanted to smack him. "News
flash, buddy. If you do that, the pain doesn't stop. It just stops for you,
and you throw it off on other people. The people who survive the ones
you'll go on to kill." She suddenly remembered Giles' face as Jenny
Calendar's casket was lowered into its grave. Cordelia hadn't allowed herself
to remember that in years.
"Oh, God," Angelus
said. He let himself fall back onto the stone wall of the cave.
"You're right. You're right. It never ends. No matter what."
Tears were in his eyes. Seeing him cry wasn't easier the second time.
Cordelia was startled at
first -- she'd jibed at Angel a thousand times, in jest and in earnest,
gently and brutally and every way in between. She knew his reactions in
every shade and shape, could envision the looks that accompanied them all.
Then she realized those reactions belonged to a century in the future; the
man who wept before her now was still too raw, too anguished, for any blow
to be less than devastating.
Stung by an entirely
unfamiliar feeling of contrition, Cordelia knelt by his side. "I'm
sorry. Okay? I didn't mean -- no, I meant it. But you should know it's not
always going to be like this."
"No," Angelus
said. "It's going to end."
His hand closed over hers,
and she thought for one strange, confusing moment that he was making a pass
at her. Then she realized that his fingers were wrapped around her stake.
"I won't be what I was
before, and I can't be what I am now," Angelus said. "Soon I
won't be at all."
***
"So this is your end," Darla said. "My majestic creature,
reduced to this. Reduced to you."
Angel had considerable
practice in ignoring Darla's taunts. He circled her silently in the night,
focusing only on the nearby cries of the gypsies. And -- that sounded like
Fred, in trouble --
Darla saw his hesitation,
misinterpreted it and smiled. "You hate it, don't you?" she
crooned. "Being so much less than you can be. What's become of you
now? A quiet, mild-mannered sort of fellow, I'd expect. The sort of man
humans might easily make a pet of, who tells himself he's happy with his
obedient human lover."
Cordelia, obedient. Angel
couldn't help it: He laughed.
"And you're so secure
in your snug little existence that you can mock me," Darla said. Her
dark lips twisted in a scowl that he knew was a poor mask for pain. He had
hurt Darla thousands of times -- deliberately and accidentally, at her
request and against her will and without even thinking about it. She'd done
the same to him. It had never mattered much, one way or the other. Their
spirits remained as unnaturally unscarred as their bodies.
But this was different. It
hurt him now, to see that he had hurt her. Darla's pain had become real to
him. Connor had made her real in a way he'd never known -- in a way she'd
never known, until the very end.
"I'm not mocking
you," he said quietly. "But you don't understand the future I
know, Darla. You don't understand the man I've become."
"I will understand
it," Darla said. She held up her hand. Cordy's hologram bracelet was
still looped around her wrist, but his eyes were drawn away from it. To
Angel's horror, the gold ring from the time machine glittered on one
finger. "The one piece of jewelry you never gave me, my dearest -- a
wedding ring. I had to find my own. Do you like it?"
"Darla," Angel
said, not expecting her to listen, "If you understand what that does
--"
"I do." He didn't
doubt her.
"-- then you have to
understand that you're not going to get to the future Drusilla knows. By
leaving this time and taking me with you, you'll destroy that,
forever."
"What do I care for
your future?" Darla said. "I might not even go forward. I might
go back -- teach you La Volta for real this time. Or farther, perhaps. You
could learn about art from the Borgias, dip your fingers into those paints
you're always trying to get me to admire. I can study the craft of poisons
from the Claudians. Perhaps you and I will sail down the Nile on a barge,
listening to Cleopatra tell us tales of the City of the Dead. We'll drink
from the alabaster jars that they think hold immortality, and we'll tell
them if it's true." Her voice changed from a dreamy softness to
something far harder. "Or perhaps I'll drag you farther ahead.
Centuries. Millennia. Who knows what we'll find then? It doesn't much
matter. Wherever we go, we'll find blood, and you'll drink it with me, at
my side."
"It's never going to
happen," he said. Angel had no intention of staking Darla, but she
didn't know that, and he didn't mean to let her guess. "I'm going to
stop you."
Darla laughed. "As
though you could." She slashed toward him, so fast he barely dodged it
in time.
Two of the gypsies stumbled
out of the forest, and both Angel and Darla tensed, preparing to defend
themselves, and each other, from the intruders. But the gypsies were
screaming, yelling, swatting at their clothes as though -- as though they
were on fire. One of Drusilla's group hallucinations, then. Angel hoped the
cry he'd heard from Fred was based on no more than fear of a vision.
But Spike and Dru were in
those woods too --
Darla's fist slammed into
his jaw, sending him spiraling off-balance. Even as she lunged toward him,
he righted himself, blocked her blow and shoved her back into the dust. She
scrambled to her feet, laughing bitterly as she pushed her blonde curls
from her eyes.
Behind them, the gypsies,
still in the grips of their delusion, began to stumble into the cave.
Cordelia would have to handle them, injured arm or not.
"So this is all you
want for me now," Darla said. "To end like this. Dust to
dust."
"Your end is a finer
thing than you know," Angel said.
***
"Hang on!" Charles shouted through the din. "I'm getting you
out of here!"
Fred knew very well that
Charles could no more see a way out of this conflagration than she could.
He was only trying to comfort her in what were undoubtedly going to be
their last moments of life.
Every tree was on fire,
every branch, almost every leaf on the ground. The flames were orange and
red, white and yellow, even blue. In a daze, Fred thought: so many different
temperatures. She'd spent too much of her life with Bunsen burners not to
know the various meanings of a flame's color. And it had caught fire so
fast -- could Drusilla have used an accelerant? But what? And why lay a
trap with something that could kill vampires too?
Before her stunned confusion
could shift into anything that approximated thought, a figure appeared
through the smoke and fire, apparently untroubled by the inferno.
"Well, well,"
Spike said. "What have we here? Not gypsies. Guess that means I can
kill you." He smiled nastily. "Who wants to go first?"
***
Cordelia's first instinct, when Angelus grabbed the stake from her, was to
grab it right back before he could do something stupid like plunge it into
his heart. But his fist was closed, vise-tight, and Cordelia remembered a
second too late that a even a weak, disoriented vampire was still far
stronger than a human. Especially an injured human, she thought ruefully,
as a bolt of pain shot down the length of her arm. For a second, she panicked
-- then she had an idea.
He'd taken the stake, but
she still had her knife.
Using her uninjured arm,
Cordelia reached to her belt. The dagger's hilt slipped easily into her
hand, and she quickly looped her arm through Angelus'. Now they were crouching
face to face on the cave floor, Angelus holding the stake to his chest,
Cordelia holding the knife's point against hers.
"If you're gonna kill
yourself," Cordelia said, "then I might as well die too."
Angelus stared at her in
sheer incomprehension, probably trying to decide if her threat was serious.
"Why?" he asked finally. "You don't -- you can't know how it
feels. What it means."
There were dark circles
under his eyes, cuts on his face where horror had made him use his own
nails to tear and scratch at himself. "No," she said. "I
don't guess I can."
"You would let me do
it, if you knew," Angelus said. "You would not sentence me to
this despair."
"But that's just what
you'd sentence me to. Don't you see? If you die here, in this cave, then
you take the future -- MY future, the one that has you in it -- away
forever. Everything I care about won't just be destroyed, it'll never even
happen. You're not the only one losing your whole world." Cordelia
looked him in the eye, and tightened her grip on the handle of her dagger.
"I've got plenty reason to despair. So, whaddya say? C'mon. I'm ready
when you are."
Angelus' hand tightened
around the stake, and for one sickening, gut-wrenching moment, Cordelia
thought he was going to do it anyway. Then his grip slackened fractionally
and he lowered his head. "Let go. Let go and let me end this."
"No."
"Please," Angelus
said. It sounded more like a moan of pain than a word. "I can't do it
if --"
Cordelia waited for him to
finish the sentence, then realized he probably didn't have words for what
he was feeling, so she said it for him. "You can't do it because you
know it'll hurt someone else."
"I can't," Angelus
whispered. She couldn't tell if he was agreeing with her or just repeating
himself.
"Listen to me,"
Cordelia said. "You've already had lesson number one of soul-having:
It makes you hurt for every bad thing you ever did. This is lesson number
two: Having a soul means caring about other people. And that's not a
curse." Softening her voice, she went on, "I know you don't get
this now. You're not gonna get it for a long time. But one day you're going
to be with people you care about. People who care about you. And then
you'll understand."
Slowly, he raised his head
again and met her gaze. "You don't know what I am."
"No," Cordelia
said steadily, "but I know what you're going to be."
Angelus looked at her for a
long time. Then he slowly relaxed his grip on the stake, and Cordelia let
out a long, shaky breath. She took the stake from him and put it out of his
reach. "Okay. That's good. Now we're gonna stay right here in this
nice, safe cave, out of the way of the fight until --"
There was a crashing noise
behind her, and Cordelia jerked her head around just as two gypsies
stumbled into the cave.
"-- Until the fight
comes to us," she finished, leaping to her feet and placing herself
between the gypsies and Angelus.
The gypsies didn't see Cordelia and Angelus immediately -- they were
occupied with beating their clothes as if trying to smother a fire, which
was weird because Cordelia couldn't see any flames. No time to wonder about
that now. The gypsies were incapacitated, and there were only two of them.
With those factors in her favor, she was sure she could hold them off.
Then one of the gypsies stopped beating his clothes and shook his head as
if to clear it. He looked at Cordelia and nudged his companion. Then he
shouted something in Romanii to the mob outside the cave. Within seconds
more gypsies were running through the cave entrance. Four -- seven -- when
the odds got too desperate, Cordelia stopped counting.
Through the entrance of the
cave, she could see movement outside. All over the forest clearing, people
were jostling about, but in the darkness and confusion it was impossible to
tell if Angel was one of them. If she could get a better vantage point,
maybe she'd be able to see him, attract his attention --
She shouted his name, but
the din of the battle outside almost drowned out her voice completely.
"Angel!" she yelled again.
The gypsies were advancing
on her and Angelus now. Cordelia briefly considered grabbing Angelus and
making a break for the cave entrance, then rejected that idea as foolhardy.
They'd never make it out.
If only she could see Angel
-- get somewhere he could see her --
She looked down at the
gypsies, and suddenly realized they were no longer closing in. In fact,
they seemed to be frozen in place, staring at her in a mixture of awe and
fear.
Wait a second. She was
looking DOWN at the gypsies?
And why was it suddenly so much
easier to see out the cave entrance?
Cordelia turned her head and
bumped it against the cave's rocky ceiling. It hadn't suddenly gotten
lower; she'd gotten higher. When she looked down, her legs and feet were
simply dangling beneath her. She was floating several feet above the
ground.
"Oh, no," she
said. "Not AGAIN."
***
Fred and Charles stumbled backward as Spike advanced on them. It seemed to
Fred that everything was burning now -- every leaf and twig and branch
around them and above them and under their feet exploding with bright, ugly
flames. A tiny voice in her mind tried to insist it wasn't possible for the
conflagration to spread so quickly, but the crackling, roaring noise of the
fire in her ears smothered rational thought.
"There's a way through,"
Charles said. The smoke was making him cough. "Behind you --"
Fred turned around and saw a
passage out of the blaze, between two widely spaced trees which formed a
gate of fire.
But before they could run to
it, a figure appeared in front of them, blocking the way. It was Drusilla,
her dress whiter than the hottest flames of all.
"Dru, pet," Spike
said. "Come and join in the fun."
Reflections of the fire
shone in Drusilla's golden eyes. "Thieves of books," she said to
Fred and Charles. "Scarpers of stories. You'll see how the story
should end. Its last line will be death. Yours."
Hemmed in by fire and the
advancing vampires, Fred realized with horror there was nowhere left to go.
And she didn't even have a weapon -- somehow, in the confusion, she'd lost
her stake.
She looked around
frantically for something else she could use to defend herself, and saw one
of the torches the gypsies had been carrying, still smoldering where
someone had dropped it. It was better than nothing, Fred decided, and
reached out to pick it up.
The torch crackled as she
lifted it, sending a shower of hot embers over her hands. Where they
touched her, they burnt her skin, and Fred cried out in pain. For an
instant, panic and terror emptied from her mind, driven out by the reality of
physical pain.
And the forest changed.
Where there had been one
forest, Fred now saw two, layered over each other like paintings on glass.
In one, the fire raged out of control. The other forest was cool and dark
and the only thing burning anywhere near them was the torch she was
holding. All at once Fred knew which was real.
"Fragile mortal
minds," Drusilla said as she drew nearer. "Like spun glass, so
delicate. See them shatter!"
"Charles," Fred
whispered urgently. "Charles, this is going to hurt. Just trust
me."
She touched his arm with the
torch.
Charles yelled and snatched
his arm back. He blinked rapidly, and Fred saw his eyes clear, as if
something blocking his sight had suddenly been lifted away.
"Give me that," he
said in a low voice. Fred surrendered the torch to him.
"Because I'm feeling
generous," Spike said, sauntering toward them, "I'll let you
choose how you die. On tonight's menu we have broken necks, choking and
blood loss. What's it going to be?"
"How about the special?"
Charles said. He threw the torch. It sailed through the air, straight
toward Spike, who made no attempt to dodge it. He thinks it's part of
Drusilla's illusion, Fred realized. He can't tell the difference either.
Spike laughed. "Sticks
and stones may break my bones, but Drusilla's fire will never --" He
caught the torch: " -- hurt me --"
As Spike's hand closed
around the torch's glowing end, his face registered shock, then almost
immediately contorted in agonizing pain. Flames shot up his arm, and it
seemed to Fred it wasn't his clothes catching fire preternaturally fast,
but his body itself. Of course, that was why fire was such an effective
weapon against vampires -- why they feared it so much --
Spike was desperately trying
to put out the fire before it spread further up his arm. "Dru!"
he yelled. "Drusilla! Having a problem here!"
"Spike!"
Drusilla's voice was high-pitched and wavering, like a child confronted
with its worst nightmare.
Spike threw himself on to
the ground in an effort to smother the flames. Drusilla screeched and ran
past Fred and Charles, ignoring them in her desperation to get to Spike.
But when she got to him, she didn't seem to know what to do, and could only
stand over him, wailing and rocking wildly, as he flailed about.
"Make it stop!" she howled. "Not my story, not my story, not
my story!"
The torch was lying on the
ground where Spike had dropped it; it had landed on damp earth and gone
out. Fred picked it up and, with all her strength, hit Drusilla squarely on
the back of the head.
For another second, perhaps
longer, Dru continued to wail. Then, very slowly, she toppled forward,
landing on top of Spike.
All around Fred, the
imaginary inferno Drusilla had created disappeared, as suddenly as if a
switch had been flipped. The forest was simply the forest again.
Spike writhed about, either
trying to extinguish the flames or simply in pain. Fred watched him for a
moment, then began beating out the flames as best she could. Charles sighed
heavily before joining in. In a few moments, the blaze was out, and Spike
and Drusilla lay singed and unconscious on the forest floor. Charles looked
down at the two vampires. They lay in an untidy heap on the forest floor,
still smoldering a little. "That'll teach you to play with fire,"
he said.
***
Angel lunged at Darla, his stake missing her shoulder. She whirled about,
laughing. Her boy had gotten careless in his later life. He couldn't even
seem to aim directly for her heart.
"Very sloppy. Perhaps
you're out of practice. Or perhaps you can't bear to kill me," she
purred. His eyes flickered to look into hers, then away. Aha, she thought,
it's true. He doesn't want me dead. He still wants me, down deep. He still
wants to be what he once was.
Darla knew she could win
this battle now; anyone who was willing to destroy his enemy would
ultimately triumph over anyone who wasn't. But she didn't just want to
stake this pathetic duplicate anymore. She wanted to hear him admit what he
still really was inside, how wrong he'd been to ever think of leaving her
side.
Angel swung toward her,
feinting left at the last moment; his stake grazed her arm, slicing through
the skin, and Darla winced as she stumbled back. She couldn't afford to get
sloppy herself; Angel might not be the magnificent creature Angelus had
been, but it would be easy to underestimate him.
She kicked out at him,
expecting him to dodge the blow, just buying herself time to think. What if
she could win him back, soul and all? Could she convince the gypsies to
remove the curse on both Angeluses? Could that possibly work?
A brief vision of a night in
bed swam up in her mind, and she smiled. Having two versions of Angelus
might yet prove impossible, but it was well worth finding out. Nothing
could ever stop them then.
"You've missed
me," she said as they circled one another. "You've missed what we
once were."
"At times I missed
you," Angel said simply. "I even went back to you, twice. But I
never wanted you badly enough to pay the price of staying."
The thought of that -- an
Angel who could come back and simply choose to leave again, who could put a
limit on how badly he wanted her -- outraged Darla. She cried, "And
that's all you have for me? I created you! You don't think I'm worth the
price?" Darla readied her own stake. Two Angeluses was a nice dream,
but so was watching this one turn to dust. "You told me we would be
together forever, Angelus. You made me a promise. A promise you couldn't
keep."
He froze. Angel stood
shock-still, staring at her, anguish written on his face. When he spoke,
his voice was low and uncertain. "I made you a promise," he said.
"I promised you I'd take care of him. And I didn't. I couldn't. I
tried -- I tried so hard, Darla, and I failed. I failed him and I failed
you."
Him? Take care of who? None
of this made any sense. But Darla could tell that what Angel was saying now
was vitally important, at least to him. She felt her curiosity begin to get
the better of her anger. "What do you mean?"
"It's the only promise
I ever made that really mattered," Angel said. He was shaking his head
from side to side, the pain in his eyes and his voice deeper than she had
ever seen in him. "I won't ever get another chance to tell you, Darla,
so I'm telling you now. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."
Sorry for leaving her? Sorry
for what had become of him? Hopeful despite herself, Darla stepped just a
bit closer. "Angelus?"
She felt the blow before she
even saw it -- his fist slamming into the side of her head, then her jaw,
then again. The world went gray, then black, and she felt the ground
swimming up to meet her.
"I'm sorry," she
heard once more, and then she heard nothing else.
***
Darla lay crumpled upon the ground, the skirts of her ball gown collapsed
around her. Angel stood still and kept watching her for a minute or more,
in case she was faking unconsciousness. She wasn't.
Looking around, he saw a
patch of shadow between two trees which was semi-concealed and out of the
way of the fighting. Grasping Darla unceremoniously by the ankles, he
dragged her limp body toward it.
When he got there, he found
he wasn't the only one to have had that idea. Fred and Gunn were standing
guard over the unconscious bodies of Drusilla and Spike.
"All RIGHT," Gunn
said when he saw Angel. His ballroom finery was ripped and torn, the
blue-velvet drapery long gone, and his turban had almost completely
unraveled. "That's three for three."
Fred looked equally
battered, the torn gold lace at her throat feebly reflecting the moonlight.
"All those hard decisions we kept saying we'd think about when we got
there? Well, we're there." She gestured tiredly at Spike and Drusilla.
"Darla's got to keep existing, for Connor to be born," she said,
in the voice of someone who would like to argue but wasn't going to.
"But does the future get more warped with a Spike and Dru that know
the future, or with no Spike and Dru at all?"
Angel looked down at the
three insensible vampires lying on the forest floor. "Drusilla has to
be around to sire Darla again. Spike has to be around to bring Drusilla to
Sunnydale to get strong again. And there's a lot of things they did, or
didn't do, that we can't even guess at. For better or worse -- well, mostly
worse -- they're part of the world we're trying to get back."
Fred was evidently thinking
much the same thing. "We have to keep everything as close as we can to
how we know it should be. That's our best shot at fixing the future."
"If we can't stake
them, what are we gonna do with them when they wake up?" Gunn asked.
His turban slipped down over one eye, and he quickly finished the job of
unwinding it that the chase through the forest and the battle had started.
"I don't know,"
Fred said. She looked at the long strip of cloth Gunn was preparing to
throw away. "Don't get rid of that."
Gunn looked at her.
"I'm not putting that thing back on. No more Caliphing for me. As far
as I'm concerned, Madagascar can be a democracy from now on."
Fred pointed at Spike and
Drusilla. "I meant, we can use it to tie them up while we figure out
what to do."
"Oh. Right." Gunn
handed Fred a wad of the bandage-like cloth which had formerly been his
turban, and together they started to secure the vampires.
Angel looked around the
clearing, saw the mouth of the cave and felt his stomach drop. "Oh,
God," he said. "Cordelia."
The forest clearing was
almost empty now, and with a rising sense of fear Angel realized why --
nearly all the gypsies had gone into the caves, driven there by Drusilla's
fire hallucination. He had thought he was making sure Cordelia was safe; in
fact, he had sent her into a trap.
He charged into the cave,
knocking people roughly out of the way as he struggled to break through the
mob. He was so intent on getting to Cordelia that it was several seconds
before he realized none of the gypsies were attacking him.
Angel crashed out of the
crowd, almost stumbling as the resistance of bodies suddenly ceased. He was
standing alone in an empty space near the back of the cave. Directly in
front of him he saw Angelus, crouching against the cave's back wall, his
hands over his face. The gypsies seemed to be afraid to go any closer to
him, although Angel couldn't understand why; his former self was clearly
incapable of defending himself.
Then he heard Cordelia's
voice. "That's right, you'd better do some serious cowering. Because,
as you can see, this is scary, high-level magic mojo I'm doing right
now."
Angel turned around, expecting
to see Cordy. Instead, he saw her feet, dangling in front of him at eye
level. He craned his neck to look up at her: She was scowling, but Angel
knew her well enough to recognize that what seemed to be irritation was
more likely a mask for fear. She pointed down at the gypsies and said,
"There's more where this came from, you guys. This completely
intentional levitation is just the beginning. You'd better hope I don't
REALLY get mad." Then she glanced down and saw Angel, and she gave him
a nervous smile. "Hey there!"
"Are you okay?" he
asked.
She was hanging in mid-air,
drifting a little from side to side in the draft from the cave entrance.
"Yes, except --"
"Except what?"
Cordelia lowered her voice.
"I think I might be glowing. Maybe. Am I glowing?"
There WAS more light at the
back of the cave than there should have been. Although it wasn't possible
to tell exactly where it was coming from, Angel thought he detected a faint
lambency in the air around Cordy. "Uh, maybe just a little."
One of the gypsies took a
step forward. Angel turned, but for once Cordelia was faster. Her foot shot
out, and she kicked the man on the shoulder, making him stagger back.
"Back off, buddy! I'm
from the future, and I can float and -- and -- you don't know what else I
can do. Like -- I can leap tall buildings at a single bound -- except you
people probably think three stories is tall for a building, and jumping
three stories is impressive but maybe not terrifying --" She cast a
look of desperation down at Angel and whispered, "Help me out
here."
"She can shoot laser
beams out of her eyes!" Gunn yelled. Angel half-turned to see that he
and Fred were pushing their way through the crowd to join Angel at
Cordelia's feet.
Fred said, "I don't
think they know what laser beams are, Charles." The gypsies were
starting to murmur among themselves, and some of them were edging closer.
They were in a standoff,
Angel realized. The gypsies had the advantage of numbers, but they didn't
know how to respond to Cordelia's supernatural power. Now neither side
could risk attacking the other.
"Who's your
leader?" he asked loudly.
"I am," said one
of the gypsies, stepping forward. He was a tall man with a gray beard;
Angel remembered him from the brief period they'd spent in the gypsy camp.
This was Gia's father -- Mother Yanna had called him Gregor, Angel
recalled. Gregor was holding his arm awkwardly and smelled strongly of
fresh blood. "You said you would leave us, and you are still here.
Your deceit breaks our truce, vampire. All your lives are forfeit."
"We never lied to
you," Angel told him. "We promised we'd help you get your
vengeance, and we have."
Gregor's mouth twisted in
scorn. "Our vengeance demands suffering."
"Look at him!"
Cordelia exclaimed, pointing to where Angelus was crouching behind her.
"Isn't that enough suffering for you?"
Gregor glanced at Angelus,
then shifted his gaze to Angel. "He may suffer now, but it will not
always be so. This one is the proof of that."
"I have the soul you
cursed me with," Angel said. "That's what you've wanted all
along."
"No. We want you to
know pain. Your soul is only the means to that end. If you have come to
treasure your soul, it can only be because it has brought you comfort. We
could have killed you the night we cursed you. We let you live only so you
could suffer while generations of our clan rise from the earth and fall
back into it. If there is a time when your soul no longer causes you to
suffer, whether that is a hundred, a thousand or ten thousand years from
now, then our vengeance is ended and you must die."
"Man," Gunn said
in a low voice. "These folks really know how to hold a grudge, don't
they?"
"Look at you,"
Gregor said. "Look at these others who surround you. Foolish people to
be your friends, a foolish woman who loved you. You do not stand before us
in shame. You act as though you have a right to make demands of us, a right
to be whatever you wish. That is the right of anyone else with a soul, but
not you, Angelus. Never you."
"I understand
that," Angel said, feeling his hands clench into fists. "I
understand that better than you could ever possibly imagine."
The gypsy laughed at him.
"You stand here with your friends, and you want me to believe that you
suffer? You want us to believe that you feel pain? You know nothing of it
anymore."
The others in the attack
party all shifted on their feet, began gripping their weapons more tightly.
They were losing their awe of Cordelia and their terror of the fire, and
their rage was beginning to well up within them again. In a few moments,
Angel realized, the situation would escalate into battle. Could all four of
them get out of this?
No, he thought. All five of
us.
Angel looked back to where
Angelus huddled at the back of the cave and suddenly experienced a stab of
sympathy for him -- the first time he'd felt anything beyond contempt for
his former self. In 1898 he'd already been older than the oldest human, had
traveled continents and considered himself a man of wide experience. And
yet he'd known nothing of what made human lives real -- not love or
friendship or sorrow or grief. For the Angelus of 1898, all that still lay
ahead; right now, his 150-year-old past self was like an infant whose life
had only just begun. The future was before him, an unexplored country wide
open with possibility.
At this moment, his past
self had everything that Angel had wanted for Connor. Everything Connor
would now never have.
Angel said, "I had a
son, and he died."
The cave was quiet. Gregor
stared at him -- no, Angel thought, Gia's father stared at him. He tried to
imagine Gia as a little girl, swaddled up in this man's arms, then
remembered her as the broken corpse that he had created and Darla had
casually discarded. He wondered if Gregor was trying to imagine Connor,
knew the man could never grasp the uniqueness and joy of his son -- just as
Angel would never truly know the woman he had destroyed.
Their eyes met. Gregor took
a deep breath, and Angel realized -- one father knew another.
At last, Gregor said,
"Then you will know enough suffering for our vengeance. And more even
than that, vampire. You understand this?"
Angel nodded. Gregor lifted
his hand, and the massed ranks behind him began to file out of the cave.
Angel watched them go without really seeing them, knew Cordelia had placed
her hand comfortingly on his shoulder without his really feeling it.
"I had a son," he
said again. "I understand now."
*******************
Chapter Seven
*******************
"Vampires are barren," Mother Yanna insisted. "Everyone
knows this."
From her elevated position,
floating at the rear of the cave, Cordelia could easily look down on the
old woman and the group of gypsies -- and one vampire -- standing around
her. Mother Yanna had followed the attack party; now she was angrily
demanding to know why neither version of Angel was dust yet. The other
gypsies were explaining, with occasional comments from Angel. Mother Yanna
might be old and frail, but it seemed like she could cause them serious
trouble if she chose, and Cordelia was still a little concerned. But she
was more concerned about how she was going to get down from the ceiling.
"I'm sure you stayed
down longer last time," Fred said to Cordelia's knees. "Come on,
let's give it one more shot."
"Okay. But this time,
if I start to bob back up, just put rocks on my feet or something. It's
boring up here." Fred tugged Cordelia's feet back down to the floor
again, and for a few moments she felt as though she could go either way --
up or down. But then gravity settled in once more, and she breathed out
heavily as she felt her feet firmly plant on the ground. "Sometime, I
want these demon powers to actually be convenient," Cordelia said as
she brushed herself off. "And understandable. And to come with an
instruction manual."
Demon powers, Cordelia
thought to herself for the thousandth time. What does that mean? Where is
it going to lead me? Hovering wasn't so bad so far, but she still had no
idea how to control it. The glowing thing -- if she really had been
glowing, and it hadn't just been some weird light from the time-machine
portal -- was new, and even if it was harmless, it was frightening.
Why didn't I ask Skip more
questions? Why didn't I make him explain what he was doing before he did
it? She knew the answer, of course; the sight of an anguished, insane and
possibly dying Angel had frightened her past the point of rationality --
and the only other option had been her own death. She'd thought she'd get
less freaked about becoming part demon as time went on, but the feeling of
uncertainty was only becoming more acute with each change she saw in
herself. If a new power had really appeared tonight, others would probably
follow.
Cordelia sighed. She'd think
about it some other time. Not now.
From the floor, Spike let
out a low groan as he struggled toward consciousness. Gunn, who was
standing guard, simply took up a rock and whacked him in the temple, hard.
Spike slumped back on to the ground. Gunn shook his head. "We can't
just keep knocking them out over and over again forever," he said.
"I mean, sure, it'd be fun, but eventually, we gotta return to the
future and leave them here knowing way the hell too much. What are we going
to do?"
Cordelia stared down at the
unconscious vampires, then glanced over at Angelus. He'd regained some
measure of calm in the last several minutes, but he was still a hollow
wreck of a man -- and still listening to every word. "It doesn't
matter if they know about the time machine," she reasoned. "We
take the ring with us and close the door --"
"-- And then they go find
the time machine wherever it is in 1898," Fred pointed out. "Even
if they couldn't find it, just this knowledge about the future is probably
too much to preserve our timeline. That doesn't even start to touch on
Drusilla; even if she is mentally unstable, she remembers a lot about the
next 104 years. Who knows what she might decide to do, and when, and what
effect it might have?"
Cordelia groaned. "This
is just not good."
The gypsies fell silent as
Mother Yanna raised her hand and stared coldly at Angel. She held up a
small stick of something and snapped it, releasing a blue, fragrant cloud.
Slate-colored trails snaked all around Angel, then turned white. Mother
Yanna scowled, but she folded her arms in front of her and said, "He
speaks truth. He may leave our time and take his human companions with
them. But if you ever again return, vampire --"
"This is the end,"
Angel said. "It has to be."
"How can it be?"
Cordelia said, gesturing at the vampires. "These guys know way too
much about the time machine and the future. You, version 1.0, is probably
too shell-shocked to do anything about it, but that doesn't apply to those
three."
"We do not care for
your troubles," Mother Yanna spat. "We care only that you leave
and cease to remind us of our own."
Angel looked down at Darla's
still face, and Cordelia couldn't help feeling a strange twinge of
uncertainty as he knelt by Darla's side. His fingers brushed a lock of hair
from Darla's cheek, so tenderly that he might have been lying beside her in
bed, then took one of her hands in his. Oh, please, Cordelia thought, he's
been doing great, don't let him go all soft now.
Then Angel stood up and came
to Cordelia's side. She was confused when he took her hand, but only until
she saw that he was slipping her hologram bracelet back on her wrist.
Cordelia looked into his face and saw he was smiling a little. "Now
you won't have to tell Groo you lost it."
"Thanks," she
said, smiling back. "What's that?"
Angel held up something else
he'd taken from Darla, a gold ring. Cordelia realized this second ring must
be the one Drusilla had used to time-travel. "Here, Fred," Angel
said, tossing it to her. "You're the one holding the keys."
"Well, that's one loose
end taken care of," Fred said with a sigh as she pocketed the ring.
"Now, if we can just think of a way to tie up the other hundred
billion loose ends, we might just get to go home."
Gunn gestured at the
unconscious vampires. "Think we could just politely ask 'em to forget
about all this?"
Angel stared at Gunn for a
moment, then said, "That's exactly what we're going to do."
Cordelia frowned, but before she could ask Angel what he meant, he had
turned back to Mother Yanna. The old woman peered at him, narrow-eyed, as
he said, "You tried to steal my memories of my son, a few days
ago."
"Was it your son you
mourned?" Mother Yanna said. She smiled a cold smile that showed her
yellowing, cracked teeth. "A pity I did not succeed."
Cordelia wanted to smack the
old woman's few remaining teeth out of her head, but Angel's only reaction
was an almost imperceptible hesitation before he spoke again. "You
still have a chance to show your skill," he said, pointing at the
other vampires. "Instead of stealing my memories, you're going to
steal theirs."
***
Fred grimaced as she stumbled away from the gypsy wagon, dragging Drusilla
roughly along the ground behind her. Fred was pulling Drusilla by her
ankles, causing her arms and hair to fan out behind her on the damp earth.
"Okay," she huffed, "I know she looks bony and all, but
still, very heavy."
"Hang on," Angel
said, dropping Spike on the ground. He helped Fred haul Drusilla underneath
the small outcropping of stone they'd found at the edge of the forest. If the
vampires were still unconscious at daybreak -- which Angel thought likely
-- they'd be trapped in place for a little while, giving Angelus time to
burrow deeper into the shaded depths of the woods. In order to recreate
history, Angel said, it was important that Angelus not encounter the other
vampires for a few years to come.
Charles settled Darla
beneath the outcropping, handling her more carefully under Angel's watchful
eye than Fred suspected he might have done otherwise. "That got
us?"
Angel, instead of answering,
turned back to Mother Yanna, who was descending carefully from the wagon.
Cordelia sat in the back with Angelus; either of them might have helped the
old woman, Fred thought, but it was highly unlikely she would have accepted
aid even if it were offered. Angel said, "I know you can erase the
last couple of days from Spike and Darla. But what about Drusilla? That's
more than a century of memory."
"Do you doubt my
abilities?" Mother Yanna said. "You of all creatures should
not."
"Believe me, "
Angel said, "I don't. But it's a hundred and four years, and not just
the memory of one person or place."
Mother Yanna stared down at
Drusilla's pale face for a moment, then shrugged. "I have never
attempted such. Neither has any other. I believe it will be done as you
seek. But perhaps there will be -- pictures. Moments. Pieces of her memory
that will remain in her mind, but with no anchor to hold them fast."
Cordelia said, "So that
means Drusilla's going to be perpetually confused, occasionally seeing glimpses
of the future, and -- and exactly like she was before." Her face lit
up. "Angel, do you think, just maybe -- the reason we remember
Drusilla like she is that we remember her still screwed-up from this memory
spell? If so, then, that means we've already pulled all this off,
right?"
"No, Drusilla was
confused for a long time before this, thanks to me," Angel said.
"But you're right; the confusion won't mean as much to her or the
others as it would with anyone else. It's still the best shot we've got at
restoring history to the way we remember it."
"Then withdraw,"
Mother Yanna said, "and let me begin."
Charles clambered back into
the wagon, and Fred made a move to follow. She hesitated as she saw Angel
looking down at Darla -- for what was, she realized, the very last time.
Darla's cheeks were smudged with dirt and blood, her dress rumpled around
her. Even in sleep, her patrician features carried a hint of the cruel
disdain Fred had seen so often on her face. Yet Angel looked at Darla
gently, with an expression Fred recognized. She had seen it once before, as
the three of them crouched in an alleyway and she and Angel tried to
shelter Darla from the rain. "Goodbye," he said quietly.
Fred took Charles' hand as
she climbed back into the wagon. Angel, however, walked a few steps away,
not looking back at the vampires or his friends as Mother Yanna began to
chant softly in a language which was neither Romanii nor English. Angelus
hugged his coat around himself, looking from person to person uncertainly, but
he said nothing.
Fred glanced at Cordelia and
saw that she was watching Angel, a faint smile on her face. With a hint of
pride in her voice, Cordelia said, "He's really been strong through
all this, hasn't he? I kept thinking he was going to fall apart, but he
didn't."
The battered and beaten
alternate-future Wesley might disagree, Fred thought -- but even that
Wesley had lived to tell the tale. Well, until his reality collapsed
seconds later. "I guess if Angel made it through losing Connor,
nothing else is going to knock him down ever again."
"Connor --"
Angelus said. His voice startled everyone; next to her, Fred felt Charles
go tense, and Cordelia whipped her head around to stare. Angelus actually
flinched, but he said, "You said -- a son -- was Connor my son?"
Fred didn't answer him, and
she thought nobody else would either. But then she saw Cordelia's face
soften with compassion as she leaned toward Angelus. "Yeah," she
said. "He was."
Charles opened his mouth to
protest, but Fred took his hand and squeezed it. When he glared at her, she
whispered, "The memory spell works or it doesn't. If it doesn't, the
damage is already done. If it does -- then let him have a little comfort,
okay? It's the last he's going to have for a really long time."
From the dubious expression
on Charles' face, Fred could tell he didn't much care about Angelus'
comfort. But he didn't interfere as Cordelia began speaking quietly to
Angelus. Instead, he wrapped his arm around Fred and cuddled her close.
"We've been on a hell of a ride," he said. "I don't think
I'm gonna believe it until you and me are back at the hotel, wrapped up in
our bed, same old drippy faucet keeping us awake, same old crappy reception
of Telemundo on the TV set."
"I never thought I'd be
grateful to see Telemundo again," Fred sighed. She thought back over
the past few days, an almost-forgotten enthusiasm bubbling up inside her.
"Do you realize how many principles of theoretical physics we've
proved and disproved the last couple of days? I can't exactly share our
time-traveling stories as empirical evidence, but I bet I'm going to get a
couple of papers out of this. Winifred Burkle, published physicist."
The old dream gleamed even a little brighter for having been set aside for
so long.
"Sounds mighty
nice," Charles said, snuggling against her. "You know what theory
I think we proved?"
"What's that?"
"That I should get to
come up with the plans more often."
***
The wagon jolted as they
went back toward the cave with the time machine, driven by Fred's
increasingly sure hands. Next to her, Mother Yanna sat, shawl draped around
her, stern face looking resolutely ahead. Gunn was stretched out in the
hay, exercising his uncanny ability to catnap anywhere, at any time; Angel
remembered him explaining that once you learned how to fall asleep in a
juvenile detention hall, you could fall asleep anywhere. For his part,
Angel sat next to Gunn, deliberately breathing in the lost scents of
another century -- pine and straw and horses and leather -- and silently watching
Cordelia and Angelus.
Angel wondered what he
should say to his former self and came up with nothing. The other's
presence was profoundly disquieting on both supernatural and psychological
levels; more than that, in some ways he seemed more a stranger than anyone
Angel had ever encountered. He remembered what it was like to be that man,
how he had felt, what he had thought. All of that was preserved within
himself, dried and pressed, fragile and faded but eternal. But Angel could
not think of how to talk to that man -- the best of what he had to say
would, he knew, be drowned out by pain. It would be like enunciating
clearly for the benefit of a deaf man.
Cordelia had no such qualms.
"You're a good
detective!" she was telling Angelus. "Well, an okay detective
with a really good staff. And you help a lot of people who really need
help, and we only charge the ones who can comfortably pay."
Her voice bubbled on and on
as she marshaled evidence for something Angelus would be decades in
learning to accept. For his part, Angelus huddled near her, listening in
disbelief.
"You've saved my life
-- how many times, Angel? -- he doesn't know. We don't keep track. You're
my best friend. The best friend I've ever had. Ever will have,
probably."
Angel smiled and spoke for
the first time in a long while: "Thanks."
She glanced back at him,
suddenly abashed; apparently it was easier to say some of what she'd been
saying to an Angel who wouldn't respond. But she was smiling as she curled
her knees up to her chest. "Almost over."
"Yeah," Angel
said. "Hopefully. Are you feeling okay?"
"Just tired,"
Cordelia said. "Can't wait to go back to my apartment and get some
sleep. Assuming, of course, that the future we're going back to has my
apartment in it."
"We'll think about that
when we get there," Angel said. "Don't worry about it now."
"Easier said than
done," she said. Then she thumped Angelus on the arm. "See? This
is just the kind of relaxed, friendly repartee you have to look forward to.
Plus the invention of leather pants."
Angelus finally spoke.
"We've had leather pants for centuries."
"Millennia," Angel
added. "For as long as there've been cows."
Cordelia made a face.
"Of COURSE this is what you can both talk about."
"We're there,"
Fred said, half-turning around as she slowed the wagon.
Angel peered around in the
darkness; he had expected the gypsies to stay behind, awaiting Mother
Yanna's return, but none of them had remained. Mother Yanna, unfazed,
carefully lowered herself out of the wagon. Angel followed suit. Angelus hesitated
for a moment, visibly uncertain, and Cordelia quickly hugged him.
"You'll be okay," she said. "Not right away. But someday.
And I'll be waiting."
Angel felt absurdly jealous
for a moment. Then he realized: She's still taking care of me. He smiled at
her as she, Fred and a drowsy Gunn headed into the cave, to the portal to
the time machine.
As Mother Yanna walked down
a different branch of the cave, Angel and Angelus walked side-by-side after
her. Angelus kept glancing back at the way Cordelia had gone, then at
Angel. At last he whispered, "What she said -- is any of what she said
true?"
"It's all true,"
Angel said.
"Then -- then it must
get better." Angelus looked at Angel, entreaty in his face. "Tell
me it gets better."
For a second, the contempt
Angel had felt for his past self returned, stronger than ever. He had
caused so much suffering, committed so much evil -- and yet he still saw
his punishment only in terms of his own pain. It would be almost a century,
Angel knew, before he learned to see past self-pity and bitterness and
despair, before he started making amends.
Angel remained silent.
Beside him, the hope faded from Angelus' eyes, and he stumbled on, his body
curled over in what looked like physical pain.
No, Angel remembered
suddenly -- it was physical pain. In the hours and days immediately after
the curse he had clawed and beaten and torn at himself, driven by
desperation to try to drown out the mental and emotional anguish with
physical pain. All he had succeeded in doing was breaking several ribs,
splintering the bones so badly that even with a vampire's recuperative
powers they had taken days to heal. In the meantime, his tense, exhausted
muscles had cramped almost constantly, stabbing him somewhere deep inside
with shards of bone, invisible knives buried in his chest.
The memory of that pain was
suddenly more real, more vivid to Angel than it had been for years.
Watching Angelus stumble next to him, he remembered how heavy his body had
felt, as if waterlogged, sodden with guilt. He remembered the pain in his
side, the bloody crescents his fingernails had made in his palms. More than
anything, he remembered how it felt to be sure that eternity would hold
nothing but pain.
In a few minutes, Angelus'
memory would be wiped clean of the past couple of days, of every event
since Darla discovered he had been cursed. Nothing Angel said or did right
now would exist for Angelus after that.
But even this moment
mattered.
Angel quietly said, "It
will be better than this, someday. Not for a long time. But someday you're
going to have a life worth having."
Angelus stared at him with
wide, bewildered eyes. "How?" he whispered.
"You -- you're going to
find people who believe in you," Angel said. "People willing to
give you a chance. And you're going to try to deserve them. You won't
always get it right, but you'll learn to keep trying. When that happens,
everything you're going through now, everything you'll go through later --
you'll know it was worth it."
Angelus considered that for
a moment; though the anguish did not leave his eyes, his posture almost
imperceptibly straightened. His voice was steadier when he spoke again.
"It would help, if it all meant something."
"It will," Angel
said. "It always means something. It's always going to be worth
it." Angelus nodded, for one instant allowing himself to believe.
When they reached the cave,
Angelus sat on the ground as Mother Yanna instructed, calmly listening to
her chant the spell that would remove his memories. He remained focused on
Angel's face until the moment Mother Yanna was done, when he slumped,
unconscious, onto the ground.
Mother Yanna sighed and
began shuffling away. "It is done. He will awaken soon, and we must be
gone from this place."
"We'll have gone through
the time machine in a few minutes," Angel said. "And we won't
come back. We've done all we could do to restore this timeline. I don't
know what we'll find when we go ahead, but we'll have to accept what it
is."
"See that you do,"
Mother Yanna said. "You suffer because your son is dead, vampire. And
I am glad your son is dead, so that you can suffer. But it is not enough
for me." Her glassy eyes narrowed. "You cannot suffer enough for
me."
The words echoed in Angel's
mind -- glad your son is dead, GLAD -- and for once the instincts of demon
and father were in perfect accord. He felt hot rage flood his mind, and his
hand curled into a fist. For a moment it was as if he had already done it,
as if he'd heard her fragile old bones shattering beneath his blow. Only
the sheer depth of his fury kept him from striking; it paralyzed him for a
few seconds -- but not, he knew, for long.
Mother Yanna, perhaps
oblivious to his rage, began hobbling toward the mouth of the cave.
"Do not think you will find the others," she said. "They
have gone to a place you do not know. We shall not meet again."
She was so certain, and so
wrong. With a jolt, Angel remembered that in the history they had fought to
restore, the gypsies would be found. Even without Drusilla's suggestion,
Darla would eventually hit upon the idea of attacking the gypsies and
ransoming his soul. Spike wouldn't have been properly warned. And so he
would still kill them, and they would all -- even Mother Yanna -- still
die.
She was smiling at him
cruelly. "You do not like what I say?"
Angel forced himself to
relax. "I don't take pleasure in the thought that innocent people have
to die," he said. "But you do. And no, I don't like that."
"So noble," Mother
Yanna crooned. Then her face was more serious. "I know how wretched it
is, this hate inside me. I know it for the wicked thing it is. But then
what do we think of the one who put this hate there? Hmmm?"
Angel thought, all the evil
that flows from Mother Yanna flows from what I did to her. Cycle after
cycle.
"Evil never dies,"
Mother Yanna said. Then she turned and hobbled away, leaving Angel alone in
the cave.
***
Cordelia stared up at the
mouth of the time machine. "This looks less red to me. Like, way less
red. Shifting to orange. Bordering on a kind of tangerine."
The pool of light overhead
was dimmer and more sluggish, too; it had little of the eerie energy it had
possessed before. Next to Cordelia, Fred was chewing on her fingernails.
"The door's gotta still be open, though, right? Or else the phenomenon
would be completely absent, instead of continuing to manifest."
"It ain't closed,"
Gunn said from his place nearby, with a confidence Cordelia was sure he
didn't really feel. "It's just -- closing."
"That's so
reassuring," Cordelia said, then yelled, "ANGEL!"
"I'm right here,"
Angel said. The moment after she heard him, she saw him, walking toward
them in the gloom. His face was shadowed, somehow -- darker and more
withdrawn than she'd seen him in the past few days.
Cordelia ignored the pain in
her shoulder as she went to him and took his hand in hers. "Hey,"
she said. "You okay?"
"I'm good," he
said flatly. "It's done."
So Connor would live again.
They'd get the Hyperion back. All good things. So why was Angel back in
despair mode? Cordelia chose her words carefully. "I thought that
would make you happy."
"It does. It's just
--" Angel turned his head from her, clearly searching for words.
Although Gunn and Fred's impatience was visible -- and Cordelia's wasn't
far behind -- they both remained silent, looking up at the orangey glow
overhead. When Angel spoke again, he said, "I told Angelus it would
all be worth it. And then I remembered how much evil I've done here, how
far into the future the repercussions go. Evil never dies. It all goes so
far past me, Cordy. I don't know that I have the right to say it's going to
be worth it someday."
Cordelia brushed his cheek
with her hand. "Maybe the evil you do never dies," she said.
"But the good you do doesn't die either, does it? The repercussions of
the good things you do keep going too." She cocked an eyebrow at him.
"The ripple effect works both ways, you know."
Angel smiled at her, and the
darkness had fallen from him again. He spoke -- not to her, but to Fred and
Gunn. "Let's go through this thing."
Gunn clapped his hands.
"All right. Last one out's a rotten egg. Or something else
skanky."
They all gathered around
Fred, who pulled one of the rings out of her pocket. Immediately, the
portal above them began to spark and shimmer anew, which Cordelia figured
was very good news.
Fred didn't hold up the
ring. They stood in silence.
Cordelia spoke first.
"What if we didn't get it right? What if we show up back in Rome, with
the world on fire?"
Angel said, "That's not
going to happen. I think we've stopped that reality from coming to
pass." Cordelia hoped he was as confident about that as he sounded.
"I'm on board with
that," Gunn said. "Question is -- did we start our reality up
again, or are we gonna find some other freaky-ass future waiting for
us?"
"It's got to be better
than the one with the world on fire," Cordelia reasoned. Everyone
looked as though they agreed. But Fred still didn't hold the ring up, and
nobody was rushing her.
At last Angel said, "No
matter what -- we can't return here."
"The damage is
done," Fred said. "We affected this timeline. We know that much.
We won't find out just how until we go back. So -- I guess we should return
and take it from there."
"Got it," Cordelia
said.
"Agreed," Gunn
said.
"Okay," Angel
said.
They all paused for another
moment, and Cordelia reached out and grabbed Angel's and Gunn's hands in
her own. Both guys grabbed hers right back, and Gunn swung his free arm
around Fred. "Let's see what kinda world we made," Gunn said.
Fred took a deep breath,
straightened up and held the ring above her head. And then Cordelia was
falling upwards, gravity in reverse, her friends around her as the world
spun away.
***
Darla was spinning, clinging
to a raft that twisted and pitched dizzyingly on a stormy sea. Her mind was
a vision not her own -- painted by Gericault, voiced in screams. Phantoms
rose up out of the spray around her, faces she recognized but couldn't name
speaking fragments of sentences that seemed to be important but somehow
slipped from her mind immediately. Only one apparition was more memorable
than the others -- Angelus rose out of the turbulent waters, wearing a look
of sadness unlike anything Darla had seen on his face before. "I'm
sorry," he said. "I'm so sorry." He started to sink back
into the darkness, and Darla reached out a hand to grab him back --
-- And cried out in pain.
Darla snatched her hand back
and opened her eyes. Immediately the glare of hated sunlight bombarded her
and the ugly smell of her own scorched flesh filled her nostrils. Now fully
awake, she sat up, cradling her burnt hand to her chest.
She was sitting beneath an
rocky outcrop, its shadow protecting her from the sun. She started to
shuffle backward, as far into the shade as possible, and stopped when she
bumped against another body. It was Spike, curled on his side, one arm
slung protectively across an equally unconscious Drusilla.
Angelus, Darla thought.
Where was Angelus?
His name triggered a flood
of unpleasant memories -- the gypsy girl, the clan's revenge, the curse.
Angelus, her glorious lover, her creation, turned into a sniveling and
tearful wretch, a caricature of himself. She had thrown him out of the
house. And after that --
After that, her memory was
fragmented, unclear. Music, dancing, mayhem. The forest on fire and a
flame-colored ballgown. But, as hard as she tried, Darla couldn't marshal
the scattered impressions into something coherent, and she couldn't
remember how she'd come to be laid out unconscious under a rock.
She put a hand to her head,
and winced in pain. Her skin was unbroken, but her hair was matted with
blood -- she'd suffered a bad wound which had healed while she'd slept.
Spike and Drusilla bore the marks of similar injuries.
Spike groaned and rolled
over on to his back. Immediately he winced and threw his arm over his eyes.
"Too bright..."
"Wake up," Darla
said. When that didn't work, she slapped him hard.
Spike groaned again and
started to stretch his limbs; straight away he discovered, as Darla had,
why that was a bad idea. He sat up, pulling his legs up to his chest and
grimacing at the brightness around them. "I've been burned," he
coughed. "Drusilla's been burned. What the hell happened?"
"I don't know,"
Darla said. She hated to say no more than that, but it was as much of an
answer as she had.
"Well," Spike said
at last, "I don't know how we got here, but it must have been one hell
of a party. Wonder how long we've been out?"
"We've all been asleep
for a hundred years," Drusilla's voice lilted. As she sat up, a faint
flicker of confusion passed across her face. "Or -- we will sleep a
hundred years. Like the princess in the story. I'm a princess, aren't I,
Spike?"
Spike put his arm around Drusilla's
waist, drawing him closer to her and kissing her languidly. "You're my
dark princess. My wicked fairy."
The sun, Darla noted, was
low in the sky. It wouldn't be long before dusk fell and their temporary
prison dissolved into shadow around them. That was a source of relief --
the prospect of spending interminable hours cooped up with no escape from
Spike's posturing and Drusilla's jabbering was wholly unpleasant. Already,
Darla could feel her patience beginning to fray as Drusilla prattled on.
"I'll sleep a hundred
years, while the tall buildings grow like grass and all the lovely wars are
fought again," she said, her frown of confusion deepening. "Is
this the end of the story, or the beginning? It's all a ring, a circle, a
merry-go-round. We go round merrily, and round and round and round, back
where we started." She tugged Spike's sleeve urgently. "I can't
remember the story, Spike."
"There, love,"
Spike said soothingly. "If you've forgotten the story, we'll just make
up a new one. Like this: Once upon a time, there were two vampires called
Spike and Drusilla, and they killed everybody they met and lived happily
ever after. The end."
"Happily ever
after," Drusilla echoed softly and, perhaps, a little sadly.
Happily ever after, Darla
thought sourly. For Spike and Drusilla, maybe. But not for Angelus. And not
for her.
The sun dipped behind the
tree-tops, and the pool of shadow widened into a black expanse. Darla got
up and stretched her cramped limbs. The night settled around her, dark and
refreshing.
Not far from the outcrop,
she found a track, rutted by the recent passage of a cart. The cart had
come from deep within the woods, stopped, then turned around and left at
speed back the way it had come.
Darla was trying to make
sense of this when the noise of someone approaching along the track made
her look up. Spike and Drusilla had heard it too, and stopped exploring
each others' throats with their tongues long enough to join her. A man was
walking purposefully toward them, and for an instant Darla was certain she
knew him.
"Angelus?"
"Beg pardon?" the
man said in a pronounced English accent which was distorted somewhat by his
fangs. Now that Darla could examine him more closely, she realized his
accent was the only pronounced thing about him. He was short and
unremarkable and wore glasses that sat awkwardly on his ridged nose,
magnifying his yellow eyes so that they looked foolish instead of
terrifying.
"You're a
vampire," Darla said.
"Oh," the man
said. He seemed pleased. "Is that what I am? How splendid!"
"Bloody hell,"
Spike said. "Whoever turned this idiot didn't make a good job of
it."
"Actually," the
vampire said with a polite cough, "that would be this lady." He
nodded at Darla.
Darla stared at him. "I
don't think so. I have better taste."
"I must beg to differ,
ma'am." The vampire made a stiff little bow. "Allow me to
introduce myself -- Percival, Lord Dalton, at your service. I woke up with
a headache, a terrible thirst and a remarkably strong desire to find your
good self. And, well --" He gave an apologetic shrug. "Here I
am."
Had she actually turned this
pathetic creature? Without any clear sense of memory for the past few days,
Darla had to admit it was possible, if extremely unlikely. Perhaps they'd
been drugged, or ensorcelled. That was no doubt it; the gypsies hadn't just
punished Angelus, but devised some vile -- though thankfully more temporary
-- revenge on the rest of them.
"He smells like
Grandmummy," Drusilla said, leaning close to Dalton and sniffing him.
"Dead lilies and poison ivy. He's a little puppy. Can we keep him? He
will amuse Daddy --" She broke off suddenly, her face clouding again.
"Where is Daddy? Something happened, and I don't remember --"
"Angelus --" Darla
began. "Angelus has --"
She stopped.
She had shared one hundred
and fifty years with Angelus, had been there to welcome him as he clawed
his way up through the cold Irish earth and into the waiting night. The
pathetic, miserable cursed creature she had cast out was not the man who
had enthralled, amused and delighted Darla with his inventive cruelty for
more than a century. She could still bring back that man, and they would
laugh together as they killed the gypsies, one by one.
Darla could not explain it,
but she was filled with a sudden and absolute certainty that her history
with Angelus had not ended. The future was a ripe fruit hanging heavy on
the branch, theirs to claim. Darla intended to pluck it down and devour it.
"Angelus went to find
us new sport," she lied. "He told me of a camp of gypsies, ripe
for a slaughter."
"That's more like it.
What are we waiting for? Let's get to the killing," Spike said. He
threw a fraternal arm around Dalton's shoulder. "Dalton, my boy,
you're going enjoy this..."
"Dalton, is it?"
Darla said coolly, appraising the newcomer. He stared back raptly, with all
the adoration of the newly-turned. Even in this ridiculous creature, it was
vaguely gratifying. He'd be useful for running and fetching, she supposed,
if nothing else. "Very, well, you'll come with us. And you'll obey our
rules. Meaning that you'll obey me."
Spike added, "And when
you're not obeying her, you'll obey me." Dalton nodded happily,
accepting it all as gospel.
"Gypsies?"
Drusilla repeated uncertainly. Then a slow smile spread across her face,
overtaking her confusion. "Slaughter..." She followed Spike and
Dalton.
Darla smiled. Then her lips
curled into a sneer of hatred as she thought again of the gypsies, their
peasant mobs, their cheap little magic tricks they substituted for
strength.
She'd show them who could
hate the most. She'd show them who could write in blood.
***
Angel felt the wall of the
pyramid knock against his head a split second before he heard Cordelia
yelp. "Owww! Ugh. Somebody's gotta find the brakes on this
thing."
The others were all crowded
up against him, confined by the narrow interior of the time machine. Gunn
was groaning from the nauseating trip back through time, and Fred sounded a
little queasy as she said, "Let's open the door. No matter what future
we find out there, it's got to be a better place to barf than in
here."
"Seconded,"
Cordelia said quickly.
Angel, closest to the door,
pushed it open carefully. The faint lighting showed him a room lined with
dark wood paneling, a floor covered in threadbare carpet. An old sewing
machine stood in one corner, and next to them was an early X-ray machine.
Barely daring to hope, he climbed out of the pyramid; as the others
followed, he checked the sign above the door. It read "The Old
Curiosity Shop: Victorian Inventions and Curios."
Just as it had before.
"This looks like the
Museum of Victoriana," Fred said. "I mean, looks just like it
--"
"Smells like it
too," Angel said. He breathed in again, checking it: the same musty
smell of old lace and older books, the stink of industrial cleaners, and
still hovering in the air, just a little, the familiar scent of Drusilla.
"This is it. This is where we left."
Gunn was the last to stumble
from the pyramid. As he stretched his limbs, he said, "Sounding real
good so far. Now, let's just hope we don't find out L.A.'s on fire
too."
"Wait," Angel
said, tensing. "Someone else is in the building." He said it the
moment he sensed it, and he sensed it even before he heard it -- footsteps
coming down the hallway, directly toward them. The others heard the sound a
few seconds later, and they all drew closer to one another, protecting each
other's backs.
"Only bad thing about
showing up in the museum we originally left?" Cordelia said. "Not
so many weapons in the curio shop."
"I think I could do
some damage with that X-ray machine if I have to," Gunn said grimly.
"Show some monster just what bones I broke in his ass."
Angel motioned for quiet,
and they all stood there in total silence until the through the doorway
came --
"Groo?" Cordelia
said, her face melting into a smile.
Groo grinned back.
"Indeed, my princess. How goes your quest for the Drusilla
beast?"
Angel looked at the others,
then at Groo, then back at the others. Finally Fred said, "Groo --
just go with this for a second -- what do you remember about earlier
today?"
The Groosalugg, ever eager
to help, nodded and smiled. "Cordelia was helping Angel with -- was
helping Angel." The pause was slight, just enough to tell Angel that
Connor was still dead, that Cordelia had still been helping him box up
Connor's things. He had been expecting it, but it stung nonetheless.
"Then Angel realized the vampire Drusilla was near, and you all came
here to seek her. Lorne and I went to the airport, where great metal birds
go into the sky and a fine selection of perfumes can be purchased, and we
killed a Velga demon that had gone into the baggage area and sent many
people's luggage astray. We defeated this evil and reunited the travelers
with their belongings. Then we came here; Lorne remains in the car, ready
to speed us toward a quick getaway if one is necessary." Groo's
pleasant face shifted into a worried frown. "Is such a getaway
necessary?"
"No," Gunn said.
Then he started laughing. "Hell, no. We are RIGHT where we want to be!
Yes!" He grabbed Fred up in his arms and spun her around.
Cordelia was beaming, and
Angel was sure she would run to Groo. Instead, she flung her arms around
Angel, holding him close. "We made it," she whispered. "We
gave Connor his five months."
Angel hugged her back,
taking comfort from her words and her touch. Five months. He remembered
holding Connor, and for the first time the memory brought him joy instead
of anguish. The words he'd said to Angelus echoed inside him -- so much so
that he wondered if the memory had always been within him. It was worth it.
It will always be worth it.
At last, Cordelia let go of
him. Groo seemed confused, perhaps dismayed, until she ran toward him and
hugged him too. "This bracelet you gave me?" she said, holding
out her wrist. "Best. Gift. Ever. You're not going to believe the
story."
"Speaking of
jewelry," Fred said, "we should probably get those rings out of
the time machine."
Gunn stared at her.
"What, one crazy, reality-bending trip through time wasn't enough for
you? You want frequent-flyer miles with this thing?"
Angel understood her.
"We have to deactivate the time machine," he said. "We've
seen what can go wrong. If Dru was able to find out about it, then others
might find out eventually, and then anything could happen."
"Grabbing the rings
now," Gunn said, quickly ducking inside the time machine. Fred held
out her hands to accept the handfuls of gold rings as Gunn shoveled them
out.
"You have had some
great and worthy adventure," Groo said. "I look forward to
hearing your courageous exploits."
"We'll tell you all
about it," Cordelia promised. "But first, we are going to enjoy
some 21st-century luxuries, like warm showers and dry-cleaned
clothing." Her voice was dreamy as she added, "Take-out
pizza."
Angel accepted the last
handful of rings from Gunn. Fred was peering down at them. "What
should we do with these?" she said. "My first thought is to find
the local equivalent of Mount Doom and toss them in."
"We should probably
check and see if they're under a specific enchantment we could
remove," Angel said, looking down at the rings. "If we can't,
then we should destroy them. But we might be able to disenchant them."
Cordelia caught on first.
"And if we can disenchant them, then we just came into a big chunk of
gold that we are ethically obligated to steal. And sell. And make some
money off of."
"Could fix up the
Hyperion with that," Gunn said, lifting one of the rings. "I know
this guy --"
"We could buy you
another bracelet to match this one," Groo said to Cordelia.
Angel watched her face shift
from dismay to a tact as she said, "I'd rather try some of those
perfumes you found at the airport."
"They are
duty-free," Groo reported solemnly.
Cordelia gave him a proud
smile. "You're really growing as a shopper." Then she laughed and
clapped her hands. "I can't believe it! We did it! We fixed time up
like we never left!"
"Maybe," Fred
said. She was staring down at the gold in her hands, a little sadly.
"It's more likely that we did change reality. We must not have changed
anything major, or else Groo wouldn't remember the same day we do. But
somewhere, somehow -- things changed because Drusilla went into the past,
and because we followed her."
Angel considered that for a
moment. "The changes are going to be small things," he said.
"At least, to us. Maybe not to the people who felt them. But we'll
never know."
"Probably not,"
Fred said. "The differences will be -- in the details. On the margins.
A few turning points where it just took one tiny sliver to make a
difference, and we did."
"Guys, chill out,"
Cordelia said. "The world's the world we remember. Today's the day we
remember. And if the world's a teeny bit different -- well, so what? We're
not in Rome, the streets aren't on fire and, at least as far as we knew this
morning, the world's not ending. Maybe we switched something here or
something there. But we didn't have any choice. We did what we had to do,
and I think we did it pretty damn well."
Fred sighed. "When you
put it that way -- yeah. We did our best and, really, we did okay. If you
leave out the wrong-Dru mixup and the stampede in the theatre and
lemur-kabobs, I guess we were fine."
"What's wrong with
lemur-kabobs?" Gunn protested. "I was winging it!"
"It's easy to say the
changes don't matter now," Angel said. He could tell the others'
spirits were lifting, but he couldn't quite feel the same. "We don't
yet know what they are."
"We'll deal with the
changes just like we deal with everything else," Cordelia said.
"I only ask for a few constants in this universe. As long as the Nehru
jacket is still out of style, Ben & Jerry still went into the ice-cream
business and Al Gore's still president, everything's okay by me."
Everyone smiled, and Angel
let himself relax. "Let's get back to the hotel," he said.
"I think we could all stand to be home."
"Amen to that,"
Gunn said. He slid his arm around Fred's shoulders, and the two of them
followed Cordelia and Groo out. Angel could hear Cordelia's merry voice,
telling stories to Groo even as they started down the hall.
For one moment, he looked
back at the time machine, black and solid and now forever still. He thought
of Connor again, wondering for an instant -- for only one instant -- if he
was a fool not to take even this desperate chance to get his son back.
But then he thought of a
world on fire, and Wesley's crumpled body, and of what he had said to
himself so long ago. The pain that had happened all served a purpose --
just because he didn't see it now didn't mean he never would.
Angel followed the others
out through the museum, listening not to their words, but just to the
happiness in their voices, the laughter that echoed from the walls. He felt
himself begin to smile.
It was time to stop thinking
about the past. Time to face the future.
***
They were laughing and laughing, and something was terribly funny, and
Angel didn't think it was funny, but he was smiling too. It was all very
strange, but then everything was very strange, and none of it mattered, so
long as they came back inside when she needed them to.
Drusilla was pretty sure
they'd come back inside if she started screaming.
It would be easy to start
screaming -- she wanted to scream. Of course, she always wanted to scream,
because it was fun, but now it would be easiest of all. Because now was
when she was going to go back and write the story all over again. She would
change the ending, and this time it would end well.
The story had ended very
poorly this time, in Drusilla's opinion. Spike had gone away. They put
metal in his mind, and now he couldn't drink. It poisoned him from the
inside out. Then Darla had crumbled into dust. As far away as Drusilla had
been she had still felt it -- Darla dying with remorse in her heart.
"And little feet in her
hands and belly," Drusilla whispered. She knew the story. She had told
it to herself many times before, hoping it wouldn't be so sad the next
time. But this was the first time she knew she could change it. This time
it would all come out right.
Drusilla was very certain
about this -- more certain than she was about most things. She'd learned
that it was very difficult to be sure about much of anything: which person
was least likely to scream loudly, whether or not Spike truly loved her, if
the tulips in the wallpaper were really speaking to her or just whispering
among themselves. Thoughts got all tangled up sometimes -- tangled up like
thread, if you weren't very careful with your stitches, and that kind old
voice always told her to be careful with her stitches.
Now all the sewing was
coming out straight. An even hem. When she'd found the book, she'd been
able to understand it -- she'd understood so well! It was as if she'd read
it all before, as though her clever plan was there in the pages too. Dru
knew it backwards and forwards. Find the time machine. Trick Angel and his
friends into coming after her, so they could kill the one she used to be.
Then let them go home, all alone, wagging their tales behind them. That
would leave her with Spike and Grandmummy, and they could make those nasty
gypsies bring Daddy back the way he was supposed to be. Drusilla could see
it all in her mind, out-of-focus, the sound all tinny, like a drive-in
movie from the very back row. But she could see and hear it all the same.
It seemed like a story she
had heard before, somehow. That made Drusilla happy, made her sure it would
all come out just the way it did in her dreams.
All she had to do now was
make sure the time machine would work -- it had to be exactly the way it
was in the book. The story had to begin right for the ending to be right.
If she found the time machine just as it should be, why then she would
scream and scream, and the others would run back in, and wouldn't they be
surprised when she rolled inside and went away?
Laughing to herself, Drusilla
skipped to the time machine. It was big and black, just like the book said.
Hieroglyphics danced across its surface. "And the Chinese know,"
she whispered. "They're walking like an Egyptian."
She pushed open the door,
and there were all the lovely switches, and --
Drusilla's face fell. She
stamped her foot. "Where are the rings?" she whimpered.
"Can't go anyplace without the rings!"
But the rings weren't there.
The nasty book had lied. All the visions had just been dreams, stories,
like the ones on television. Dru had thought she could write it all over
again, but she couldn't. She couldn't at all. The tulips probably weren't
talking to her either.
She felt the tears running
down her face as she slumped to the floor. The tears were cold. She
remembered that they used to be hot, and she didn't know why that made her
cry harder than ever. "It's ended all wrong," she sobbed into her
hands. "All wrong, all wrong. I haven't any dollies at all."
Dollies?
Drusilla lifted her head,
considering. It seemed as though, on her way in, she had seen some pretty
dollies --
She tiptoed down the hallway
until she found them. A very silly man had gotten himself killed, too long
ago for her to enjoy the leftovers, but he had a nice bear tucked under his
arm. Such a fluffy little bear. Just the sort of bear she would choose for
herself.
Drusilla lifted the bear up
and hugged it close. Then she chose a baby doll, and another, and then the
prettiest doll of all, one with long black curls, like her own. "You
can be my dollies," she said. "And YOU can be Miss Edith. Won't
that be fun?"
They all thought it would be
great fun indeed.
Dru laughed and laughed,
spinning around the room with her new dollies in her arms. They could dance
and sing, and then they could play hide-and-go-seek, and tell each other
stories. She would always be able to find new stories to tell.
***
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